Unresolved Self

[Fastidious Emanations]

you believe this entity could be someone from your life but its literally quite impossible to "know" for sure?
Is there.. an underlying sexual nature to the interaction?
Does the entity respect you?
Trust you?
Trust itself?
This may be difficult, and well I dont expect an answer because there exists 'personal'ness for a 'reason', but do you want to explain what 'that' is which you experienced in 'that' place? By place are you meaning like mental plane? An alternate physical plane with different perameters etc?

I feel odd asking you all this because I have a somewhat similar issue but its reallly not the easiest to explain, literally I usually choose to 'avoid' direct thought interaction because I'm sick and tired of the pain of longing for someone infinitely whom I can never be good enough for. At least that's what makes the universe exist.. infinitely honed(infinitesimally concentrated energy) light penetrating the infinite expanse of nothingness, forever investigating the mystery with a confidence that we will/can/don't yet know 'what there is to know'. I guess everything is a farce so might as well play games till I am ready to leave this incarnation right...? Or is what we experience akin/equal to 'all that is'..

Forgive / forget can be used to purge non- optimum circumstances/thoughts. This also involves the capacity to 'have faith'

You can ignore the rest of my post here is the real question- What is gravity?

Also have you experienced any kind of like.. teleportation? This is the kind of s*** ive been dealing with.. Higher Self is a freak.

[Fastidious Emanations]

Free Will is an interesting mechanism to consider

[ada]

you believe this entity could be someone from your life but its literally quite impossible to "know" for sure?
Is there.. an underlying sexual nature to the interaction?
Does the entity respect you?
Trust you?
Trust itself?
This may be difficult, and well I dont expect an answer because there exists 'personal'ness for a 'reason', but do you want to explain what 'that' is which you experienced in 'that' place? By place are you meaning like mental plane? An alternate physical plane with different perameters etc?

I feel odd asking you all this because I have a somewhat similar issue but its reallly not the easiest to explain, literally I usually choose to 'avoid' direct thought interaction because I'm sick and tired of the pain of longing for someone infinitely whom I can never be good enough for. At least that's what makes the universe exist.. infinitely honed(infinitesimally concentrated energy) light penetrating the infinite expanse of nothingness, forever investigating the mystery with a confidence that we will/can/don't yet know 'what there is to know'. I guess everything is a farce so might as well play games till I am ready to leave this incarnation right...? Or is what we experience akin/equal to 'all that is'..

Forgive / forget can be used to purge non- optimum circumstances/thoughts. This also involves the capacity to 'have faith'

You can ignore the rest of my post here is the real question- What is gravity?

Also have you experienced any kind of like.. teleportation? This is the kind of s*** ive been dealing with.. Higher Self is a freak.

The first question is really difficult to answer due to misperception. I don't want to correlate any unrelated distortion to this. But it is possible, I had that in mind back then.
The trust parts are a paradox to me.

Could you please quote the sentence which I used 'that' place?

If you want a direct and laughable answer then perhaps. A more specific answer would be floating through walls?
Next I was squeezed/tied up/paralyzed by force. Then slowly pain, and words of not my own trying to calm me down. If we put this into the craziest aspect; I was abducted and experimented upon(?)
After these scenarios I had several internal bleedings, no reason what so ever I wasn't ill or hurt.
Understand that this is the least want to believe, this is why I'm gathering as much intel from this beautiful community taking every possibility to consideration.

[Fastidious Emanations]

its astonishing you remember so much.

So let me get this straight. Was it you as in this current 3d physical body you moving through the 3d material? 
Because tbh when dealing with 'higher' vibrational entities these types of phenomena are not entirely surprising.
I am both seeking to aid you in your quest as well as learn more about my 'own'

16.5 Questioner: What is the source of this random number generator? Is it created by the Guardians to balance their guarding? Or is it a source other than the Guardians?
Ra: I am Ra. All sources are one. However, we understand your query. The window phenomenon is an other-self phenomenon from the Guardians. It operates from the dimensions beyond space/time in what you may call the area of intelligent energy. Like your cycles, such balancing, such rhythms are as a clock striking. In the case of the windows, no entities have the clock. Therefore, it seems random. It is not random in the dimension which produces this balance. That is why we stated the analogy was within certain limits.

LoO search function; window
Also session 16 seems particularly useful
Peacefulness  

[ada]

its astonishing you remember so much.

