STS Positive Polarity

[meadow-foreigner]

Do you think you can be STS and ascend to 4D positive?

First of all, for the sake of mutual understanding, let's clarify the meaning of the already distorted terms STS and STO:

• STS: Service To Self. The idea or belief that The Universe Itself is merely Serving Its Self with The Creation, and that everything that happens is simply a consequence of this "ultimate" selfish act.
Sounds almost reasonable. Big problem with this reasoning: it overlooks the fractal implications that other-selves have in the whole picture, effectively prescinding the Infinite Possibilities of a balanced association with other-Selves and the consequent Intelligence that stems from such dynamic.

• STO: Service To Others. The idea or belief that The Universe Itself is comprised of infinite individualized scintilla of God, therefore the more one serve other beings in The Creation, the more one is serving God and ultimately one's own self, for are we not all one? Such is the premise of the Law of One.

I want to be STS but I don't want to enslave or hurt anyone.

You don't have to enslave or hurt to be STS. You can simply overlook the service to others when they request you, based on the premise that you are so more worthy than others. Concepts such as honor, duty, and morals are all associated with this mindset.

I wish everyone well being.

There's a difference in wishing everyone well as long as they don't cross you, and ultimately wishing every single part of The Creator well.

I just don't have feelings for people.
I only have emotions for animals.

Since you're at this forum I assume you're at least inclined to evolve. So, let me break down this for you:

Your stance towards people and animals is a classic indicator of a STS mentality. How easy is to love simpler beings that can't confront you? Typical hierarchical, pyramidal, and obsolete mentality, which values certain beings as more worthy than others.

Furthermore, as part of the human race, you are made of the same stuff as the people you don't allow yourself to nurture feelings to. In fact, you're simply avoiding having to deal with the nurture of feelings to other human selves because of your lack of wholesomeness within your Self. Because you're fragmented within, you avoid the nurture of feelings to other-Selves as a projection of the avoidance of feelings to your own Self.

It is what it is.
I can't force myself to love others.

Love is not forced, simply realized. When you realize you're made of love, you may then allow yourself to love yourself, which in turn will unblock your relations to other-Selves.

Am I doomed to go to 4D negative because I don't like people?
Also, I do not like the idea of a social memory complex.
Mind melding with others would be hell for me.

With such mindset the more probable outcome for you is the 3D repeating cycle. Yellow ray unblocking is the pre-requisite to 4D graduation, and this means to love every other being in relation to the Self, while also loving the Self, in equilibrium.

Now, can you reconcile the idea that your Self and other-Selves are already part of a Social Memory Complex?