(07-04-2014, 05:51 PM)Gemini Wolf Wrote: Good words. I have been placing utmost importance on how I polarize. Been worried about it. Been trying to be STO, and it sometimes makes it hard to live when I feel I must serve one who does not appreciate being served.
I can understand that. Honestly it is pretty much a meaningless goal to strive as often the STO/STS moniker with talk of the harvest tends to be utilised as a switched up version of the Heaven/Hell scenario and the scale of your Good/Bad deeds after one passes away. I'm not saying there aren't various opposing sides of the spectrum in the grand play, just that by trying to serve is the same as trying to love, which you can't really do. It's something that can only come naturally, and you can only truly serve if you're being your own unique self. It's really the HS's job to deal with the harvest stuff, we just do our role by enjoying the ride and working with the catalyst provided.
If you think of the Infinite Creator as a massive puzzle and we the jigsaw pieces. If the Jigsaw pieces aren't being their unique selves and formation they will not fit in coherently in the functioning of the grand puzzle, and so are not truly being of 'service', as it were. However, if you are simply being who you are, you are being your unique puzzle piece and do 'fit' in a harmonious manner. It pretty much comes down to surrendering and trusting the energies in your life, or as some may say 'be in the flow'.