Quote:There is no such thing as being able, without any doubt whatsoever, to know that you are communicating with your guidance. There is a reason for this unknowing. Each entity within third density is given complete free will to choose those things which he desires. And that which he desires shall be given unto him. In this atmosphere of free will, it is not desirable from the standpoint of spiritual growth that there be some way to test and prove spiritual events or influences.

Instead of such objective means of determining the validity of metaphysical experiences, the seeker is given, instead, the ability to set intentions, such as speaking with one’s guidance. Once this intention has been carefully and profoundly set in such a way that the self hears the self on a deep level, it is necessary only to proceed to have a conversation on a continuing basis with your guidance.

This instrument communicates with its higher self using a computer. She types in her questions and then allows her mind to be filled with a thought. That thought comes and she types it into the computer. If she desires to communicate further, she types in another question and then again waits for a thought. When it comes she types it without questioning it, judging it, or in any way analyzing it.

It is a simple procedure, my brother, and it is a protective one in that your guidance system dwells within your protected aura. This communication cannot be disrupted by psychic greeting. Its very simplicity however, frustrates and baffles the intellectual mind. If the intellectual mind is allowed to work it shall immediately begin asking, “How do I know that this thought is not my thought? How do I know that I am receiving guidance from a legitimate guidance system?”

My brother, you shall never know in that objective way of proof until the day comes when your scientists are able to create instrumentation to track vibration of this subtle kind. By the time this is done, my brother, you shall be either in fourth density or your home density, having concluded your service and your learning upon Planet Earth.

Therefore, your objective needs to be to continue and persevere, having conversations, if possible, daily, keeping a record, either on the computer or writing by hand. Gradually, you shall build up a sufficient amount of material in order to have the ability to look back upon the collected experiences of this conversation as it continues. The longer that you continue with this discipline, the more dense shall be the patterns of congruency and harmonization that you shall begin to see. Gradually you shall begin to gain confidence in this source of intelligence, not because of objective proof but because of an increasing amount of synchronicity and coincidence of a spiritually interesting nature that shall begin to grow up around this conversation.

Eventually you shall come to trust in this source of inspiration and information because it has stood you in good stead over a period of time and because there has come to be a certain energy which you can associate with this conversation which comes at no other time.

Quote:... There is also the technique of writing, which is sometimes utilized to make a similar kind of communication, where you write upon a page the question that you ask, then, as you feel a response in your mind, you write or channel that response onto the paper. Oftentimes, this is described as automatic writing, but in this instance, this is a response to a specific query, not simply writing which takes an energy upon itself to begin.

Quote:... each individual seeker who wishes to become more aware of its own life path may explore the possibilities of discovering the pre-incarnative choices through meditative practice in which the question is asked at the beginning of such a meditation as to how the life pattern may be enhanced to become congruent with the previous or pre-incarnative choices. The dream state may also be utilized by such a seeker of truth who wishes to know more if its own means by which it may be of service, so that the utilization of messages from the unconscious mind through dreams could be a means by which this process of discovery could be practiced.


We would suggest that there is also the possibility of utilizing what you may call the journaling or the automatic writing so that the subconscious mind may once again have an avenue through which to offer thoughts that may enhance the seeker's understanding of its own abilities to be of service, and the direction in which it would be most fruitful to move in service to others and to the One Creator, which exists within all of the creation and within each being that seeks to be of service to others. For one is of service to the Creator as one serves others, for this is a universe of unity, and the One Creator moves fully and freely within each seeker of Truth and is available to help each seeker be aware of the most appropriate life path that may be pursued in this particular incarnational pattern.

Quote:L/Leema:
The intellectual mind and the intuitive mind are two sides of one coin. Analysis is a form of speaking, intuition a form of listening. And yet, when one is speaking, does one not also have ears? And when one listens intuitively, does one not hear the voice of silence?

