Other-selves and projection

[sillypumpkins]

However, from the perspective of a musician, I have to ask the question, soooo why haven't you been able to pull it together?
Is that something you are even interested in?
Clarifying for yourself what you actually want out of the situation might help to understand the difference in perspective.

These are good questions to think about, thank you Aion.

Just gonna run off some thoughts I have on it right now.

Is it something I am even interested in? Yeah, I am interested in it. The thing is that we have recorded soooo much over the years, and still play together too without recording. We are great at just hitting record and making music, or just jamming. No thinking about what we're doing, just doing it.

So, why haven't I been able to pull it together? Well, I think that would involve changing what we do. Not totally changing it, but it would require a change of mindset. This is something we've both talked about. Communicating musical ideas verbally, really trying to figure out what we want something to sound like, and that sort of thing. Because we don't do that, it's all very off the cuff now and has been for about 5 years.

My brother has also expressed to me that he's becoming bored of making music by himself. I really like making music by myself. So that might play into it as well.

So I think a big part of why I haven't pulled it together is because that would involve some change to the way I make music with my brother. And, that can be hard for me, change, that is.

I haven't much to add beside that perhaps in music making you can't always force oneself to do just it and make a song or an album, because when the inspiration comes naturally it usually plays itself quite well.

totally, and that is sort of how I operate. I've expressed that difference to my brother, how he tends to be more "masculine" in that way when it comes to music and I tend to be more "feminine" in that way. Not like either is bad or right or anything like that, it's just clear that we each have a different mode of operation when it comes to this kinda thing. some reconciliation of the two would be ultimately beneficial i think

Sounds to me like you guys might be spinning your wheels on a level where you've used up all the catalyst, so you need to find your way to the next level of coherence.  It sounds like he might need both more space and less engagement in order to "hear himself."  You could just try striking out in new directions (with you playing more of a deliberately supporting role, perhaps) and seeing of any of those lead anywhere.  You could also meditate upon the matter and see what comes via that approach.

interesting and well-worded perspective, peregrine, thank you.

I think you are on to something when you say we might be spinning our wheels on a level where we've used up all the catalyst. We've been making music the same way for 5 years now, so that part definitely resonates with me.

there is definitely a sense of needing to operate from a higher level. I think we both feel that.

will be meditating on the matter