I also forgot to mention that I once did a vow of silence, mimicking Indian seekers, when I got angry and couldn't communicate due to a translation issue.
By containing my communication and looping it back on myself, I gained greater control of the Mars energy, somehow. And it untangled itself. Instead of thinking through the lens of the anger, I was able to think through the 5th/throat chakra instead. It was like I was communicating with myself telepathically, because I had given up control of my voice. That was the first time I tried the "vow of silence" thing for a few hours, and I noticed it had interesting benefits.
Instead of that annoying buzz when I saw the person I was angry at and unable to control my thoughts (while still controlling my actions, which was not enough for me, I wanted complete control of my thoughts and ego as well), what I saw after an hour or two of the silence vow, was complete stillness. I was still angry, but it was like there was two of me now. One objective observer.
By containing my communication and looping it back on myself, I gained greater control of the Mars energy, somehow. And it untangled itself. Instead of thinking through the lens of the anger, I was able to think through the 5th/throat chakra instead. It was like I was communicating with myself telepathically, because I had given up control of my voice. That was the first time I tried the "vow of silence" thing for a few hours, and I noticed it had interesting benefits.
Instead of that annoying buzz when I saw the person I was angry at and unable to control my thoughts (while still controlling my actions, which was not enough for me, I wanted complete control of my thoughts and ego as well), what I saw after an hour or two of the silence vow, was complete stillness. I was still angry, but it was like there was two of me now. One objective observer.
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