Lotsa Questions

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Hi there, B4.  It's been a while since I've seen this place.  I see you're still very inactive, but still around.  I think that's the important thing.  Some of you might know or remember me or even recognize me by my posting style, but honestly I just want to try again and start over.

Part of that is revisiting several of the concepts in the Ra Material, and in doing so I'm going to ask for help, for the first time really.  In the past I've tried to rely on my own internal understanding over external expressions and opinions.  In doing so I lost myself to my own inherent issues, and since then I've pretty much been stuck on them, unable to properly be openminded.  Adding in the 'catalyst' of personal life becoming somewhat overwhelming, I've tried to return to the roots of the one thing that made my life feel...Fulfilling, worthwhile, true and real, actually worth it.  As things are now in life, I'm pretty exhausted and burnt out.  Giving love doesn't mean others won't ruin your life on a whim.

I have a lot of questions, but the majority of them are going to center around polarity and catalyst, as these are the two things that I've struggled with the most.

1. What constitutes Catalyst?  What derives it's function and being?  What gives it substance or the ability to create to an entity polarization?
2. Does Polarity adhere wholly to a duality system or can it be threefold, fourfold, and further faceted into differing points of the same 'polygonal-graph' spectrum (3+ directions) (versus a line-graph spectrum ((2 directions)), if you guys understand what I mean?)
3. Responding to Catalyst creates the potential for Polarization to occur, what does this mean?

In today's world, I personally feel many things about people and society or 'civilization' are wholly backwards.  I'd even go as far as to say in countries like America, image or appearances are more important than reality, and life has no value beyond what can be manipulated or garnished from each living entity.
These are backwards operations in the world to me, and makes me wonder.

4. In a society of backwards things, do things considered 'wrong' by society turn out actually to be proper?  I.e things like homosexuality, transgender people, substance usage like thc or...myocilin (stuff in mushrooms), or other hallucinogens (DMT, LSD?)
5. Do thoughts count as Catalyst and are they capable of Polarization by themselves?
6. Do the energies of Anger and its associated variations of extremities belong to the Red-ray or the Orange-Ray chakra?
7. Is polarity measured like a thermometer that slowly lowers and raises in small (or large) increments?

I explored for a while negative polarity and found it to be in many ways on the shallow end of it's spectrum exactly like positive polarity, leaving me to wonder if polarity is something worth getting hung up over on since as it's said, there is no right or wrong according to the metaphysical reality.  (A general statement that I'm sure has some exceptions to it.)

8. Is the negative and positive polarities worth exploring into the extremes?  I know the answer depends on the individual, I'm asking in general for the vast majority of the population.
9. Can the negative be used for positive?  Does this make it negative or positive polarization?
10. If selflessness is positive polarity and selfishness is negative polarity, what does being selfishly selfless and selflessly selfish cause polarization wise?

Assuming for a second that the following statement sums up the purpose of catalyst, 'Suffering to Learn a Lesson', does this mean:
11. Can Earth's Reality, created to help evolution, be summed up as being a 'selfish usage of creation by creation for creation disregarding creation'?

Now, not assuming catalyst isn't summed up that way as 'Suffering to Learn a Lesson', does this mean:
12. Can Earth's Reality, created to help evolution, be summed up as being a 'selfish usage of creation by creation for creation'?

13. Does Crystallization mean the area in the physical body where the energy center is found 'solidify' or is this happening upon the metaphysical planes attached to the physical plane, but not occurring in a way physically measureable upon the physical plane?

14. Is the Red-ray chakra fixed like the Violet-ray chakra?  What does this mean?
15. What are some of the functions of the Violet-ray chakra?  Is it the totality as-in the Mind/Body/Spirit Complex Totality?
16. What are some ideas of how to handle balancing chakras when one suffers from the catalyst of mental illnesses?
17. Is the alarm clock effect of the 11:11 phenomenon (including other numbers like 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 and such) meant as a spiritual alarm clock, or is it an alarm clock for the collective unconscious?
18. What are the chances that Cosmic Universal Unconditional Love can be mistaken by Humanity as indiscriminate, indifferent, or even apathetic?
19. If someone commits suicide, and does not wish to reincarnate again, does Free Will dictate the choice made, or is the life left on mandatory to be completed?  Does refusing to complete this reincarnation cause stagnation? (Asking because some NDE's seem to contradict the 'mandatory' and seems to point more towards 'choice')
20. Is kundalini the 'divine' purpose of humanity?  (As in, is raising the serpent to the green ray the entire point of kundalini's being at all?)

At no point is a clear and discernible 'point for being' given in the Ra Material, the closest idea given to this is that the point of being is to discover more about the infinite nature of being.  This is in essence a fruitless if not empty endeavor, as infinity cannot be fully known, otherwise it would cease to be infinite (never-ending/beginning).  This potentially nullifies the point of self-exploration, turning it potentially into an eternity long task with no completion possible. Because of this:
21. Is the Law of One a form of Nihilism?
22. What would the proper term to describe this belief system be?  Pantheistic??

Truly though my biggest questions are these:
23. What is Catalyst, How does it Work, and Why does it work that way?
24. What is Polarity, How does it Work, and Why does it work that way?

I have many many more questions but it's the middle of the night and I'm getting sleepy.
Thanks for any insightful answers.  Not sure if I'll stick around, really depends on what I encounter during this visit back, but I think I should try to not be so judgmental and give things a chance.

[Glow]

Wow you single handedly have enough questions to get many great conversations going.
I look forward to exploring them together as a group.

It's great and open minded of you to return and see if perhaps there is more you can learn/teach here. Just like the "real" world the more people the more catylist and opportunities for all of us to grow so thank you.

I think your list of questions is WAY to interesting and has the potential to spawn so many great threads. It would be a waste to try to handle them all in one. This might just be a great list to work from. I hope you chose to stick around.

I will follow the lead on what happens with the thread maybe some posters are effective enough to answer 24 questions in one post, I'd not fully be surprised.

hope your day is feeling better than the last ((hug)) self to other self

[Nau7ik]

You weren't kidding when you said you had a lot of questions! I shall do my best to answers the ones that I can...
4- I think consensus reality is inverted and many things that society deems right or wrong are inverted. Homosexuality is little understood, it's a distortion, but planet earth is a place of distortion. We all have them. It's not right or wrong, it is what it is. I think our society colors the world in black and white, but the Creation is far greater than that.

9- Seemingly negative catalyst can be used for positive polarization. The difference lies in our attitude or relationship to the catalyst. For example, a negative seeker may use an injustice to himself to hone the edge of his rage and anger. Whereas the positive seeker might seek understanding and forgiveness.

13- Crystallization is referring to the clarity of the chakras in the energy body, which is metaphysical. It's crystallized through one's own unique processes and knowing the self. I imagine the cryalizine formation of the chakras to be uniquely done with each individual. I may be wrong though.

14- Yes, the root ray chakra is relatively fixed. It has to do with survival and sexuality. Blockages in red ray will "color" second and third ray, and the imbalance will be manifest through distortions in the 2nd / 3rd chakras. The free flow of energy is baffled. One's love of life usually keeps red ray flowing smoothly. There's many subtlies about the chakras, I have by no means begun to exhaust what could be said here.

15- My understanding is that the violet ray is the readout of the energy body. One doesn't affect changes in this chakra, it is as it is. The gateway to intelligent infinity is through this chakra. More can be said by those with greater knowledge than me.

16- This is a very subjective question. It depends on which chakra, the individual, many other factors etc

17- Repeating numbers are a personal synchronicity, at least in my experience. It lets you know you're on the right track or "pay attention here!l" It depends. Also, one could further look into the meaning of repeating numbers by the nature of the number/s being repeated. For example, 4:44 to me means angelic. 7:77 divine, Holy, sacred. 111 pay attention. Etc. My syncronicities may mean other than yours.

18- Chances are great! Humanity is largely indifferent and without that focus, one may not be able to recognize an act of true unconditional love, or even an act of great evil and separation. There is poor discernment and understanding. Planet Earth is where we are learning to love. So it varies with each individual.

20- The kundalini is the point where the infinite energy flowing through the feet and root chakra meets the downporing energies being called through the crown chakra. This is what is called raising the serpent.

I wouldn't call the Law of One pantheistic. I'm not sure where you got that. But the LOO clearly acknowledge the one Infinite Creator. It's all that there is. Infinity is defined as a unity in the LOO. There is nothing else but the one Infinite Creator.
Anyway hope all is well. Best of wishes to you with your seeking!

[Jade]

Giving love doesn't mean others won't ruin your life on a whim.

This is very true.

1. What constitutes Catalyst?  What derives it's function and being?  What gives it substance or the ability to create to an entity polarization?

Absolutely every thing that happens to you is catalyst. Its function is to give you a choice - the choice boils simply down to "do I serve myself or do I serve others?" - or ignore it. But there is a spectrum of choices, there isn't just one right or wrong by any means. Polarization is created when one consciously chooses to focus on one vibrational choice - either service to self or service to others - service to self being the choice to repeatedly close the heart, service to others being the choice to repeatedly open the heart.

2. Does Polarity adhere wholly to a duality system or can it be threefold, fourfold, and further faceted into differing points of the same 'polygonal-graph' spectrum (3+ directions) (versus a line-graph spectrum ((2 directions)), if you guys understand what I mean?)

I'm not entirely sure what you mean. Polarity is a huge spectrum, but I think there are only two main choices. It's like other dichotomous things - male/female, happy/sad, patience/impatience.

3. Responding to Catalyst creates the potential for Polarization to occur, what does this mean?

If you respond to catalyst, you are making a choice. If your response is to ignore the catalyst, most often that doesn't result in polarization, unless there's a justification to ignore the catalyst (I won't snap and yell at this person because I don't want to hurt their feelings = slight positive polarization, I don't want to yell at this person because it makes me look bad = slightly negative polarization)

4. In a society of backwards things, do things considered 'wrong' by society turn out actually to be proper?  I.e things like homosexuality, transgender people, substance usage like thc or...myocilin (stuff in mushrooms), or other hallucinogens (DMT, LSD?)

This is a key point to breaking out of third density. Ra says it's very important to "free ourselves more and more from the constraints of other selves" = what society thinks.

It is also to be noted that an adept is one which has freed itself more and more from the constraints of the thoughts, opinions, and bonds of other-selves. Whether this is done for service to others or service to self, it is a necessary part of the awakening of the adept. This freedom is seen by those not free as what you would call evil or black. The magic is recognized; the nature is often not.

It is typical of the training that the culture offers to the individual that the spontaneous and rhythmic harmonization of the self with all will be systematically and thoroughly interrupted, for it is not useful for society to have a tribe of completely mindful and aware beings. Rather, what is the easiest block of entities to govern turns out actually to be those who have turned their concept of themselves over to the orthodox ways of thinking and then have begun to measure themselves by those yardsticks that the culture and the society puts forth. As each becomes a so-called adult, each more or less finds itself necessarily moving into those areas of work and employment and the chores of living that constitute keeping body and soul together for those within third density.

In the culture in which you now enjoy living the hope is not that the entities will be mindful, but, rather, that they will be mind-persuaded in the ways in which the culture wishes its citizens to think, behave and move. As far as an unawakened spirit can tell, what is required of it is that it get a job, pay for the privilege of having space in which to live and food to eat. This economic concern, namely, that each citizen will take care of itself and its dependents, ranks far above any consideration in terms of public policy of the spiritual evolution of its citizens. Naturally, this not being the obvious concern of governmental or cultural entities this has never, for the most part, been questioned. No one expects the government or the culture to require mindfulness of its citizens.

However, we would say more than this. In order to become a citizen of eternity it seems necessary to become one that is athwart society. You may think of it in terms of being radical or in terms of being other than the mind control of the culture. This may seem an extreme statement but there is a seduction of principles and values that goes on within the daily intellectual life that the culture offers through its newspapers and various other information sources which offers to its citizens much information

5. Do thoughts count as Catalyst and are they capable of Polarization by themselves?

Polarization/catalyst begins in knowing the mind complex - Ra has steps to follow to do this. I think then the adept must balance the mind and the body. Then, once that is understood, I believe it is possible to deal with catalyst more readily in just the mind and with just thoughts - but the problem is, most people have "thoughts" and "actions" that are incongruent, so if you are polarizating one way in your mind but taking actions that negate that polarization, this is a lack of understanding being applied.

6. Do the energies of Anger and its associated variations of extremities belong to the Red-ray or the Orange-Ray chakra?

Every response you have to catalyst begins at the red ray, then moves to the orange ray, etc. It will baffle (cause emotional reactions) where blocked. If the issue is survival, it's red ray. If it's more personal with other entities, it's orange.

7. Is polarity measured like a thermometer that slowly lowers and raises in small (or large) increments?

Oh, that's an interesting question. I guess since Ra uses the percentages out of a hundred, I would picture it more as a pie, a pie that is my heart, and how full that pie/heart is.

I explored for a while negative polarity and found it to be in many ways on the shallow end of it's spectrum exactly like positive polarity, leaving me to wonder if polarity is something worth getting hung up over on since as it's said, there is no right or wrong according to the metaphysical reality.  (A general statement that I'm sure has some exceptions to it.)

Polarity is a part of third density, which we are all a part of.

8. Is the negative and positive polarities worth exploring into the extremes?  I know the answer depends on the individual, I'm asking in general for the vast majority of the population.

For the vast majority of the population? Not likely. For 6th density Wanderers? Probably. Mind you, any negative entity -has- to get to the extreme end of the spectrum in third density to harvest as such.

9. Can the negative be used for positive?  Does this make it negative or positive polarization?

You can use essentially bad experiences to polarize positively. In fact, look at the Significator of the Mind - the black imp is at the heals of his right side and the white imp is at the heals of his left side - what seems "negative" can serve for positive polarization and what seems "positive" can serve for negative polarization.

10. If selflessness is positive polarity and selfishness is negative polarity, what does being selfishly selfish and selflessly selfish cause polarization wise?

I don't know, a lack of aware polarization?

Assuming for a second that the following statement sums up the purpose of catalyst, 'Suffering to Learn a Lesson', does this mean:
11. Can Earth's Reality, created to help evolution, be summed up as being a 'selfish usage of creation by creation for creation disregarding creation'?

You can spin it that way if you want. I see it as an expression of the infinity of the Creator. Ra says that our third density is the product of many, many experiments into consciousness, and this is the type of experience that creates polarization the most efficiently, and is the most vivid.

Now, not assuming catalyst isn't summed up that way as 'Suffering to Learn a Lesson', does this mean:
12. Can Earth's Reality, created to help evolution, be summed up as being a 'selfish usage of creation by creation for creation'?

It's a use of the Free Will of the Logos - and Ra says free will didn't exist before the veil. So if you agree that will = selfish, then you can spin it that way. But ultimately everything is the will of the Creator.

13. Does Crystallization mean the area in the physical body where the energy center is found 'solidify' or is this happening upon the metaphysical planes attached to the physical plane, but not occurring in a way physically measureable upon the physical plane?

It happens on the metaphysical plane but if you attune to your chakras regularly, I think you can keep track of their progress.

14. Is the Red-ray chakra fixed like the Violet-ray chakra?  What does this mean?

No. The violet ray is the thermometer of the individual, which means it can't be affected directly but only through balancing the other chakras. The red ray is the first place where we take in all of our experiences - and evaluate each experience based on our ability to survive in the new circumstances. Sometimes, things like worry about having money to buy food can affect the red ray. It will also ultimately affect the violet ray, but you have more conscious control over the red ray's functioning than the violet ray's balance.

15. What are some of the functions of the Violet-ray chakra?  Is it the totality as-in the Mind/Body/Spirit Complex Totality?

The violet ray is our access to intelligent energy. Other entities outside of this density can perceive us through our violet ray. Whether it's analogous to the mind/body/spirit complex totality, I don't think so.

16. What are some ideas of how to handle balancing chakras when one suffers from the catalyst of mental illnesses?

Meditation. Setting intentions. Working diligently on the chakras in order (red thoroughly, then orange thoroughly, etc)

17. Is the alarm clock effect of the 11:11 phenomenon (including other numbers like 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 and such) meant as a spiritual alarm clock, or is it an alarm clock for the collective unconscious?

Synchronicities are usually personal, but we definitely have collective alarm clocks, too.

18. What are the chances that Cosmic Universal Unconditional Love can be mistaken by Humanity as indiscriminate, indifferent, or even apathetic?

I don't think very high, but Ra says that negative entities see the green ray as "folly". I don't think collectively we'll miss it - seniority of vibration has seated mostly Wanderers/early fourth density entities at this time of transition.

19. If someone commits suicide, and does not wish to reincarnate again, does Free Will dictate the choice made, or is the life left on mandatory to be completed?  Does refusing to complete this reincarnation cause stagnation? (Asking because some NDE's seem to contradict the 'mandatory' and seems to point more towards 'choice')

I've always thought it was a "choice" and not a mandate, but the choice being obvious to one who isn't behind the veil anymore. While incarnated, we can't assume we'll know what we want after we die.

Carla's NDE gave her the choice to come back and experience two childhoods to spread out her catalyst so it was more manageable. She said no to that and decided to complete this incarnation, in which she was mostly through childhood.

20. Is kundalini the 'divine' purpose of humanity?  (As in, is raising the serpent to the green ray the entire point of kundalini's being at all?)

Well, according to Ra, that is the whole point of this game: Raising the kundalini to green ray or, raising the kundalini to indigo by bypassing the green ray.

At no point is a clear and discernible 'point for being' given in the Ra Material, the closest idea given to this is that the point of being is to discover more about the infinite nature of being.  This is in essence a fruitless if not empty endeavor, as infinity cannot be fully known, otherwise it would cease to be infinite (never-ending/beginning).  This potentially nullifies the point of self-exploration, turning it potentially into an eternity long task with no completion possible. Because of this:
21. Is the Law of One a form of Nihilism?

It certainly is for a lot of people. But not for me. The Law of One gave context and purpose to the struggles of my life.

22. What would the proper term to describe this belief system be?  Pantheistic??

I think pantheism works, as does monism.

Truly though my biggest questions are these:
23. What is Catalyst, How does it Work, and Why does it work that way?
24. What is Polarity, How does it Work, and Why does it work that way?

Catalyst is just about any and every event that can happen to you that you can think about and process. Catalyst is dripping from the walls of third density. It works this way because of many, many experiments by various Logoi to try to create the most efficient "school" possible.

Polarity was invented when the veil was invented. Before the veil of darkness, there was only one polarity. Now that the veil has been invoked, people have "free will" to choose either to continue to serve the Creator unendingly, or to make other choices along the way. According the Ra, polarity in third density is the "axis upon which creation turns" which, to me means, that it's us and our choices in third density that echo through Creation that allow other densities to have a greater variety of choices and things to do to serve. Before polarity, before constant catalyst, experience was pallid and predictable. Can you imagine being able to read through a whole novel that has no conflict? That's why we have polarity: It's a whole new facet of experience for the Creator to explore. You may see it as infinite and therefore futile, but I see it as infinite and therefore ripe with potential for new experiences.

[Glow]

People here never cease to amaze me. Such great well thought out answers.
Bring4th SMC I want in

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

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Hey Jade, long time no see or talk.  It's nice to see you're still diligent in helping others.  I found your answers useful, though my own distortions had me a bit upset at areas.  I'm going to refrain from being upset, as in the past all that has done is prove to further block me.  Instead I want to re-ask some questions to get even more thoughtful answers.

Question 2 concerning the various directions of polarity.  For a while I saw polarity as threefold, left/middle/right, with the middle path being one more of balancing Wisdom and Love to most efficiently polarize, versus right being of unconditional love and left being of pure selfishness.
But in that way I thought maybe I was missing more and tried to imagine what other directions there might be.
I did this because in my mind personally, I struggle so greatly with separating left and right polarity from one another that I can't effectively tell what's what anymore.  A CEO of a major company trying to rob people of their rights could be a positive polarity act for all I know in some strange way I cannot see.  Similarly a person aiding someone who is homeless may be negative polarity, because the person did so out of a want to feel better about themselves rather than because they genuinely cared for that other person.

With these two examples I'm left beyond baffled and dumbfounded, I'm totally and completely lost in this system.  It doesn't...Make sense to me.  I don't get it at all and it's very upsetting at times for me when I want to do the 'right' thing and all that ends up happening is everything going wrong.  I recently quit a fast food job because I felt it was the right thing to do, but I didn't have it in my heart to go through the proper authorities to ensure for the safety of all other customers they too won't get sick from eating there.
Now that it's over and done with the experience has left me unable to make sense of whether or not I did do the right thing at all.  In fact, I'm pretty sure whenever I try to do the right thing, I end up doing the wrong thing, typically, with exceptions.

And all I can ever come to in my belief system is ultimately I do not understand what is right or wrong, or perhaps I understand it so well that I'm unaware of understanding it well due to the apparent opinion that there is no wrong or right, and thus nothing to be considering.  Making all of these concerns once again the catalyst of my mental illnesses...  Ugh, on the verge of tears cause it's so upsetting to me.  I want to do the right things and I don't know how.

Jade, if you will just cope with me here...Imagine a five pointed star.  On it's points at the farthest left and right are the polarities we talk about as core parts of the spectrum.  Then at the highest point is what I called the middle polarity.  Then we have the two lowest points that are in ways their own forms of polarity that I don't even know how to make an example to better describe...Is this a plausible view of polarity in your mind?  Or is it better to just apply AA's KISS acronym, and to just Keep It Simple Silly and leave it as Left/Right, even though that understanding has been greatly confusing for me?

Question 4: This answer was greatly helpful, especially regards a recent family matter that occurred over the holidays...
I want to go a bit further with this question.
These restraints of otherselves is one type of catalyst I've experienced that I'm actually coming to accept and handle better more and more often.  On the flip side of this, I've lately found the biggest restraint upon myself is my own mind.  I do meditate fairly often, but it doesn't stop the thoughts that I have, or the feelings I get even after I do the balancing techniques, and sit with the emotions I felt across the day at the end of the day.
I guess I should mention I'm HFA, high functioning autistic, with paranoia and anxiety disorders.  I can hardly pick up a phone to make a phone call, or be outside for longer than a few hours before I become emotional and want to retreat to the comfort of my home.

Do you have any helpful things to add regarding freeing myself more and more from the constraints of my own self?

I wasn't diagnosed HFA until very recently, but looking back all the way to my childhood it pretty much explained why I was always different and alone, and why my childhood best friend is someone with Aspergers.  I can't figure out if the worsening of these conditions in my early twenties forcing me to seek medical help was a result of preincarnational catalyst activating due to my failure at something, or if it's just a naturally occurring catalyst for someone who with fear sought to eliminate by ignoring mostly all catalyst to attempt to focus more on themselves to later on better meet catalyst.  I'm muddying up my question...I'm sorry, I'll move on.

