In March, 2022, I fulfilled a long-held dream of undergoing a 10-day silent meditation retreat. It was life-changing, and it inspired me to type up and share my notes, which inspired me to finally launch a journal. If interested, you can find The Light of Polaris at the nascent www.spiritcomplex.com/.
With everlasting love/light,
Gary L. Bean, temporarily
(To anyone looking for the most recent Blogworthy Report, a new one has been published below at the same time as this story.)
A Personal Sharing from Austin:
To my memory, I’ve never used the opportunity of the Blogworthy to offer a personal sharing into my life. I experienced something pretty extreme recently that seems like as good a reason as any to break that trend. It’s something that I think some readers might care about, and more may at least find it at least interesting.
I’ll start with the preface: I’m okay, and should make a full recovery from this event (physically and mentally).
The short story is that I got shot. There was a shootout in front of my partner Kat’s house and I was a hit in the crossfire. It was in the leg, left calf, no bone or major arteries were hit.
The longer story has a bit more drama and speaks to the psychological experience of it – what I’ve been defining as trauma. I’ll offer a semi-detailed account with some personal reflections at the end. Warning, it’s a detailed account of a scary violent incident.
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It was a beautiful afternoon. Kat was scheduled to move into her new home the next day and we spent all day getting her stuff organized for the move. We were in high spirits and very excited about the move. At around 5:30pm, I went outside to get my car from the street in front of the house to pull it around to the alley out back so we could load some stuff into it.
Kat’s yard is long and narrow, and her house is set back far from the road.
When I made it to the gate, about to open it to step out onto the sidewalk, I heard what I now know were gunshots coming from the nearby street corner. I then saw an SUV screeching out of control around the corner, turning in my direction. It jumped the curb, hitting the neighbor’s car and crashing fully onto the sidewalk. It was coming straight towards me very fast, so I turned and ran about halfway back down Kat’s yard as fast as I could.
The SUV continued crashing through all of the fencing and tree guards before it stopped directly in front of Kat’s house, taking out her fence and gate right where I was standing moments before.
(While Kat’s house is set back from the road, her neighbors’ houses are right up on the sidewalk. Her next-door neighbors have three young children who are frequently on the sidewalk in front of their house, directly in the path of the SUV. Thankfully they were not home.)
Kat heard the noise, rushed to her front door (in her bedroom – a typical shotgun-style house layout) and opened it. She saw everything that unfolded from here.
I turned and began moving towards the car to see if they were okay. I have a vague flash of memory of another car pulling up alongside it, and then another round of gunshots started directly in front of her yard. I began running towards Kat’s house again, and then fell down.
It felt like I had maybe just tripped, but in the moment I knew it was likely that I got shot. I could feel something wrong with my left leg. I looked at it and saw a bump on the inside of my left calf, but I didn’t see an entry wound (it was in the outer-rear, out of my sight), so in the moment I wondered if I got hit by something else.
I was on my hands and knees for a few moments (Kat says I looked frozen) before I glanced back and saw a man get out of the crashed car, jump Kat’s fence, and begin running towards me.
I did not know what was happening or why he was running towards me. There was a quick logic going on in my mind that it didn’t quite make sense that I was a target in any of this, but the look on his face and the way he was running made me think that he was coming for me, possibly to try to kill me. Before that moment, I knew my life was in danger; at that moment, the danger became much more immediate and frightening. Gunshots continued. (The police apparently recovered 30 shell casings afterwards.)
The next minute or two are the blurriest in both mine and Kat’s memories. Without knowing if I even could, I got up and ran literally for my life without looking back again. I remember distinctly thinking, “Thank God I’m able to run right now.” I wasn’t sure how badly my leg was hurt at that point. Kat later mentioned how shockingly fast I ran.
As I ran, I was shouting for Kat to close and lock the door, thinking that the man was chasing me and might come inside the house. I ran to the side door near the back of the house and made it inside and locked it without looking back to see what the man was doing.
Kat was at the front of the house in the bedroom with the dogs, and I went in there continuing to tell her to lock the door. She said she did, and then I told her, “Call 911, I think I’ve been shot.”
In my memory, I can recall even in this moment recognizing how utterly surreal this was, with such a violent, sudden departure from the reality of our happy afternoon together not a minute earlier.
It’s also worth pointing out the events from Kat’s perspective at this point. She heard a horrible crash, ran to the front door, saw me running as gunshots were being fired, and saw me fall to the ground. Then a man jumped her fence and began running towards me. It seemed as though I had either been shot dead, or was going to be killed by this man (who would then possibly proceed kill her and the dogs). I got up and ran, telling her to lock the door, and came in the side door, and into the bedroom telling her I think I’d been shot.
At this point I was aware that there was some blood on my leg but I still wasn’t sure exactly what happened. She got her phone out and I began to sit down on the ground, but became cognizant that I did not want to bleed on the carpet, so I told her I was going to the kitchen, and went in there and sat down on the ground.
