Tomorrow some friends are coming into town for the weekend, and I'm excited, but also a little concerned. The last two times I've stayed with them, Jim warned me that his wife, Chrissy, was having a "bad weekend." For the first visit that meant that I didn't see her at all while I was staying there. For the second visit it meant she copped a terrible attitude and took every opportunity to belittle Jim that she could in front of me. It was extremely uncomfortable. I felt like I was walking on eggshells the entire time and all of my efforts and energy were focussed on keeping her happy. To be fair, she's usually okay when she comes here to visit, but I've already had some odd requests from them for this trip. I feel like the best course of action is to stay positive, embrace it, and try to make sure everyone has a good time, regardless of how I feel.
I think there's a lot of cataylist to be had here. I'm struggling with feeling like I'm being taken advantage of and focussing on how this will be an emotionally exhausting visit for me. What a terrible attitude to have going into a weekend visit with friends! I searched what Ra had to say about catalyist, and unsurprisingly, they blew me away with their answer on the first hit. From 46.16:
Ra: I am Ra. The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen the catalyst fails in its design and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control. There is no lack of space/time in which this catalyst may work.
It seems to me that instead of trying to control this weekend to make people have a good time, I should love and accept the experience and let whatever needs to happen, happen. And to make sure to love the people behind the experiences too! We're all just lost souls trying to navigate this crazy planet we found ourselves on. "The moment contains love," as Ra says, and all I need to do is "consciously seek that love in awareness and understanding distortions." EASY, RIGHT? 
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