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[IndigoSalvia]

Quite often I do/think/say things that I later second-guess. Given the opportunity, I apologize, clarify, etc.

I am so far from "100% positive thoughts" that aspiring toward that goal feels too big and unrealistic for me personally.

I feel more comfortable aspiring toward love and acceptance moment by moment, when my awareness settles upon it. And it is a practice, trying to build a habit, I suppose.

I have recently meditated on why I act from fear, anger, scarcity, etc. when another part of me "knows" that love, understanding, abundance is an option as well.

I've had both experiences -- fear and love -- and choosing love feels sooo much better, simpler, easier. Then, why do I still choose fear, anger, etc. in the moment? 

It still has something to teach me, I guess. My aspiration is simply to bring my awareness to love as quickly as I can, whether that's in the moment or after it. For me, it's slowing way down and breathing in love, intentionally.

I have a teenager who is figuring out his own person by "pushing" against me. Lots of catalyst. Lots of opportunities for us to practice.