My memory gets clearer at this point. I still did not feel anything specifically wrong with my leg, but I saw now that my shoe was filled with blood (my white sock was completely soaked red) and there was a significant amount of blood pooled on the floor. I didn’t know exactly where on my leg it was coming from, but Kat grabbed some paper towels and put pressure on the general area.
Kat was on the phone with a 911 operator, and eventually I took the phone to answer some of their questions. The woman just said to keep pressure on the wound with a clean cloth, and then continued asking me questions about what happened. I did my best to answer. She sounded very uncaring and unalarmed, but I don’t blame her for that. She never indicated that there was someone on the way to help, so I eventually said, “Is someone on their way? I’m bleeding pretty badly.” She said that someone was on the way.
Around this time, Kat looked outside and saw that the man who we thought was chasing me was in the alley behind her house. The operator then told me to tell Kat to go look for the responders outside.
Kat went to the front door and apparently saw a lot of firefighters kind of mulling around the crash, so she opened the door and shouted to them for help. She led them around the side of her house to the kitchen door, where apparently the man who had been running in her yard popped up from the alley and said, “I’m here, I’m okay.” I’m not sure what happened with him directly after that.
(To the best we can gather, he was the target of the shooting. One of the EMTs told me that the other car circled the block looking for him. We believe he thought it would be better to surrender to the police than risk running and getting killed. He was arrested for felony possession of a handgun, which he had tried to ditch in the neighbor’s yard, where young children play.)
The kitchen door was locked, so I reached up to unlock and open it, saw a flood of firefighters and police, and part of me relaxed knowing that the craziest part was over.
The firefighters came inside and immediately began tending to my wound. Police also came inside, and I was surrounded by men asking me rapid-fire questions about me and the situation. At a certain point, after my wound was fully bandaged and they let me sit up, there was a calmer moment and Kat (who had been watching from the doorway into the kitchen) asked if she could come sit by me and hold my hand. Through the shock I felt some relief knowing the situation would play out somewhat as expected at that point, so I told Kat a few times that we’re okay, and that I’m okay.
During these moments, the firefighters were talking calmly and with humor about the situation. Their station is barely a block away on the street the cars were on, so they apparently even saw the cars racing down the street shooting at each other. A young firefighter told me that as he saw the shootout from in front of their station, he thought they were shooting at him so he ducked. I sarcastically thought, yeah, well they got me.
The EMTs showed up soon after and began taking a closer look at my wound, asking me questions, and getting some more vital readings. They had a stretcher in the alley, so the firefighters helped me to my feet and helped me hop out of Kat’s door, down the stairs, and onto the stretcher. I remember thinking about how comfortable the stretcher was. I then saw the man who ran into her yard sitting behind Kat’s house in handcuffs, surrounded by police.
After a bit longer, I was loaded into the ambulance and taken to the ER.
To spare the details of the hospital, I was ultimately very lucky (given the circumstances). I was in and out of the ER in four hours, with the entry wound cleaned and the bullet still in my leg. (That is apparently standard care for bullets. If they are not actively doing damage, the conventional medical wisdom is that any surgery to remove them is more harmful than leaving them in. The body can heal completely around a bullet. I was shocked at this, as are most people I share this with, but it is apparently true.) Five hours after I got shot in her front yard, I sat on Kat’s couch eating a cookie, unsure if I was still in reality or not.
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The above details were mostly written in the couple of days following the incident. As I write this now, it’s been more than three weeks since the incident. I am recovering well, though the frequent medical care appointments are getting tiring. I had to walk with a cane for a couple of weeks, but can now mostly move around mostly normally (though with impairment). I’ve been making frequent trips to my PCP. I’ve had a couple visits with a surgeon, to treat a massive hematoma where the bullet settled, and to see if the bullet might be able to come out (it’s still inconclusive). I officially began physical therapy this past week and will be going twice a week for a little while, to hopefully regain (mostly) full function of my leg. I have been looking for a therapist to help process the after-effects of the event, but I am not experiencing any severe symptoms of PTSD. I do have some lingering effects to my mood, attitude, and cognitive abilities, but nothing keeping me from returning to a normal, peaceful life. Thankfully, Kat successfully moved the following day, so we have not had to be at the site of the shooting at all.
I have also had ongoing contact with the police, but they are not very forthcoming with information about the investigation. The person/people who shot me have not been arrested yet. I have oddly thought very little about them. I do not feel any sense of anger or desire for retribution towards them, but it does concern me that these people armed with guns and with no care for human life walk society freely. For that reason, I’m hoping the police can find them and I will do what I can to help.