So let me get this straight. Was it you as in this current 3d physical body you moving through the 3d material? 
Because tbh when dealing with 'higher' vibrational entities these types of phenomena are not entirely surprising.
I am both seeking to aid you in your quest as well as learn more about my 'own'

16.5 Questioner: What is the source of this random number generator? Is it created by the Guardians to balance their guarding? Or is it a source other than the Guardians?
Ra: I am Ra. All sources are one. However, we understand your query. The window phenomenon is an other-self phenomenon from the Guardians. It operates from the dimensions beyond space/time in what you may call the area of intelligent energy. Like your cycles, such balancing, such rhythms are as a clock striking. In the case of the windows, no entities have the clock. Therefore, it seems random. It is not random in the dimension which produces this balance. That is why we stated the analogy was within certain limits.

LoO search function; window
Also session 16 seems particularly useful
Peacefulness  

All this thinking in the past days fatigued me. I don't know what to think anymore.
The answer is not inside me, and if it is then it's long erased.
Not knowing is killing me, everyone who offers actual channeling help asks for money, a lot of money.
How can an entity whom wishes to help those who in need could ask for currency in this corrupted world? Sigh.

[Aion]

My suggestion would be similar to Parsons, to attempt a banishing ritual of some sort. This seems like the most sensible route to take, however, it's possible that I can help.

Do you ever get sleep paralysis after these nightmares?

[ada]

My suggestion would be similar to Parsons, to attempt a banishing ritual of some sort. This seems like the most sensible route to take, however, it's possible that I can help.

Do you ever get sleep paralysis after these nightmares?

Always.

[Aion]

My suggestion would be similar to Parsons, to attempt a banishing ritual of some sort. This seems like the most sensible route to take, however, it's possible that I can help.

Do you ever get sleep paralysis after these nightmares?

Always.

That's what I suspected. I've encountered a similar kind of situation myself. Is there anything in waking life that you would most correlate with this entity? You say it happens when you meditate? (Sorry if you are repeating things, I am just clarifying.)

Is there any part of your body you feel it acts upon the most?

[ada]

My suggestion would be similar to Parsons, to attempt a banishing ritual of some sort. This seems like the most sensible route to take, however, it's possible that I can help.

Do you ever get sleep paralysis after these nightmares?

Always.

That's what I suspected. I've encountered a similar kind of situation myself. Is there anything in waking life that you would most correlate with this entity? You say it happens when you meditate? (Sorry if you are repeating things, I am just clarifying.)

Is there any part of your body you feel it acts upon the most?

Those specific dreams are long gone.
The only thing I experience when I meditate is this presence, all senses beside the smell are affected.
The few last days it kinda stopped but I also started experiencing something unlike me.The past 2 days I have a weird "urge" feeling in my chest. It's like I want something really, really bad. But I've no idea what it is, and it's depressing me without me realizing.
I was just meditating yesterday filling myself with love and my eye teared for no reason. I don't know what's happening to me anymore.

[Aion]

My suggestion would be similar to Parsons, to attempt a banishing ritual of some sort. This seems like the most sensible route to take, however, it's possible that I can help.

Do you ever get sleep paralysis after these nightmares?

Always.

That's what I suspected. I've encountered a similar kind of situation myself. Is there anything in waking life that you would most correlate with this entity? You say it happens when you meditate? (Sorry if you are repeating things, I am just clarifying.)

Is there any part of your body you feel it acts upon the most?

Those specific dreams are long gone.
The only thing I experience when I meditate is this presence, all senses beside the smell are affected.
The few last days it kinda stopped but I also started experiencing something unlike me.The past 2 days I have a weird "urge" feeling in my chest. It's like I want something really, really bad. But I've no idea what it is, and it's depressing me without me realizing.
I was just meditating yesterday filling myself with love and my eye teared for no reason. I don't know what's happening to me anymore.

It sounds to me like your heart is opening and has been releasing the sorrow that has been held there. How does this presence usually appear?

[ada]

My suggestion would be similar to Parsons, to attempt a banishing ritual of some sort. This seems like the most sensible route to take, however, it's possible that I can help.

Do you ever get sleep paralysis after these nightmares?

Always.

That's what I suspected. I've encountered a similar kind of situation myself. Is there anything in waking life that you would most correlate with this entity? You say it happens when you meditate? (Sorry if you are repeating things, I am just clarifying.)

Is there any part of your body you feel it acts upon the most?

Those specific dreams are long gone.
The only thing I experience when I meditate is this presence, all senses beside the smell are affected.
The few last days it kinda stopped but I also started experiencing something unlike me.The past 2 days I have a weird "urge" feeling in my chest. It's like I want something really, really bad. But I've no idea what it is, and it's depressing me without me realizing.
I was just meditating yesterday filling myself with love and my eye teared for no reason. I don't know what's happening to me anymore.

It sounds to me like your heart is opening and has been releasing the sorrow that has been held there. How does this presence usually appear?