Question 5:  Your answer here greatly upset me, to the point of tears, only because I literally cannot make my mind be as I want it to be by apparently my very own preincarnational design for this life.  This results in literally an endless swathe of incongruity.  I have done things so kind I had people asking me what it was that made me able to be so loving, and all I could think was, 'I didn't do anything at all, I don't even want to deal with any of this, I hate this'; but my feelings say 'it's because I love you the way I want to be loved and I feel everyone deserves that' and the result is I have no idea if those thoughts that I cannot stop or control are effectively nullifying every single thing I do.  Even catching the thoughts and changing them on the spot, in my understanding, is an infringement against the right of those thoughts to come forth and be had and to simply be.

Does that mean, because of the ways I've designed my own mind, I've set myself up on, what I want to call, a 'Very Hard' difficulty in life?

Question 7: I should probably have given some additional information to properly render my focus.  I meant to ask with regards to kundalini more so than anything, in a way similar to the rising serpent mimicking a thermometer rising slowly, is this congruent with the visualization of polarity?
I ask this because the green ray is essentially half way through the system while the indigo ray is at the extreme far end of the entities instreaming energies (their internal placement within their internal world).  Does this mean polarity can be measured like a thermometer similar to the rising and falling of kundalini?

I had a very hard time thinking of how to word this question, I will do so now by simply re-asking it.

7. Is polarity measured like a thermometer that slowly lowers and raises in small or large increments in ways similar to how kundalini's rising serpent might rise and lower as one polarizes more and more towards one end of the polarity spectrum?  I'm trying to ask if polarity's goals and the goals of raising the kundalini are the same concepts described from two different perspectives or angles?  One from the angle of the metaphysics of polarity, and another from the angle of the entity's energetic system?  Or if they are actually still different concepts.

I ask this because if I could remove the distortions of anxiety and fear at the supposed difficulty I see myself having in attaining 51% sto polarity for the ease I see myself having at handling my chakras to raise kundalini up to green ray, it'd help ease my mind a lot.

7.1. In fact, of that, is harvest automatically 'unlocked' or achieved in the future or at the end of this incarnation if the person at any point in their life raised kundalini to green ray, or does it need to be risen to green ray at the time of the termination of this incarnation for harvest to be achieved?

Question 8: May I ask why 6D wanderers have such vastly different plans in life in attempts to reach such extreme polarities, often times at the cost of their health and life, compared to 5D or 4D wanderers?  I feel like for such a thing to occur, it'd be seen as selfish by their human identity which suffers alongside their consciousness for goals that the human identity will never know during it's life.  This opinion is based on Ra's remark of how the yellow ray identity ceases in death.  Is it ethical for a 6D being to reincarnate into a human identity to use for it's own spiritual gain at it's physical identity's sometimes total loss of if not just joy, then life itself?  I'm looking at Carla as an example of this.  While her human identity seemed able to cope with what her consciousness had in plan for her body, if I had been her I wouldn't have been able to cope at all with the thoughts that I were using myself in such extreme ways for goals I would never be able to see with my human eyes during my human life.
Can you provide your thoughts on these concerns of mine?

Question 10: I must apologize as I incorrectly typed out this question.  I am also dyslexic  
I meant to say Selfishly Selfless and Selflessly Selfish.  I typed Selfishly Selfish, that was a mistake.

The question was meant to help me untangle in my mind the single-pointed nature of polarity's core, that being both left and right emerge from the same place and reconcile back into the same place.  This allows for seemingly paradoxical occurrences.  Such as, being selfish can seem selfless, and being selfless can seem selfish.  

Does it all ultimately boil down to the genuine intent rather than all the thoughts, words, and actions made up to that point?  Does giving to the homeless just to make myself feel better boil down to sts polarity?  Does not giving a homeless man 20 dollars cause you know he'll spend it on booze rather than food and water boil down to sto because you didn't want to help another further destroy their self?

This question is me attempting to define the gray areas.
OR, random sudden thought, does being selfish and selfless in the same sequence cause both polarization of sts and sto energies?  Or do they share the same 'thermometer' and thus negate each other if both were to 'rise' (think of adding a negative number to a positive value, your addition is actually subtraction).

11.  I question the 'most vivid' portion, as I've had dreams that seemed more real and vivid than waking life itself.  Though I think I understand it within the context of 'The most vivid catalyst available to 3D entities'.
I don't know...So many people have compared Earth to the concept of Hell.  I can see it myself personally, and it hurts to see such things being done by creator to creator, I fret at the possibility that I could be one of those creations being cast into the hellish parts of life on Earth.  More so than that, a large part of my conscious mind repeatedly echos that it would rather cease to exist than deal with all of the...more traumatic catalyst available on Earth, an ode to my desire to suicide rather than suffer to such extremes.
The entire concept of catalyst's operations as described by Ra did essentially sum up to Suffering to Learn Lessons to me, which at first was acceptable in examples like you touch a hot stove and learn through pain not to do so again for your own safety.  Or experiencing sadness at the loss of a good friend, so as to learn through the suffering of the catalyst of sadness to try harder to keep your friends.
But past a point, I lose the ability to accept it.  Such as in areas like someone being imprisoned and raped or tortured, what purpose does such vehement suffering and pain have to serve or teach that isn't lost in the distortions spawned by the traumatic experience?  How does the one performing the catalyst upon you, the raped and tortured, learn from teaching you greater myriads of pain when all they garnish from the experience is the pleasure of your suffering?  Sure, it serves some portion of the infinite creator, but were these lessons truly consensual or abrogations of your consent to be interacted with in certain ways?  Is this way of use of the human creation ethical?
If humanity's collective identity one day became aware of these ways and mechanics and functions and existence of Catalyst, would it collectively agree with these mechanisms as ethical once they saw the results of these constructs, or would their be rebellion against this way of reality's functioning?

Question 12:  That statement about the absence of free will's existence before the veil seems contradictory due to the offered view that before there was even space or time to form a veil in, there was the First Primal Distortion of the Law of One known as The Law of Confusion/Free Will.
I don't see Free Will as inherently selfish, I do however view the way the creation uses 3D creations, from the participation in genocide to the purposeful design of extreme ranges of pain and suffering to planetary scale dissolution and destruction, as being viewable as selfish uses of creation disregarding creation's experiences to the results, seeing any and all as favorable, when possibly to the many that experienced it directly, found it to be wholly unfavorable despite knowing something was still gained for the one infinite.

I think a philosophical question can be garnished from this design of the veil and 3D acquiring experiences for the one infinite; does an entity remain itself once it permanently acquires amnesia, or does it hence become a new entity?  Is the amnesiac entity subject to all the choices and consequences of a life it has no memory of ever being a part of?  Is it ethical to subject that entity that is displaced in an entirely new setting with a new personality and new thoughts to consequences it garnished in a wholly different space, time, and identity?

I guess I just wonder if the one infinite creator has a sense similar to a human, to not rip off one of it's limbs just for the experience of doing so.  I can't say with certainty if it does or doesn't if I'm to believe the history of our solar system given in the Ra Material.  Were I the logos, after one of my planetary bodies was destroyed, I'd put a temporary halt to the experiment just to make sure everything is okay and to see if the little parts of me effected in that occurrence are okay and willing to continue or not, rather than to just be loving to the outcome and continue on without much more thought given to those who suffered through it.

...Perhaps I am overly distorted with love, I care so much about the suffering of others that I question the worth of that suffering.  I question if we could not find a better way to go about this experiment without causing so much harm that entire civilizations are bombing themselves out of physical existence.  It just seems...Like something is off for that to be happening, if you can accept that as my way of seeing things.

Question 13: I thought as much, but the question spawned from my having a thought about how balancing the indigo ray might affect the physical state of the pineal gland, which lead to what I hope isn't too big of a leap, to the thought that crystallization might affect the physical, and so I was wondering if the nervous system that connects the cardiovascular systems of the heart and the digestive systems of the gut to the mental systems of the brain can also be affected in similar ways as the pineal gland.
Like, does the nervous system surrounding the heart change as the green-ray is crystallized?
Does the digestive system and it's nervous system and operations change to reflect crystallization of the lower triad chakras?
Do the genitalia function more efficiently or effectively (in regards to sexual energy transfers, or maybe even just sex in general) if the red ray is crystallized?  I know a low functioning red-ray with an equally low functioning orange-ray can lead to medical issues like erectile dysfunction, does balancing these rays heal the medical issue?  Does crystallizing them create a sort of perpetuation or defense against the energy centers once more becoming distorted?

Because if they do, then this means scientifically we can potentially find a way to measure this effect by looking at what changes when one crystallizes their chakras.

I could probably make literally a 100 question list about just chakras alone, I've studied them a lot, and sometimes refer to myself as an amateur chakra reader to do divination readings for people.  The energetic chakra system is the one system in the Law of One that I am about 75% sure I reincarnated with knowledge already present.  I remember as a child I could feel 'energy' in the palms of my hands (which I now know are tertiary chakra points), and because I watched Dragon Ball Z, I used to pretend to do the kamehameha attack, and I could literally feel a vibrating frenzy of energy in my right hand whenever I would do this.
Similarly, I attuned myself to the show Naruto majorly because I liked it's idea of 'Chakra' being used, and found that certain hand signs do help me mold and weave my own chakric energies.
I even realized there's a small minor chakra below the red-ray (that I call the magenta-ray) that has two vortices and rotates in a way as to form the serpent look of the instreaming rising energy.  Furthermore this is posited in the vertebrae formations of the spine which largely correlate with chakra centers.
But like, that's my geeking out and I don't want to waste too much of your time >.<

14.  I actually don't fully agree with your explanation of the violet-ray, I've personally come to find that it is as is without the other chakras directly effecting it, but rather that it effects itself through effecting the other chakras.  Don't know why I felt the need to say this, but I felt like it, so that must mean something.  I've found that meditating upon my violet ray has led to many great intuitions about my other chakras, including moments of such precise intuition that I correctly realized I was HFA where the entire time I thought my mental illness was of some kind of schizoid disorder or even partial schizophrenia or even delusional disorder with the disorder being a delusion of belief of having a disorder.  Then when I went to get diagnosed it was like the pieces of the puzzle all just got thrown into place, the language issues growing up effecting my reading and writing skills, the flapping of my hands as a kid that I found so fun to do, the weird ways I thought and felt that seemed to separate me from everyone else.
I also swear I read Ra saying both the red and violet rays are fixed, but not in the same kinds of ways, with violet being fixated on the totality, while red-ray seemed to be fixated on the individual but I can't find the passage that says this, assuming my memory isn't being stupid  :-/
The information given is still helpful though.  Thank you, Jade.


16. I'm afraid I have done these things, and where they once helped me, no longer do, and I can't figure out why...  I've read that meditation is supposed to help mental illnesses, but in my case it exacerbates it sometimes, and other times it calms it.  I've come out of meditations perfectly fine one second only to suddenly be hit by crippling oceans of emotions, and other times I'd go for hours doing well with no issues.  It seems almost random.  The work I do on my chakras seems to be persistently stuck on my orange and yellow rays, no matter how much time, effort, patience, love, acceptance, forgiveness, the whole spectrum, and yet I cannot seem to balance them in such a way as to be minimally balanced consistently hour after hour.  Unless I could literally begin performing extended hours long meditations, I don't think I'm going to get anywhere unless something changes, and I don't know what that something is.

I'm still trying though, it can just become so frustrating when you spend 2 hours in a meditation and come out feeling wonderful, blissful, and joyous, then you stand up and you're hit with crippling depression out of nowhere.

17. It makes me wonder, cause I see everything from 12:22, 12:34, 5:55, 4:44, 3:33...All of it, 4:56, 3:45, you name it I see it I bet.  In fact this occurs in military time, and on analog clocks (ON ANALOG CLOCKS!!  9:45, 8:40, 7:35, 6:30 and that's just when the hands are together).  Maybe one day we can all have a group meditation on the meanings of these alarm clock styled synchronicities.

Thank you for all your time, sorry if my views are confrontational seeming or rude.  Turns out, when you're HFA, some times you come off rude and impolite without ever noticing it, I hope I haven't been that way in this post.  Genuinely thank you for your time.  It's always a pleasure talking to you even if it seems like it isn't.

Also, thank you everyone else so far who has answered.  Please don't think I don't appreciate your responses!  I just spent...omg, 4 hours responding just to Jade.  The way time flies when you don't want it to lol.  Everything given is helpful, I'll be responding in time...

[Jade]

Hey C_A, I have read your post and I'm going to digest it and give it my full attention tomorrow. I don't want to rush through it tonight, but I just got off of work and am a little spent. I have tomorrow off so I will spend some time writing up a reply.

I didn't think you came off as rude or impolite at all, you seem like you genuinely want feedback on some of your thoughts, and I"m happy to offer that. Talk to ya soon.

[Aion]

Definitely a lot of questions there. I am going to attempt to answer to the heart of what I perceive you are asking about. It seems you have many questions but some really core concerns, those being polarity and catalyst. I will do what I can to help balance these ideas if it is possible. I will use Ra quotes in this context since that is where the concepts you are familiar with have come from. I will start with catalyst. This is the most direct explanation.

93.11 Questioner: I would like, if possible, an example of the activity we call Catalyst of the Mind in a particular individual undergoing this process. Could Ra give an example of that?

Ra: I am Ra. All that assaults your senses is catalyst. We, in speaking to this support group through this instrument, offer catalyst. The configurations of each in the group of body offer catalyst through comfort/discomfort. In fact all that is unprocessed that has come before the notice of a mind/body/spirit complex is catalyst.

Can you perceive it? Then it's catalyst. However, I think the word and idea catalyst needs some defining. Lets look at just the definition of the word. Chemically, it refers to something that accelerates a reaction without it changing in itself. However I think the definition Ra uses is closer to the social concept:

a person or thing that precipitates an event.
"the governor's speech acted as a catalyst for debate"
synonyms: stimulus, stimulation, spark, sparkplug, spur, incitement, impetus
"the governor's speech was a catalyst for debate"

So it is a form of stimulation which produces events within the mind/body/spirit complex, these being literally anything which stimulates any of the parts of the self.

93.12 Questioner: Then presently we receive catalyst of the mind as we are aware of Ra’s communication and we receive catalyst of the body as our body senses all of the inputs to the body, as I understand it. But could Ra then describe catalyst of the spirit, and are we at this time receiving that catalyst also? And if not, could Ra give an example of that?

Ra: I am Ra. Catalyst being processed by the body is catalyst for the body. Catalyst being processed by the mind is catalyst for the mind. Catalyst being processed by the spirit is catalyst for the spirit. An individual mind/body/spirit complex may use any catalyst which comes before its notice, be it through the body and its senses or through mentation or through any other more highly developed source, and use this catalyst in its unique way to form an experience unique to it, with its biases.

46.16 Questioner: What is the plan for use of the catalyst of cancer?

Ra: I am Ra. The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen the catalyst fails in its design and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control. There is no lack of space/time in which this catalyst may work.

These quotes illustrate why in the LOO there are considered two paths and these are synonymous with the polarities because they are the elements of control and acceptance with catalyst. This is where things tend to become more muddled because the actual mechanics of 'control and acceptance' is not clearly illustrated. However, I think it is important to note that not all catalyst is "used" or even used properly necessarily, that is, it is not consciously fully accepted or controlled.

46.15 Questioner: How does cancer do this learn/teaching when the entity has no conscious idea of what is happening to him when he develops cancer?

Ra: I am Ra. In many cases catalyst is not used.

Here Don ghosts your questions that this is a very distorted planet.

66.34 Questioner: This planet, to me, seems to be what I would call a cesspool of distortions. This includes all diseases and malfunctions of the physical body in general. It would seem to me that, on the average, this planet would be very, very high on the list if we just took the overall amount of these problems. Am I, is my feeling correct in this assumption?

Ra: I am Ra. We will review previous material.

Catalyst is offered to the entity. If it is not used by the mind complex it will then filter through to the body complex and manifest as some form of physical distortion. The more efficient the use of catalyst, the less physical distortion to be found.

There are, in the case of those you call Wanderers, not only a congenital difficulty in dealing with the third-density vibratory patterns but also a recollection, however dim, that these distortions are not necessary or usual in the home vibration.

We over-generalize as always, for there are many cases of pre-incarnative decisions which result in physical or mental limitations and distortions, but we feel that you are addressing the question of widespread distortions towards misery of one form or another. Indeed, on some third-density planetary spheres catalyst has been used more efficiently. In the case of your planetary sphere there is much inefficient use of catalyst and, therefore, much physical distortion.

Here is a great example of the two different uses of catalyst:

46.9 Questioner: Certainly.

Ra: The entity polarizing positively perceives the anger. This entity, if using this catalyst mentally, blesses and loves this anger in itself. It then intensifies this anger consciously in mind alone until the folly of this red-ray energy is perceived not as folly in itself but as energy subject to spiritual entropy due to the randomness of energy being used.

Positive orientation then provides the will and faith to continue this mentally intense experience of letting the anger be understood, accepted, and integrated with the mind/body/spirit complex. The other-self which is the object of anger is thus transformed into an object of acceptance, understanding, and accommodation, all being reintegrated using the great energy which anger began.

The negatively oriented mind/body/spirit complex will use this anger in a similarly conscious fashion, refusing to accept the undirected or random energy of anger and instead, through will and faith, funneling this energy into a practical means of venting the negative aspect of this emotion so as to obtain control over other-self, or otherwise control the situation causing anger.

Control is the key to negatively polarized use of catalyst. Acceptance is the key to positively polarized use of catalyst. Between these polarities lies the potential for this random and undirected energy creating a bodily complex analog of what you call the cancerous growth of tissue.

In this case, I think the key to the polarized concept is in its duality. The question is what is it really talking about?

First off, catalyst is "neutral" until it is used, however it can also be changed. This is a point that I don't think Ra really ever touched on but I think that catalyst is always naturally neutral and only becomes polarized based on how it is used. The question, why do we need it?

54.24 Questioner: The purpose then, seen from previous to incarnation, of what we call the incarnate physical state, seems to be wholly, or almost wholly, that of experiencing at that point the programmed catalyst and then evolving as a function of that catalyst. Is that correct?

Ra: I am Ra. We shall restate for clarity. The purpose of incarnative existence is evolution of mind, body, and spirit. In order to do this it is not strictly necessary to have catalyst. However, without catalyst the desire to evolve and the faith in the process do not normally manifest and thus evolution occurs not. Therefore, catalyst is programmed and the program is designed for the mind/body/spirit complex for its unique requirements. Thus it is desirable that a mind/body/spirit complex be aware of and hearken to the voice of its experiential catalyst, gleaning from it that which it incarnated to glean.

Truth is, we don't. However, we are on a "veiled" planet, and this is a key concept to understanding the nature of polarity and catalyst as described by Ra. The 'veil' is the entire reasoning for the disconnection and separations between people, for our lack of unity and ability to perceive deeply in to eachother and for the inability to see ourselves as one, thus hampering compassion and cooperation.

79.22 Questioner: Well, the idea then was to create some type of veil between Matrix and Potentiator. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct.

79.23 Questioner: This veil then occurs between what we now call the conscious and the unconscious mind. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct.

93.20 Questioner: I was just wondering if the transparency of the garment on the third card indicates the semi-permeable nature of the veil between conscious and subconscious?
Ra: I am Ra. This is a thoughtful perception and cannot be said to be incorrect. However, the intended suggestion, in general, is an echo of our earlier suggestion that the nature of catalyst is that of the unconscious; that is, outward catalyst comes through the veil.

All that you perceive seems to be consciously perceived. This is not the correct supposition. All that you perceive is perceived as catalyst unconsciously. By the, shall we say, time that the mind begins its appreciation of catalyst, that catalyst has been filtered through the veil and in some cases much is veiled in the most apparently clear perception.

[Infinite Unity]

Just some thoughts on some of the questions.

I never understood the nillhistic viewpoint. Or rather I feel directly opposite about nillhism. To me having someone say life is about this. Or this is what everything's about. Would make me feel like nillhistic. I like the open ended, make your own path. Make it what you make of it style. Like you Jade I see an infinite potential to experience. I Think of it as a bag of goodies that never end....what's the problem here?

[Jade]

Hey Jade, long time no see or talk.  It's nice to see you're still diligent in helping others.  I found your answers useful, though my own distortions had me a bit upset at areas.  I'm going to refrain from being upset, as in the past all that has done is prove to further block me.  Instead I want to re-ask some questions to get even more thoughtful answers.

Question 2 concerning the various directions of polarity.  For a while I saw polarity as threefold, left/middle/right, with the middle path being one more of balancing Wisdom and Love to most efficiently polarize, versus right being of unconditional love and left being of pure selfishness.
But in that way I thought maybe I was missing more and tried to imagine what other directions there might be.
I did this because in my mind personally, I struggle so greatly with separating left and right polarity from one another that I can't effectively tell what's what anymore.  A CEO of a major company trying to rob people of their rights could be a positive polarity act for all I know in some strange way I cannot see.  Similarly a person aiding someone who is homeless may be negative polarity, because the person did so out of a want to feel better about themselves rather than because they genuinely cared for that other person.

With these two examples I'm left beyond baffled and dumbfounded, I'm totally and completely lost in this system.  It doesn't...Make sense to me.  I don't get it at all and it's very upsetting at times for me when I want to do the 'right' thing and all that ends up happening is everything going wrong.  I recently quit a fast food job because I felt it was the right thing to do, but I didn't have it in my heart to go through the proper authorities to ensure for the safety of all other customers they too won't get sick from eating there.
Now that it's over and done with the experience has left me unable to make sense of whether or not I did do the right thing at all.  In fact, I'm pretty sure whenever I try to do the right thing, I end up doing the wrong thing, typically, with exceptions.

And all I can ever come to in my belief system is ultimately I do not understand what is right or wrong, or perhaps I understand it so well that I'm unaware of understanding it well due to the apparent opinion that there is no wrong or right, and thus nothing to be considering.  Making all of these concerns once again the catalyst of my mental illnesses...  Ugh, on the verge of tears cause it's so upsetting to me.  I want to do the right things and I don't know how.

Here's the deal. Ra says between unconditional love and selfishness lies the sinkhole of indifference. However, unconditional love's requirements are only 51%, which is difficult to achieve but obviously is barely over the middle of the spectrum. It doesn't require you to be 100% unconditionally loving all the time.

Honestly, the thing that helped me elucidate my own choices/polarity more clearly was my study of the Transformation of the Mind - have you read the courting the maiden thread? Ra says polarity has to with how we perceive and use the resources of the deep mind and resources of other selves. If you are viewing resources as just that, resources to be used on a whim the fulfill your pleasure, this is a negative transformation of the mind. If you are looking at others and treating their resources as extremely valuable, as something to be protected and cherished, this is the positive transformation. I'm just trying to elucidate this in other ways other than the dichotomy of "courting the maiden" and "plundering the prostitute" which works well for me, but I understand it doesn't for everyone.

