what movie did you last watch?

[Black Dragon]

Dr. Steven Greer's "Close Encounters of the Fifth Kind: Contact Has Begun" -highly recommend. 

I finally saw this movie. It's really good, and available to stream for free if you have Amazon Prime. 

It's about ET contact yes, but even more than that, it's about unity and consciousness. I too recommend it highly.

That's cool you saw it and it's streaming for free now, It's definitely worth a watch to anyone remotely interested in the UFO phenomenon and how it relates to consciousness. I'm at a bit of a standstill and not feeling so gung-ho about the CE5 thing at the moment...not because of any new developments or anything current or external, but because of where I'm at in my own personal process and what I'm facing with integrating myself. That includes a lot of rage, alienation, and feelings of abandonment and betrayal when it comes to the topic of extra terrestrial beings.

I've seen the craft, I have fragmented memories of strange goings on in my childhood. What I haven't felt is the love or support, that has been conspicuously absent throughout my life. I feel like my life is this sort of unfair trial just for the sake of breaking me. I feel like I'm constantly being "taken to task" by the universe for s*** I have no control over, and I'm tired of it and want to flip the tables and take "them" to task-they are the ones that need to prove to ME that they are capable of love at all, because I'm not seeing/feeling it.

I know this is sort of off topic but...anyone know the concept/image of a big bully holding some kid by the wrists and beating him in the face with his own hands, mocking and chiding: "why are you hitting yourself! stop hitting yourself!"...sometimes feel that perfectly describes my relationship with the universe. Just had to get that off my chest. /rant off.