Well, it feels like a person.
Walking the room, I can hear the foot steps, slow and random. I can feel it looking at me. I can feel energy moving along with it.
When I start giving it more attention everything amplifies. The foot steps, the energy sensation, the staring.
Not always but sometimes when I open my eyes the first object I pay attention to starts moving/floating. Not too far though.
That's all I have.

[Aion]

Always.

That's what I suspected. I've encountered a similar kind of situation myself. Is there anything in waking life that you would most correlate with this entity? You say it happens when you meditate? (Sorry if you are repeating things, I am just clarifying.)

Is there any part of your body you feel it acts upon the most?

Those specific dreams are long gone.
The only thing I experience when I meditate is this presence, all senses beside the smell are affected.
The few last days it kinda stopped but I also started experiencing something unlike me.The past 2 days I have a weird "urge" feeling in my chest. It's like I want something really, really bad. But I've no idea what it is, and it's depressing me without me realizing.
I was just meditating yesterday filling myself with love and my eye teared for no reason. I don't know what's happening to me anymore.

It sounds to me like your heart is opening and has been releasing the sorrow that has been held there. How does this presence usually appear?

Well, it feels like a person.
Walking the room, I can hear the foot steps, slow and random. I can feel it looking at me. I can feel energy moving along with it.
When I start giving it more attention everything amplifies. The foot steps, the energy sensation, the staring.
Not always but sometimes when I open my eyes the first object I pay attention to starts moving/floating. Not too far though.
That's all I have.

Hmm, does it seems masculine or feminine? Could you give it a 'size', or perhaps colour?

[ada]

That's what I suspected. I've encountered a similar kind of situation myself. Is there anything in waking life that you would most correlate with this entity? You say it happens when you meditate? (Sorry if you are repeating things, I am just clarifying.)

Is there any part of your body you feel it acts upon the most?

Those specific dreams are long gone.
The only thing I experience when I meditate is this presence, all senses beside the smell are affected.
The few last days it kinda stopped but I also started experiencing something unlike me.The past 2 days I have a weird "urge" feeling in my chest. It's like I want something really, really bad. But I've no idea what it is, and it's depressing me without me realizing.
I was just meditating yesterday filling myself with love and my eye teared for no reason. I don't know what's happening to me anymore.

It sounds to me like your heart is opening and has been releasing the sorrow that has been held there. How does this presence usually appear?

Well, it feels like a person.
Walking the room, I can hear the foot steps, slow and random. I can feel it looking at me. I can feel energy moving along with it.
When I start giving it more attention everything amplifies. The foot steps, the energy sensation, the staring.
Not always but sometimes when I open my eyes the first object I pay attention to starts moving/floating. Not too far though.
That's all I have.

Hmm, does it seems masculine or feminine? Could you give it a 'size', or perhaps colour?

Unfortunately not. Since I sit on the couch meditating I can tell that it's taller then that, at least 1.8m

[Aion]

Those specific dreams are long gone.
The only thing I experience when I meditate is this presence, all senses beside the smell are affected.
The few last days it kinda stopped but I also started experiencing something unlike me.The past 2 days I have a weird "urge" feeling in my chest. It's like I want something really, really bad. But I've no idea what it is, and it's depressing me without me realizing.
I was just meditating yesterday filling myself with love and my eye teared for no reason. I don't know what's happening to me anymore.

It sounds to me like your heart is opening and has been releasing the sorrow that has been held there. How does this presence usually appear?

Well, it feels like a person.
Walking the room, I can hear the foot steps, slow and random. I can feel it looking at me. I can feel energy moving along with it.
When I start giving it more attention everything amplifies. The foot steps, the energy sensation, the staring.
Not always but sometimes when I open my eyes the first object I pay attention to starts moving/floating. Not too far though.
That's all I have.

Hmm, does it seems masculine or feminine? Could you give it a 'size', or perhaps colour?

Unfortunately not. Since I sit on the couch meditating I can tell that it's taller then that, at least 1.8m

Does it come from somewhere or just appear at a certain point in your meditation?

[pumpkinsurf]

I am very interested in this QHHT session.

I had a QHHT session recently, actually it was that that started my awakening process. I would highly recommend it to anyone- you'll only learn what you are ready for and what is best for you in that moment. Your higher self knows what is good for you!

I never felt like I was hypnotized- I had some trouble putting my conscious mind aside. But with some concentration I managed to let my higher self down to say a few beautiful and reassuring words. She was awesome and hilarious. And she's still with me (of course she always has been); anytime I have a question she gives me answers. Never anything juicy though haha... Just things you already know but that your ego is preventing you from seeing clearly.

It's totally worth it, you won't regret it. Also I think it's kind of helpful to not do too much research into the process before you go, it'll help you to have an open mind and arrive without expectations.

[ada]

I want to thank everyone with much love for all your love.
I've found myself and what I was seeking.
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[Plenum]

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