Quote:Q'uo:
Analysis which proceeds without reference to inspiration, however, is dry. And inspiration that has not been tied to a specific intent is inspiration which can find no anchor, can find no mooring. The key, therefore, is to get analysis to work in tandem with inspiration, to allow your process of analysis to remain open to the sources of inspiration, but that process itself, of bringing the one together with the other, requires a central clearing house, a place of meeting, shall we say, and a place, if we may so speak, of mating—the mating of analysis with inspiration. In the case of those who are resolved in the core of their being to serve others is simply the open heart, and it is in the open heart where [exists] that resolve that you will, above all else, dedicate your own being to serving others. That is the place of mating where you may find that it is safe and fruitful to open up the process of analysis to inspiration so that it may be fed, as it were, from above.

Quote:... "There is always a sense of confusion around the child as to what really happened" ...

Quote:... "immediate sense of this one was of a soul/spirit trying to decide of he really WANTED to stay here" ...

Quote:Ra 48.6

In fifth-density negative, service to self has become extremely intense and the self has shrunk or compacted so that the dialogues with the teach/learners are used exclusively in order to intensify wisdom. There are very, very few fifth-density negative Wanderers for they fear the forgetting. There are very, very few fifth-density Orion members for they do not any longer perceive any virtue in other-selves.

Quote:36.16  Once the negatively polarized entity has reached a certain point in the wisdom density it becomes extremely unlikely that it will choose to risk the forgetting, for this polarization is not selfless but selfish and with wisdom realizes the jeopardy of such “wandering.” Occasionally a sixth-density negative entity becomes a Wanderer in an effort to continue to polarize towards the negative. This is extremely unusual.

• When I was a young child, maybe six or seven, I had climbed into my parents' bed in the middle of the night and turned, randomly, to glance at the doorway and saw a shadowy specter there.  It whispered my name, then apparently vanished.
  
• Throughout my life I have had impenetrable night terrors as well as starkly-clear nightmares.  
  • In the throes of the night terrors, I will sometimes sleepwalk.  Usually I will whimper, shout, and scream.  Recently, I had one where all that came out was a chant of, "NO! NO! NO! NO!" (According to those around me). 
    
  •  My most notable nightmares, which I do remember, with clarity, have me in multitude of uncomfortable scenes.  When there are others around me, either I am murdered, witnessing murder, suspected of murdering, actually murdering, or in rare cases, fending off a murderer.  Usually these are cast with tones of either powerlessness or betrayal: in one dream, my mother (apologies for the graphic image) was gripped by some alien machine appendage 'off-scene' and was pulled upward, her head and spine separated from the rest of the body.  In a more recent dream, I was atop a steel scaffold wrestling with what had presumably been a former friend or maybe 'business partner' (at least, someone I had been thick-and-thin with) who then pulled a blade on me and attempted to force me off.  I am reminded further that many of my dreams have occurred at what were seemingly vast heights, in some do-or-die situation.  When I am in more solitary conditions, I am still haunted or chased by what I describe as ghouls.  I am chased in abandoned towns, in sprawling tunnels, in wastelands ... 
    
• I have also received numerous left ear tones, as if I am being 'spied on,' or 'tracked.'  Ho, hey, not doing so well, are you, betrayer?  That's the general impression.  
  

Quote:89.35  About them were soon gathered those who found it easy to believe that a series of specific knowledges and wisdoms would advance one towards the Creator. The end of this was the graduation into fourth-density negative of the Wanderers, which had much power of personality

Quote:https://www.llresearch.org/channeling/2019/1102

... the negatively oriented wanderer, well aware of this potential, is quite cautious in making any type of a movement through the veil of forgetting.

However, there have been some few who have done so. These entities have been able to make their presence felt in a manner which one might be likened to the assuming of roles of power and authority over others, making their dominion the pinnacle of their achievement in this illusion, finding those who are elite, and then by these elite, enslaving others who are not seen as elite.

