02-01-2022, 10:12 AM
(02-01-2022, 01:08 AM)Quincunx Wrote: I forgive you
Forgive me for saying this. Speak with your words. Quoting others is not necessary. We see their words from our point of view. Your message may become twisted by including extra information that did not come from you directly. Speak from the heart.
Quotes are how I write in almost all cases. Nothing new under the sun, as they say.
I suppose, I've never really been interested in speaking about myself only. I usually go blank when someone asks how my weekend was!
In fact, I remember another time when I was on LSD (yes, ironically, it became a habit for me), hanging out with my old high school buddies, and somehow we got on the topic of self-appreciation. We went around round-robin, and when it got to me I couldn't eke out anything much coherent--but not because of the drug. This was when I was still very interested in Buddhism, so I stammered out something about there being "no me," just the "impermanent collection of craving and clinging that becomes me moment by moment." In retrospect, I was in a rough spot, emotionally.
Actually, you have a good point. I have often had trouble not only speaking autobiographically but with most forms of self-assertion. I suppose, it has either come out in unhealthy ways, or in diluted ways. Ironic, because, in person, many have said I am a powerful speaker. So, why the lack of belief in self? Intellectually, I want better, and I want to be better ("'I must, and I can'"!), but perhaps it hasn't sunk to the roots yet.