STS Positive Polarity

[Minyatur]

Do you think you can be STS and ascend to 4D positive?
I want to be STS but I don't want to enslave or hurt anyone.
I wish everyone well being.
I just don't have feelings for people.
I only have emotions for animals.

It is what it is.
I can't force myself to love others.

Being STS is really about being polarized, so you'd have to want to go down the path of negative love which does not seem to be what you want. Just that you wish others well being and love animals is the opposite of what the negative path is about.

I also don't think there is value in forcing yourself to anything, it would create a counter-productive effect. Instead, it is through the course of our lives that we can have moments of realization that shift how we are and how we feel. You can't really force yourself to become in love with something, it is a slow process that can only occur naturally. Forcing it would only make apparent that it contains shadows and magnifies them before others, so there's really no purpose to rush anything. The challenge of loving others in 3D is confusion, as we struggle to just understand ourselves, it is then increasingly hard to really come to understand others. That is why faith is often referred to as of importance, because it is the surrendering of oneself beyond one's confusion.

Am I doomed to go to 4D negative because I don't like people?
Also, I do not like the idea of a social memory complex.
Mind melding with others would be hell for me.

I don't think that's the case. STS and STO are a bit misleading terms in my view, the material says it is what is more eloquent due our nature toward perceiving concepts relating to philosophy in terms of ethics or activity, so STS is not just about serving yourself but the polarized fashion in which it is done in relation to others. In 3D, I think it is perfectly fine to need be centered on oneself and this will not create a leaning toward the negative path.

The forming of a social memory complex and melding of mind would not happen with our minds of now. It would be an entire new reality and one in which you probably would not have this resistance. Even if you did, you would have time to work upon it and progress within that density. 4D is not as cold as our reality is, so I think there is a natural leaning toward wanting to form a social memory complex there that we as humans do not have. 4D is not veiled like our density, so there we would be less confusion in regard to the nature of ourselves and others, allowing us to more easily recognize the inherent oneness that we share.

To me it sounds like you've been hurt by others and developed a mistrust that is hard to heal. A lot of people, myself included, find it a whole lot easier to bond with animals than with humans. Human interactions are complex and a whole lot mindful, while animals tend to bring us to our more basic emotions in a much more sincere fashion. I think how someone is and feels about animals is really a good indicator of which path they are leaning toward.