Quote:https://www.llresearch.org/channeling/1986/0223

... those who would act in the role of catalyst both for their own growth and that of their brothers should consider that their own efforts may serve only to influence unduly those about them, should those efforts be directed toward the turning of a brother or sister to a specific path. To be truly of service, the seeker, the wanderer, does not seek to teach, to lead, or to guide, for to do so would be to exert an influence

Quote:https://www.llresearch.org/channeling/2020/0118

The negatively oriented entities, however, in their utilization of the hierarchy of creation, have the opposite point of view, that is, that the creation is that which is at their disposal, that which must be put in order, that which is to be controlled in a fashion which gives power to the negatively oriented entity and most especially, to those at the apex of power within the social memory complex of the negatively oriented entities.

• I ran cross-country in high school and, while always humble regarding my physical abilities, would often seek to "help guide the team."  Often, these efforts were even appreciated - I remember listening diligently to a seminar hosted after practice on "The Champion's Way," and disseminating my synopsis of the seminar the very next afternoon.  I was designated a 'lieutenant' of the team and acquired around me several outspoken admirers, in the sense of admiring my virtue and especially belief in the guiding principles of our team.  I remember being surprised when they spoke so highly of me, almost randomly at certain team meetings, yet then feeling dismayed when, at my surprise, their admiration waned.  Still, I was elevated to the role of team (co-)captain - a position I gladly shared, since I felt my physical ability made the assignment a, let's say, charitable choice.  I was still respected by many, and was given a banner with the names of my team members in my senior year.
  
• In my college years, perhaps having felt my foray into team sports was 'enough,' turned more to intellectual and social pursuits.  I became engaged in entrepreneurial competitions, reaching some notable ranking in a few, but also feeling that in large part I was being "overlooked."  
  
• This was true also in my occupational work, where I often used methods which I found to be more 'efficient' and would balk when I was reprimanded for the seeming benefit I had offered.  This was true whether I worked as a grocery store clerk or as a laboratory coordinator.
  

Quote:18.7 Questioner: As an entity in this density grows from childhood, he becomes more aware of his responsibilities. Is there an age below which an entity is not responsible or his— for his actions, or is he responsible from the time of birth?


Ra: I am Ra. An entity incarnating upon the Earth plane becomes conscious of self at a varying point in its time/space progress through the continuum. This may have a median, shall we say, of approximately fifteen of your months. Some entities become conscious of self at a period closer to incarnation, some at a period farther from this event. In all cases responsibility then becomes retroactive from that point backwards in the continuum so that distortions are to be understood by the entity and dissolved as the entity learns.

Quote:Is this really a worthwhile exercise? Trying to separate the ego from the rest of the world?
Others have made it clear that they operate by a strict set of rules -- rules that allow
for exceptions, which form systems that break down ... Is it worth it to create a logical reference ssytem?
Or is it enough to conform to the rules set before us?

Quote:Do we model God as all-knowing, all-powerful, and above all -- benevolent and all-loving -- because that is
what we want? Or is it because that is who we are -- or, who we have the capability to be?
That is ... Do we model God, the ideal of everything, after what we need? If so, that is selfish
So it must be that we model God after what we are.

In practice .. this manifests so: "I must, and I can."
(God created us in His Image.  What does that mean for us?)
[It Are All We.]
[Divine Oversoul --> connecting/manifesting individually]
[Buddhism - Is that why we act in the present (that is, in a "here-and-now" mindset)?
To accord the will of the universe -- which is ourselves?]
--> The ultimate act of a neuron is to accurately convey a thought, feeling, or perception
--> What if we all act as "neurons?"
--> Ultimately -- if we act rightly and with understanding -- we accurately form God.
--> A synapse may fire incorrectly, transmitting an incomplete or inaccurate picture
--> So while some of us may not act according to Us, to God, that
does not invalidate those who act according to Us, to God.  [re: Gods Debris]
... If we concede that there is an external object X that we can sense, creating Y (subjective experience)
.. Could it not be that we are just the overall sensory mechansim for a greater being? For God?
That is, there is an external reality, X ... justice? ... that something else ... God ...
is trying to sense, to create Y ... We are just a way for X to become Y, but we are not X or Y.
                (That is, from the cosmic perspective ... we are not what the algebraic function represents,
nor are we what is trying to find that true value ... "We" are, instead, how X may become Y.
*************************************************************************************
... Imagine if the "Identity Law" in logic were self-aware and alive?
... That is what WE are (on the cosmic scale).  We are just a Law. ******
... If that is true, what great problem do we act to solve? What could we be a mathematical rule for or
expression of? And, relatedly, who uses Us?
... : JUSTICE/GOD/COMPASSION --> Truly, though, it is beyond our comprehension.