Soon after it all happened, as I was pondering the spiritual implications of the catalyst, I got a clear message from my inner guidance that healing was fully possible, and that the primary effect of this catalyst would be in an opening of the heart. I did not quite see how that would happen at the time, but since then I have felt it strongly settling into my heart and doing work there.
I am feeling an almost overwhelming sense of gratitude – for the fact that it wasn’t worse than it was (it could have been so much worse), for Kat, for all that I have in my life, for the first responders, for the ER doctors, for my PCP, for the hospital staff, for everyone who has offered support, for L/L Research, for the Law of One, for Gary and Trish (who have not only been incredibly supportive of my healing process, but helped Kat move the following day, which was a healing gift that can’t really be described), for you who is reading this. Really, thinking about almost any angle of my life surrounding this event, I just feel strong gratitude.
I can also feel that gratitude carrying a heavy weight. When I think about how grateful I am for these things, I also think about the people who don’t have the kind of support I have had, or who have gone through worse experiences and haven’t been able to find peace and healing. Whether it’s trauma or anything else, this experience has highlighted to me how important support is, and what kind of healing and transformation is possible when support is available. I’ve been amazed at the kind of support society has to offer someone like me (not to mention the direct support from friends and family). I want everyone to feel as supported as I have in anything they have to go through. I am so lucky. It’s feeling like a call to service, but I’m not quite sure what form that might take right now. I would like to find a way to pay that support forward, and work towards a society where others have the same opportunities I do. I’m going to continue letting it do its work on my heart as I heal and see what comes as I walk that path.
If you are still reading, thank you for witnessing and for caring. Sincerely from the bottom of my heart, I love you all.
4/22 – 5/26
Search Engine: One of the principal goals of L/L’s new library website is to create more “surface area” for a virtually endless library of information. That is, to make it more accessible, useable, researchable, and helpful. Toward that end, we are VERY HAPPY to report that on May 25, L/L’s new search engine went live! For the first time in the history of the universe, readers, including us, may search the entire breadth of the Confederation channeling—the Law of One and almost five decades of conscious channeling—as a single, synthesized body of material.
Prague: We are excited to announce that we are resuming holding gatherings outside the US! In collaboration with our friends of the Czech translation team, we opened the Prague Law of One Gathering from Aug 12–14. More information here!
Coming Home Gathering: Opened in the previous BW cycle, registration still open.
Channeling Circles: Our small group continues meeting regularly to receive messages from the Confederation. Semi-monthly we meet in Jim’s living room for our Intermediate Circles, and though we have hit a delay this past month, we plan to continue also meeting once a month for our C/C channeling circles. And thanks to our amazing transcription team, a number of transcripts have gone up these past weeks:
RC Youtube: Trish and Austin (mainly Trish) continued on with the Ra Contact Youtube project, inching ever closer to the finish line:
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Personal Sharings
Gary: Celebrated Jim’s 75th birthday in this period. He is still full of vigor and energy for service and seeking.
And then on a less celebratory note—unless the completion of the incarnation is celebrated, which seems appropriate on the metaphysical level—after a few years of advancing dementia, my father passed away peacefully in his sleep on April 27. We will hold a service in June to say goodbye as a family. In the meantime I wrote a little piece.
About My Dad’s Closing Chapters
I think we have two basic fundamental choices regarding how we relate to our suffering. Do we dig in and face it in order to learn, grow, and be better than we were, thereby transmuting the misery into expanded being? Or we do resist, run away from, and avoid our difficulties, thereby extending their duration and increasing their intensity?
Most of us vacillate between these two, I believe. My dad often chose the latter path. Whether through alcohol or a cocktail of pharmaceutical numbing agents, he spent a lot of time not facing himself. I don’t judge him for this, particularly as I see similar threads in me—my dad just didn’t have the tools or the wherewithal to really dig into those things that troubled him in the deeper layers, and to face the fears and pains buried there. Instead I want to share my admiration for what he *was* able to accomplish.
Beginning sometime in the late 2000s, sometime after the divorce when his own long dark night got underway, when he began to turn increasingly to prescription medication for some kind of solution, some sort of false release from pain, he made a conscious, intentional vow to himself to release his anger and “negativism.” For him, this meant to no longer complain, to not speak ill of others, to not waste an extra minute of his life in anger, to see the positive, and to be grateful for the blessings that life gifts all of us.
In the very difficult subsequent years—driven in large part by his deep well of guilt and self-punishment for perceived wrongdoings—he held onto that vow tightly. And from the trenches he somehow managed to fulfill his promise. Gradually he transformed. He released his anger. He became such a soft, gentle, and kindhearted man. He expressed love and gratitude so often. As suffering has a way of doing, he was humbled. Underneath the daily game of running from pain, his chief wish in life seemed to be to relate to others with love.
After the stroke and onset of vascular dementia, that process of opening his heart accelerated. As dementia stripped him of his memories, he became so innocent, so much more in his heart. He seemed to express even more love and gratitude. He was a light.
