Unresolved Self

[ada]

I am misunderstood time by time and this is starting to become a bit frustrating.

Thank you for the analyzed response Jade. However I have been through all the Ra material.
I was afraid of such things when I was a teen, I am 22 years old now.
Fear is not real, I can sit in the middle of the graveyard at night and be completely calm. Please understand that fear/unacceptance/death/trust is not the issue any more.
I take it to my fault for confusing everything, I don't know anything about "it". "it" has it's own choices, It's not always here. It's not always active, but sometimes when I meditate "it" lets me know that it's around. This does not bother me what so ever.

I'm sorry if I was presumptuous, I would not put that on any fault of your own. Communication on a deep level often takes a period of time, especially when entities don't know each other well. The combined powers of the forum, however, have infinite patience for you to attempt to clarify yourself so that you do feel understood, if you so desire.

This brought me a big smile, thank you Jade!

[Jade]

Thanks for the smile back!! Lots of love and good luck to you!

[BlatzAdict]

i feel like i remember your experience from the viewpoint of the person telling you to listen in the dream.

i would say that what you experience including the unresolved self is a part of yourself you have not learned to love yet.

tis a spark of the creation still infinite? quite yes through all the different archetypes or motions in response to emotional causation.

whoever said they were the alpha and omega said so to state balance between two opposing forces of contraction and expansion.

what may be perceived as service to others or light, or good, may be referred to as the contractive quality, taking care of one self as well as others,

While expansion may be percieved as service to self or evil, it may also be referred to as the expansive quality, making space for there to be growth or a delineation from where you were.


What I am trying to say is the parts of you that you are finding hard and painful, show themselves that way by design, because your higher self is saying look, this is that thing you don't like, but this is a part of you too. Just remember everything is one, including you, me, this whole forum, everyone here.

Those painful things are the things your higher self is saying hey heal these things so you can be on the way to becoming more like your higher self.

[Fastidious Emanations]

There is no knowing

do you want to know?

[ada]

There is no knowing

do you want to know?

Yes.
I am most definitely certain what I experienced is real no doubt what so ever, going through that being in that place at the time seeing 'that'. And then remembering nothing? I wish and deserve to know.

i feel like i remember your experience from the viewpoint of the person telling you to listen in the dream.

i would say that what you experience including the unresolved self is a part of yourself you have not learned to love yet.

tis a spark of the creation still infinite? quite yes through all the different archetypes or motions in response to emotional causation.

whoever said they were the alpha and omega said so to state balance between two opposing forces of contraction and expansion.

what may be perceived as service to others or light, or good, may be referred to as the contractive quality, taking care of one self as well as others,

While expansion may be percieved as service to self or evil, it may also be referred to as the expansive quality, making space for there to be growth or a delineation from where you were.


What I am trying to say is the parts of you that you are finding hard and painful, show themselves that way by design, because your higher self is saying look, this is that thing you don't like, but this is a part of you too. Just remember everything is one, including you, me, this whole forum, everyone here.

Those painful things are the things your higher self is saying hey heal these things so you can be on the way to becoming more like your higher self.

I was only 18 at that point, this is really difficult for me to perceive. I experienced something unusual in the reality, I wasn't drugged or asleep.
I will take your words to my meditation. Thank you.

[Stranger]

Yes.
I am most definitely certain what I experienced is real no doubt what so ever, going through that being in that place at the time seeing 'that'. And then remembering nothing? I wish and deserve to know.

Have you tried asking it what it is?

[ada]

Yes.
I am most definitely certain what I experienced is real no doubt what so ever, going through that being in that place at the time seeing 'that'. And then remembering nothing? I wish and deserve to know.

Have you tried asking it what it is?

Numerous times.
If I got anything you could label as a response is a movement of an object or the sensation of energy 'walking' the room.

[Stranger]

Papercut, have you considered the possibility that this is a hallucination? More than 3 people out of 100 have them. Of course it would feel real and external - that's how hallucinations manifest. I raise this as a possibility because, first, 15 years of age is when you might expect someone to begin experiencing hallucinations; and it doesn't quite seem to be acting like a purposeful entity as opposed to, say, a thought-form. Just a thought and I hope you will not take it the wrong way.

