01-23-2019, 08:17 PM
The maddest I've been was when my mom had been outdoors yelling about me for over an hour,
and then she came in and turned off the tv I was watching.
I walked over to her, and was ready to punch her. I had my fist back.
She told me she would call the police if I did. I didn't punch her.
But later she apologized.
Even now I feel my body reacting to this memory, trying to tighten up in my solar plexus.
I just let it be ok, and I allow the feeling to arise, and don't fight it.
Soon enough it will go away on its own.
and then she came in and turned off the tv I was watching.
I walked over to her, and was ready to punch her. I had my fist back.
She told me she would call the police if I did. I didn't punch her.
But later she apologized.
Even now I feel my body reacting to this memory, trying to tighten up in my solar plexus.
I just let it be ok, and I allow the feeling to arise, and don't fight it.
Soon enough it will go away on its own.