I don't know the specifics of what happened with your job, but let's take a few examples of how polarity would be distilled from this experience, in my opinion:
You left because the job didn't resonate with your true being - slight positive increase
You left because you didn't want to try to get along with your coworkers - slight negative
You didn't tell the health department because you didn't want to cause problems for your coworkers - slight positive
You didn't call the health department because you were too lazy - slight negative

So you can see how the same actions can have different intentions/polarity? And it gets much more subtle and nuanced than that. To me, it's about using our past experiences where we feel we "failed" and not beating ourselves up over it, but learning and moving forward and trying to do better next time.

I know polarity IS confusing and being HFA must make it harder to determine other people's intentions. I find watching TV, movies, etc can be very helpful - these stories all pull from the same archetypical reaches of the deep mind. For instance, after I read your post last night, I watched TNG: Descent (Part II) where (major spoilers if you don't know) Lore comes back and takes control of the Borg, after the Enterprise gave them free will (in I, Borg). Lore takes their confusion and becomes their "savior". There's specifically a scene where he is comforting a Borg who has decided to "unlink" (they can still read each other's minds but can choose whether or not to allow others to read their mind), and Lore is obviously sweet, gentle, and charismatic, but he is doing it to manipulate the Borg into being more complacent. Lore is pretty much the epitome of a baddie archetype in this episode, but I think it was a great example of how someone can have a "noble purpose", or "noble character" but use these things for ugly gain.

The thing that makes polarity so confusing is that what "looks good" is often self serving and what "looks bad" is often the best for the whole. Really, one of the big things to let go of if you want to polarize positive is the way people perceive you. The negative polarity tries to subvert the free will of everyone to make them only look upon them fondly. The positive polarity often looks naive, dirty, and foolish. Again, these are the imps on the significator.

One thing that has freed me greatly is a lesson of Q'uo. Q'uo says that if you can truly act from love, even if it seems like you failed, that you haven't failed at all. Let's take an example. Say my coworker was making a big mistake at work. I hate confrontation, so correcting someone is out of my wheelhouse. So I take some deep breaths and try to center myself in love, and offer a gentle correction to the coworker.

Now, the coworker has any myriad of responses available to them. They could get mad at me for confronting them. They could be embarrassed and stop looking me in the eye for a while. They could begrudgingly "bend to my will" and give in to what I want out of obligation. They could stomp their feet, get angry, and tell me "no!". Or, they could be genuinely grateful that I taught them something new. Regardless, their follow up action is out of my hands - it's how I initially instigated the interaction that matters on my end. I did it with love, which means the "success" of the action, whether immediate or something that affects them down the line, is more sure. If another person had corrected the same person, but was snarkier/less loving, the "success" of the action is much more in doubt. And by the word "success", I mean "seeding of love into that event". Maybe my love was just a single love straw that is building to break the back of the unloving camel in that person's life. Either way, if I know with surety that I did it with love, and I can choose to feel good and successful with my actions, even if the outcome seems to be anger or hatred.

Jade, if you will just cope with me here...Imagine a five pointed star.  On it's points at the farthest left and right are the polarities we talk about as core parts of the spectrum.  Then at the highest point is what I called the middle polarity.  Then we have the two lowest points that are in ways their own forms of polarity that I don't even know how to make an example to better describe...Is this a plausible view of polarity in your mind?  Or is it better to just apply AA's KISS acronym, and to just Keep It Simple Silly and leave it as Left/Right, even though that understanding has been greatly confusing for me?

Like I said, Ra said between the two ends of the spectrum lies the sinkhole of indifference. But I think you are focusing too much on the extreme purity of intent of the STO path. This isn't necessary - it's a gradual thing to increase one's purity of intent. It's not all or nothing right off the bat. Polarity and purity build upon themselves.

Question 4: This answer was greatly helpful, especially regards a recent family matter that occurred over the holidays...
I want to go a bit further with this question.
These restraints of otherselves is one type of catalyst I've experienced that I'm actually coming to accept and handle better more and more often.  On the flip side of this, I've lately found the biggest restraint upon myself is my own mind.  I do meditate fairly often, but it doesn't stop the thoughts that I have, or the feelings I get even after I do the balancing techniques, and sit with the emotions I felt across the day at the end of the day.
I guess I should mention I'm HFA, high functioning autistic, with paranoia and anxiety disorders.  I can hardly pick up a phone to make a phone call, or be outside for longer than a few hours before I become emotional and want to retreat to the comfort of my home.

Do you have any helpful things to add regarding freeing myself more and more from the constraints of my own self?

I wasn't diagnosed HFA until very recently, but looking back all the way to my childhood it pretty much explained why I was always different and alone, and why my childhood best friend is someone with Aspergers.  I can't figure out if the worsening of these conditions in my early twenties forcing me to seek medical help was a result of preincarnational catalyst activating due to my failure at something, or if it's just a naturally occurring catalyst for someone who with fear sought to eliminate by ignoring mostly all catalyst to attempt to focus more on themselves to later on better meet catalyst.  I'm muddying up my question...I'm sorry, I'll move on.

The end of the day balancing excersise (sitting with your feelings at the end of the day) is a GOOD one, if you really want to work harder, I would suggest starting the day with a meditation too, and setting a simple set of intentions, such as: I want to work on an orange ray blockage today, or something along those lines.

I imagine all of this must be harder being HFA. I'm fascinated with Austism and I personally believe it's a reaction to the thinning of the veil that entities are having - especially those who are dual bodies. Our world is designed to break through the thick veil of third density, and those same events are shocking and traumatizing to those who are functioning higher. Do you believe you might be a dual-activated body? (beings who are early fourth density who have incarnated at harvest for extra extra catalyst)

I think ignoring catalyst is the wrong thing to do no matter what, and if you think that your attempts to do this were so successful that you injured yourself mentally, well, I'm not going to say that's impossible. But you should at least attempt to give attention to your catalyst (sounds like you do now with your night meditations).

As far as how to free yourself more from the constraints of other selves... well. That's not easy to quantify in actions. I can tell you that my family literally despises me, so it's not an easy journey. People will always resist you breaking out of the programming of society, especially those who benefit the most from you being programmed. I guess the other things I would recommend might be obvious: Stop watching TV, stop reading news stories (these are ALL propaganda to make you think/feel a certain way). don't spend too much time on social media. Obviously I still watch TV shows (as do most people!) but try not to watch -TV-, which is 20% (minimum) advertising anyway. These things have definitely helped me.

Question 5:  Your answer here greatly upset me, to the point of tears, only because I literally cannot make my mind be as I want it to be by apparently my very own preincarnational design for this life.  This results in literally an endless swathe of incongruity.  I have done things so kind I had people asking me what it was that made me able to be so loving, and all I could think was, 'I didn't do anything at all, I don't even want to deal with any of this, I hate this'; but my feelings say 'it's because I love you the way I want to be loved and I feel everyone deserves that' and the result is I have no idea if those thoughts that I cannot stop or control are effectively nullifying every single thing I do.  Even catching the thoughts and changing them on the spot, in my understanding, is an infringement against the right of those thoughts to come forth and be had and to simply be.

Does that mean, because of the ways I've designed my own mind, I've set myself up on, what I want to call, a 'Very Hard' difficulty in life?

I'm sorry that I made you upset. I think we are all basically on "hard mode" here on earth, to be honest. Having mental difficulties definitely increases that difficulty.

I don't think it's as easy for a thought to nullify an action as it is for an action to nullify a thought, by the way. But, Ra says that increasing our polarity can help protect us from entities who "may not want to help", entities who seed negative thought patterns into us to decrease our polarity. It's a tug of war game, really.

Question 7: I should probably have given some additional information to properly render my focus.  I meant to ask with regards to kundalini more so than anything, in a way similar to the rising serpent mimicking a thermometer rising slowly, is this congruent with the visualization of polarity?
I ask this because the green ray is essentially half way through the system while the indigo ray is at the extreme far end of the entities instreaming energies (their internal placement within their internal world).  Does this mean polarity can be measured like a thermometer similar to the rising and falling of kundalini?

I had a very hard time thinking of how to word this question, I will do so now by simply re-asking it.

7. Is polarity measured like a thermometer that slowly lowers and raises in small or large increments in ways similar to how kundalini's rising serpent might rise and lower as one polarizes more and more towards one end of the polarity spectrum?  I'm trying to ask if polarity's goals and the goals of raising the kundalini are the same concepts described from two different perspectives or angles?  One from the angle of the metaphysics of polarity, and another from the angle of the entity's energetic system?  Or if they are actually still different concepts.

I ask this because if I could remove the distortions of anxiety and fear at the supposed difficulty I see myself having in attaining 51% sto polarity for the ease I see myself having at handling my chakras to raise kundalini up to green ray, it'd help ease my mind a lot.

I don't think they are exactly congruent, but I understand now more what you mean. It is true that Ra says that the locus of where our kundalini meets the incoming energy into our violet ray is a good thermometer of our being. I believe if you can reside in the heart, and recognize when you are opening/closing it, that that is the most important part of polarity.

The most important concept to grasp about the energy field is that the lower or negative pole will draw the universal energy into itself from the cosmos. Therefrom it will move upward to be met and reacted to by the positive spiraling energy moving downward from within. The measure of an entity’s level of ray activity is the locus wherein the south pole outer energy has been met by the inner spiraling positive energy.

As an entity grows more polarized this locus will move upwards. This phenomenon has been called by your peoples the kundalini. However, it may better be thought of as the meeting place of cosmic and inner, shall we say, vibratory understanding. To attempt to raise the locus of this meeting without realizing the metaphysical principles of magnetism upon which this depends is to invite great imbalance.

7.1. In fact, of that, is harvest automatically 'unlocked' or achieved in the future or at the end of this incarnation if the person at any point in their life raised kundalini to green ray, or does it need to be risen to green ray at the time of the termination of this incarnation for harvest to be achieved?

I'm not sure exactly how to answer this one. I believe it's cumulative, but I also believe it can happen in a moment at the end of someone's life. I don't think you can open your heart once and be harvestable, though.

Question 8: May I ask why 6D wanderers have such vastly different plans in life in attempts to reach such extreme polarities, often times at the cost of their health and life, compared to 5D or 4D wanderers?  I feel like for such a thing to occur, it'd be seen as selfish by their human identity which suffers alongside their consciousness for goals that the human identity will never know during it's life.  This opinion is based on Ra's remark of how the yellow ray identity ceases in death.  Is it ethical for a 6D being to reincarnate into a human identity to use for it's own spiritual gain at it's physical identity's sometimes total loss of if not just joy, then life itself?  I'm looking at Carla as an example of this.  While her human identity seemed able to cope with what her consciousness had in plan for her body, if I had been her I wouldn't have been able to cope at all with the thoughts that I were using myself in such extreme ways for goals I would never be able to see with my human eyes during my human life.
Can you provide your thoughts on these concerns of mine?

Where does Ra says that the yellow ray identity ceases at death?

I can offer some thoughts but I cannot say I have the breadth of perception that a 6th density entity does when they choose to incarnate on this planet. I do know that Ra says that they are nearing harvest and are doing subtle balancing by incarnating as Wanderers. This allows them to be closer and closer to reunification with the all, which I assume is good for the whole whenever any entity achieves such. I think by the time we are mid sixth density, we feel so safely within the arms of the Creator that incarnating and feeling away from the arms of the Creator seems to be the only option for new experiences. We limit our awareness so that we can surprise ourselves, really. I do try to frame it as a game in a positive light as much as possible.

Question 10: I must apologize as I incorrectly typed out this question.  I am also dyslexic  
I meant to say Selfishly Selfless and Selflessly Selfish.  I typed Selfishly Selfish, that was a mistake.

Ah, I was wondering why it made little sense! It makes more sense now. I think what you are getting at is how the STO path includes service to self, because it is the most balanced path. Fourth density is the density of martyrdom, but as an STO invokes wisdom, it learns to protect itself from those who do it harm. This is where the balancing gets extra tricky - because you certainly don't want to justify shutting down the heart as a means of protecting the self from another self - ultimately, acceptance and compassion is the end goal. But for instance, "freeing oneself from the constraints of otherselves" can be an extremely selfish thing - especially when you have friends and family who are left behind in the wake. But ultimately we do this so that we can see more the the heart of the being of ourselves and of others.

The question was meant to help me untangle in my mind the single-pointed nature of polarity's core, that being both left and right emerge from the same place and reconcile back into the same place.  This allows for seemingly paradoxical occurrences.  Such as, being selfish can seem selfless, and being selfless can seem selfish.  

Does it all ultimately boil down to the genuine intent rather than all the thoughts, words, and actions made up to that point?  Does giving to the homeless just to make myself feel better boil down to sts polarity?  Does not giving a homeless man 20 dollars cause you know he'll spend it on booze rather than food and water boil down to sto because you didn't want to help another further destroy their self?

This question is me attempting to define the gray areas.
OR, random sudden thought, does being selfish and selfless in the same sequence cause both polarization of sts and sto energies?  Or do they share the same 'thermometer' and thus negate each other if both were to 'rise' (think of adding a negative number to a positive value, your addition is actually subtraction).

It is a paradox. Here, let's look at the homeless man as a distiller of polarity:
Giving money to the homeless to feel like a good person/brag about it - slight negative polarization
Refraining from giving to a homeless person because of judgement on where he'll spend his money - strong negative polarization
Giving money to the homeless because they are asking for help in a way that is easy for you to offer - slight positive polarization
Giving money to the homeless because you know it's the right thing, in spite of your feelings that they might spend it on booze - pretty strong positive polarization

There are lots of homeless where I live, so this is catalyst I've tried to process thoroughly. My ideal place I try to be at is: If I see a person with a sign asking for help, and I have a few spare singles, I will give that person the money. Now, I'm not perfect - there are lots of panhandlers and sometimes I do judge on "how homeless" someone is - there are the obvious homeless, and then of course there are panhandlers who supplement whatever other income they have. But I try to abide by the rule that, if someone in my frame of perception is asking for help and I notice, and I can help without much too much expenditure on my part, I should help.

My justification for giving the homeless "booze money" (and, full disclosure, I've given panhandlers marijuana in various forms several times) is that no matter what, they're gonna buy booze. Maybe my $3 will be enough to at least push them over their "booze money" threshhold into the surplus, "food money" budget. You cannot survive on liquor alone, humans have to eat, so I justify that somewhere, some of the money they receive goes to food. Obviously. And maybe the warm gesture will affect them in other, intangible ways, too.  

And let's not judge the boozers so harshly, yeah? Alcohol keeps you warm, reduces pain - most of the homeless have mental illness of some sort, and this is their way of self-medicating. However, it's also why I enjoy giving them marijuana when I can - it's a more legitimate way to self medicate, and a few tokes will often keep someone away from the bottle for a while. But I just think of how cold these people must get, and what physical ailments they likely have that make drinking/medicating a necessity to function.

11.  I question the 'most vivid' portion, as I've had dreams that seemed more real and vivid than waking life itself.  Though I think I understand it within the context of 'The most vivid catalyst available to 3D entities'.
I don't know...So many people have compared Earth to the concept of Hell.  I can see it myself personally, and it hurts to see such things being done by creator to creator, I fret at the possibility that I could be one of those creations being cast into the hellish parts of life on Earth.  More so than that, a large part of my conscious mind repeatedly echos that it would rather cease to exist than deal with all of the...more traumatic catalyst available on Earth, an ode to my desire to suicide rather than suffer to such extremes.
The entire concept of catalyst's operations as described by Ra did essentially sum up to Suffering to Learn Lessons to me, which at first was acceptable in examples like you touch a hot stove and learn through pain not to do so again for your own safety.  Or experiencing sadness at the loss of a good friend, so as to learn through the suffering of the catalyst of sadness to try harder to keep your friends.
But past a point, I lose the ability to accept it.  Such as in areas like someone being imprisoned and raped or tortured, what purpose does such vehement suffering and pain have to serve or teach that isn't lost in the distortions spawned by the traumatic experience?  How does the one performing the catalyst upon you, the raped and tortured, learn from teaching you greater myriads of pain when all they garnish from the experience is the pleasure of your suffering?  Sure, it serves some portion of the infinite creator, but were these lessons truly consensual or abrogations of your consent to be interacted with in certain ways?  Is this way of use of the human creation ethical?
If humanity's collective identity one day became aware of these ways and mechanics and functions and existence of Catalyst, would it collectively agree with these mechanisms as ethical once they saw the results of these constructs, or would their be rebellion against this way of reality's functioning?

Dreaming as we know it is a function of third density - as well as the vividness of the dreams, IMO. Without the veil, with no conflict, not even dreams would be as vivid as they are.

I understand your resonance with earth being a Hell planet. I get that totally - here's one of my favorite songs. I think it's another one of our paradoxes - the Edenic Hell of our planet.

I guess sometimes it requires faith - faith that, from a larger perspective, the suffering does have a purpose. That a person may have distortions the rest of their life because of trauma, but that maybe this is just one part of the story, one lifetime in a series of lifetimes where we are setting up dominoes for ourselves to knock down.

You also have to remember that before the Creator conceived of the veil, that suffering didn't exist at all. Now, infinity is more, because of the veil, because of suffering. Suffering is a "improvement" on Creation and infinity, if you can think of it that way. Again, I sincerely don't believe we would be so eager to Wander if our life stories would lack any conflict or drama.

Question 12:  That statement about the absence of free will's existence before the veil seems contradictory due to the offered view that before there was even space or time to form a veil in, there was the First Primal Distortion of the Law of One known as The Law of Confusion/Free Will.
I don't see Free Will as inherently selfish, I do however view the way the creation uses 3D creations, from the participation in genocide to the purposeful design of extreme ranges of pain and suffering to planetary scale dissolution and destruction, as being viewable as selfish uses of creation disregarding creation's experiences to the results, seeing any and all as favorable, when possibly to the many that experienced it directly, found it to be wholly unfavorable despite knowing something was still gained for the one infinite.

I think a philosophical question can be garnished from this design of the veil and 3D acquiring experiences for the one infinite; does an entity remain itself once it permanently acquires amnesia, or does it hence become a new entity?  Is the amnesiac entity subject to all the choices and consequences of a life it has no memory of ever being a part of?  Is it ethical to subject that entity that is displaced in an entirely new setting with a new personality and new thoughts to consequences it garnished in a wholly different space, time, and identity?

I guess I just wonder if the one infinite creator has a sense similar to a human, to not rip off one of it's limbs just for the experience of doing so.  I can't say with certainty if it does or doesn't if I'm to believe the history of our solar system given in the Ra Material.  Were I the logos, after one of my planetary bodies was destroyed, I'd put a temporary halt to the experiment just to make sure everything is okay and to see if the little parts of me effected in that occurrence are okay and willing to continue or not, rather than to just be loving to the outcome and continue on without much more thought given to those who suffered through it.

...Perhaps I am overly distorted with love, I care so much about the suffering of others that I question the worth of that suffering.  I question if we could not find a better way to go about this experiment without causing so much harm that entire civilizations are bombing themselves out of physical existence.  It just seems...Like something is off for that to be happening, if you can accept that as my way of seeing things.

Ra said that before the veil was conceptualized, Logoi believed they were offering Free Will to their sub-logoi.

To answer your philosophical question - well, I can think of an analogy. Look at an infant. Eventually it grows into a toddler, a child, a teen, an adult. This is the same person, but the experiences (and appearances!) of the adult are much greater than that of the infant. In that vein, there is a lot of programming for humans that happens in that interim between child and adult, that skews our morality and our ability to empathize with suffering.

I think your empathy is commendable and a huge thing - but, as you can see, you can martyr yourself with empathy. The Logos again, offering free will to the entities that have blown up their planet, has choices to make but mostly the Logos wants to honor the free will of its inhabitants. It's not as if these entities are without help - within the Logos, we have the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow who reach out to those who have been traumatized be their own actions. The veil, while incarnated, just makes these efforts almost completely ignored.

To use another Star Trek analogy, think of how important the Prime Directive is. There are times when the crew can save others from destruction, but can't, because they are bound by the Prime Directive. This forces them to artfully create ways to break the Prime Directive without altering the awareness of those who haven't evolved yet to the level of the Federation. But, the greatest sin is forcing awareness upon others before they have come upon it themselves - it's spoiling the game. It's forcing people to play poker with the hands shown.

Question 13: I thought as much, but the question spawned from my having a thought about how balancing the indigo ray might affect the physical state of the pineal gland, which lead to what I hope isn't too big of a leap, to the thought that crystallization might affect the physical, and so I was wondering if the nervous system that connects the cardiovascular systems of the heart and the digestive systems of the gut to the mental systems of the brain can also be affected in similar ways as the pineal gland.
Like, does the nervous system surrounding the heart change as the green-ray is crystallized?
Does the digestive system and it's nervous system and operations change to reflect crystallization of the lower triad chakras?
Do the genitalia function more efficiently or effectively (in regards to sexual energy transfers, or maybe even just sex in general) if the red ray is crystallized?  I know a low functioning red-ray with an equally low functioning orange-ray can lead to medical issues like erectile dysfunction, does balancing these rays heal the medical issue?  Does crystallizing them create a sort of perpetuation or defense against the energy centers once more becoming distorted?

Because if they do, then this means scientifically we can potentially find a way to measure this effect by looking at what changes when one crystallizes their chakras.

I could probably make literally a 100 question list about just chakras alone, I've studied them a lot, and sometimes refer to myself as an amateur chakra reader to do divination readings for people.  The energetic chakra system is the one system in the Law of One that I am about 75% sure I reincarnated with knowledge already present.  I remember as a child I could feel 'energy' in the palms of my hands (which I now know are tertiary chakra points), and because I watched Dragon Ball Z, I used to pretend to do the kamehameha attack, and I could literally feel a vibrating frenzy of energy in my right hand whenever I would do this.
Similarly, I attuned myself to the show Naruto majorly because I liked it's idea of 'Chakra' being used, and found that certain hand signs do help me mold and weave my own chakric energies.
I even realized there's a small minor chakra below the red-ray (that I call the magenta-ray) that has two vortices and rotates in a way as to form the serpent look of the instreaming rising energy.  Furthermore this is posited in the vertebrae formations of the spine which largely correlate with chakra centers.
But like, that's my geeking out and I don't want to waste too much of your time >.<

Ah, I see your question now. And I definitely associate each chakra with its closest endocrine gland - so yes, I believe as you crystallize each chakra, not necessarily that your physical composition changes, but which chemicals your endocrine glands release are affected. Our hormonal outputs affect others around us, too - so yes, I that physical correlation is a big part of crystallizing the chakras. Sorry for not grasping your question properly.