And what few memories he could hold onto he cherished. Endlessly he loved showing everyone his “memories” in the form of pictures hanging up around his walls. And in every conversation he cycled through the handful of memories he could recall. (He seemed to have a different set of for everyone he talked to. His favorite with me was remembering how he and I marched in our hometown Memorial Day parade together in our military uniforms.)
Due to his years spent self-medicating and then the dementia, it feels like we’ve been losing him for a long time such that the actual passing feels like a formality, an official confirmation and graceful close to the long unfolding separation, like seeing the boat you are watching grow smaller from the shore finally vanish over the horizon. So there is great peace in my heart with his transition.
But the tears come thinking that that great and proud man who I called “dad,” who as a little kid was a giant to me, is no longer here with us, at least while we live and breathe on this side of the veil of forgetting.
For all your human imperfections, and the inadvertent pain you brought to others, you did your best, Dad. Of this I have no doubt. I admire what you were able to accomplish in this life. I see your perseverance when you were at bottom and wanted to end it all. I thank you for those gifts which are too many for the counting, among which includes the gift of life, the gift of your years and long hours of hard work to provide for us, the gift of giving me the protected space in a difficult world to grow into who I am, and even, in the end, the gift of your vulnerability as you became a portal into innocence for us.
And I thank my brother Adam for the mountains he moved to offer that fatherly service in reverse to our own father, and my sister-in-law Lori who so lovingly carried that weight alongside of Adam, and to my Aunt Sue for the selfless love of a sister that sheltered and sustained my dad’s heart through challenging times, and my mom who underwent her own hard times with my dad but put aside her suffering to stand by him in mutual service to their four kids.
Dad. I love you. We will meet again.
3/31 – 4/21
Coming Home to a New Earth Gathering: We have officially opened registration for L/L Research’s first public in-person event in three years! It will take place Sep 8–11 outside of Asheville, NC. As of this posting, seats are available.
Discussions with Jonathan Tong: The unstoppable Mr. Tong hosted Gary and Austin again for a Q&A with the Seattle Law of One Study Group. Thank you for holding this service, Jonathan! Check out the discussion here: Q&A with Gary and Austin, April 9, 2022
Peace meditation: In addition to the daily Gaia Meditation facilitated by Jim, we continued to hold the weekly world peace meditation. Facebook post here.
Team Expansion: In this period, L/L’s professional team increased by two! We onboarded a new member to work a regular part-time role as an Operations Specialist, and another to work on an as-needed basis as an Event Manager.
The former will blend their energies into the daily operation and join us in the hat business—learning how to wear many of them, sometimes multiple at once, sometimes ill-fitting, sometimes perfectly fitting, sometimes I was born to wear this hat, all of them designed to serve others through the service of the mission. This person’s presence is growing and will increasingly continue to grow our circle of collaborative teamwork in taking another small step toward fulfilling L/L Research’s potential.
The latter will help L/L Research to help meet a vital need among the readership to host in-person and online events. We know how to host events. We are uniquely situated to host events. We are good at the logistics & energetics of hosting events/holding space. But our existing operation is at max. Help is needed, not just to fulfill our designs but to bring leadership and voice to the table of event design and production.
Adding these two entities (to be announced upon conclusion of their probation period) has complexified our processes as we upgrade our coordination, communication, workflow management, etc. Our busy levels have been extra busy. They join with Daniel, L/L Research’s webmaster, who has become a regular voice and partner, expanding our team and empowering the mission with each new addition, both practically and metaphysically. We are so lucky to be working with all of them!
Note: This Blogworthy includes the bullet points of the main new hire who’s been awesome to work with and has added such great energy and ability to the team. One of her jobs in this period has been to reboot the prison ministry with Austin’s guidance. Thanks to her for her contributions!
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Personal Sharings
Gary: I would have liked to use this space to talk about my recent experience spent in 10 days of Noble Silence at a vipassana meditation retreat, and the profound, chakra-opening experiences I had there while deep in meditation, but the stark contrast between silence and busyness has never been more apparent to me. I remain slogged down in the latter, so there is no extra time/energy at the moment.
I have long wanted to reboot my ancient blog in order to write about a wingèd spirit’s desire for the skies through the slats of the (mental) prison bars, accompanied by those moments when the soul takes flight after eras of moonlight groping and stumbling, and I’ve written up a long-form account of my retreat, but that too has been put on the backburner. Hopefully it, like the heart, will see the light of day.
In the meantime, we send prayers and healing energy to the Dutch translator, Erik, and his family in light of some of the most challenging catalyst a third-density entity can face: the hard medical diagnosis.