For us to perceive of God ... would be as if a rule of logic were to perceive of Us.
That is ... we are not even a "lesser being" compared to God.  "We" are what God USES to define HIS world.

Now ... working from this understanding .. How should "we" conduct ourselves?
(1.) If we are truly a Law, then nothing we do matters -- because like a law of logic is fundamental and
consistent to us, we would likewise be fundamental and consistent if we are also just a Law.
BUT ... (2.) If we are more like an AI gaining sentience, it matters supremely.
(Imagine if a repair-bot became self-aware, and realized it was no longer repairing ... That bot could
then re-define what needs repairs and what does not) ...
We are also God, so if we want God to be Good, then We Must Be Good. *****

And we can be.

And we must. ("I must, and I can.")

(02-01-2022, 01:08 AM)Quincunx Wrote: I forgive you

Forgive me for saying this. Speak with your words. Quoting others is not necessary. We see their words from our point of view. Your message may become twisted by including extra information that did not come from you directly. Speak from the heart.

(02-01-2022, 11:36 AM)Patrick Wrote: I suspect the same thing for myself. In fact I suspect that many foolhardy 6d wanderers are unknowingly those that switched polarity in mid 6d and are incarnating in the maelstrom now in order to help without fearing entanglement with Karma because we've been there and are now old friends with our Karma.

(01-31-2022, 11:46 PM)Vestige Wrote: I have a suspicion that I may have been a negative-polarity wanderer or, phrased more appropriately, a negative-polarity entity who wandered so as to embrace the positive polarity.  

I say, "suspicion," because that is all I can confidently say as to the extent of my self-knowledge.

(02-02-2022, 11:28 AM)Spaced Wrote: Thank you for sharing your story. I resonate with a lot with what you wrote, I can see some similarities with my own spiritual trajectory.

I feel that everyone has darkness in their past of varying kinds. I suspect I've had lifetimes where I left nothing but destruction, suffering and death in my wake but that is not who I am now. I like that Patrick mentioned being old friends with your Karma because I think the key is acceptance. What you wrote about neurons transmitting accurately ties into this I think, if we follow the way without expectations we help balance our Karma. If we take detours our metaphorical neuron may misfire, we may get lost in delusion or attachment and stray further into the woods.

(02-02-2022, 11:28 AM)tadeus Wrote: Why do you think that you are "a negative-polarity wanderer" ?

I am writing here often about negative things, specially about the symbols of satanism.
But i only want to point out that we are sorrounded of them and not to identify with them.
So am I a proponent of satanism?

Quote:

My friends, the work of disciplining the personality and purifying the emotions is subtle work. The entity which is yourself is not all good, nor is it all negative. The more positively-oriented an entity is, the more quickly it will jump to the conclusion that it is behaving in a negatively-oriented manner, and the more judgmental it will be with the self. Therefore, as we show to you the basic negative polarity of rushing without rhythm, without consciousness of the winds, physically and metaphysically, we also say to you, refrain from any judgment. Do not assume that because you see the negative cast of this attitude you are indeed a negatively-oriented or polarized person.

Quote:To continue the tuning process [p. 24] by examining the character of your own
mind, it is well to settle on that principle to which you, just as you are, can
be wholly faithful. If it is an orthodox religion to which you are drawn then
it is well for you to become an active and practicing religious person. If it is
a philosophical system that appeals to your rational mind, then it behooves
you to choose that one statement of what is true that you consider to be
worthy of your complete fidelity, and practice its dictates and ethics
conscientiously and lovingly. Whatever you choose, keep the pressure up to
be constantly faithful and regular in your pursuit of and devotion to that
which you believe. 