For what it's worth, the physical cause of erectile dysfunction is a blockage of the arteries, and it's a symptom of pre-heart disease. You can extrapolate the metaphysical meaning behind this too (I try to)

I'm big on trying to understand the chakras, too, and drawing their physical correlations is a big deal. Ra says what isn't processed in the mind begins to manifest in the body - stomach ache? What is the orange chakra trying to tell you? (often for me: eat better food to take care of your body complex!)

14.  I actually don't fully agree with your explanation of the violet-ray, I've personally come to find that it is as is without the other chakras directly effecting it, but rather that it effects itself through effecting the other chakras.  Don't know why I felt the need to say this, but I felt like it, so that must mean something.  I've found that meditating upon my violet ray has led to many great intuitions about my other chakras, including moments of such precise intuition that I correctly realized I was HFA where the entire time I thought my mental illness was of some kind of schizoid disorder or even partial schizophrenia or even delusional disorder with the disorder being a delusion of belief of having a disorder.  Then when I went to get diagnosed it was like the pieces of the puzzle all just got thrown into place, the language issues growing up effecting my reading and writing skills, the flapping of my hands as a kid that I found so fun to do, the weird ways I thought and felt that seemed to separate me from everyone else.
I also swear I read Ra saying both the red and violet rays are fixed, but not in the same kinds of ways, with violet being fixated on the totality, while red-ray seemed to be fixated on the individual but I can't find the passage that says this, assuming my memory isn't being stupid  :-/
The information given is still helpful though.  Thank you, Jade.

That's cool, I can grasp that. I can't say I've had too many violet ray chakra meditations.

I found the "fixed red ray" quote, let's look at it in context:

34.13 Questioner: What is the general overall effect of television on our society with respect to this catalyst?

Ra: I am Ra. Without ignoring the green-ray attempts of many to communicate via this medium such information, truth, and beauty as may be helpful, we must suggest that the sum effect of this gadget is that of distraction and sleep.

34.14 Questioner: Can you give me the same type of information that we’ve been working on now with respect to the self relationship with war and rumors of war?
Ra: I am Ra. You may see this in relationship to your gadgets. This war and self relationship is a fundamental perception of the maturing entity. There is a great chance to accelerate in whatever direction is desired. One may polarize negatively by assuming bellicose attitudes for whatever reason. One may find oneself in the situation of war and polarize somewhat towards the positive activating orange, yellow, and then green by heroic, if you may call them this, actions taken to preserve the mind/body/spirit complexes of other-selves.

Finally, one may polarize very strongly third ray* by expressing the principle of universal love at the total expense of any distortion towards involvement in bellicose actions. In this way the entity may become a conscious being in a very brief span of your time/space. This may be seen to be what you would call a traumatic progression. It is to be noted that among your entities a large percentage of all progression has as catalyst, trauma.

* This should be fourth ray. Ra corrected the mistake in the next answer.

34.15 Questioner: You just used the term third ray in that statement. Was that the term you meant to use?

Ra: I am Ra. We intended the green ray. Our difficulty lies in our perception of red ray and violet ray as fixed; thus the inner rays are those which are varying and are to be observed as those indications of seniority in the attempts to form an harvest.

This is the end of a long series of questions, actually, about karma and catalyst. It seems to me, in context, that what Ra is saying is that the output of the red and violet rays have no polarity.

Ra follows up with this:

34.16 Questioner: Would the red ray, an intense red ray, then be used as an index for seniority, the seniority system of incarnation, as well as the intense violet ray?

Ra: I am Ra. This is partially correct. In the graduation or harvesting to fourth-density positive, the red ray is seen only as that, which being activated, is the basis for all that occurs in vibratory levels, the sum of this being violet-ray energy.

This violet ray is the only consideration for fourth-density positive. In assessing the harvestable fourth-density negative, the intensity of the red as well as the orange and the yellow rays is looked upon quite carefully as a great deal of stamina and energy of this type is necessary for the negative progression, it being extremely difficult to open the gateway to intelligent infinity from the solar plexus center. This is necessary for harvest in fourth-density negative.

Obviously Ra is implying that there are various "intensities" of the red ray. A negative entity needs a "more intense" red ray to reach the indigo by bypassing the heart.

16. I'm afraid I have done these things, and where they once helped me, no longer do, and I can't figure out why...  I've read that meditation is supposed to help mental illnesses, but in my case it exacerbates it sometimes, and other times it calms it.  I've come out of meditations perfectly fine one second only to suddenly be hit by crippling oceans of emotions, and other times I'd go for hours doing well with no issues.  It seems almost random.  The work I do on my chakras seems to be persistently stuck on my orange and yellow rays, no matter how much time, effort, patience, love, acceptance, forgiveness, the whole spectrum, and yet I cannot seem to balance them in such a way as to be minimally balanced consistently hour after hour.  Unless I could literally begin performing extended hours long meditations, I don't think I'm going to get anywhere unless something changes, and I don't know what that something is.

I'm still trying though, it can just become so frustrating when you spend 2 hours in a meditation and come out feeling wonderful, blissful, and joyous, then you stand up and you're hit with crippling depression out of nowhere.

It seems to me that what you are really struggling with the most is faith. You have to continue believing that these things help you, when you recognize they do. When you struggle, you can't attach to the struggle - you have to try to look at the struggle more lightly, to see the struggle as a "test" (initiation) for the new lessons that you have integrated. We've built these tests in for ourselves to escalate our difficulty of experience, because again, otherwise, we'd get bored and abandon our progress.

9/10 I get no direct stimulation/benefit/change in consciousness from my meditations. If I let my perceived accomplishments in the metaphysical realm decide whether or not I meditate, I wouldn't meditate at all! I do it because the Confederation insists that daily meditation is a necessary requirement to really hone one's efforts in working in consciousness. I have strong faith in that.

17. It makes me wonder, cause I see everything from 12:22, 12:34, 5:55, 4:44, 3:33...All of it, 4:56, 3:45, you name it I see it I bet.  In fact this occurs in military time, and on analog clocks (ON ANALOG CLOCKS!!  9:45, 8:40, 7:35, 6:30 and that's just when the hands are together).  Maybe one day we can all have a group meditation on the meanings of these alarm clock styled synchronicities.

My biggest and most reliable (daily) clock sync is :33. I think it would definitely be possible to do one of our midweek meditations as "Seeking synchronicities" or something along those lines. I'll put that one to work in the old noggin.

Thank you for all your time, sorry if my views are confrontational seeming or rude.  Turns out, when you're HFA, some times you come off rude and impolite without ever noticing it, I hope I haven't been that way in this post.  Genuinely thank you for your time.  It's always a pleasure talking to you even if it seems like it isn't.

Also, thank you everyone else so far who has answered.  Please don't think I don't appreciate your responses!  I just spent...omg, 4 hours responding just to Jade.  The way time flies when you don't want it to lol.  Everything given is helpful, I'll be responding in time...

I'm very happy to help, friend, and glad to see you back. I hope none of my answers caused more distress or confusion. I'll do my best to follow up again if you would like, too.

[Minyatur]

I'm gonna try to go to the heart of the matter in my own intuitive words.

Polarity :
You're being fed a reality (manifestation of other portions of your wholeness expressed through a mind in perception of a inner and outer self). Your polarity is your emotional feedback, which really just is the energy that passes through your energy field/being. At this level there's just the energy signature of what you are feeling about the portions of your wholeness you are perceiving. You perceive your inner or outer self and have an emotional feedback. That is your polarity and anything other is a mean to distort your perception of Yourself/OIC that generates your polarity.

Confusion :
Not knowing what the f*** is what and having a highly chaotic emotional response to your reality. What does it do? Create the chaotic ripples of your inner state out into your outer self (reality). The salvation of confusion is the archetype of the great ways of the mind, and is about finding a strong direction through polarity. Pure positive does not feel disgust, does not feel disdain and pure negative does not feel appreciation, does not feel gratitude, etc.

Direction :
Having a positive or negative strong direction in your perception of your reality. So you got unbalanced/balanced positive/negative. A 6D negative entity is a highly conscious and highly balanced negatively polarized entity, whereas a 4D negative entity is a highly unconscious and unbalanced negatively polarized entity. Just like a 6D positive entity is a highly conscious and highly balanced positively polarized entity, whereas a 4D positive entity is a highly unconscious and unbalanced positively polarized entity. So as you see, acceptance and rejection are neither wrong per say, but there's a conscious and balanced manner to become polarized which opens the gates to true knowledge. Ultimately it all ends in acceptance, otherwise the first distortion would be void in it's timeless nature.

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Now I'm going to share the method I use to work on myself. Why? Because in whatever height of consciousness I've been it's always been what I deemed most efficient for myself, although lately I've been reverting the work, and I can easily perceive why it can be to useful to many other kind of souls. To me it is a manner to more easily focus on the positive when there's still negative patterns to balance.

First of all, in the system of chakras, other than the concept of blockages upon your energy field, you have the concept of openness altogether. I am a BIG preacher of balance over polarity. And that's where I think things might interest you. For a moment let's just say the world is what it is and your highest work is to just accept it as it is. There's plain more things happen outside your control than you can influence, so let's just take a moment and focus on what your balance is instead of what the state of what ALL energy is. You do this for a year, or two, or 5 and I can guarantee you that you'll emerge more efficient in whatever you undertake. If you want to share peace, you gotta find it. If  you wanna share direction, you gotta find it.

So what to do?  Well for myself I inputted really strong tendencies which at different point closed up portions of my energy field starting with the red ray. I'm now consciously un-doing these unconscious barriers I set for myself. For someone to do the opposite work, I'd advise meditation on closing your energy field instead of opening it. It's not about blockages, it's just about restraining the flow unto your actual blockages to be able to balance them at a lesser intensity. Once you feel balanced, you'll naturally have a call toward a fuller expression of yourself into your outer reality and will open them back.

Paradox of polarity :
Ultimately you will recognize that existence forever is perfect, and your free will was illusionary as all it was able to do is it's perfect role. How is this so? Everything is a perfect balance, you don't shape in any way your environment any more than it has shaped you to shape itself back. You are the cause and effect of what your reality has been and all you are able to provide, however conscious or unconscious, is the perfect feedback of what your reality has been. It's no joke that we're all one, we all are one self with inner/outer separation, we all are the perfect mirror of one being, we all are the perfect being. Awareness of this is the path of understanding. It's path of wisdom/love, but all wisdom/love has to do is to balance itself more and more toward love. And there's a time where you will embrace this, whatever happens before this time.

I'd also add that an important aspect of your reality is that it's very first distortion is forever your free will. It is the most transcendant and boundless Law of all Laws. So here it has direction in becoming acceptant of your reality, connect to your higher self and surrender to the portion of yourself that has become acceptant of what you have yet to become acceptant of, that has healed what you have yet to heal, that has reached knowledge that you have not, that has seen beyond the limits of your view. It's not a one way journey, the end is right in it's beginning and it ends in full acceptance of all that is.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Yikes!  All the familiar people!  I'm going to respond to the bigger posts once I finish reading them, but for the moment I'd like to explain myself a bit, in hopes that it will help others when talking to me.

Just some thoughts on some of the questions.

I never understood the nillhistic viewpoint. Or rather I feel directly opposite about nillhism. To me having someone say life is about this. Or this is what everything's about. Would make me feel like nillhistic. I like the open ended, make your own path. Make it what you make of it style. Like you Jade I see an infinite potential to experience. I Think of it as a bag of goodies that never end....what's the problem here?

I at first thought this exact way, the fun never ends!  It's just that I thought about it perhaps too much, and might have made some very distorted leaps of logic.  I see it that heaven is not worth hell.  Or basically that purgatory isn't worth the suffering one has to endure to reach heaven at last, whether it be eternal bliss or damnation, neither deserves the opposite's suffering in my mind.  All that really means is I do not believe 100 years of torment is worth eternity of bliss, or 100 years of nauseating bliss is worth eternity of inflicting torment on others.  Maybe that's just me, but those 100 years would really sour the remaining eternity for me, personally.

Because of that, when I look at this realm of 3D, see it's catalyst in areas that go to such extremes as to make me not even want to be aware of what can occur, I simply apply my imagination to what the future might hold.
I do not believe existence is all Love and Light to all of existence.  At some point, more suffering is going to have to be had in ways similar to this place, and for all I know they will be more bearable, or even harder to handle than this place is, and I'm not entirely sure I'm okay with that.

As for why I view the entire task of self discovery as an empty occurrence, I just see it as fulfilling up to a point, then the satisfaction will subside, then the experiment will change, more fulfillment hopefully, then it subsides, rinse and repeat.  That manner of existence to me is akin to running on a hamster wheel.  As a human it is all I could ever need to feel fulfilled, but my soul isn't satisfied, and I don't know why; but if all existence is boils down to self-discovery, then I want to try something radical by spiritual standards, and attempt to seek something beyond the self and the impossibilities that arise there.  The only basis I have for this desire being possible to fulfill is that the nature of infinity would allow it to occur.  Even if it's just the illusion of discovering something separate from the whole, the excitement of finding a 'spiritual alien' is fascinating to me.  Though, I see that such thoughts are weird and odd to some, I overall just desire to discover something that will change the way the one infinite views itself, makes it take a metaphorical step back, and makes it reconsider everything it is, knows, will be.

I just want to find something new, something new as in completely unknown, fully mysterious and unthought-of.  Even if that simply means to gaze upon the very mystery clad one infinite creator in it's fullness, something to change the game completely, because as it is I do not feel I belong within it, at least not in the roles I've had.

But that could also all just be me being stupid and mixing up fantasy with reality.  It's hard to not walk over that imaginary line of fantasy sometimes for me when thinking about these concepts.

I cannot...Properly explain why I feel an emptiness when I think of these concepts.  To be completely honest, the emptiness derived itself originally from the fear that in eternal infinity, anything is possible.  Even an eternity of misery.  From there I imagine those souls and portions of consciousness in this microcosm of the Law of One that are experiencing just that.  From there, all I want is to understand how to help them.  Being unable to do that seems to draw me closer to them, as it makes me very miserable and hence, the feeling of emptiness in existence.

But overall, I don't think I as a consciousness am naturally that way, I really just think this is a very, very hard incarnation for my own soul to deal with, especially because at various points I question my own character as a consciousness, and question if I, and all of you, and all of those participating in 3D, are actually ethically responsible sentient entities, or if this is some kind of purely experimental game that only exists due to it's becoming a cornerstone upon which higher densities require it's presence to exist.

I don't know, but thinking about it sure does make me lose my mind  

la-de-da, oh...  That was the only short response.  Guess I better start reading the longer ones.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

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This answer helps me somewhat.  Thank you, and hello again.

I find all of what is said in those quotes makes perfect sense to me.  It's ultimately everything that I can use my mind to apply such imaginative scenarios to that brings me to such questions and concerns that I've provided.
Most core of all of my issues you've answered to in your post is the following two areas:
Discerning acceptance and control from each other.
Making sense of the types of catalyst that manifest.

What is it to be accepting, or controlling?  Do we not control the growth of the tree by applying nutrients to it's soil and water to it's roots?  Perhaps that is a very bad example, as we do not control the growth of the tree, it does that itself (whether consciously or otherwise, I am unsure of).
Similarly any examples of a parent controlling a child might be a bad example as the means of parenting offspring might require some form of control be acceptable for their own concerns.
I'm unsure if I can think up an example that isn't heavily flawed or skewed and appropriately highlights my major concerns.

Maybe I'll mention about the legal system.  Is this a form of a negative societal structure?  Taking control of other's resources, right up to their very life?  Is this not a form of negative catalyst that seeks to allow another entity to utilize it to take control over you?  Despite it's positive implications towards maintaining a peaceful society (which in my experience, it itself is not the cause of such wholly).

Does bathing the body count as controlling it's natural functions outcomes?
Does becoming conscientious and being mindful of thoughts had not a form of controlling the response to catalyst of the mind?

Then there's acceptance, what is truly accepting?  Does it mean ultimately to be unattached to the catalyst incoming, to meet it and let it be, to respond only as you feel is appropriate to do so for all parties involved?
Does allowing a car battery to die a form of positive catalyst because you didn't take control and change the components of the car? Urg, that's a bad example too...

Does allowing another to drown a form of positive catalyst if you know you're unable to do anything?  Is calling the authorities for help a form of controlling the situation and thus a negative outcome?

The overall ability for the misunderstanding and misinterpretation of the concepts of 'control' and 'acceptance' are so vague that all I could ever think of that ultimately defines any of these things are the 'intent' of the actions being taken.  If one does not intend to control a situation despite making movements to do so, is this still negative?  If one intends to allow another to be harmed and accepts the reality of the situation, is this positive?

Does stopping an armed attacker's assault count as negative intention?
Does letting an armed attacker assault you count as a form of positive intention?

Is there even a black and white in this area or have we walked into the deeper parts of the twilight zone of reality where there is no black and white, but merely shades of gray ad infinitum?  Does this mean an act of both polarities ultimately rounds out to which end of the spectrum is more highlighted, the positive or negative?  Is this the cause for the two steps forward one step back usual occurrence of polarizing in entities?

Is anything at this level of discussion even possible to be handed out as black or white?

When we talk of control, of acceptance, of catalyst, is any of it actually truly neutral, or positive, or negative, or is it all a mixture that must be met, processed, and diffused/assimilated?

I thank you for your answer as it gives me a lot to consider, but I just want to point out that I personally believe catalyst, while majorly neutral, does have charged sides about it.  Why, when your boss attempts to ruin your life on a whim, I'd call that a wholly negative catalyst, as it serves to control the major outcome of your life at your own loss with no thought or concern given to you, and further offers the catalytic gift of further negative catalyst down the road, such as being mugged by someone while homeless, being assaulted by police for soliciting in a location just trying to stay warm and alive.  Similarly, when the love of your life shows up with flowers, chocolates, and tickets to an event you really wanted, I'd see this as neutral-positive catalyst, which has the further catalytic gift of offering further catalyst later on of a potentially positive nature.

I understand that a phrase exists for coping with negative catalyst, 'things falling apart are actually things falling together'.  I find this is not true for many people who's final days on Earth are spent on the streets starving, freezing, sick, and lonely.  The only thing that fell together from their fallen apart life was their death certificate.

So obviously There's some things that I feel needs to be addressed.

In fact, sometimes, if I really let myself just be honest with myself, I feel like I'm here desperately trying to grasp for some kind of thought process or experience that will aid me in offering some kind of useful or worthwhile suggestion as to the design of this reality.  A good big part of me feels that I'm a designer of sorts in the afterlife.  Not sure if it's just of reality systems, physics, aesthetics or functions or what, but I desperately want to find a way to help make catalyst on this planet a bit more efficiently used so as to lessen the overall suffering across 3D, at least to the point where there aren't souls so lost in this density that several people have Near Death Experiences witnessing planes of depressed souls wandering aimlessly upon the plane unable to cope with the misery that manifests from their very selves and experiences they've had.

I might also add, since I was a child and made to attend catholic night school classes, and learned of the afterlife, I've had a lifelong desire nigh obsession (which goes along with my being HFA...) of the afterlife.  I used to imagine a large field of flowers with a tree and a river as just one part of what the afterlife would look like, in a sense like a way-station.  It's desire to be known by me has been explored in my own fictional works, and overall has been the leading factor in my life towards a pull to explore philosophies, cultures, the paranormal, but of it all I find myself so laughably ill-equipped to properly go about researching and exploring any of these things that I'm left chuckling stupidly at my self.  Some days the want to know is so obsessive I contemplate if I should self-initiate a NDE, but I'm also not stupid and know doing so would probably go beyond the 'near' part of the death experience.

I really just want to better understand things so I can actually help in a way that doesn't feel futile to me.  Volunteering at soup kitchens, giving food and water to the homeless on the corners of the roads, looking for jobs where I help those in need, it all feels so futile.  Sure it helps one in ways greatly appreciated, but it also brings me ever closer to the great misery that I try to escape from, and it does make me lose my mind at the injustice, the backwards systems, the deliberate use and abuse of life by those with power within humanity.

It makes me mad.  Sad.  Upset.  I do not want to see people hurting, I just don't believe they deserve it.  My only exception to this, is when it is what they want.  I've met homeless people who've told me right to my face, 'I'm a horrible person and deserve to suffer', and then they turn right around and help others doing better than himself at his own loss.  I can accept that, but it just makes me wonder, why does such a loving person believe they have to suffer, that they're horrible?  It makes me sad.  I care too much.

That catalyst is as it is I now question if it is actually made purposefully to incite suffering, or if it was just a natural occurrence as to the [meta]physics of our reality that it should cause such suffering when not used.

What's more, if it were simply possible for the intuitive sense of people to be better honed to provide a better...Path Compass to direct people through their own selves.

I don't know, Aion.  If you could change something to make catalyst more efficiently used and lessen the severity of misery in 3D, would you?  Or would that just be seen by creation as a negative attempt to control it?

moving onward~
Minyatur (did I spell that right?  What a tricky name!), your response actually served to confuse me somewhat more, but then again your energy feels especially different so all I can do is try to understand.  Some of the things you suggest are actually things I've had to undo because they were already done.  My energetic system, specifically at the yellow-ray, was completely shut down for a few years.  My red-ray is pretty heavily damaged from long-term issues of survival, I've suffering with suicidal tendencies since I was just a child, in fact the moment I learned of an afterlife was the moment I realized I didn't really actually want to be alive, as much as I just wanted to be...Happy.  I'd rather die and enjoy the afterlife than live and suffer, but life isn't that simple, I have people who love me and care about me, I have friends who rely on me for their own emotional support.  To just remove myself would be more painful to them than myself I imagine, in the long run, so I try not to.
Doesn't change the fact I still try every year, when you can't control some of the faculties of your mind, it really doesn't make things any easier to cope with.

Further, there was one point in my life were everything was good, some people seem to call this a spiritual awakening but I felt like it was more than that.  More than waking up, it was like discovering something that made everything else acceptable, and then I subsequently lost grip of whatever it was I had discovered, and sank back into my old patterns which beforehand were the norm, and afterwards, suddenly was just such a terrible thing to experience, like day and night only it's the same thing.  Because of that I wonder about what you've said.

I do not see perfection in the way it is normally attributed, to me, something perfect must have a paradoxical imperfection about it that closes the loop, makes the full circle be had, and creates the only true thing that is perfect, im/perfection.  In that way I can agree with you that reality is perfect as is, but even perfection leaves room for involvement, evolution, for tweaking the game.

Many of your examples, like mine, are generalizations and may not be best utilized by some in mindfulness, for instance, a 4D positive entity may not be balanced, but I believe it is very much conscious of its self, and in a way that consciousness is merely lacking the wisdom to realize how imbalanced it is towards love.  If by unconscious you meant uninformed of the ever deeper realistic portions of reality shared with the less dense portions, then definitely I can see what you're saying.

