LOO rereading and there being 'only identity'

[Sacred Fool]

I’m going to admit. Though it was my path, and I maybe needed to go off track a while to ready myself, a part of my mind wunders why I wandered around in the dark looking elsewhere when it seems the answers were here all along. We are such mysterious creatures. lol

On the one hand, "There are no mistakes."

On the other hand, perhaps the reason for your (and my) endless digressions is this: (from the Q'uo session mentioned above)

And yet how clever are the many, many thoughts and strategies that will gladly entrain your intelligence and distract your will. These forces within you do not wish for you to open your heart. They like having full pockets. They do not want you to empty your pockets of these things which, to the surface personality, seem to suggest selfhood. Yet there is a powerful voice within you that says that this is not true consciousness. And you hunger for that.