Well, I might look to the opposite to try and get in touch with that. You resonate with all those aspects, so how do you feel about the opposite of those things? What is your relationship with control?
Is it that freedom = good and no freedom = bad? Is that actually realistic for those concepts? Just some things to ponder.
In the Western tradition there are two opposites which work off eachother, the terms in Kabbalah are Mercy and Severity, or in Ra terms, total control and total acceptance.
In Kabbalah, the idea of evil actually comes from an imbalance of these two powers. Too much of one or the other leads to an imbalance which leads to unwise decisions and thus 'evil' or negativity.
A lot of people see Severity as the "negative" side and Mercy as the "positive" but in truth it is the balance between the two that equates with 'good'.
In this sense, structure and flow, the key is to utilize them together I believe, as you say reconcile.
It seems you are already comfortable with flow, so to be explored is maybe your issues with structure?
Is it that freedom = good and no freedom = bad? Is that actually realistic for those concepts? Just some things to ponder.
In the Western tradition there are two opposites which work off eachother, the terms in Kabbalah are Mercy and Severity, or in Ra terms, total control and total acceptance.
In Kabbalah, the idea of evil actually comes from an imbalance of these two powers. Too much of one or the other leads to an imbalance which leads to unwise decisions and thus 'evil' or negativity.
A lot of people see Severity as the "negative" side and Mercy as the "positive" but in truth it is the balance between the two that equates with 'good'.
In this sense, structure and flow, the key is to utilize them together I believe, as you say reconcile.
It seems you are already comfortable with flow, so to be explored is maybe your issues with structure?