2/25-3/30
And here is the ceremonial note about the irregularity of this Blogworthy Report. For this round, Gary departed on a personal journey for a 10 days of silence at an intensive vipassana meditation retreat in mid-March but sent me his authored portion of this before leaving. A report should have been posted soon after, but as tends to happen, the plate was a bit overloaded with the reduced human power, along with a confluence of catalyst in my (Austin’s) personal life that further stretched the mental capacities. So there’s the reason this time. 🙂
Channeling Circles: Our channeling circles continue going strong as we gathered several times since the last Blogworthy:
Peace meditation: We continued the peace meditation that we began at the end of February, scheduling it for every Saturday at 11:00am Eastern time lasting until 11:11am. You can find more information in the Facebook post.
Interviews: We have a few interviews to share, including two from Jonathan Tong, who leads an online Law of One study group, and Gabriel Lugo, who is leadingthe effort to produce a Spanish Ra Contact.
Spring Light/Lines: Time came for the seasonal Light/Lines newsletter. Jim selected the channeling session and drafted his portions of the Notes to the Readers, then for the first time Trish drafted our own portion of the Notes to Our Readers. It was then formatted and published to the website, sent out to the email list, and printed/stuffed/sent to the snail mail list. Check it out on the Light/Lines Newsletter page.
A Book of Days Narration: Jim recorded another narration from A Book of Days to share via Youtube, this one titled “The Holy Ground of Consciousness” – an inspiring message from Carla’s channeling of the Holy Spirit. Check it out here.
Coming Home to a New Earth Gathering: We are very happy to report that, after a long slumber for public events, we are getting back into gear and beginning event planning! Oh does it feel good! Not only is facilitating the linking of hearts an important part of our mission and a great honor, on a more personal level we’ve just missed everyone so much. Youdon’tevenknow.
For our event, in collaboration with our friends and co-facilitators of TOTOH, we will be holding the Coming Home to a New Earth Gathering from Sep 8–11 outside of Asheville, North Carolina, our first in-person gathering since before the pandemic.
Our focus for this year’s gathering is on actively cooperating with and supporting the increasing 4D+ energies in a more dedicated fashion, both individually and collectively. How can we embody unconditional love? How can we serve the healing of our planet and its peoples? How can we discover and share our particular gifts? What would it mean to deepen our commitment to fulfilling our individually unique paths? Etc.
Registration will be opened sometime around mid-April and announced via the Gatherings Newsletter. Stay tuned!
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1/19 – 2/24
As the workload continues, it is difficult to keep up with this service. But we feel it’s important—we want to give others a window into the workings of L/L Research. However, due to the large workload + fatigue, we’re going to reduce the prose in this one. [Update after finishing this: Did. Not. Succeed.]
Peace Meditation: In response to the invasion of Ukraine, we dedicated time this past Saturday with Jim to meditate and pray for peace. Through our newsletters and social media we shared Jim’s prayer and invited readers in the Law of One community to join us. We were linked together in spirit. It was beautiful, though the cause bringing us together continues to break the heart. As we communicated in a follow-up post, we intend on facilitating collective peace meditations for the Law of One readership beginning this year.
Ra Contact Youtube: Two more sessions in the long-term project to archive the entire Ra contact audio with text video on Youtube were published:
Podcast: We managed to meet and record two episodes of the Law of One Podcast:
Channeling Circles: Our regular channeling circles continued meeting twice per months in Jim’s living room, and we began an additional monthly circle dubbed the C/C channeling circle:
Discussions with Jonathan Tong: JT continued with his series of discussions and Q&As with Jim and Gary/Austin:
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Personal Sharings & Announcements
Gary:
Beatriz: Our dear friend and board member, Beatriz, fell desperately ill during this period due to a lung infection. She was brought to death’s door, actually. But she was not in fear. Instead she was in grace. Divine grace. Agonizing pain too, but her spirit became alight with an infusion of vision. To my eyes, Beatriz purified the human encasing even further to lose the unimportant, to distill the truth, to become transparent. She shared some of her experience with us, including the following which was beyond beautiful…
I walked a thin line and all the beautiful people beckoned to me.
And I was filled with love and gratitude. God was by my side and he showed me what a beautiful life I lived….not because of what I did, but the people who touched my soul, who awakened God in me….so I surrendered. God breathed new life into me and slowly I am eating and walking and beginning a new.
It is only about love. In this moment I felt nothing I did in this life matters……only love. Did I convey my love to those with whom I have shared this journey? Only this matters….and that I conveyed this love with grace…..in praise and honor of our Father, our Creator
We were all touched by Beatriz’s light. And we are so grateful that she’s still here with us and this world. She is a healer of hearts and bodies.
AVL 106: I attended the Asheville group’s weekly Law of One study session to celebrate with them their third cycle through the material in 6 years as they reached session 106. It’s a remarkable feet to have held this level of dedication, meeting 51–52 weeks a year to study one session at a time, and then starting over at the completion of a cycle. Many hats off to the whole group, and deep bows to the primary two anchors, Aaron Maret and his wife BJ Harden Jones, for their anchoring perseverance, loving space-holding, and the unremitting nurturance they offer to the group. And to Benji and Mae for the years they hosted the group in their home.