I find it alarming that you say you believe in balance over polarity.  I thought the exact same thing then one day realized there is no difference between the two.  In order to polarize in any direction, a sort of balance that I can only describe as im/balance needs to be met by the entity to consistently constantly polarize.  Without the imbalances and balances of the mixture of energies like Wisdom and Love or their inversions such as Logic and Control, any attempt to polarize through utilizing catalyst may merely be met with stumbling into the energies of indifference due to the inability to properly be aware or conscious of what needs be done to polarize a certain way.

For me, balance is a mechanism designed to further the efficient usage of not only catalyst, but experiences overall both within and without incarnation.  Balance is my middle name, a-lack-of is my last  

But seriously, your views are interesting and mimics many of mine when I first began digesting in depth the Law of One philosophy or at least the bits of it we have available to us...  I just get a strong sense that you're heavily blocking yourself, possibly for the benefit of us all, as I think were you to just come full out 200% honesty, you'd probably incite great amounts of cognitive dissonance in all of us, er, I apologize, I shouldn't speak for the others, at the very least, you'd incite such in myself.

Jade, I shall reply in a separate post to you~!

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

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I love Star Trek!  I know exactly what episode you're talking about~
I remember talking to my Aunt about Star Trek, and she asked me which one I liked the most, the first, TNG, DS9, or Voyager.  I said TNG, and she was flabbergasted with me, couldn't believe I didn't prefer the first series!
Well, I didn't get to explain myself to her, but I loved the first series, it had truly creative and inspiring stories, but TNG has lessons that I could take with me into the remainder of my life, it was more than just a show, it was a teacher.  From discussing the cultural issues of suicide when Worf's spine was crushed, to the inherent flaws of societies that hold themselves arrogantly in brighter lights than they actually are, all the way to the Human Experiment that Data embodies so greatly, a being without emotion that can still act as if with emotion, even at one point disobeying direct commands from Riker in order to save the Exocomp robots which he believed were sentient whereas no one else did, all the way to exploring concepts of losing your sanity (Frame of Mind) to believing you are delusional (episode where Picard is made to believe he is suffering from delusions of being a Starship Captain) all the way to the implications of torture when Picard is captured by Cadassians in a secret mission.
-geeking out!-

Your answer helps me, I feel it ultimately is up to myself to make sense of what is and is not right and wrong for me, personally, to do...

I'll give some insight into my working situation, I was working at a Mcdonalds and was really just trying to find a job that would help mold me into a better worker.  I told the manager this, that I have standards for how places operate, that I want to be held to standards as well to better become a better worker.
Instead I was met with pretty much the worst work situation I could see myself working in, like one of those shows where they try to fix up a failing restaurant, this place was just abysmal
No one showed up on time, some showing up over an hour late, most of them being managers.
Food safety was completely thrown out the door, we were serving green eggs and ham (no joke, the eggs would get so old they'd go green, the canadian bacon would be so old it'd acquire an iridescent shine on the surface that shone green).
Meat would be burned or over-held then served.
The worst was at night though, I was the dishwasher/grill cook so I was always in the back, I got to see just how bad things were.  Half the kitchen was falling apart, the bun toaster would eat buns (and clog up then jam), half the grill was constantly not working, sometimes 3/4th of it would not work, I'd make meat that would come out still half raw, so I'd need to cook home style (flipping the meat patties) which isn't regulation.
The elderly man who worked there propositioned a 15 year old working there for sex, he was suspended one day, a manager who talked about it was suspended for two days.
This same elderly man was expected to singlehandedly every monday and thursday night move hundreds of pounds of inventory dropped off by the truck by himself (a violation of OSHA regulations on hazardous job tasks).
The night manager who barely speaked english would serve half burnt meat and handle ALL of the food with his bare hands.  This includes serving chicken nuggets that fall on the floor or into a trash can.  The first time I saw that I almost threw up because I used to eat at that location very often.
The night shift was also constantly short staffed forcing the night manager to work the kitchen alone while I did dishes just so we could close on time, the result was he couldn't keep up with his own job of making meat and serving it, the result was quality and food standards dropped totally.
I talked to the GM, she knew all about it and didn't care, she was doing what she needed to do to insure her business operated at all.

And for that very last reason, I was left unable to find a solution as to what to do.  Most of the employees were nice, great even, but some of them (day manager) were completely off their rocker at times, the day manager would tell me she taught me things that she didn't, would tell me to do things then tell me the wrong way to do them, then get mad at me.  I could go on and on and on, it was somewhat of a nightmare because all I could think was these poor customers are being sold food not fit to be eaten, and no one cares.

Man gets mugged in our parking lot, not one employee called the police even when I told them they should if it's bad out there.

Overall, I did not make the calls because for starters, me and phone calls do NOT get along, I have total anxiety attacks at making phone calls just to friends or businesses to ask simple questions, heart races, get cold sweats and shaky.  It's ridiculous but that's what happens I guess when you receive world shattering news over the phone again, and again, and again, you just suddenly expect every phone call to be of someone taking a large deuce on you and enjoying it.
And secondly, because that location will get closed down if it's caught, and I don't want to throw all of those people into unemployment...I truly had no idea what was the right thing to do.  So I left.  Still I feel like something should be done...  It just saddens me greatly that a multibillionaire company can't keep one of it's stores properly maintenance'd and staffed.

As far as polarizing probably goes for the overall experience, I'm pretty sure I lost polarity.

I can say I discovered a bit more about myself while working there, for starters I'm apparently a 'people-person', despite my own belief of being a loner of sorts.  I also noticed that others recognized how good I am with customers, how hard of a worker I can be (and how lazy I can be when I'm exhausted), and overall it seems I should be working with people rather than with coworkers, as when it comes to dealing with coworkers I'm completely different.  I believe we have a job and standards of that job to uphold, and that to fail those is to fail not just ourselves but the customers and the business.  So I'm a bit rigid with coworkers, yet at the same time that rigidity applies mostly to the workers who skirt the edges of the rules, everyone else I'm like 'Thank you for doing your job!  You deserve to be told that you're appreciated for the work you do.'

So, I don't know, the situation is...Complicated beyond my ability to reason out what the best course of action to do is.

I admit that I have not considered at all the concept of 'purity', perhaps I need to incorporate that in...  Though I see myself struggling to ascertain what exactly makes something pure when it's not a simple matter of giving love but requires more wisdom involved.  Or...Wait, does purity apply into the balance of Love and Wisdom too?
ermehgerd, I need to contemplate on this...

Personally, having just recently discovered I'm autistic, I'm still...Adjusting to it.  In ways I feel incredibly upset, in other ways I feel like there's something wrong with me, and in other ways I feel like I'm a waste of time to bother working on, because as said, I've been doing the rounds or the 'spiritual grind' to joke about the daily-grind, and have found that everything from deep meditations to daily affirmations and setting of intentions can only provide me a form of rope to guide me.  From there, the rope is only so long and only goes so far, and after a while the path once more becomes as it was without the rope to guide me.
Now, after all these years of this, suddenly to discover why...Like I always dreamed and imagined...And all I feel is frustration that I made myself this way.

Truly as it's been said, life feels like 'one thing after another', and makes me question if the intensity of catalyst is...Well, necessary.  And as comforting as it is to think that a 6D wanderer incarnates knowing fully well the love of the creator awaits it inevitably, I cannot reconcile this with the human ego that the consciousness takes on, sometimes with seemingly disregard for the horrors it will go through, such as those that reincarnated just before the holocaust knowing well they would be imprisoned and enslaved to a death camp or worse, become experiments for the madness of nazi scientists to test upon you.

Have you ever watched an anime called Ajinn?  It somewhat relays this concept of using the human body at the disregard of the entity inhabiting it, in my example I use the same soul only now as an illusive 'separated' amnesiac and human, or essentially veiled and operating from the Yellow-ray body.  Knowing full well it will take on the attributes of separateness, and will be sending itself into the slaughter for it's own long-term sake.  It just feels like the human creation is suddenly being used inappropriately for what could be potentially done, but as I asked Aion, the basic question arises.

If one has the means to change the manner of efficient use of polarity on 3D plane(t)s to reduce the amount of physical distortion towards suffering without taking away the efficiency already present, would it be proper to do so or would it be seen as an attempt to control creation?  (I mean like, how is this design an efficient setup, when Earth uses it largely so inefficiently? ? ?? ?)

I pretty much already do what you've suggested, in fact I mostly only watch Star Trek anymore and play video games.  I don't watch TV, I even try to avoid going outside on some days just to not subject myself to the country-wide psych operation (tinfoil hat alert!) that is the subliminal messaging in EVERYTHING from cigarette box designs to billboard advertising to mico-second picture insertions in playing advertisements all the way to the underlying unconscious pushes by the collective society to make me fit a mold that I simply cannot fit.

It's like a horror manga where suddenly on Earth holes shaped like people appear, and some people realize a hole is for them, and move into it only to become stuck and 'return' to the Earth.  I'm synonymous to discovering a hole that is for me, that society pushed me to find, and then subsequently NOT being able to fit into it.  The horror of this supposed event not being possible but so utterly important can be concerning to me, as I don't want to deal with anymore people looking at me like I'm weird, or thinking I'm gay because of how I am, or judging me to be a stoner just because I look like one.

I just want to go walk outside and be myself without interruption, but I get that it is a necessity to incite growth, I just wish it wasn't so common!

I find that weird how Ra says raising polarity provides us defense from those willing to insert negative thought patterns into us (thinking about it now, I'm pretty sure I'm HIGHLY susceptible to such things...  Sigh...), since in the case of Carla, polarizing seemed to attract a large amount of attention to her.
Which seemed to actually be the general explanation of what happens when someone begins work in polarity up in the areas of 'work in consciousness' where suddenly the mundane 3D energies are interacting with higher energies like Ra's 6D energy from Earth's inner 5D environmental plane.  If you meant to further explain that on the lower end of the polarization potential (as in slowly and casually/'normally' polarizing in a manner similar to two steps forward one step backward) a natural defense accrues, I could see that; but my understanding is that once one begins exponentially polarizing (as constantly AND consistently polarizing creates an exponential multiplier apparently??) will result in garnishing attention from the negative entities patrolling about attempting to nullify these sources of light, who will diligently and near effortlessly work day and night to neutralize the polarity gain if it is severe enough, such as in the case of Carla and Don.
Just makes me wonder if there is a 'safe' boundary of sorts that one can choose to not overstep when polarizing to not acquire attention from negative entities beyond the usual one here or there putting bad thoughts in your head.

It wasn't really totally you that upset me as much as myself...  I do not like violence, like I can appreciate the fun of simulated violence in a safe environment, i.e. video games, paint ball, war game exercises (like the military channel's show 'Special Ops'), but when it comes to actual real combat where one entity is attempting to terminate another entity's incarnation, I'm just disgusted.  We're in the year 2017, virtual reality is becoming a thing, if nations want to wage war, they now have the ability to do so completely virtually (similarly to another episode in Star Trek TNG, where 'bomb simulations' took place in lieu of actual bombings...though that episode is a bad example too since those 'hit' by the simulation in real life had to go basically kill themselves in a suicide chamber), but my point is the only time we truly need to pull out the big guns is when someone else has already done so.

So when I see people speak of dealing with groups like ISIS by nuking them, all I can think is that there has to be another, more humane way.  Sure the group isn't big on humane actions, but that doesn't mean the rest of the world has to stoop down to their level just to do something about it, and further since Trump just pretty much banned muslims (so I've heard, haven't checked personally to see if it's true), it just makes me worried for our immediate future in regards to handling the...What's the word?  Uh...  Er...  Bellicosity! Of the world.
I legitimately am fearful that America will become the next Nazi Germany, heil the third american reich and all of that madness...
I actually fear a lot about the physical violence that's oncoming in the near future.  I am not looking forward to it at all...

I'm fairly aware of when I'm opening and closing energies of love to others, I'm actually a bit too conscious of it that it almost interferes with me.  I'll be able to literally feel the different right in my chest, opening up feels like I'm doing something important, closing down feels like I'm giving up.  I don't typically close myself down RIGHT IN FRONT of a person, but once not in their presence I'll completely shut down sometimes and just lose my mind in frustration at someone.  Then when I'm back in front of them it's just the usual 'keep the love going, because things usually go easier and are easier to handle when done this way'.

A perfect example is the issue that happened over the holidays with my family.  I was visiting my family in another state and my mother was unable to come with as originally planned, because acute bronchitis, so I went alone and got to meet my family that I never knew, and attempted to get to know them.  In the process I, with my stupid act of coming off impolite, pissed off my Aunt who started to yell at me, and my being at that moment was exhausted and tired, so I responded with the simpliest energy of all, I mimicked her.  That pretty much started a massive rift between me and my family, and once she began getting physically throwing her fingers into my shoulder and chest screaming at me, I realized the situation was spiraling out of control and woke myself up in my mind and was like, 'oh crap, this is progressing way too far!' so I turned on my heart, I got quiet and immediately apologized and began making movement to reconcile the situation.  This went so far that we even managed to hug each other and forgive one another, but for me the damage was already done.  I never really knew my family, and when I got to try to know them they poured all of my mother's dirty secrets onto me, trying to paint her as the worst person in the family, then told me everything bad she'd been saying about me, trying to sever what connection I had with the only family I really knew, which is my mother.

The result is I just disconnected myself from my family for the most part.  I never had any real connection with them, and after that I was certain I never would, but I learned very vividly in those moments that I truly can at will turn on and off my own ability to give love, even right in the middle of an escalating conflict, and I call it a conflict because she was ready to kick me onto the curb for the remainder of my time out there, which was several days.  I didn't have any phone numbers of my other family, I didn't know the location at all, or really anything about anything out there.  So maybe I responded with a green-ray energy from a kick start by the red-ray energy being incited as the yellow-ray energies were being assaulted.  I don't know 100%, I just know that I can feel the flow of energy in my body, I can make sense of my chakras to a degree so much so I think it's a potential lifelong plan to become learned in the divination skills that would become available to one able to read chakras, and overall I just think I have a bit of a conscious grasp on my energetic system that will grow so long as I can find ways to educate myself on my chakras and auras, so long as I also perform the internal work of feeling out what information is right and incorrect for me.
So...Maybe I have a basic built in handicap for polarizing since I also have a 'debuff' (excuse the game lingo) of having not as good control of my mental faculties???  Which, would actually be pretty cool, as I could live with that.  A bit of a hit to the mind complex in place of a preincarnational tool being available to aid it's reduced efficiency.
Oh wait, but if that's true then I might have a high probability of the capability to improperly or too quickly polarize...  So much stuff to contemplate, maybe I should've asked less question hehe..

Jade, you managed to answer the heart of my question without actually understanding it, it's possible to sum up my question to, 'does opening the green ray one time for an extended amount of time make one eligible to be harvested, and if so does this happening make harvest imminent at the end of life, or does the green ray need to be opened at the end of the life for harvest to occur?'
Weird how you did that -waves finger at you-  

There are two quotes that can lead one to the assumption that the yellow-ray identity, in this case the human ego, ceases in death.

15.12 Questioner: How does an individual go about balancing himself? What is the first step?
Ra: I am Ra. The steps are only one; that is, an understanding of the energy centers which make up the mind/body/spirit complex. This understanding may be briefly summarized as follows. The first balancing is of the Malkuth, or Earth, vibratory energy complex, called the red-ray complex. An understanding and acceptance of this energy is fundamental. The next energy complex, which may be blocked is the emotional, or personal complex, also known as the orange-ray complex. This blockage will often demonstrate itself as personal eccentricities or distortions with regard to self-conscious understanding or acceptance of self.

The third blockage resembles most closely that which you have called ego. It is the yellow-ray or solar plexus center. Blockages in this center will often manifest as distortions towards power manipulation and other social behaviors concerning those close and those associated with the mind/body/spirit complex. Those with blockages in these first three energy centers, or nexi, will have continuing difficulties in ability to further their seeking of the Law of One.

The center of heart, or green ray, is the center from which third-density beings may springboard, shall we say, towards infinite intelligence. Blockages in this area may manifest as difficulties in expressing what you may call universal love or compassion.

The blue-ray center of energy streaming is the center which, for the first time, is outgoing as well as inpouring. Those blocked in this area may have difficulty in grasping the spirit/mind complexes of its own entity and further difficulty in expressing such understandings of self. Entities blocked in this area may have difficulties in accepting communication from other mind/body/spirit complexes.

The next center is the pineal or indigo-ray center. Those blocked in this center may experience a lessening of the influx of intelligent energy due to manifestations which appear as unworthiness. This is that of which you spoke. As you can see, this is but one of many distortions due to the several points of energy influx into the mind/body/spirit complex. The indigo-ray balancing is quite central to the type of work which revolves about the spirit complex, which has its influx then into the transformation or transmutation of third density to fourth density, it being the energy center receiving the least distorted outpourings of love/light from intelligent energy and having also the potential for the key to the gateway of intelligent infinity.

The remaining center of energy influx is simply the total expression of the entity’s vibratory complex of mind, body, and spirit. It is as it will be, “balanced” or “imbalanced” has no meaning at this energy level, for it gives and takes in its own balance. Whatever the distortion may be, it cannot be manipulated as can the others and, therefore, has no particular importance in viewing the balancing of an entity.

47.13 ▶ Questioner: What stimulus would create what we call an Earth-bound spirit or a lingering ghost?
Ra: I am Ra. The stimulus for this is the faculty of the will. If the will of yellow-ray mind/body/spirit is that which is stronger than the progressive impetus of the physical death towards realization of that which comes, that is, if the will is concentrated enough upon the previous experience, the entity’s shell of yellow ray, though no longer activated, cannot either be completely deactivated and, until the will is released, the mind/body/spirit complex is caught. This often occurs, as we see you are aware, in the case of sudden death as well as in the case of extreme concern for a thing or an other-self.

In the bolded, the simple conclusion I came to was if yellow-ray resembles enough so to be called 'Ego' and it is deactivated in death, then this is synonymous to the deactivation of the ego, aka death of the human personality at death.  Or...At the very least I believe a majority of human beings would view it this way, and become moderately concerned about what they will become in death.
In this same way, in the works of Michael Newton, the physical human body is described as a sort of complex machine that without a soul is akin to an empty vehicle, maybe it can be left on, but without a driver it's not going to go anywhere on it's own without very specific things being done to do so.  In Newton's books he even relays that some people who become aware of this become 'greatly disturbed' by the knowledge.  I would put myself in that category.  I feel almost...Bad, participating in this experiment where I use a vehicular-styled physical body complete with circuitry of varying energies (lower triad circuitry, upper triad circuitry, bridge circuitry, crossing lower and upper circuitry without the bridge circuitry intermediary would cause great imbalances) and is overall going to become the basis for the physical identity that the consciousness reincarnating takes on, only then to be used the way a race car driver might use their vehicle, and potentially wipe it out, and in the process of wiping out, stumbled out of the wiped out physical body relatively unharmed in regard to the long-term, while their physical identity has now been essentially murdered if not through irresponsibility, then deliberate actions.

I guess I should mention why these things concern me so much, as someone who's struggled with suicidal desires most of my life, I'd like to not just jump into the fire, so to speak, and kill myself only to discover something I wish I would've known prior to my self-murder.  As such I actually have a mini obsession with NDE's that circle around suicides, a few of those ones in fact showcase that place I spoke of earlier, a plane of souls where they wander around aimlessly miserable from their own experiences on the 3D plane(t)s.  So knowing all I can usually helps me NOT kill myself, which is somewhat ironic as most people, I've noticed, who search up information regarding suicide are looking for ways to make the decision easier for themselves and others around them.  I do not perceive any ease in suicide, I even grow distraught when others call it selfish, as I fail to see how self-murder is selfish, that's like saying a butterfly that gets stuck coming out of it's cocoon and dies because of this is selfishly killing itself.  It's not selfish, it's not selfless, it's tragic and should not have the additional burden of such labels thrusted upon individuals suffering from such feelings as it will only drive to push them over the edge.

-clears throat- I might have some strong opinions regarding suicide so I'll refrain from talking about it more.

I just think it's worth looking into the potential inferences made by Ra that could lead one to assume that the Yellow-ray [personality] shell being deactivated in death is akin to the death of the human ego.  Which is the result of both the absence of the veil returning a recently deceased person's consciousness' memories as well as their true soul ego personality re-emerging from the gradual loss of the amnesiac state.  Perhaps the human lives on in the memory of the consciousness because the consciousness WAS the human life, but it is still somewhat disturbing to me that there's a great potential that when I die, who I am, will not last with who I have always been.

I personally really like me, and I really like a lot of others, and I don't want to see them die and disappear or fade away.  That thought makes me very sad.

Again, sorry about my typos!  Reading your quote of me and I saw it and was just like 'fuuuuu-whoops@@'
I think I get what you're saying.  It's a bit hard for me to understand since I see it that both polarities share one another, and really only deviate in bell-curve like ways in the more extreme ranges only to spiral ultimately back together into each other as they reconvene in the later portions of the evolution cycle.  The result for me is everything seems like everything else, good is good and bad, bad is good and bad, indifference is good and bad, it's all both good and bad, all of it, even the extreme ranges where bad is CLEARLY bad, yet serves some kind of good, just as when good is CLEARLY go--...actually, perhaps in extreme ranges positivity can become even LESS CLEAR, hmmmmm.  Still though, sometimes extreme ranges of good can serve to be bad, such as when someone decides to fast for 21 days twice in a row in the name of positive change, only to permanently damage the body in potential serving those who would want their protests for positive change to cease.

I truly struggle extremely with seeing either positive or negative as PURELY positive and negative, like trying to look at black and white but there's a light film of gray sitting over them, suddenly the black is clearly defined but the white has become gray, yet underlying is still white.
...If that makes any sense  :-/

My justification for giving the homeless "booze money" (and, full disclosure, I've given panhandlers marijuana in various forms several times) is that no matter what, they're gonna buy booze. Maybe my $3 will be enough to at least push them over their "booze money" threshhold into the surplus, "food money" budget. You cannot survive on liquor alone, humans have to eat, so I justify that somewhere, some of the money they receive goes to food. Obviously. And maybe the warm gesture will affect them in other, intangible ways, too.  

And let's not judge the boozers so harshly, yeah? Alcohol keeps you warm, reduces pain - most of the homeless have mental illness of some sort, and this is their way of self-medicating. However, it's also why I enjoy giving them marijuana when I can - it's a more legitimate way to self medicate, and a few tokes will often keep someone away from the bottle for a while. But I just think of how cold these people must get, and what physical ailments they likely have that make drinking/medicating a necessity to function.

