New here need help. Plus did you read this book?

[Sacred Fool]

Hello,
 HELP !

Hi there.

The sense I get is that you would benefit greatly by periodically stopping the over-thinking and plant yourself, as it were, into the Earth.  You might find it useful to shut your mind down to a minimum and focus on your existing relationship with the planet, slowly sending your focused self down into her and allowing her energy to quietly arise through you.  At the same time, you might seek to embody the element earth with it's quiet strength and stability and solidity.

All this might feel odd to you because it moves opposite to your attempt to flutter upwards like a frightened bird, but if it helps to stabilize your agitation somewhat, you may feel somewhat more comfortable within your own skin....and that might qualify as "help."