(02-03-2022, 11:21 PM)Vestige Wrote: So, perhaps I have leaned too far in the realm of assumptions, in declaring that I arrived recently from the negative polarity.  Do I then assume that I am greatly positively-oriented?  No, I don't believe I should do that, either.

(02-03-2022, 11:21 PM)Vestige Wrote: Does that mean I am in the sinkhole of indifference?

(02-03-2022, 11:21 PM)Vestige Wrote: Why am I always reading?

(02-04-2022, 01:11 AM)Quincunx Wrote: I have a question for you Vestige. You don't have to answer it on here due to privacy concerns. I think this could be something that you can ponder about.

We all enter this world innocently. Our paths become unique because of the experiences that were created for us.

Have you thought about the first time that a negative act was done to you or the result of such a negative act that created the path that you believe you are currently on? This could be something that happened at a young age.

Some believe it was their fault, some believe they weren't responsible, some believe it was meant to be. This makes one wonder about the negative path people believe they have always been on.

(02-06-2022, 02:44 PM)Quincunx Wrote:  I honestly don't believe you are a negative wanderer. I think you are just as confused as anyone else who thinks they are.

Quote:So, let us say this: there are indeed emotions, and anger perhaps is amongst the most prominent among them, that if reinforced, if embraced, if built upon, if made the focus and the pivot of a commitment, can, in the fullness of time, lead to a polarization toward the negative that is of an harvestable quality. However, we would point out that anger, in its random expressions—anger as hostility as you suggest in demonstrations—you do not have the kind of focused service-to-self development that even remotely approaches harvestable quality. In fact, outbursts of this kind tend to characterize individuals who, in the root choice have already tended toward service to others but are having difficulty in manifesting that choice in a consistent fashion, in a fashion that reaches down to the root of their being.


By contrast, an entity who is approaching harvestable quality on the negative path typically will not be noticed as one who is extraordinarily negative; [he or she] will most generally be taken as one who is, in fact, positive, because it is a characteristic of this path that the measure of success is indexed to the ability to control, to manipulate, to dominate others, and the surest way to queer the pitch,3 shall we say, in that enterprise is to let the cat out of the bag4 with regard to who you really are.

Quote:When an entity is extremely positive, as each within this circle is, that which may be seen by others to be unimportant or non-catalytic, upon the contrary sensitive entities which seek will certainly use this catalyst and experience painfully negative emotions. Thus, hatred is love which has been hurt badly. Anger is that which comes of hatred. Beneath the hatred is what this instrument would call the orange-ray blockage. This is especially painful when the entity who is in pain has some difficulty in experiencing self-worth and self-acceptance, self-forgiveness and self-love.

Quote:There are many upon your plane who have a random hole or gateway in their spirit energy field, sometimes created by the ingestion of chemicals such as, what this instrument would call LSD, who are able, randomly and without control, to tap into energy sources. They may or may not be entities who wish to serve.

Quote:One who feels this activation [of the indigo center] is one experiencing instreamings at that energy center to be used either for the unblocking of this center, for its tuning to match the harmonics of its other energy centers, or to activate the gateway to intelligent infinity.

Quote:I am Ra. This entity became, may we use the vibration sound complex, overstimulated with the true nature of things. This over-stimulation resulted in behavior that was beyond the conscious control of the entity. The entity thus, in many attempts to go through the process of balancing, as we have described the various energy centers beginning with the red ray and moving upwards, became somewhat overly impressed or caught up in this process and became alienated from other-selves. This entity was positive. However, its journey was difficult due to the inability to use, synthesize, and harmonize the understandings of the desires of self so that it might have shared, in full compassion, with other-selves. This entity thus became very unhealthy, as you may call it, in a spiritual complex manner, and it is necessary for those with this type of distortion towards inner pain to be nurtured in the inner planes until such an entity is capable of viewing the experiences again with the lack of distortion towards pain.