I should mention the specific example I cited was of a man who was very well known by those who dealt with him daily that if given the chance he would drink himself to death.  I opted for giving him some water instead.  I think I see how you call it a strong negative polarization by judging someone in need, but in this particular instance I think keeping him from killing himself was more important than polarizing positively, not everything, at least to me, is performed with polarity in mind, sometimes the human experiment demands I shed those concepts for the reality at hand, in this instance, I'd rather polarize negatively than play a part in aiding a homeless man's death.

I should also point out 1/3rd if not more of homeless people have jobs that cannot pay for rent or a mortgage, who are not mentally ill but purely down on their luck.  While it is still proper to generalize most homeless as having a mental illness, I highly question if this is actually true or a misinformation thrown out to further degrade the empathy that can be given to these people.  Almost every single homeless person I've met has their faculties about themselves FAR better than I myself do.  If these people who are smart enough to groom themselves somehow, feed themselves somehow, keep themselves not just alive, but socially acceptable looking, somehow, then I would not identify them as having a mental illness that is severe enough to be singlehandedly the cause of their homelessness, and thus it is unfair to them to identify them as a 'mentally ill homeless person', that just comes off like 'not important enough to care about', or at the very least, 'not someone worth helping'.

Every single homeless person is worth helping, even the schizophrenic ones who look at you and just keep saying 'I don't have a gun'.  I once met a black man around 18 years old who was clearly schizophrenic, he walked up to me at my job and the first thing he said was 'please don't call the cops I don't have a weapon', and it was pretty clear that the police had roughed him up.  I gave him a free drink and paid for the food he had grabbed, he was completely confused, kept asking me if he did something wrong and almost began echoing the phrase 'i don't have a weapon', I just told him again and again, 'you can have it, it's okay, everything is okay, please be safe'.

It's a terrible thing how we portray the general populace of the homeless.  In more recent years as the economy has failed thousands, the population of homeless people has boomed, they are no longer dominated by the mentally ill and the lazy, and instead are majorly of people down on their luck, who do NOT appreciate normal citizens panhandling to supplement their income when they do not, as it also gets them into far greater trouble when the police harass them and they have no home to return to.
Never mind the myriad of people being mugged and kidnapped, especially women.  I met a homeless girl once who was trying to become an urban nomad and travel the country on foot doing fortune readings based off of ALL things, chakras!  Her name was Vanessa and she was one of the sweetest girls I ever met, who joked with a full smile that she was just waiting for someone to...How did she put it...  To 'drug, rape, and sell her overseas'.  She was a gorgeous girl, and her fears I think were appropriate, as most homeless gorgeous girls as kind as her would be easy to manipulate I think.

I guess all I'm trying to say is please, please, do not write off the majority of homeless people as mentally ill and thus in some way not worth helping.  The mentally ill homeless need the most help of all

Oh, also, alcohol actually lowers your internal temperature more quickly.  It's feeling of warmth is an illusion of the senses, your internal body temperature is still dropping not just normally, but even faster when inebriated.  The actual cause for this I'm uncertain, I'm just echoing what a nurse once told me.  Further alcohol is addictive, and I've noticed that most people using it under the guise of self-medication are actually just addicted and struggling greatly with loneliness.  Similarly weed is addictive (though not anywhere near as potently, it's a very mild addiction that for heavy smokers can still be very uncomfortable coming off of) and so I just hope you're not indulging any of their addictions.  Further, weed does exacerbate mental illnesses, I've majorly quit smoking weed because turns out if I smoke too much of it, my emotions go crazy, most specifically, my anger is intensified to stupid proportions of self destruction.  Weed I was told is supposed to calm you down, I guess if you've a mental illness it only does so up to a point, where it then does a 180 and makes things A LOT worse.  Though I'm pretty sure it depends from person to person, as I've met people with mental illnesses like severe chronic depression who smoke daily several times a day, and benefit only, with no ill side effects like  sudden increase in a specific emotion to unhealthy levels.

However; I do agree, there is a good portion of homeless who only use alcohol as a form of relief.  I knew a veteran who had a pretty nasty injury on his side that had caused nerve damage or something and would hurt, sometimes worse than other times.  This guy literally begged me with tears in his eyes one day for five dollars to have enough money to get a bottle.  I did help that guy out, by getting him a bottle of V.S.O.P, and then I sat down with him and listened to him for a little bit until he was drunk enough to stand up and not cringe in pain, instead patting himself off and giving me a drunken hug, lol.

...Sigh, thinking about all of the people I've met while volunteering, this world can be very sad.  It's no wonder Ra calls themselves the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow...

I suppose you're right about suffering, that it has in some way made the creation better, I wouldn't necessarily use the term 'bigger' as spatial concepts might not apply to...Well, concepts like suffering or infinity in general, as well as the assumption that infinity is the largest thing there can be, for something to be bigger would require something along the lines existentially of Infinity+1, but since everything is already a part of infinity (hence Infinity = 1) then really there is nothing else to be added.
Which I detailed to Aion as a disbelief of mine out of just a whim of a desire that there is more beyond the 'One Infinite Creator', if not simply this 'beyond infinity' being nothing more than the illusion of 'beyond infinity'.  Which I guess something worth noting is that illusions in reference to their connected nature to the infinite nature of reality, may very well themselves still be 'real' despite being an illusion, making quite literally infinitely ANYTHING possible.
Which is an exciting idea in my mind until I go into the darker parts of my imagination and, as I said to Aion, think about what other undesireable things might manifest in waiting for us all.
I might argue suffering is an 'improvement' as much as it is a natural consequence to making a system ripe with efficiency.  Should that efficiency somehow be found to be made without suffering, would suffering still be viewed as an improvement, or just another step necessary for improvement itself to happen?  I think suffering is neutral, I think it is a helpful tool, suffering from stomach cramps to purge myself of toxins accrued in the gut has it's uses, as does feeling the suffering of pain when one is badly injured (ironically some very severe injuries are not immediately accompanied by pain, putting into question the 'immediate' usefulness of pain, as it can in fact be fatally crippling in a bad scenario).  However; I still believe the brain requires a pain-off switch, cause like, yeah, I know my leg or arm or rib got busted up body, thanks for letting me know COOOWWWNSTANTLLY.  The same can be said of menstruation, the pain past a point is unnecessary.  Same can be said of child birth, why must it hurt so bad?

Suffering is a useful tool, but too much suffering is akin to using a jackhammer in place of a pickax where only the pickax is needed.  Sometimes it drills too deeply and does more harm than good, least I think so.

Which is why I do believe that things like pain and suffering which can be utilized by negative entities exist partially so that they can be used in such ways, in this manner showcasing the design of reality as adhering to both the positive and the negative poles of creation for both poles of creation by both poles of creation (or as I shorten it sometimes, the As-For-By loop of Time.  As creation creates itself For itself By itself, the basic ouroboros of creation is a simple programming logic question.  I highly recommend everyone look into learning the very basics of programming logic, the universe becomes a bit easier to understand in the process, ESPECIALLY the concepts of Time and Paradoxes.

As much as I appreciate the beauty of an existence of lifetimes, and even find it appropriate, I still feel deep down inside of me this nudging concern that not ALL individuated consciousnesses can properly handle the levels of intensity that come with places like Earth, and yet they are seemingly required by evolution to go through the rounds.  I really just want to make sure there aren't going to be anymore portions of creator that are so hurt they can't heal or be moved or helped at all.  I remember reading in another channeled material that souls that can't go forward end up progressing backwards or 'devolve' to make up for their inability to evolve.  I don't know if this is true, but it slightly resembles some things mentioned in Newton's works regarding souls having the ability to 'change their makeup' along a line similar to inserting 'new particle's per bit' (or something like that similar to the parts-per-million measurements used in water and air) to make themselves into a new entity while remaining partly the way they were, with this action being done mostly on souls that have committed serial murder on planet's but were not severe enough to be banned from the planet.
So I wonder if all entities can handle this place, or if there are truly those who can't cope and are essentially stuck with no clear means of moving forward.

Could you just imagine that?  Being an eternal entity unable to do what you are needed to do to have what you desire?  What kind of existence would that feel like? It's one thing to be a mortal and have that issue, one day it will cease, but as a member of eternity there potentially won't come a time when such ceases.

It's hard for me to speak about the Logos, as I struggle a bit with this concept as technically, you and I are sub-logoi, with portions inside of us potentially being sub-logoi as well.  I accept that the logos wants to be accepting, and in a way I if I were it wouldn't interfere with the natural order of the planet, even if right up to their destruction by their own hands, but I would question if such a loss if avoided would outweigh the natural progression made versus some kind of entity stepping in at the last second and like a parent to a child, pulls it's hand away from the big red button.

I shall challenge your Trek-fu <3
The Prime Directive has been deliberately broken several times in the show, especially by Captain Picard, who at one point deliberately broke it to stop a proto-vulcan culture that had accidentally been exposed to his culture in a very limited way resulting in his becoming a god-image before them potentially cascading into the entire planet's devolution back into the dark ages of religious persecutions and such.  He beamed up the daughter of the man who witnessed and spoke of him as a God, and attempted to explain to her that he was nothing more than another mortal just like her.  When she did not understand despite grasping the gist of his explanation, he had to resort to slightly more extreme examples, and ended up putting his life on the line before the community that worshiped him as a God, in an attempt to correct his wrongs.  With an arrow aimed right at his heart a mere release away from killing him, he proved by the shedding of his own blood that he was no more a god than any of them.

I think this is a valid example of 'an exception to everything'.  I think some exceptions should exist for good reason, because to do things as told always leads not always to the best outcome.  Picard knew that to do nothing would result in irreparable damage, and to do something would either put out more damage, or ameliorate the damage already done.

Now on the exact flipside of this, in Voyager, I think it was one of the first episodes of the first season, Captain Janeway comes across a planet that had recently suffered an extinction event disaster from their own technology, which ultimately lead back in a time-paradox fashion to having been caused by their even investigating a planet that they were bound by the prime directive not to interfere with.  Their mere presence in the future led to the destruction in the past, and illustrated precisely exactly the reason why that rule exists.  It is far too easy for an advanced civilization to interfere irreparable damage into a lesser developed civilization, even their mere presence can be disastrous which is why such extensive great effort is taken to not be discovered when observing less advanced cultures in the name of understanding better the evolution of civilization.
Which is why I find it interesting that Ra made this exact same discovery, and for this lesson to be echoed in Star Trek several thousand years later.

Ultimately, I think the overall design is appropriate, I just believe some tweaking would still make things even better.  Many human's do not appreciate the supposed appreciative catalyst of suffering, many of them even take their lives to avoid the onslaught, in their minds, of suffering they endure.  I just don't want others to feel such ways.  I know Ra says no entity is given more than it can handle but surely exceptions must exist.  I wonder how Hitler's consciousness feels about that phrase in regards to his time as the Fuhrer, I imagine that must have been far more than he was ready to deal with.
I actually learned how to play Poker by playing with our hands shown, perhaps in some instances when a civilization is ready, it might be appropriate, as in the case of Ra's society, to be made to play a metaphorical game of Poker with the hands shown, so as to aid them in ways acceptable.  Of course this applies to civilizations that aren't going to bomb the crap out of each other at the slightest remark of which God is the right God, sooooo, point taken in regards to Earth.  I just mentioned mine because, well, I thought it might serve useful for others in contemplating things I guess.

I definitely agree that the endocrine system and the hormonal responses are directly effected by the chakric system.  Actually before I ever even discovered any of this metaphysical stuff I used to think that it was the emotion which incited the neural transmitter (neurochemical?  Darn it Star Trek, messing me up lol) response, and not the other way around.  Then discovering the auras and chakras, it pretty much is actually done that way, with the physical response to an emotion being caused by the emotion itself essentially.

I will say I have read a book called Hands of Light, and there is a key contradiction in that text compared to the Ra Material.  In Hands of Light, the red ray auric body is called the Etheric Body, and the indigo ray auric body is called the Iridescent Body (iridescent rays of shining light in all directions) but according to the Ra Material, the Etheric auric body belongs to the Indigo ray, and is the form maker for the rest of the bodies, and that the red ray auric body is actually the chemical compositions that make up the orange ray body which both make up the yellow ray body.

I love chakras, the rainbow and everything to do with chakras, I have considered putting together a giant cumulative study guide on what I've learned of all the chakras.  They're so amazing and I love working with them so much, it's a shame that I can't douse with a pendulum or use a crystal quartz rock to heal my auras and chakras.  Whatever work I usually put into myself is rather quickly undone by my own severe thought distortions towards suicide, anger, and a desire to be alone and not deal with anything.  Even as I work on these issues directly they re-assert themselves all the time.

Truly I think you're mentioning that faith is needed is the only true path I have to take, because I am a very logic based circuitry person in accordance to my brain.  I'm more than sure I've crossed a few 'higher circuits' (upper triad pathways) with 'lower circuits' which has been resulting in what Ra said would happen, severe imbalances or distortions.  I would not suggest mixing blue ray with red ray neural circuitry.  The human ego can be very unforgiving of the spirit's attempts of utilizing it, I'd know, I spent an entire year loathing myself as a consciousness for making my humanity possible to experience, and only lately after discovering my mental illness have relaxed on that view and begun to accept that I was completely wrong, and need to relax, take a big few steps back, and sincerely try again, this time without rushing into all of this material.  The first time I began polarizing consciously, I went way overboard and propelled my kundalini up to indigo ray in a matter of months, which when that subsided and normalized, I found myself very heavily overwhelmed with the incoming catalyst, and as a result tried to ignore it, which made everything worse, which perpetuated and made that year of self loathing happen.
Moral of what I'm saying, Ra's totally right, don't polarize exponentially unless you have a good grasp of how to do so properly.

I do believe that the central nervous system and it's subsystems along the genitalia, stomach/gut, diaphragm, heart, and neck are indicative of an intermediary connection for the electrical energetic nature of the chakras to directly effect the physical body, just through the nervous system mostly, but as Ra said, unused and misdirected energy such as anger can manifest as outgrowths in the body, probably akin to a disturbance of the etheric auric body field resulting in abrogations of growths like Cancer.

I am curious as to the mechanism of how filtered catalyst from mind to body manifest in the body.  Does the brain's neural circuitry count as the body complex or the mind complex?
Is mental/emotional energies derived by the electromagnetic field of the heart tied in with the electrical nature and put-out (...dyslexia...) output* field of the brain's circuitry?

I am heavily interested in how these areas function and operate.  How the auric bodies form the physical illusion, how the heirarchy of energies and more and less dense bodies work together with the mechanisms of polarity and catalyst with the various complexes to form the overall occurrences that happen over time.

I want to point out that I actually began suffering from ED after I had my heart broken by one of my ex's.  The result turned out to be wholly mental in that my mental image of the female energies were, internally, distorted and thus damaged, resulting from the mind effecting the body to my inability to become aroused for a girl.  That was a fun homosexual period of my life, turns out I'm not homosexual hahaha!  Further, after a doctor visit the doc made it pretty clear I was physically fine and that morning erections were highly indicative of the problem stemming from the mind rather than the body, as a bodily ED wouldn't allow for morning erections to occur.
So hence my question regards if the red ray could be responsible for such, but in my instance it might be just a totality issue, from red, orange, yellow, and indigo all improperly meeting the female energies, wanting to instead go the route of the negative path of bondage and submission, when really I just want a fun happy and supportive wife more so than a submissive living sex toy.  I should also add, excessive porn watching apparently causes ED in men (shocking...), so like guys, stop taking it easy so much, sex isn't easy (least not physically), use your imagination once in a while, go do what cyanide and happiness did, enjoy some nature, it too is beautiful (loool).

The intensities of the red ray I view are similar to any other form of polarization, with the exception here being the chakra itself is being polarized versus the entire system (which would raise kundalini).  This results for positive entities as the red ray appearing brilliant and stunning, while for negative entities it appears as a storm of great intensity would, not so much shining in brilliance as it does with power, power necessary to proper the kundalini upward into indigo ray.
I cannot say the red ray has no polarity, it is clearly polarized with bias between male and female, with the male red ray responding to sexual transfers by propelling it's physical energies, while the female response is to receive the energy resulting in a feedback of intuitive energy in place of a gain in vital energy, the overall process would look like two energetic system transferring energy from their poles, the male south pole transfers to the female south pole which travels up to the female north pole and transfers from there back to the male north pole.  The result, the male loses vital lower triad energy for intuitive upper triad energy, of which his system is naturally weaker of, while the female who's system is naturally more fulfilled with intuitive energy loses some of this in it's gain of vital energies.

Overall, the red ray is like a plug/outlet.  That it can be im/balanced unlike the violet ray but is fixed like the violet ray might just be a natural occurrence due to the 8-fold overlapping design of systems.  The Red ray is technically the previous octaves 'white' ray (if you compare it to our system where above the violet ray is a white ray of sorts linking us to the next octave of energies that responds to our indigo/violet ray transmissions.)  So if's acting to draw up as our white ray does certain energies and experiences, while simultaneously pulling down intuitive energies to become informed in ways.  If this process is akin to polarizing a chakra or balancing a chakra, then a fixed red ray really just means that it's a placeholder as the violet ray is to help fixate on something that is not static or unmoving.  We are hurdling through space on a planet in a solar system in a galaxy in a universe, which itself may be hurdling through the annuls of existence for all we know.  A placeholder would be useful for any entity searching the cosmos.

As for why it is an indicator of seniority, Ra explained it pretty straightforward, the result of it's function is a result of the entity it belongs to, if the entity is of a certain intensity of experiences had, it will draw in similar experiences as informed by the intuitive informing design of downpouring energies into the red ray to better probe the necessary experiences the higher self will need to draw to it.  The 'seniority' label is somewhat confusing, as I imagine there are some entities who are fairly new to 3D who already vibrate in a way as to be described 'seniority' yet in no way is how the term describes one, having been around longer.

As for the violet ray, Ra literally says they cannot answer questions about it without infringing on free will beyond the few bits of information they've given on it, including how they communicate by moving through it down into the energetic system as if it were a funnel or gateway both out of and in to an entity, in a way similar to the red ray funneling downward to the feet.
This simply tells me it's functions are worth exploring as it has something to give back, and won't do so until we consciously make movements to do so.  Ra described the Violet ray as both a thermometer and totality of sorts, if this is the case then it's much more complex than the indigo ray, and thus has much to offer in return despite it's apparent lack of needing to be balanced, perhaps it still has other abilities...  Wow, my entire thought process just went blank.  Maybe I shouldn't try discussing the violet ray beyond to say there's more to it than has been given, and it's worthy of some exploration for the sake of supplementing the spiritual aspects of one's life.

I actually have a paradoxical struggle with faith.  On one hand, I believe the systems of the Law of One without a doubt, but on the other hand, I am uncertain if they are all purely for the one infinite's benefit.  I do struggle with faith along the lines that I need to not fret so much about things and let them emotionally effect me so strongly.  I need to try to be more like calm water, and less like water riff with the ripples of activity swirling under the surface.

My meditations sound nothing like yours, I always experience something in them, although many times I cannot properly meditate due to an emotional state that will NOT subside!  Even upon sitting with it in the silence of the mind waiting for the entropy of the randomly moving energies to dissipate, they do not!  It leaves me to believe I'm either some kind of energetic perpetual motion design, or my emotions come from a past life that is VERY MUCH requiring attention.  Those are the only two things I can think of to explain why my emotions get like that, you know, besides just blaming it on a mental illness...

In my meditations I've experienced some interesting sensations, one of the more common ones is after I get beyond the alpha wavelength and begin entering theta, and my deep muscles begin to relax, I experience the sensation of inhaling and exhaling as being pleasureable, inciting joy.  I find the random thoughts that come about have attached to them almost like a clump of bubbles several thoughtforms of emotion and pure-thought that I can either let slide over me or hook onto and observe at the risk of getting sucked into them.

What freaks me out is when I begin seeing flashes of color or light, or flashing images, or hearing sounds and voices.  The voices especially ALWAYS throw me out of meditation because it's so sudden and unexpected, it's like someone speaking in your ear when there's no one there, it'd freak out anyone!
The flashing lights and phosphenes I've been trying to divulge a system of subconscious communication from, but it's been a pretty fruitless endeavor as I can't make sense of if a phosphene and it's placement in my field of view and color are indicative of something, or if I'm just experiencing background radiation from fukushima lol.
I can say radiation particle phosphenes appear violent in that they don't instantly disappear like normal phosphenes with their vibrant colors do.
Further some colors flash along sides of my field of view, like the last time I meditated I saw a bring 'band' of indigo light that faded out as it's length went closer to the center of my vision, while at the top of my vision it was fully indigo in a way similar to a mixture of blue and indigo chakra colors.

But I'll never forget the first time I heard a voice in a meditation.  To this day I have no idea what it's small phrase to me means, and I often wonder if the female voice that said it to me was a human spirit, or something else.

A :33 person!  You're quite a wise one, eh! lolol
I see :44 far too often as well as 144, I think it's indicative of my overabundance of love, because when I do see :33 often it's when wisdom comes to me easier, when :22 starts appearing it means something is going to change, and :11 always ALWAYS has to do with the internal nature of reality in same way or shape changing or being internally transformed as if mental transmutation were occurring.  :55 seems to have to do with physical reality in some way but I still haven't made any connections...

But 144 greatly effects me for some reason.  Numerologically it's equivalent to 9 (though so is 666 lol) and it's said to represent the ascended masters of something like that, I don't know about any of that, I wouldn't call myself an ascended master (though would any actually reference themselves as such??), but I do feel like my time here is incredibly important, and that the suicidal struggles I have are all indicative of some kind of struggle or 'tug of war' as you said, to force an outcome of either positive or negative within the distant-near future (like centuries wise, not decades).  So I don't know.

Er, weird.  I swear I saw you ask me if I thought I was a dual activated body.  Oh!  I totally missed answering it >.<

Do you believe you might be a dual-activated body? (beings who are early fourth density who have incarnated at harvest for extra extra catalyst)

If my understanding of a dual activated body is correct, those that are of this nature typically experience an increased capability in manifesting paranormal abilities.  I have no such indicators.  I can say coming into life I was exceptionally loving until the grasp of society began distorting me, but upon first reading and thinking on the question, the first response of my mind was 'No.'
And since I do not know I will just say, 'probably not'.

I personally believe I am a Wanderer of either 5D or 6D, but due to my feelings and proclivities and inexplicable issues-- wait, my inexplicable issues aren't inexplicable, I discovered some of the ones I used to base my thinking I was 6D actually were dormant genetics on my mother's side.

Okay, with this sudden revaluation, I'm going to make a wild guess and say I am probably maybe around mid 5D?  If not that then I'm definitely mid 6D either around the time the higher self is accrued or just past the point where we/I meet our 7D higher self left behind to guide us.

But yeah, probably just gonna stay with the Mid 5D guess.