[ada]

Papercut, have you considered the possibility that this is a hallucination?  More than 3 people out of 100 have them.  Of course it would feel real and external - that's how hallucinations manifest.  I raise this as a possibility because, first, 15 years of age is when you might expect someone to begin experiencing hallucinations; and it doesn't quite seem to be acting like a purposeful entity as opposed to, say, a thought-form.  Just a thought and I hope you will not take it the wrong way.

Yes I have Stranger!
This is the most common response I receive.

What would be the cause of this hallucination? I haven't taken drugs/medication, I wasn't ill. I was thinking, feeling, seeing, smelling, hearing, I was aware.
I was pulled towards it by an external force, this was physical.
Just days before that I felt energy touching my hand and levitating an object to it. And I was just sitting in my room watching TV. This was real.

[Jade]

6.1 Questioner: We would like to continue the material from yesterday. We had to cease before [inaudible].

Ra: I am Ra. This is well with us.

We proceed now with the third area of teach/learning concerning the development of the energy powers of healing.

The third area is the spiritual complex which embodies the fields of force and consciousness which are the least distorted of your mind/body/spirit complex. The exploration and balancing of the spirit complex is indeed the longest and most subtle part of your learn/teaching. We have considered the mind as a tree. The mind controls the body. With the mind single-pointed, balanced, and aware, the body comfortable in whatever biases and distortions make it appropriately balanced for that instrument, the instrument is then ready to proceed with the great work.

That is the work of wind and fire. The spiritual body energy field is a pathway, or channel. When body and mind are receptive and open, then the spirit can become a functioning shuttle or communicator from the entity’s individual energy of will upwards, and from the streamings of the creative fire and wind downwards.

The healing ability, like all other, what this instrument would call paranormal abilities, is effected by the opening of a pathway or shuttle into intelligent infinity. There are many upon your plane who have a random hole or gateway in their spirit energy field, sometimes created by the ingestion of chemicals such as, what this instrument would call LSD, who are able, randomly and without control, to tap into energy sources. They may or may not be entities who wish to serve. The purpose of carefully and consciously opening this channel is to serve in a more dependable way, in a more commonplace or usual way, as seen by the distortion complex of the healer. To others there may appear to be miracles. To the one who has carefully opened the door to intelligent infinity this is ordinary; this is commonplace; this is as it should be. The life experience becomes somewhat transformed and the great work goes on.

At this time we feel these exercises suffice for your beginning. We will, at a future time, when you feel you have accomplished that which is set before you, begin to guide you into a more precise understanding of the functions and uses of this gateway in the experience of healing.

[Parsons]

Have you considered performing the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (LBRP) / Qabalistic Cross (Q Cross) rituals? If you perform the Q Cross before and after performing the LBRP, I have found it to be extremely efficacious in clearing any unwanted / unhelpful thought forms / entities out of one's aura. In the Ra Material, Don inquires about using the LBRP to clear out the new home he was moving into, which Ra later confirms was efficacious. The Q Cross binds the LBRP to your specific aura instead of the LBRP just clearing out a stationary location. If you're interested, here is an instructional video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D65ScgG7IJE

I am by no means a master of identifying non-physical entities, but I do feel I've 'gotten a read' on this particular entity. Please feel free to disregard this as it could just be my subjective projection of the nature of this entity. When I see this entity, I see something very closely tied to you; almost like a guardian. I don't really see it as parasitic like a lower astral entity or an overtly negative entity. When I view it, I see him silently smiling at me. It's an unreadable smile, almost like a Mona Lisa smile. I don't see any overtly malicious intent towards you. He does seem protective of you somehow. I think it could be a thought for you have created or perhaps an 'extra-dimensional' entity. However, this entity could be deceiving me in some way; I'm not entirely sure.