Category: People: Aleister Crowley

Quote:I am Ra. In speaking of the one you call Adolf we have some difficulty due to the intense amount of confusion present in this entity’s life patterns as well as the great confusion which greets any discussion of this entity.

Here we see an example of one who, in attempting activation of the highest rays of energy while lacking the green-ray key, canceled itself out as far as polarization either towards positive or negative. This entity was basically negative. However, its confusion was such that the personality disintegrated, thus leaving the mind/body/spirit complex unharvestable and much in need of healing.
This entity followed the pattern of negative polarization which suggests the elite and the enslaved, this being seen by the entity to be of an helpful nature for the societal structure. However, in drifting from the conscious polarization into what you may call a twilight world where dream took the place of events in your space/time continuum, this entity failed in its attempt to serve the Creator in an harvestable degree along the path of service to self. Thus we see the so-called insanity which may often arise when an entity attempts to polarize more quickly than experience may be integrated.
We have advised and suggested caution and patience in previous communications and do so again, using this entity as an example of the over-hasty opening of polarization without due attention to the synthesized and integrated mind/body/spirit complex. To know your self is to have the foundation upon firm ground.

(02-06-2022, 05:24 PM)Vestige Wrote: To answer you, Quincunx, and flofrog, in short: yes, I believe I have faced violence during my childhood, and, really, throughout my whole growth.
I am only, nearly, one-quarter of a century in age in this current vehicle.  So, I feel, simultaneously, that I have lived much and probably not enough.
Quincunx, I am so sorry that you have faced violence, even, I assume, physical harm, at the hand of your father.  I have sometimes feared physical blows but, in truth, I have suffered very little physical harm of this sort.  I have experienced severe illness, and the frustrations of others at my ill health.  I have experienced raised voices, and witnessed anger taken out on nonliving things.  I have experienced alienation, and seeming neglect, and seeming betrayal, in various forms, usually through emotional catalyst.  In my opinion, I am still experiencing much of this.  

flofrog, I like very much what you have said, that "much work is needed to rise above that childhood experience and finally choose to be of service to others. And at the same time, how empowering in the end with the peace and equanimity it brings."  I would say that it is with my family that I am, perhaps, least peaceful, least equanimous, and least dedicated to service-to-others.  This I find unfortunate, because when I review my dynamics with others outside my family, I can, certainly, see where I have also been belligerent, and unfair, and selfish--and I have seen where those dynamics have been turned to the more positive, in most cases.  In those cases which I feel are more of a "demerit," I find also the energy of inharmonious shared living, and other energies which resemble what is still between myself and my birth family.  

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Quote:Patrick

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What makes me believe I once walked the negative path is that I know of the pleasures that many negative acts bring.

None of it comes from my current incarnation. It makes me a bit queasy to imagine doing any of that while being the person that I am right now.

But it makes it easy for me to forgive negative acts such as rape for example. Because I remember dimly how it feels to be the perpetrator. Of course I also remember what it feels to be the victim. One thing is for sure, there is no net gain for the Creator. The bad feelings of the victim far outweigh the pleasures of the perpetrator.

Quote:31.14 ▶ Questioner: I was thinking more of the possibility of the Orion group having influenced, say, certain members of the Third Reich who I have read reports of having sexual gratification from the observation of the, in some cases, the gassing and killing of entities in the gas chambers.


Ra: I am Ra. We shall repeat these entities had the potential for sexual energy buildup. The choice of stimulus is certainly the choice of the entity. In the case of which you speak, these entities were strongly polarized orange ray, thus finding the energy blockage of power over others, the putting to death being the ultimate power over others; this then being expressed in a sexual manner, though solitary.
In this case the desire would continue unabated and be virtually unquenchable.
You will find, if you observe the entire spectrum of sexual practices among your peoples, that there are those who experience such gratification from domination over others either from rape or from other means of domination. In each case this is an example of energy blockage which is sexual in its nature.