This blog is my personal reflections on living the Law of One and trying to be of service to others in all I do.
Published by SmilingAudibly on May 3, 2019 7:43pm. Category: General
Work has been exceptionally slow lately, so I've been reading a book during the day called The Journey of Souls by a Dr. Michael Newton. I'm about halfway through. It's freaking fascinating. It just rings so true to me, and nothing I've read so far contradicts what Ra had to say about spiritual evoltuion. It's about the journey of souls between lives. It makes me long even more for a spiritual community, but it is oddly comforting in the fact that I almost certainly (according to him) have a "soul cluster" of people I am close with spiritually and incarnate with together. I can't help but wonder if I'm living near or with any of them now - is Brandon one? Is my sister Emily? Or maybe I'm alone this time around. Who knows! But it would not surprise me at all if Brandon and I have known each other in other lives. I feel like we just get each other.
One of the most fascinating things I just read was that it seems souls... learn to create! To become a Logos! Like ones who have lived on Earth will go to an Earth like planet and get instructions in making things like rocks, water, and even plants. I'm just blown away by how COOL it all sounds. It makes me feel this longing to "go back" to the realm of love, acceptance, and spirits, but I get that I'm essentially in school right now, taking a test if you will. It seems that I still obviously have lessons to learn while here incarnate on Earth. What they are, who can tell, but I am trying the best I can.
Published by SmilingAudibly on May 1, 2019 4:18pm. Category: General
Brandon had to be up early for the first day of rehearsals, so he sat next to me on the couch while I meditated this morning. Of course we didn't talk, but it was quietly comforting to have him right there. I might suggest us meditating together this weekend. He's into the idea of meditation in general, but hasn't pulled the trigger on doing it himself yet. He's such a sweetie. I really lucked out with him.
One of my best friends from college stayed with us this past weekend and it was so good to see him. It seems that the friendships I made in high school and college are much deeper than the ones I make now. Maybe because we had the time and the proclivity to have those soul searching, late night, heart-to-hearts, but I can't think of one friend here I would feel comfortable talking about the Law of One with. But with Andy in town I felt 100% comfortable opening my heart and talking to him maybe not about the Ra channelings, but about meditation, spirituality, and all sorts of metaphysical subjects. He texted me after he got back to New York thanking me for letting him stay and to say that he was glad to know after all this time that we would always be friends. I told him he's my True Blue Dude.
It really made me realize how much I want that type of community all of the time. I'm sure we all do! But I miss it being within reach. The internet has connected the world so well, but I miss the physical aspects of the spiritual companionship of others. I feel like I shouldn't complain or want it when I have so much happiness and goodness in my life... but I just spent this entire blog doing that, so I must not feel too bad about it. :)
Published by SmilingAudibly on April 24, 2019 7:34pm. Category: General
I was scrolling aimlessly through Instagram yesterday afternoon, while brushing my kitten-cat Tilly (she can be happily brushed for hours), when a snippet of the song Spaceman by David Bowie played on someone's post. It snapped me to attention! Of course I've heard the song a hundred times before, but this is the first time I noticed the words and what they were saying. Specifically,
There's a starman waiting in the sky He'd like to come and meet us But he thinks he'd blow our minds There's a starman waiting in the sky He's told us not to blow it Cause he knows it's all worthwhile
I mean, doesn't that jive with everything Ra said about alien cultures and their interaction with 3rd density? I wonder if David Bowie was a wanderer or just really in tune with true reality. Just a cool coincidence or synchronicity I noticed!
My attempts at finding people in Nashville who also love the Law of One is turning out to be fruitless! I posted on the Facebook study group, on the Bring4th forums, and on the seeker connector to no avail. I will find my community one day!! :)
My sister's baby was born yesterday!! She wanted to have him at home with a midwife, but there were some complications and they had to do a c-section at the hospital. But everyone's doing well and is healthy and happy!! I'm going to go visit them tonight.
Published by SmilingAudibly on April 23, 2019 2:50pm. Category: General
A couple of nights ago I had an odd dream about work. Usually when I'm dreaming about work I'm trying to get there and can't - thing after thing comes up, I'm frantically trying to make it, but I'm never able. It's stressful! But this dream was almost the opposite. We were definitely at work, but kind of hanging out and watching Game of Thrones. I think I was in my underwear or at least loungey clothes, and I even lit up, asking my boss, "You mind if I hit this?" and he said he didn't lol. I do remember feeling an uneasiness, like, something about this situation is not right, but otherwise it was a nice, albeit weird dream.
And I have no idea what this means, but lately I've been catching whifs of very pleasant smells that seem to originate from nowhere. Right at this moment it's something fruity and floral, almost like the scent of an old Strawberry Shortcake doll. There is no reason for this smell, as I sit alone in an office connected to a warehouse. It's definitely not coming from me! It's not always the same smell, and I am always the only one who can detect it. I feel like a crazy person, asking people, "Can you smell that?? Where is it coming from??" Phantom scents. At least a happy kind of phantom, I think.
My morning meditations continue to go well. I'm looking into meditation groups to attend, either the one in Louisville or maybe one here closer to home. The ones here are Buddist in nature, which is definitely not a bad thing, but it would be cool if I could go to one more distorted to my own personal beliefs. I'm really fiending for a spiritual community. I hope I can bring Brandon along, I think he'd be into it if it were structured and other people were doing it. He is already so kind about getting up earlier than he needs to in the mornings so I can meditate while he gets ready for the day, to give me time to get ready for the day afterward.
And barring no complications, I should have a little nephew by the end of today!! My sister went into labor last night and is at the hospital now. I have a couple nieces and a nephew already, but Emily is closer to me in location and in spirit than anyone else, and I am really looking forward to having little Jack to spoil. Brandon and I like kids, but do not want them ourselves, so I am excited to be the COOLEST AUNT EVER and spoil this one rotton.
Published by SmilingAudibly on April 17, 2019 3:07pm. Category: General
The past couple of days I've been struggling with emotions. I feel myself getting depressed, sad, or melancholy at various parts of the day, when I'm usually very upbeat and positive. The sun is finally out, it's warming up outside; this is usually when I'm at my peak. But at work yesterday I had so little to do that I felt myself tumbling down a well of ennui, wondering if this is really going to be my life, sitting at a desk for 8 hours with nothing to do but check and recheck the loop of Facebook-Reddit-Twitter ad nauseum, into infinity. I hate even writing this out. I sound like a pathetic brat whining about how bored they are. I'm glad for this life. I found the Ra material three years ago and was able to read it several times because of the very fact I have nothing to do. So I can see how it's been a positive in my life, but now I'm ready for something else, something more.
Driving to work today, I was listening to Bright Eyes and started crying at the line:
I tried to pass for nothing But my dreams gave me away
I'm even tearing up just typing it. I can see now that all of the music I've been so in love with over the years has held all sorts of hints to true reality. In that same song, Conor Oberst sings:
All this automatic writingI have tried to understand From a psychedelic angelWho was tugging on my hand
He's talked a lot in the past about how he can't help but write and make music, that he feels a literal compulsion to do it. Oh to have such direction in life!!