[ada]

Have you considered performing the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (LBRP) / Qabalistic Cross (Q Cross) rituals? If you perform the Q Cross before and after performing the LBRP, I have found it to be extremely efficacious in clearing any unwanted / unhelpful thought forms / entities out of one's aura. In the Ra Material, Don inquires about using the LBRP to clear out the new home he was moving into, which Ra later confirms was efficacious. The Q Cross binds the LBRP to your specific aura instead of the LBRP just clearing out a stationary location. If you're interested, here is an instructional video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D65ScgG7IJE

I am by no means a master of identifying non-physical entities, but I do feel I've 'gotten a read' on this particular entity. Please feel free to disregard this as it could just be my subjective projection of the nature of this entity. When I see this entity, I see something very closely tied to you; almost like a guardian. I don't really see it as parasitic like a lower astral entity or an overtly negative entity. When I view it, I see him silently smiling at me. It's an unreadable smile, almost like a Mona Lisa smile. I don't see any overtly malicious intent towards you. He does seem protective of you somehow. I think it could be a thought for you have created or perhaps an 'extra-dimensional' entity. However, this entity could be deceiving me in some way; I'm not entirely sure.

Thank you for the response Parsons.
Is it possible for us to have a private chat?

[tamaryn]

If you notice any resistance at all, Let it Go. Do not give it any more power than it already has over you. Mind Programs love the 'beliefs' you carry around that enforce the fear or unresolved emotion you have attached to them. It is our very attachments we are afraid to let go of. Then we would be taking the leap of faith vulnerably into the yet unknown and undeveloped parts of the psyche. This is growth of the soul.

Your past is likewise an unreal memory you believe in. An understanding of the essence of NOW being intrinsically harmless, gives us a glimpse into the reality of the Truth that underlies all reality: form and formless.

It is essential to gently detach past memories traumatic and mundane, lovingly from the essence of our personality moment-to-moment if we want to move past fear and into decisive co-creating in trust.

Perhaps this video would serve you as it served me on my journey:

[ada]

If you notice any resistance at all, Let it Go. Do not give it any more power than it already has over you. Mind Programs love the 'beliefs' you carry around that enforce the fear or unresolved emotion you have attached to them. It is our very attachments we are afraid to let go of. Then we would be taking the leap of faith vulnerably into the yet unknown and undeveloped parts of the psyche. This is growth of the soul.

Your past is likewise an unreal memory you believe in. An understanding of the essence of NOW being intrinsically harmless, gives us a glimpse into the reality of the Truth that underlies all reality: form and formless.

It is essential to gently detach past memories traumatic and mundane, lovingly from the essence of our personality moment-to-moment if we want to move past fear and into decisive co-creating in trust.

Perhaps this video would serve you as it served me on my journey:

Thank you for your response tamaryn.
The reason I resisted posting to this point is because this is the response I knew I would get. Surprisingly many people here are actually respective.

But please allow me to ask something of you as well.
Do you truly believe that you currently hold all answers in order to respond in such way? Do you know for certain whats 'real'?
Please re-think.

[Minyatur]

If you were to trust your intuition and inner feeling on whatever answer you get to this question.

What is that entity's relationship with you?

[ada]

If you were to trust your intuition and inner feeling on whatever answer you get to this question.

What is that entity's relationship with you?

A guide.

[Minyatur]

If you were to trust your intuition and inner feeling on whatever answer you get to this question.

What is that entity's relationship with you?

A guide.

I know you have described it as a darkness or negative, which I believe does not necessarily underline the intent but more the radiance of it's beingness. So through the same process.

What is it's intent toward you and your well being?

What does it seek?

[ada]

If you were to trust your intuition and inner feeling on whatever answer you get to this question.

What is that entity's relationship with you?

A guide.

I know you have described it as a darkness or negative, which I believe does not necessarily underline the intent but more the radiance of it's beingness. So through the same process.

What is it's intent toward you and your well being?

What does it seek?

My awareness/attention

[Minyatur]

My awareness/attention

For what purpose toward you?

For what purpose toward itself?

[ada]

My awareness/attention

For what purpose toward you?

For what purpose toward itself?

I'm still trying to figure out this one.
Trying anything that suggested here by the community members.
I haven't felt it since 3 days though.

[Minyatur]

My awareness/attention

For what purpose toward you?

For what purpose toward itself?

I'm still trying to figure out this one.
Trying anything that suggested here by the community members.
I haven't felt it since 3 days though.

Ok, then a different angle.

What keeps you from knowing this one?

[ada]

Lack of information/detail/knowledge/words. If I ask my intuition it tells me it's not time yet.

[Minyatur]

Lack of information/detail/knowledge/words. If I ask my intuition it tells me it's not time yet.