This post took way too long to write.  Jade you're free to respond as you will.  I have a feeling if we don't somehow distinguish a few subjects apart out posts will become novels  

[Aion]

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This answer helps me somewhat.  Thank you, and hello again.

I find all of what is said in those quotes makes perfect sense to me.  It's ultimately everything that I can use my mind to apply such imaginative scenarios to that brings me to such questions and concerns that I've provided.
Most core of all of my issues you've answered to in your post is the following two areas:
Discerning acceptance and control from each other.
Making sense of the types of catalyst that manifest.

What is it to be accepting, or controlling?  Do we not control the growth of the tree by applying nutrients to it's soil and water to it's roots?  Perhaps that is a very bad example, as we do not control the growth of the tree, it does that itself (whether consciously or otherwise, I am unsure of).
Similarly any examples of a parent controlling a child might be a bad example as the means of parenting offspring might require some form of control be acceptable for their own concerns.
I'm unsure if I can think up an example that isn't heavily flawed or skewed and appropriately highlights my major concerns.

Maybe I'll mention about the legal system.  Is this a form of a negative societal structure?  Taking control of other's resources, right up to their very life?  Is this not a form of negative catalyst that seeks to allow another entity to utilize it to take control over you?  Despite it's positive implications towards maintaining a peaceful society (which in my experience, it itself is not the cause of such wholly).

Does bathing the body count as controlling it's natural functions outcomes?
Does becoming conscientious and being mindful of thoughts had not a form of controlling the response to catalyst of the mind?

Then there's acceptance, what is truly accepting?  Does it mean ultimately to be unattached to the catalyst incoming, to meet it and let it be, to respond only as you feel is appropriate to do so for all parties involved?
Does allowing a car battery to die a form of positive catalyst because you didn't take control and change the components of the car? Urg, that's a bad example too...

Does allowing another to drown a form of positive catalyst if you know you're unable to do anything?  Is calling the authorities for help a form of controlling the situation and thus a negative outcome?

The overall ability for the misunderstanding and misinterpretation of the concepts of 'control' and 'acceptance' are so vague that all I could ever think of that ultimately defines any of these things are the 'intent' of the actions being taken.  If one does not intend to control a situation despite making movements to do so, is this still negative?  If one intends to allow another to be harmed and accepts the reality of the situation, is this positive?

Does stopping an armed attacker's assault count as negative intention?
Does letting an armed attacker assault you count as a form of positive intention?

Is there even a black and white in this area or have we walked into the deeper parts of the twilight zone of reality where there is no black and white, but merely shades of gray ad infinitum?  Does this mean an act of both polarities ultimately rounds out to which end of the spectrum is more highlighted, the positive or negative?  Is this the cause for the two steps forward one step back usual occurrence of polarizing in entities?

Is anything at this level of discussion even possible to be handed out as black or white?

When we talk of control, of acceptance, of catalyst, is any of it actually truly neutral, or positive, or negative, or is it all a mixture that must be met, processed, and diffused/assimilated?

I thank you for your answer as it gives me a lot to consider, but I just want to point out that I personally believe catalyst, while majorly neutral, does have charged sides about it.  Why, when your boss attempts to ruin your life on a whim, I'd call that a wholly negative catalyst, as it serves to control the major outcome of your life at your own loss with no thought or concern given to you, and further offers the catalytic gift of further negative catalyst down the road, such as being mugged by someone while homeless, being assaulted by police for soliciting in a location just trying to stay warm and alive.  Similarly, when the love of your life shows up with flowers, chocolates, and tickets to an event you really wanted, I'd see this as neutral-positive catalyst, which has the further catalytic gift of offering further catalyst later on of a potentially positive nature.

I understand that a phrase exists for coping with negative catalyst, 'things falling apart are actually things falling together'.  I find this is not true for many people who's final days on Earth are spent on the streets starving, freezing, sick, and lonely.  The only thing that fell together from their fallen apart life was their death certificate.

So obviously There's some things that I feel needs to be addressed.

In fact, sometimes, if I really let myself just be honest with myself, I feel like I'm here desperately trying to grasp for some kind of thought process or experience that will aid me in offering some kind of useful or worthwhile suggestion as to the design of this reality.  A good big part of me feels that I'm a designer of sorts in the afterlife.  Not sure if it's just of reality systems, physics, aesthetics or functions or what, but I desperately want to find a way to help make catalyst on this planet a bit more efficiently used so as to lessen the overall suffering across 3D, at least to the point where there aren't souls so lost in this density that several people have Near Death Experiences witnessing planes of depressed souls wandering aimlessly upon the plane unable to cope with the misery that manifests from their very selves and experiences they've had.

I might also add, since I was a child and made to attend catholic night school classes, and learned of the afterlife, I've had a lifelong desire nigh obsession (which goes along with my being HFA...) of the afterlife.  I used to imagine a large field of flowers with a tree and a river as just one part of what the afterlife would look like, in a sense like a way-station.  It's desire to be known by me has been explored in my own fictional works, and overall has been the leading factor in my life towards a pull to explore philosophies, cultures, the paranormal, but of it all I find myself so laughably ill-equipped to properly go about researching and exploring any of these things that I'm left chuckling stupidly at my self.  Some days the want to know is so obsessive I contemplate if I should self-initiate a NDE, but I'm also not stupid and know doing so would probably go beyond the 'near' part of the death experience.

I really just want to better understand things so I can actually help in a way that doesn't feel futile to me.  Volunteering at soup kitchens, giving food and water to the homeless on the corners of the roads, looking for jobs where I help those in need, it all feels so futile.  Sure it helps one in ways greatly appreciated, but it also brings me ever closer to the great misery that I try to escape from, and it does make me lose my mind at the injustice, the backwards systems, the deliberate use and abuse of life by those with power within humanity.

It makes me mad.  Sad.  Upset.  I do not want to see people hurting, I just don't believe they deserve it.  My only exception to this, is when it is what they want.  I've met homeless people who've told me right to my face, 'I'm a horrible person and deserve to suffer', and then they turn right around and help others doing better than himself at his own loss.  I can accept that, but it just makes me wonder, why does such a loving person believe they have to suffer, that they're horrible?  It makes me sad.  I care too much.

That catalyst is as it is I now question if it is actually made purposefully to incite suffering, or if it was just a natural occurrence as to the [meta]physics of our reality that it should cause such suffering when not used.

What's more, if it were simply possible for the intuitive sense of people to be better honed to provide a better...Path Compass to direct people through their own selves.

I don't know, Aion.  If you could change something to make catalyst more efficiently used and lessen the severity of misery in 3D, would you?  Or would that just be seen by creation as a negative attempt to control it?

moving onward~
Minyatur (did I spell that right?  What a tricky name!), your response actually served to confuse me somewhat more, but then again your energy feels especially different so all I can do is try to understand.  Some of the things you suggest are actually things I've had to undo because they were already done.  My energetic system, specifically at the yellow-ray, was completely shut down for a few years.  My red-ray is pretty heavily damaged from long-term issues of survival, I've suffering with suicidal tendencies since I was just a child, in fact the moment I learned of an afterlife was the moment I realized I didn't really actually want to be alive, as much as I just wanted to be...Happy.  I'd rather die and enjoy the afterlife than live and suffer, but life isn't that simple, I have people who love me and care about me, I have friends who rely on me for their own emotional support.  To just remove myself would be more painful to them than myself I imagine, in the long run, so I try not to.
Doesn't change the fact I still try every year, when you can't control some of the faculties of your mind, it really doesn't make things any easier to cope with.

Further, there was one point in my life were everything was good, some people seem to call this a spiritual awakening but I felt like it was more than that.  More than waking up, it was like discovering something that made everything else acceptable, and then I subsequently lost grip of whatever it was I had discovered, and sank back into my old patterns which beforehand were the norm, and afterwards, suddenly was just such a terrible thing to experience, like day and night only it's the same thing.  Because of that I wonder about what you've said.

I do not see perfection in the way it is normally attributed, to me, something perfect must have a paradoxical imperfection about it that closes the loop, makes the full circle be had, and creates the only true thing that is perfect, im/perfection.  In that way I can agree with you that reality is perfect as is, but even perfection leaves room for involvement, evolution, for tweaking the game.

Many of your examples, like mine, are generalizations and may not be best utilized by some in mindfulness, for instance, a 4D positive entity may not be balanced, but I believe it is very much conscious of its self, and in a way that consciousness is merely lacking the wisdom to realize how imbalanced it is towards love.  If by unconscious you meant uninformed of the ever deeper realistic portions of reality shared with the less dense portions, then definitely I can see what you're saying.

I find it alarming that you say you believe in balance over polarity.  I thought the exact same thing then one day realized there is no difference between the two.  In order to polarize in any direction, a sort of balance that I can only describe as im/balance needs to be met by the entity to consistently constantly polarize.  Without the imbalances and balances of the mixture of energies like Wisdom and Love or their inversions such as Logic and Control, any attempt to polarize through utilizing catalyst may merely be met with stumbling into the energies of indifference due to the inability to properly be aware or conscious of what needs be done to polarize a certain way.

For me, balance is a mechanism designed to further the efficient usage of not only catalyst, but experiences overall both within and without incarnation.  Balance is my middle name, a-lack-of is my last  

But seriously, your views are interesting and mimics many of mine when I first began digesting in depth the Law of One philosophy or at least the bits of it we have available to us...  I just get a strong sense that you're heavily blocking yourself, possibly for the benefit of us all, as I think were you to just come full out 200% honesty, you'd probably incite great amounts of cognitive dissonance in all of us, er, I apologize, I shouldn't speak for the others, at the very least, you'd incite such in myself.

Jade, I shall reply in a separate post to you~!

No, see, you've run away with it all again. Nice to see you again too aha

The concept of control and acceptance must be applied to catalyst itself in order to make sense. It's really quite simple in my eyes. It's a matter of how you deal with impressions from things within yourself. So you have to imagine that you create a 'copy' of every event and experience within yourself and this copy gets filtered through your organizational system of sorting images accorded to emotions and ideas.

Catalyst does not make an individual positive or negative, it is how they are inspired by those impressions to act that determines the ultimate polarity. Also, according to Ra, the negative use of catalyst is 'more obvious' and will usually grab the attention first. This is due to its gravitated nature.

What is incorrect, in my thinking, is that catalyst is about how you act. Rather it is a matter of inspiration. I think action takes place after catalyst has been used. The problem is the ordering of events. Most people assume they are making decisions 'in real-time' but I'll be honest I think we make decisions of things long before we ever encounter them physically. This meaning that someone who acts negatively had already chosen the negative concept. However, perhaps we need to clarify what these concepts really relate to. First, to make some more context for polarity:

78.24 Questioner: This is a hard question just to ask, but what is the function or what is the value experientially of the formation of positive and negative social memory complexes, of the separation of the polarities at that point rather than the allowing for the mixing of mind/body/spirit complexes of opposite polarity at the higher densities?

Ra: I am Ra. The purpose of polarity is to develop the potential to do work. This is the great characteristic of those, shall we say, experiments which have evolved since the concept of The Choice was appreciated. Work is done far more efficiently and with greater purity, intensity, and variety by the voluntary searching of mind/body/spirit complexes for the lessons of third and fourth densities. The action of fifth density is, viewed in space/time, the same with or without polarity. However, viewed in time/space, the experiences of wisdom are greatly enlarged and deepened due, again, to the voluntary nature of polarized mind/body/spirit action.

Let's look at the idea of 'work' then. This is made within one great context and the key to understanding all of these concepts and what everything needs to be viewed through and that is the Law of One itself. Everything must be contextualized through unity and separation in order for it to make sense since that is the fulcrum of this entire philosophy.

Looking at these ideas more directly we can see that unity is equal to wholeness, completeness, which is health, and separation is equal to fragmentation and division. Therefore we have work which builds connection and unity and work which breaks it down. Metabolism of the cosmic mind, you could say.

Individuals move towards these extremes energetically as a function of light. That is, Light is unified, and darkness occurs when that unity is broken, when the Light is divided from itself.

Thus, to control catalyst means to contextualized your impressions from life in a manner which denotes separation and a lack of unity. To accept catalyst means to contextualized your impressions according to unity and wholeness. This is how I believe catalyst is actually used in a direct way. That follows through with all parts of body, mind and spirit. As previously quoted each of these deals with catalyst pertaining to themselves.

There is a key point to note here I believe to understanding the notion of unity and catalyst.

We spoke to one who heard and understood and was in a position to decree the Law of One. However, the priests and peoples of that era quickly distorted our message, robbing it of the, shall we say, compassion with which unity is informed by its very nature. Since it contains all, it cannot abhor any.

Compassion is the key to understanding. It is by this measure that one begins to see whether or not they are in tune with the rhythms of unity. Also by this that one can begin to see how one is using catalyst.

One of the difficulties of this whole subject is the fact that you may come up against the idea that you are indeed making negative interpretation of catalyst, yet I would say that your attempt to 'unravel' your thoughts shows the effort towards the positive. It is just more difficult to do that than to dwell in the negative.

94.20 Questioner: The magical shape is on the right edge of the card indicating to me that the spiritual significance is on the right edge of the card, indicating to me that the spiritual experience would be the right-hand path. Could Ra comment on that?

Ra: I am Ra. Yes. The figure is expressing the nature of experience by having its attention caught by what may be termed the left-hand catalyst. Meanwhile, the power, the magic, is available upon the right-hand path.

The nature of experience is such that the attention shall be constantly given varieties of experience. Those that are presumed to be negative, or interpreted as negative, may seem in abundance. It is a great challenge to take catalyst and devise the magical, positive experience. That which is magical in the negative experience is much longer coming, shall we say, in the third density.

The manner of your focus is a significant factor in your perceptions.

Wanting to change reality is not a negative thing unless that happens by creating separation and control over others. You can also want to change reality through unity. The question isn't whether or not you want to change things, it's whether or not you can honestly accept how they currently are and I think that is your difficulty. You can't reconcile your need for change with the concept of acceptance but I might suggest they are not exclusive. Only when you accept things as they are can change really happen, otherwise you are just wrestling with the twisted phantoms of all the ways you want to imagine things are.

You want to change the nature of reality for everybody, but I may be so bold as to suggest that there are those who would not want you to. Thus, there is a fundamental conflict in reality of which the whole subject of polarity is a part. The harmonization of opposites is the name of the game and this universe has all the time in the, well the universe to sort it all out. Impatience is perhaps one of the greatest short-sightedness when it comes to viewing these mechanisms. The universe feels no rush in its steady plod towards reuniting. It is we in our swimming through temporal time that feel the tension of the clock ticking and the urgency therefore.

This is well, since each moment is a potential for unity to be realized and made whole again.

[Aion]

I have an exercise for you that you may find of some use. Try to make use of your own catalyst in the aforementioned ways. That is, based in interpretation, look at an impression in your life and try to interpret it both positive and negatively. That means that you contextualize it according to unity and then according to separation. Which one seems more appealing? Which one do you feel more compelled? Which one feels more 'realistic' or logical? Observe the interaction between the rational and irrational parts of the mind, for in truth they are the things in conflict and what create the dissonance. The intellect and the emotions, the heart and the mind, must be harmonized and peace made for the conflict to end.

[Billy]

I'm sorry that your work situation was such a difficult one.  The way you described the work environment makes it sound like a pretty depressing place, and your leaving is more than understandable.  I also wouldn't be so quick to say that you weren't able to have a positive effect there.  Firstly, those conditions could make even the best of us go insane and do things that we would later regret, not saying that you did anything regrettable, just that in places where there is so little integrity and care, small acts of kindness, like the ones you displayed, are pretty awesome.  A little bit of light in a sea of darkness is impossible to miss and can be oh so precious.  It sounds like you were able to inject some light into that place.  You obviously care about people and I think that is one of the most beautiful things there is.  For that, I bow to you.  

Also, when it comes to homeless people and mental illness, I think that the two are often conflated not to further demonize homeless people, but instead to contextualize their circumstance, so that a different and more gentle, loving perspective can be achieved.  My understanding is that a lot of homeless people do suffer from mental illness, and this is a part of the reason why they are homeless.  In my experience, sometimes you simply cannot just pull yourself up and do what needs to be done to better your circumstance.  Sometimes, you NEED support, and lots of it.  Many of these people need so much love and support, but where are they going to get it form?  It is so so difficult.  If I didn't have such a supportive family and such fortunate life circumstances, would I be homeless?  Who knows, but if I, someone who goes through periods where I feel myself unable to function even at the most basic level, had on top of that, an abusive family and was surrounded by drugs, alcohol and violence, dear lord, where would I be?  People can fall through the cracks so easily.

I feel a lot of anxiety around this whole polarizing and catalyst business as well.  I don't really have a great deal of advice about it, other than to say that if you find yourself being totally overwhelmed by it, maybe, it is best to put it aside for the time being.  Perhaps that is bad advice though and encourages ignoring catalyst, so take it with a grain of salt.  I like you dude   

[Jade]

This post took way too long to write.  Jade you're free to respond as you will.  I have a feeling if we don't somehow distinguish a few subjects apart out posts will become novels  

Hey friend. I woke up this morning and began penning chapters 3 and 4 of "A Seeker's Manifesto" and, after about an hour and a half, I was almost halfway through. I was around the part where we were discussing the homeless, and reiterating how important intent is vs. the actual manifestation of intent. And I hit the wrong key on my keyboard, which popped up the website's script, and I hit backspace to correct my typo - and it "backspaced" my whole browser page, effectively eating everything I had written.

It's especially frustrating because on my old computer that died just a couple of months ago, I had a browser add-on that stored any text inputs, to prevent something like this happening (losing hours' worth of intensive work while typing on B4), but I had yet to think to install it on the browser on my new computer. Regrets.

So, I want to thank you for inciting some ~exquisite~ catalyst for me, and allowing my higher self to play such an amusing "cosmic joke". I got a nice hard lesson in "perceived manifestation of events" and "the apparent futility of the intention of love". Hopefully soon I'll feel up to trying to tackle this task again, but right now I'm quite devastated and defeated by this event, so I have to step away for a while to regroup before I try again.

[Minyatur]

This post took way too long to write.  Jade you're free to respond as you will.  I have a feeling if we don't somehow distinguish a few subjects apart out posts will become novels  

Hey friend. I woke up this morning and began penning chapters 3 and 4 of "A Seeker's Manifesto" and, after about an hour and a half, I was almost halfway through. I was around the part where we were discussing the homeless, and reiterating how important intent is vs. the actual manifestation of intent. And I hit the wrong key on my keyboard, which popped up the website's script, and I hit backspace to correct my typo - and it "backspaced" my whole browser page, effectively eating everything I had written.

It's especially frustrating because on my old computer that died just a couple of months ago, I had a browser add-on that stored any text inputs, to prevent something like this happening (losing hours' worth of intensive work while typing on B4), but I had yet to think to install it on the browser on my new computer. Regrets.

So, I want to thank you for inciting some ~exquisite~ catalyst for me, and allowing my higher self to play such an amusing "cosmic joke". I got a nice hard lesson in "perceived manifestation of events" and "the apparent futility of the intention of love". Hopefully soon I'll feel up to trying to tackle this task again, but right now I'm quite devastated and defeated by this event, so I have to step away for a while to regroup before I try again.

Lol, after reading this I closed the tab I was writing a reply into since this morning by accident.

Glad to be part of your higher self's cosmic jokes. At least I feel more amused than any frustrated as I was wondering if I had the right focus in what I wrote not long ago and take it as a symbolic answer to that.

[Plenum]

the dreaded Bring4th Reply Box catalyst!

In the least 5+ years, I've experienced that catalyst on more than one occasion.  A weeping, a sorrow, a life cut pre-emptively short.  That that exact configuration of concepts and words would never be ressurected.

And usually with mega-long posts, too

 
 

At least I feel more amused than any frustrated as I was wondering if I had the right focus in what I wrote not long ago and take it as a symbolic answer to that.

definitely something to that as well.  I can recall my fingers moving in almost involuntary motion, like an unfamliar twisting that hit the right keys to go back a page, or what-not.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

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I'm still left to my own devices to ponder things I have trouble grasping with my own devices haha.
Control and Acceptance are interesting labels for the energies being emitted, I emerged from my meditation last night utterly restless.  Which has subsequently ruined my sleep schedule v-v

But in the process I did some healing of the indigo ray and the crossed circuitry I have between indigo and yellow, as this has been pretty much bombarding my mind with endless affirmations of a negative nature, that nothing matters or is going to change or be worthwhile, all things I allow to come forth, and try to be impartial towards with respect for myself and my long-term desires.

Ultimately I'm beginning to feel like I don't so much want to change the nature of this place as much as tweak it, as said.

In total truth, all of you, polarizing consciously was a bit traumatic, which was said would happen.  For being so 'openminded' I'm pretty arrogant and closed off.  Sometimes I feel like I'm a sts entity moving towards sto and in the process am meeting wave after wave of internal programming that needs to be reconfigured.  Still, because of my experience I did a short contemplation session before my meditation on whether or not it would be...Efficient to consciously attempt to polarize again.

I came to a resounding no.  The current system works well enough from the unconscious state, the conscious interference while helpful, causes the side effect of trauma.  Do not like, so I'll allow the system to work behind the scenes so-to-speak, and I'll take my two steps forward and one step back versus one step forward, then two, then four, then a leap of eight, then sixteen, thirty-two, so on and so forth.  I'm fine with taking it one step at a time, I have no rush even if this is my last incarnation to achieve harvest, it's really not worth the suffering I'd put myself through attempting to achieve it continually across my life.

So, sadly I'm going to say any and all information pertaining to polarization, has probably for a reason not resonated with me, because I'm not meant to consciously be propelling it forward but rather, I just need to have faith that as it is now works, and will continue to work.

Which does leave me with the highly resonating catalyst issues I have, which to me have become such a focus I was overwhelmed and tried to run away.  However, where can you run in a place where omnisciently-omnipresent energies exist?  Is it possible that ignoring a catalyst is the close-brother to accepting a catalyst?  Is the leap to accepting from ignoring a large one in the mind, I wonder?

Aion, I'm not sure if you recognize who I am yet, but I've said in the past that I am like a giant paradox.  For me, there isn't disharmony in my disharmonious connections of rational and irrational as much as there is curiosities.
For instance, you mention that harmony must come from a proper connection between the rational and irrational parts of the mind, I already believed this, and actually took it one step further, not only must a harmony exist, but it must be informed by the superational energies of the intuitive mind, otherwise no matter how much harmony is made internally, life will still be as standing in darkness with a candle.  The intuitive mind illuminates the environment somewhat and aids greatly, without it's cultivation and connections we may as well be hitting two rocks together and using the sparks produced to guide our way through our own internal selves.