It was a heartfelt moment for them. They will be taking a break from Law of One study for the moment to focus on Ken Keyes’s Handbook to Higher Consciousness.
DGDEV French & German
Our partner, Jochen, produces quarterly activity reports in his efforts to share the Confederation philosophy in German and French (with other languages on the way). He and Misha are powerhouses. Thank you, Jochen, Misha, Ivy, and team! Here is his 4th quarter report.
12/11 – 1/18
A note about the Blogworthy: Meysam, the honorable Persian translator of The Ra Contact, wrote recently in an email: “I like making connections with other translators. There is a good chance that we are of the same soul family. And the friendships built on shared spiritual beliefs are usually the stronger ones. I follow your updates [in the Blogworthy Report] on the translation efforts. I enjoy reading about their life and work stories. Like how Jochen’s left his monk-like life to seek a service among other people. And how consistent Horia’s efforts are. The Korean translation was also an interesting case. Like me, B is translating Ra’s messages while he is raising his daughter. It is such a blessing. Nothing is sweeter than these little angels. These are inspirational stories. They give me a sense of belonging to a big wave of good deeds.”
That landed as quite inspirational to us. It is a joy to work with each translator. Most translators give window into the emotional, personal, and spiritual dimension of their work, and nearly across the board they describe variations on fulfillment, honor, joy, communion, being of service, and upliftment when in contact with this message. Sometimes tears. The light that the normal reader feels grow inside when reading the material takes on a different shape, and perhaps depth, to the translator who must scrutinize the meaning of each word and syntactical combination thereof. An intimacy develops.
And knowing that a translator might feel joy and greater sense of belonging by hearing of the work of their counterparts in other locations and languages inspires us to share more of the snippets of the personal dimensions we receive. The function of the blogworthy is to communicate the work of L/L Research, but all that work is done by humans who each are on a spiritual journey and who are often sharing themselves in the process. We would love to bring this extended family that wraps around the world into more color. And as communicated via email, thank you, dear Meysam. 🙂
Intermediate channelings: Jim, Gary, Trish, Austin, and Kathy continued meeting regularly to receive thoughts and inspiration from the Confederation in our Intermediate Channeling Circles. Thanks to volunteer transcription from Wen and Suzanna, two transcripts were published in this period:
Ra Contact YouTube: Thanks to the indefatigable Trisha Bean, the journey to Session 106 nears closers to the finish line. Published three more sessions perfectly syncing the text with the original recorded audio of that conversation between a Kentuckian and tens of millions, but really just one, ex-Venusian:
Podcast: We met to record the 101st episode of the Law of One podcast, in which we discuss the spiritual concept of purity. Jim was unfortunately unable to join for this one. You can check it out on our podcast page.
Discussions with Jonathan Tong: Dedicated seeker and host of the Seattle Law of One Meditation and Discussion Group has invited Jim to join their weekly Zoom call a couple times to do a discussion and Q&A, and then recently also invited Gary and Austin to join. Both were recorded and can be seen here:
Light/Lines: We published the 160th edition of the Light/Lines Newsletter, with a session from Q’uo talking about the dance of the seeker on the journey to the Creator. Check it out on our Light/Lines page.
A Book of Days narration: Jim came across another inspiring session from A Book of Days that fits the turning of the year, so we recorded his narration, put it on a video, and published it to our Youtube for anyone looking for a dose of inspiration: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKHZ7tmAZHg
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Intermediate Channeling Circles:
During this period, met on Dec 22 and Jan 5 for two channeling circles at Jim’s. This week’s was postponed till next week due to snow. And… gained Jim’s blessing to spread our wings a bit and add an additional channeling circle each month on our own, alternating between our respective homes. As part of the new endeavor, we will each undertake to learn and perform the Banishing Ritual in order to purify and protect our home working spaces, as Jim has done for decades in his (and Carla’s) own home. In the process, received a comprehensive set of written instructions from Jim that we’ve formatted and will be soon publishing to the library site as a resource on the Protection Rituals page. Next week we’ll meet over at Jim’s to perform it with his guidance.
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Announcements & Personal Sharings:
Gary: Over the past couple/few reports I’ve meant to make a personal sharing of a southwest experience, but look at the above! Christ almighty. Though written mostly by Austin and me (with contribution from Trish), it just takes a lot out of one to put all that together. So in short:
Trish and I had an opportunity to spend some time with Morris and his wife Linda, and then Beatriz. I wish I had the bandwidth and ability to give you a window into Beatriz’s story in particular. It’s quite incredible, including coming close to death—she should have died, by the account—due to contracting the worst type of malarial infection in west Africa in the 70s. Then experiencing a miraculous healing that set her on a path to becoming a healer herself, now using a technique called broadcasting serving people around the world who reach out to her. The daughter of Mexican immigrants, she also grew up with seven family members in a small space, most or all of them working on Texas farms for poverty wages. She worked very hard in school, broke through some barriers to be accepted into university, was elected president of the Mexican-Americant student body despite not running for or seeking the position, and thanks in part to Beatriz’s leadership in protests, they they were able to make the Texas public university system end their blatantly discriminatory admission practices.
