Contact/Disclosure Timeline Event Window 2024 and the 35 Year Pattern

[Diana]

This lateral thing feels lonely, like hell. Maybe it doesn't bother the "normies" and they feel protected by the quarantine. Perhaps it only feels like hell to the wanderers who know something feels wrong...but then I look at how normal society isn't really happy either. They are deluding themselves. Sometimes I can't help but feel that quarantine move did nothing but lock all the darkness in here in keep all the light out. I just hope this all has some payoff in the end.

It may not pay off. Some of the time I find it extremely difficult to keep the suffering of this world from being overwhelming—like trying to hold back a tidal wave. I question the quarantine as well at those times, and the whole idea that we "serve" the OIC.

On the other hand, when I am more balanced and less "in the middle of" the planetary drama, the "disassociation" Ra speaks of surfaces and I feel more like myself—an observer and here for a reason. 

Whatever any of us does here, we add to the collective. So, even if one is a wanderer, and one is questioning this density and its veil in an intellectual way and not just having "faith"—I think it is a very good thing. Having faith is something humankind has known how to do for millennia—by following religions and and other authoritative institutions. But thinking for one's self—that is something humankind really needs. So if I as a wanderer add this energy of questioning and thinking and not following blindly to the collective....well, that is something. Although, I personally don't expect to change a thing. 

I like to think of the sojourn into this density, when I am not in the throes of feeling the suffering here, as an adventure—one that is is so full to the brim of the entire spectrum of feelings and experience. Even sadness can feel exquisitely beautiful. Even when one's heart is breaking, there is profound depth of beauty (for lack of a better word) in it. The problem that remains is the empathy—when one has concern for the other, not just the feeling it inspires in one's self. And mostly, I think of the suffering of non-human life forms, as they really seem to be the victims here. Humankind, as you say Black Dragon, is also unhappy. But I at least have a reasonable assurance that humans choose. Non-human life forms do not, which leads back to the idea that this existence is worth questioning.