How does it tell you to react to this guide?

[Night Owl]

I think what you can do best is send love to that entity. If that entity is malicious it won't be staying around. If it's intentions are positive then you will ease communication with it or be more open to it's energy and what it has to tell you.

[tamaryn]

Failing to read all but the beginning of the thread gave me quite a different impression. Oops,

My intention was to challenge you and your beliefs, and in doing so be a mirror to what ever you see in yourself.

You do not have to take my words as truth, as they are not. They are words. I can only describe what I experience subjectively.

[ada]

Failing to read all but the beginning of the thread gave me quite a different impression. Oops,

My intention was to challenge you and your beliefs, and in doing so be a mirror to what ever you see in yourself.

You do not have to take my words as truth, as they are not. They are words. I can only describe what I experience subjectively.

Thank you!
I found help in your video although it doesn't relate precisely to my issue.

Lack of information/detail/knowledge/words. If I ask my intuition it tells me it's not time yet.

How does it tell you to react to this guide?

To accept and empower it.
Although my survival instincts tell me that this is not so good at the moment. It's that little flinch you get when something disrupts your concentration during meditation.

I think what you can do best is send love to that entity. If that entity is malicious it won't be staying around. If it's intentions are positive then you will ease communication with it or be more open to it's energy and what it has to tell you.

You are probably right.

[Minyatur]

Lack of information/detail/knowledge/words. If I ask my intuition it tells me it's not time yet.

How does it tell you to react to this guide?

To accept and empower it.
Although my survival instincts tell me that this is not so good at the moment. It's that little flinch you get when something disrupts your concentration during meditation.

I had experiences with negative entities while meditating, now i pretty much simply take an interest in them when it happens. "Who are you? Why are you here? How are you feeling? Why are you feeling this way?" and... it's gone. I usually feel disappointment when they go away because that was not my intent and I did develop genuine interest.

Instead of seeking to empower it, you could go with what Parsons suggested and perform banishing rituals to clear your space. I'm not all that knowledgeable with those but I did experiment to see that they do work so that they become a ressource I can use when I will feel the need to.

[AnthroHeart]

Could this entity perhaps be a tulpa?

Usually tulpas are created by a person. Not sure if it's possible to unconsciously create them.

[ada]

Lack of information/detail/knowledge/words. If I ask my intuition it tells me it's not time yet.

How does it tell you to react to this guide?

To accept and empower it.
Although my survival instincts tell me that this is not so good at the moment. It's that little flinch you get when something disrupts your concentration during meditation.

I had experiences with negative entities while meditating, now i pretty much simply take an interest in them when it happens. "Who are you? Why are you here? How  are you feeling? Why are you feeling this way?" and... it's gone. I usually feel disappointment when they go away because that was not my intent and I did develop genuine interest.

This is interesting.
Could you describe what feeling have you had when this kind of entity was around while you meditate?

Could this entity perhaps be a tulpa?

Usually tulpas are created by a person. Not sure if it's possible to unconsciously create them.

Thank you for your response, this seems like a fair point.
I will start researching right away.

Edit: After a bit of reading and personal chats with some Admin of the so called "Tulpa" forums I've been told that this is not the case. It cannot Paralyze a person, levitate, or move objects without 'possessing'.

[Minyatur]

Lack of information/detail/knowledge/words. If I ask my intuition it tells me it's not time yet.

How does it tell you to react to this guide?

To accept and empower it.
Although my survival instincts tell me that this is not so good at the moment. It's that little flinch you get when something disrupts your concentration during meditation.

I had experiences with negative entities while meditating, now i pretty much simply take an interest in them when it happens. "Who are you? Why are you here? How  are you feeling? Why are you feeling this way?" and... it's gone. I usually feel disappointment when they go away because that was not my intent and I did develop genuine interest.

This is interesting.
Could you describe what feeling have you had when this kind of entity was around while you meditate?

There's been different occurences to feeling things and perceiving things like you did. When I started awakening I went toward christianity and had lots of "demons" messing with my prayers.

Last time it was a feeling of fear that appeared randomly, then I scanned for an entity and developped interest in it and it went away, happened a few times although the feeling of fear wasn't always there.

I sensed an entity messing with a friend on mine on many occasions and it seemed to avoid interacting with me.