Morris’s story, also chocked full of interest, is overlapped with L/L’s (he having met Carla and Don 15 or so years before Jim did) and will be explored in the text of the 3hr interview I conducted with him, along with more to interviewing to come.
Beatriz and Morris both had in common the living of a devoted life of surrender. Each wakes in the morning consciously orienting toward how they may be of service, and in each and every curveball and catalyst that life has thrown them, they see the will of God at work, as it might be described, including Morris’s many work assignments around the world that necessitated that he spend years living in China, the Middle East, Europe, and elsewhere. In each case, they sought as best as possible to cooperate with the invisible guiding hands of spirit. This emerged as a theme for my own contemplation in the various spiritually oriented discussions with both entities. I returned home waking in the morning asking how I may best be of service.
While out and about, we also got to meet with some members of the Dallas LOO study group—Doug, Brian, Tiffani, and Troy—including one of the FB LOO study group admins, at the house of one of my oldest friends in the Law of One world, Tiffani. We didn’t hold a study session but we did hold a round robin, going around the circle and sharing our seeking.
Tiffani and I both met each other on the same weekend we met and befriended Carla and Jim almost 20 years ago in April, 2002. She’s remained a friend to Carla and Jim and L/L ever since. She has a regular practice of diving into the archive to read whatever channeling happened on the present day’s calendar date.
Troy introduced Doug some years back to the Law of One, both are professional counselors and mystic Christians. Doug, like me, has deep concern for and confusion about certain trends in society generally and the new age community specifically; Troy is a rather serene entity with a heart seeming untroubled by Big Catalyst; and Brian is a very gentle soul with a vibe that rings of innocent purity. He has a travel destination to seek, and I hope he makes it!
Tiffani, a guest on our podcast in 2020, is someone we have a deep personal love for, as does Trish with whom she has become buddies, but it’s grown also into admiration. Tiffani rose and resurrected from the dark dark trenches of life and substance abuse into a self-forgiven person who is single-pointedly dedicated to growth and service, including through volunteer work to help other women struggling with substance abuse. She also has one of the most forgiving hearts I’ve ever encountered, so forgiving that I don’t even know that she experiences something to forgive; evidenced not by a pleasant demeanor, though she has that, but by treatment from a longterm person in her life that is among the most cruel that I’ve personally encountered. Yet, her heart remains open.
And to round it out, we spent a few days in Austin, TX, with someone who has become a dear friend, Luis, while meeting his lovely amazing wife, Carrie. Luis, like Aaron Maret of Asheville, put out a call in his hometown for a LOO study group a couple years back. And the seed grew! He now facilitates two different groups, one of which Trish and I had the privilege of joining. That group, the more intensive studiers, uses a unique format of arriving to the circle with questions from having read the targeted few sessions of the Law of One. We had such a good time meeting everyone. Luis is a budding healer himself, also offered Trish and me a reading’ish sort of experience that produced tears for both of us. A deeply kind heart, he was headed to the Damanhur community in the Italian Alps after we parted ways. I still have to follow up on his pictures and report.
And then fast forward a couple months later: for Christmas, Trish and I, with my mom’s help, flew out to Arizona for the holiday to spend it with my mom and her husband, my sister and her partner and their two kids, one five, one just about one year old. Colton, the five-year old, has ADHD (they say) pretty fiercely. His attention span doesn’t stay in one place for more than a couple of seconds. But the kid is always bright and smiling with an inexhaustible well of energy. Along with my brother’s two kids, about the same age, we love our nieces and nephews. They pull on the paternal heart strings, making us wistful for another life where we would have kids together.
At any rate, this trip is relevant to L/L Research because while there, Trish and I made a drive to visit with someone with whom I’ve been friends and collaborators for a few years (she contributed a couple of the art pieces in ACG) but have never met in person, Diana Fisher! Diana is one of the members of Bring4th’s community stewardship circle, not to mention a seriously gifted artist and creator of children’s books. We enjoyed a delicious vegan lunch and even better conversation, and got to meet with Nathan, a member of their local LOO study group and admin of the FB LOO study group who we haven’t seen since his Homecoming Gathering visit ten years ago. Except for a streak of grey, he looked much the same, and astute as ever in his LOO study. Thanks to Diana, we were all treated to our first mind-blowing, almost transformational experience of VR.