My internal self has evolved from a simple house to an expansive landscape to an entire novel to a full universe and beyond throughout my life, I've kept track unintentionally by writing it all down in my books when I was a teenager.  To this day when I go back to my first writings and drawings, I see the Law of One just etched into paper by my own hand without my ever having been aware of it.
Truly, I came into this world with my imagination as a form of channeling it'd seem.  From there though, I'm left baffled as to how to hone this ability, as having become consciously aware of it has pretty much damaged my...Originality.

For instance, my name is a reference to an ability by my zombie novel's protagonist to attract and repulse a massive amount of the living dead to and from certain places or people, the novel has an entire back story hiding between the lines of a generic slightly different zombie experience.  Because of this when I look back and read my draft, I find that when I try to insert concepts and ideas such as in the back story trying to explain the nature of why Earth became plagued by zombies (and how), and try to add in Law of One concepts, I completely interfere with my natural process and damage the integrity and dignity of my own works, making for a dull and droll read that sounds closer to preaching ideas than it does showcasing them in a novel fashion.

You want to change the nature of reality for everybody, but I may be so bold as to suggest that there are those who would not want you to.

This is potentially more true in a general sense than I think you are willing to point out.
I may so bold as well to point out that most negative entities who enjoy using places like this would immediately try to shut down my attempts at pulling the power of inflicting suffering away from them slightly, ever so slightly, no matter how slightly, attention will be garnished, there will be...A 'tug of war'.

Similarly, sto entities do this exact same thing, I'm attempting to do so, why am I any different from any of them and their efforts?  Everything done to affect the nature of reality is going to be met with the complex systems in place attempting to maintain themselves.  It ultimately comes down to transmuting them, if not in experimentation in isolated instances of the reality mechanics, then in the actual real simulated reality.

Everything done has those who wanted it done, and those who did not, and those who are indifferent.

My attempts won't be simply dissuaded because the nature of reality makes changing it difficult.

I wonder how much resistance was initially met when the concept of the veil was desired to be integrated, or the creation of a second polarity.  I appreciate your warning though.  Warnings are always nice, better than just wiping me out lol.

Dear Jade, I once lost 32 pages of my zombie novel because windows 8 wanted to automatically update while in sleep mode, and Atlantis Word Processor did not autosave the work.  This was purely my mistake as I should make a habit of ALWAYS SAVING MY WORK before I walk away from it. (In any program, from Blender to Sketchup to Photoshop, to MS word, excel, powerpoint, even in google docs).  I was very mad, I had just written the parts introducing the strongest ability of the protagonist, his Coordinate Apotheosis, and in the process I took a long break from working on the novel.
Then when I returned to it and rewrote the 32 pages I realized something.
That catalyst helped me to make a better read.  I was given a second chance to write that portion of the story, and I highly appreciated this due to the fact I had digested the story in mind, and was able to provide much more detail and create a better immersive experience.

So if I may offer some tips I've used to avoid this exact issue on here in the past.
Ctrl+A + Ctrl+C periodically.
If you ever scroll away from the text box, or something else pops up, ALWAYS click the text box first.  (Of course this is hard to do if you don't notice your typing is no longer being inserted into the text box when you suddenly try to correct a typo that's not even present and BOOM, too late.)
Hit the 'preview post' button after a while, it's essentially a security backup plan in case you accidentally hit back, as you should then be able to hit forward and the current page with all text in the box should reload, at least on chrome it does for me.  Not sure about ff or ie or safari or tor or [insert browser name I've never heard of here].

Beyond those, I'd suggest to all of us that we take typing classes so we don't stare at the keyboard while typing

I look forward to your response Jade, do know you can answer a few questions at a time per post, and don't need to do it all in one shot if that's easier for you.

Plenum, it sounds like you have fingers possessed by the backspace-key, one moment you're typing, the next the calling is heard in your finger tips, and they bend to that will over your own.  That or you've become so proficient at smacking that backspace key that when the impulse to undo something accidentally fires off in your brain, it's all but a battle of physical body reflex against mental mind realization.  I promise you, the reflex usually beats the realization.  Slow down with those fingers of yours!

Do not battle the keyboard, make love to the keyboard, my fellow keyboard warriors!~

[Aion]

Hmm, well sounds like your only remaining issue is having it all figured out while remaining convinced you don't have it figured out. ;P

And yes, I have significantly underplayed the role of 'negatively choosing mind/body/spirit complexes' in the current state of things. I would tweak things too, but I think that requires accepting the current conditions.

Of course I recognize you, Mr. Tired.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

That's literally what I've begun to realize last night, nothing is worth changing if it's previous state isn't admired for what it has done good progressed, without that admiration and acceptance there lies great potential for moving backwards in terms of 'desireable progress'.

I must admit, I truly have nothing figured out, I only have the illusion of the belief of having things figured out.  Gotta remember man, All I Know Truly Is That I Know Nothing.

And if we apply the dichotomy of Nothing being a portion of Everything/Infinity, well then all I really know is infinity, which includes knowing both everything (unconscious) and nothing (conscious).  Everything in between is my illusion

I don't know.

I wish I could grasp the nature of reality and wrap it around my noggin. The closest I come to that is having a slightly decent grasp on the abstractions of Time and it's being.
...Maybe that means I'm more often operating as a discarnate entity, with incarnating being a rare choice by me?

[Aion]

The question to me is, why rely so much on the intellect to obtain a vision of truth? Yes, you have realized the paradoxical and self-contradictory nature of pure thought, but then go further, transcend the intellect and you may reach closer to the truth of nature, if you ask me.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

I find it hard to imagine transcending that which makes up the very essence of all creation.

Intelligent Energy and Intelligent Infinity.  Believe me when I say I've tried to.

I imagine Intellect is just a micro-microcosm of the Intelligent intelligence of infinity.

[rva_jeremy]

Hi there, B4.  It's been a while since I've seen this place.  I see you're still very inactive, but still around.

Wow, this place strikes me as very active -- in some ways, too active.  I often wonder whether a forum is equal to the challenges of spiritual evolution, since it encourages intellectual inquiry over meditative and emotional inquiry.  In any case, I hope we can be of some service to you.

Part of that is revisiting several of the concepts in the Ra Material, and in doing so I'm going to ask for help, for the first time really.  In the past I've tried to rely on my own internal understanding over external expressions and opinions.  In doing so I lost myself to my own inherent issues, and since then I've pretty much been stuck on them, unable to properly be openminded.

I went through something like this when I first encountered the Ra material; it strikes me as pretty natural, especially if what really engages you is the high-mindedness of the material.  It compels one to reconcile mentally all of these concepts, and what you're left with is a structure without necessarily a root.  One thing the Confederation advises over and over again is to seek this root in the inner quest of meditation.  If you take one thing from my post, please consider the foundational urgency of meditation as a study tool in addition to reading all of this material.  It will give you in vivid colors what we can only hope to describe in rough sketches.

1. What constitutes Catalyst?  What derives it's function and being?  What gives it substance or the ability to create to an entity polarization?

This is a pregnant topic that pervades not just your comprehension of this material but all of ours.  It actually brings up a topic that I've often wanted to discuss here: a lot of times what we call "catalyst" appears to be much closer to the archetype of "experience".  Or maybe that's better expressed as "what we casually refer to as 'catalyst' is actually composed of two archetypes".  What we suffer through is not the catalyst but the experience that the catalyst engenders, as the catalyst itself is pure and unfiltered.  Let's bring the Venusians in:

All that you perceive seems to be consciously perceived. This is not the correct supposition. All that you perceive is perceived as catalyst unconsciously. By the, shall we say, time that the mind begins its appreciation of catalyst, that catalyst has been filtered through the veil and in some cases much is veiled in the most apparently clear perception.93.20

This implies that catalyst is a more holistic and totalizing phenomenon than simply "bad stuff happening to you that gives you an opportunity to polarize."  It comes out of deep mind, our innate orientation, biases, and pre-incarnational plan of growth, and provides us the opportunity for lessons uniquely attuned to our chosen curriculum (whose subject is ourselves).  Since much of it we don't notice, it cannot in and of itself be the thing we are dealing with in the material illusion; it is only a source from beyond the veil for the stuff we actually notice and consequently experience can affect us.  It seems that approaching the efficient use of catalyst has to do with knowing ourselves well enough to notice it, and that the suffering and discomfort of its experience is simply a matter of getting our attention.  This can become harsh, as catalyst unprocessed by the mind will manifest in bodily ailments.  But this all in service of furthering our evolution by prompting us to make a choice:

The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen the catalyst fails in its design and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control. There is no lack of space/time in which this catalyst may work.46.16

 
By "work," I believe those of Ra are referring to catalyst's ability to engender in the incarnation the material, subjective, personally significant experience of how the catalyst filters through our chakra blockages and mind complex distortions (largely two ways of saying the same thing).  Another way to say it is that catalyst is the image of our lessons in time/space imperfectly and distortedly reflected in manifest space/time.

I'll try to get to more of your questions later.  I hope this was helpful; please continue to keep your mind open and consider that I may be wrong and others' corrections or different points of view may help further. much of itΩ, it cannot in and of itself be the thing we are dealing with; only the stuff we actually notice and consequently experience can affect us.  It seems that approaching the efficient use of catalyst has to do with knowing ourselves well enough to notice it, and that the suffering and discomfort of its experience is simply a matter of getting our attention.  This can become harsh, to wit:

The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen the catalyst fails in its design and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control. There is no lack of space/time in which this catalyst may work. [46.16]

By "work," I believe those of Ra are referring to catalyst's ability to engender in the incarnation the material, subjective, personally significant experience of how the catalyst filters through our chakra blockages and mind complex distortions (largely two ways of saying the same thing).  Another way to say it is that catalyst is the image of our lessons in time/space imperfectly and distortedly reflected in manifest space/time.  Perhaps the important point here is to recognize the mechanism, right?  To understand that this is a challenge to rise to, rather than an oppression to suffer under.  Since the source is really your own distortions, changing your mindset is really all that's being asked of you.  The experience of suffering is instrumental, even though it seems sometimes like that's all there is.

I'll try to get to more of your questions later.  I hope this was helpful; please continue to keep your mind open and consider that I may be wrong and others' corrections or different points of view may help further.

[Aion]

I find it hard to imagine transcending that which makes up the very essence of all creation.

Intelligent Energy and Intelligent Infinity.  Believe me when I say I've tried to.

I imagine Intellect is just a micro-microcosm of the Intelligent intelligence of infinity.

Imagining is different from experiencing directly. Of course you cannot imagine anything other than what is imaginable and precisely why I do not think the truth of reality is to be seen in the imagination of the intellect. I don't believe you can grasp the nature of reality purely through intellectual rearrangement of ideas. I believe it is only possible to really understand it through direct interaction. Otherwise it's like looking at the moon and believing you are getting to know the truth of the sun.

Truth is, I think the intellect is illusory and the true nature of mind is nothing like all this 'content' we experience here. Thinking as it is is a 'veiled' activity in my understanding.

Empty your mind of everything, every idea and every concept and I think that is reaching closer to the truth. This emptiness could also be described as 'equilibrium' and is why balancing is the crux of all 'progress' towards unification.

[rva_jeremy]

Truth is, I think the intellect is illusory and the true nature of mind is nothing like all this 'content' we experience here. Thinking as it is is a 'veiled' activity in my understanding.

Well said, Aion.  Q'uo often advises using the intellect "as a dray horse" to do rote analytical work, but Confederation friends always caution against depending on the intellect too much.  I think a lot of "rational" thought is more of a mental heuristic we use to reason from base facts to synthesized conclusions, but the mind and emotions certainly have more possibilities than just that.  Because rational intellectual thought often resembles an internal mental conversation, we must discontinue it in order to avail ourselves of the deeper portions, those portions that do not speak to the illusion as our mind has been conditioned to do for so long.  

Here's another oldie but a goldie:

My friends, we wish only to speak to you very briefly this evening. We are shepherds of your flock and we see the needs of the flock. Our only desire is to aid those of the flock who seek our aid. The aid you seek, my friends, has become very much focused upon true seeking than that of most of the sheep of the flock. Therefore, what can we say to you intellectually is more and more lacking in complete satisfaction. It is for this reason, my friends, that we stress to you, even as you are gaining advancement, the continued need for more and more meditation. For, my friends, what we can give you through use of the intellect and language is a very small percentage only of what we are able to give you by direct contact—mind to mind.

We would say this to you: there is an everlasting experience that’s cycled again and again within the physical illusion that you now enjoy. This experience is one of complexity. Events that happen are always events that are essentially unexplained. My friends, the unexplained sets up within your human intellect a great frustration and you seek the explanation with your intellect. But, my friends, the explanation for the cycle of experience within the physical is never within the physical.

The answer, my friends, is to be found within the spiritual consciousness. The flimsy craft of your physical intellectual ability is not designed to sail from the deep seas of spiritual reasons. Do not attempt to take it into the depths of reasons or else, I assure you, your flimsy craft will break apart and you will think that you are surely lost. (Hatonn, April 24, 1974--all emphasis mine)

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

I find it hard to imagine transcending that which makes up the very essence of all creation.

Intelligent Energy and Intelligent Infinity.  Believe me when I say I've tried to.

I imagine Intellect is just a micro-microcosm of the Intelligent intelligence of infinity.

Imagining is different from experiencing directly. Of course you cannot imagine anything other than what is imaginable and precisely why I do not think the truth of reality is to be seen in the imagination of the intellect. I don't believe you can grasp the nature of reality purely through intellectual rearrangement of ideas. I believe it is only possible to really understand it through direct interaction. Otherwise it's like looking at the moon and believing you are getting to know the truth of the sun.

Truth is, I think the intellect is illusory and the true nature of mind is nothing like all this 'content' we experience here. Thinking as it is is a 'veiled' activity in my understanding.

Empty your mind of everything, every idea and every concept and I think that is reaching closer to the truth. This emptiness could also be described as 'equilibrium' and is why balancing is the crux of all 'progress' towards unification.

Equilibrium itself is an illusion of stability created by various forces working in harmony.
Imagine a glass of tea, you pour a little bit of lemon water in it for flavor but the mixture is akin to oil and vinegar, so to mix it you gently gyrate your wrist to push the water along the edges in a circular fashion, if you start too fast the mixture spills, but if you start slow, start the rotations in the body of liquid within the glass, you can speed up due to the rotational force pulling the liquid back inwards.

It's ability to not overflow isn't an equilibrium as much as it is just several forces working together to stabilize the total manifesting movements from going too far out of the desireable range.

Actually, rereading all of that, it might be rude to call equilibrium a 'total illusion' as the forces making it up are all illusions.
(FUUUuu- What's even real anymore, Maaaaan?!!  I'm tripping mentally and I'm totally sober D: )

I believe intellect is of itself a construction of concepts both rational and abstract given a complex in-and-of-itself to operate and inform the consciousness inhabiting the 3D vehicle.  I totally misunderstood what you meant too, I thought you meant contemplate, not actually perform eh heh, so I must apologize and ask you consider this new answer from me to your post:

The question to me is, why rely so much on the intellect to obtain a vision of truth? Yes, you have realized the paradoxical and self-contradictory nature of pure thought, but then go further, transcend the intellect and you may reach closer to the truth of nature, if you ask me.

I personally believe that the various tools we have at our exposal (intelligence, intellect, imagination, abstraction, visualization, thought's-themselves, emotions, intuition, ad-infinitum-etc... ) are actually also Keys to unlocking the nature of 'Truth' that is available to be unlocked or experienced in the occupied Density.

One must have self-awareness to make use of the plethora of tools that exist, a lack of sentience doesn't bar one from these tools but it's a lot harder to use a tool of construction when you have no idea that you're capable of construction.

This concept of 'an idea' or 'no idea' is important in my opinion when regarding things like Intelligent Infinity and it's various facets of manifested truth, as in my opinion Truth itself is not manifest or potentiated, but majorly exists as a pure concept or 'idea'.  We human's have run into this issue of combating an 'idea', there is nothing manifest that can fight an idea directly.

So to me, using the imagination and intellect to parse a direction of an idea of 'Truth' is my foundation, this foundation has the cornerstones of: Emotional Information (as in a 'formulation of information from emotional experience'), Intuitive Information, Abstract Construction/Deconstruction, and, well this last one is hard to describe because it isn't a simple cornerstone.  It's the sum of all of my experiences informing my present state, you could call it simply, the cornerstone of Life Experience.

It's also my weakest cornerstone as I have not been very earnest in experiencing this reality fully, I want to be a part of nature but not struggle within it, I want to be a part of society but not conform to it's standardizations.  So you have touched upon one of my core weaknesses, not wanting to manifest situations for myself to experience to help further parse my pathway towards the idea of Truth available to me.

Let me be frank with you all; we are all Truth-Seekers, no?  In this lifelong journey the universe manifest a distortion, but none-the-less a form of Truth for us to discover in the form of; The Law of One becoming available knowledge on Earth.

I believe that this alone is indicative of Truth being wholly within grasp to anyone, even the mundane spiritually unaware 3D being can stumble upon Truth, in fact I'm more than sure such has happened.  Specifically as an example, those who disappear over the Bermuda Triangle pyramid are being transported through distortions in the space/time continuum into another portion of our space/time continuum.  The journey itself from point A to point B through that temporal distortion would be itself a direct experience of witnessing truth, Truth that Time itself is not purely absolutely fixed, and that it's passage can be circumvented if not overcome.

Truth, what is Truth?  How does one discover it or make sense of how to discover it, Aion?  Intellect isn't enough, experience isn't enough, I think it takes something more than simple tools and keys provided to the consciousness.  I think it takes consciousness itself to manifest Truth (hence distorting it into a knowable form from it's pure 'idea-form').

Hence the reason Ra says that Consciousness is the Microcosm of the Law of One, it's as our cells build up our physical body to allow us to inhabit it, consciousness is that m/b/trillion/quadrillion/zillion portions that constitute and construct the higher formations and formulas, the same way all of the stars in the universe form the universe.

I have actually never seen a discussion of this phrase, 'Consciousness is the Microcosm of the Law of One', I think it holds some means in helping us seek further 'The One Infinite Truth'.

Honestly though, I think this 'One Infinite Truth' is the mystery-clad One Infinite Creator becoming -fully/absolutely- known, which I theorize is both im/possible, impossible in that infinity cannot ever be fully known without severing it's infinite nature, and in this endeavor Infinity too might just be an Illusion to the Law of One decree made by this mystery-clad figure as without things like space or time to manifest the...irrational nature of ever-expanding complexity, you're left with an environment that could be called 'known', leaving the mystery behind, showcasing infinity too as just another illusion and distortion of the one, who may very well itself transcend such human-based understandings as labels like 'infinity'.
Yet, is also possible in that if the One Infinite that transcends the infinite nature and hence formulates it's illusion of being, can create like an artist with pen and ink, anything desireable from a formation of Illusion (or 'emptiness'), bringing full circle the concept dichotomy of something/nothing belonging to the same core energy.  This being possible due to the paradox that an illusion is still a real formulation with form and presence and manifestation, despite not being real.
Essentially, all I'm saying is I think 'The Truth' is synonymous with discovery of 'The One Infinite Self' which is essentially not manifest or potentiated or belonging to things like Intelligent Energy or Intelligent Infinity but is itself a pure/purer/purist form of an 'Idea'. Which may very well just be 'Thought' but even more complex/simple.
If as above so below applies ad infinitum, then we are discovering distorted actual parts of the One Self, that once distilled showcase portions of 'The Truth' despite these portions themselves being still distortions.

Does an absolute knowledge of all infinity 'stabilize' it's exponential growth for a while, so that the one may parse what it has come to know of itself in a way that can be said to be 'the one becoming whole again'?

There's also the fact that there exists an 'Original Thought' that spawned all of this, of which was said to be, as close as can be described to us, Unconditional Love.  Is this a mere microscopic facet of the One Infinite Self?

Quick, someone get Ra on the line! I think I just figured out an entire question book to ask them!  

But Aion, ultimately I have no idea how to take your suggestion into manifestation, how on this entire Planet of Earth am I supposed to 'perform' a transcendence of intellect?

I'm a highly mental person, my physical vehicle has as a preincarnational ruleset a decent amount of limitations probably to help cultivate the continual refinement of my mental energies over my physical ones, and though the physical ones are still important, I feel that I'm here more to cultivate mind more so than body.

Seriously though, some days I just want to pull a Forrest Gump and begin jogging across the nation to avoid my suffering and loneliness in place of physical exertion, but the reality is I'd probably die lol
So, if you have any suggestions for me to 'perform transcending intellect', I'm open to them, but just know I probably won't be able to do what you suggest of me.

Hey Jeremy, thank you for your reply, I'll get back to you later~

[rva_jeremy]

2. Does Polarity adhere wholly to a duality system or can it be threefold, fourfold, and further faceted into differing points of the same 'polygonal-graph' spectrum (3+ directions) (versus a line-graph spectrum ((2 directions)), if you guys understand what I mean?)

In the sense that the Confederation refers to polarity, it is a single spectrum of "service to self" or "service to others". For the purposes of harvestability, this is the only dynamic at play. I'm sure there's lots of different dimensions of experience, as you suggest, and any of these could be interesting. When it comes to polarity, however, we are speaking of a single test, and it seems that the so-called "steps of light" deals with an energetic configuration at its heart, in my opinion, and it is this energetic configuration that governs harvestability.

Polarity is a general concept; the Confederation is usually referring to a particular concept.

3. Responding to Catalyst creates the potential for Polarization to occur, what does this mean?

It means that those challenges that present through the mechanism of catalyst, projected onto the canvas of phenomenal experience, provoke reactions that guide us towards our choice of service to self or service to others. It does not govern how we make that choice, as far as I understand; only that it will present the raw materials that inform the choice.

4. In a society of backwards things, do things considered 'wrong' by society turn out actually to be proper?  I.e things like homosexuality, transgender people, substance usage like thc or...myocilin (stuff in mushrooms), or other hallucinogens (DMT, LSD?)

Confederation sources have repeated often that all things are appropriate in their time. Furthermore, morality is a system of rigid rules which cannot possibly govern the multiplicity of conditions an entity encounters. For example:

We would like to comment, also, about the use of the term morality. We will simply say this, and you may take for what it is worth. It is difficult to understand intellectually. My friends, there is no morality. There is only love. If you will radiate love for all, you will never need to know what is right and what is wrong. The entire difficulty with morality is due to a desire to follow rules rather than a desire to follow the Father. Meditation, correctly pursued, quickly shows the basic simplicity of the way of the Father. That which you term moral decision is within each and available to all. No matter what the conscious frame of mind, and no matter how many chances have been missed, that which is redeeming lies always within, and not one bit has been taken away from anyone. (Hatonn, January 21, 1974)

To the extent that society is built on rigid rules of behavior, it cannot be a reliable guide to spiritual evolution, for it does not factor in the entire constellation of concerns that the spirit acknowledges.