And to close this monster out…. a few resources from the Law of One readership:
Two articles from Doug (mentioned above), one of which diagrams for the first time that I’ve ever seen it, the movement of the green-ray energy in healing, and a look at the archetype of catalyst.
Wen’s video of what gardening has taught her
This video that the author calls: A Wanderer’s Purpose
Adonai! (Can you exclamation mark that?)
11/20 – 12/10
Intermediate channelings: Jim, Gary, Trish, Austin, and Kathy continued meeting regularly to receive thoughts and inspiration from the Confederation in our Intermediate Channeling Circles. Thanks to volunteer transcription from Wen and Suzanna, two transcripts were published in this period:
100,000: After receiving the semi-annual sales report of the original Law of One books from the publisher, our tally indicates that a(n ultimately arbitrary) threshold has been crossed: Over 100,000 copies of Book 1 have been sold over its lifetime, beginning with its first printing in the early 80s. That’s a fuzzy number because we do have a small gap in our records, and that number does not include the number of times the material has been read at Lawofone.info or LLResearch.org, or the number of times PDFs have been downloaded. It also doesn’t take into account any stats from the Ra Contact, or the most helpful understanding of all and our greatest hope: whether the material was of help to the seeker in catalyzing their self-healing recognition of self.
Though such a threshold does bring us joy, L/L Research doesn’t place a strong emphasis on such numbers. As you know, we don’t advertise or proselytize. We do our best to offer our services for those who are drawn to it. As Ra said, “To serve one is to serve all.” But we humans also celebrate and measure threshold-crossings, whether birthdays or anniversaries or “I was this tall at age 7 and this tall at age 12.” And for the lonely wanderer missing their community, a number such as this might be a boon to the soul in the knowledge that one is not alone, that there are others, many others.
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Intermediate Channeling Circles: Met on our personal time for a channeling circle on Dec 1 that focused on a group question about self-judgment. (Got another session tonight.)
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Announcements & Personal Sharings:
Gary: I had wanted to catch up on an Oct/Nov roadtrip that Trish and I took to Louisiana and Texas, which included meetings with a couple LOO study groups, but two days ago, Friday night, a weather disaster occurred nearby that made global news. At 220 miles long from start to finish, it was the longest tornado in US history, and 200 miles of it laid waste to parts of Kentucky, our home state. Drone footage of Mayfield, KY reveals a town that was leveled—it looks like a hurricane ran through it. It’s estimated that 70–100 people lost their lives, with many more suffering from injury or severe damage to or destruction of their home. It’s devastating.
If interested, here is a list of ways from Louisville Public Media you can help offer disaster relief to those affects by the storms.
10/30 – 11/19
Intermediate channelings: Our small channeling circle continues meeting on a semi-monthly basis to join hearts and tune to Confederation contact. Thanks to volunteer transcriber Wen, one new transcript has been published, and a couple more are in the pipeline.
RCYT: Published two more Ra Contact Audio/Text videos to Youtube:
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Announcements & Personal Sharings:
Our partner, Jochen, produces quarterly activity reports in his efforts to share the Confederation philosophy in German and French (with other languages on the way). He and Misha are powerhouses. Thank you, Jochen, Misha, Ivy, and team! Here is the 3rd quarter report.
DGDEV German & French:
Jochen: “I thank you deeply for our more than seven years of working, of traveling in this transcendental adventure together, and for the wonderful support that I have received from you, especially again this year. What we are observing is amazing, and I know that you find that, too. The truth is, and at the root is, that what L/L Research offers is truly “amazing” and attractive to ever more seeking souls!”
Roadtrip: Gary: In this period, Trish and I made a wonderful roadtrip to the American southwest where we were able to meet with members of the Dallas LOO study group and join a formal session of the Austin LOO study group, along with conduct a 3hr interview with Morris about L/L history and meet with Beatriz and Tiffani. But this is already long, and time is short, so I’ll make a fuller report at the next round!
10/1 – 10/29
New intermediate channelings: Our bi-monthly intermediate channeling circles continue, meeting in Jim’s living room to practice channeling and receive contact from the Confederation to share with the world. Thanks to Suzanna and Wen for their transcription services, three new circles are available to readers:
Instagram: We are excited to announce L/L Research’s newest endeavor in the social media field: our own official Instagram!
As part of our mission to share the Confederation’s message, our Instagram will feature morsels of a spiritual nature from our extensive channeling transcript library alongside professional photography or other artistic imagery drawn from open sources. New posts will be published twice a week.
Check out and follow our Instagram account here.
(Lacking our own Instagram page, we had linked to another one that had been sharing quotes from our material in a dedicated fashion. Many thanks to Lanny for his years of effort in sharing the Confederation philosophy through his own Law of One Instagram page.)
RCYT: Published four more Ra Contact Audio/Text videos to Youtube, continuing the steady march to 106:
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