A story I didn't want to share.

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"To judge yourself is to perpetuate such pain."

I can't believe I'm reading this.  This makes things ten times worse.  He already knows...  This is bad...  What if...  He's doing this to himself on purpose?  No..  no..

I don't want to believe that.  I can't.  If he knows....  But he's still doing it...  No, no somethings very wrong here.  Those posts, so much energy, so much desire to teach and learn.  What has happened?  This is the him I see all the time that he hides from everyone else, but now to see he was aware of that self of himself, that part that keeps the cycle of his painful thoughts going.

I'm going to break it to him with his own words. These exact words.  To judge yourself is to perpetuate such pain.

I'm 100% absolutely certain now something extremely bad is going on with him, to have all the keys to the questions and answers yet to be unable to see them anymore...  It's like something has cast a spell on him trapping him in his own horrible thoughts and he's circling the drain.

Dammit.  How do you handle that?  I was wary of thinking he was under a 'greeting' because I swear he has an army of spirit guides helping him, but these pieces don't add up.  He knows, unless he forgot?  He knows...  But is choosing not to believe in his knowledge?

Oh..  what is going on with him..

I can't understand this.

Is he doing it to himself and if so, why?  Why would he purposefully do this to himself?

If he is suicidal, he needs to see a psychiatrist and a therapist, and he needs them right now.

This is not a diagnosis but he sounds like he has severe depression.  He is not doing it on purpose; what we know and what we feel are separate things entirely.

Do not try to figure this out or fix it yourself, rather get him professional help. 

Not sure if you've been keeping up with the thread, but he just got out of suicide watch where he was with professionals. I think part of the issue there is that they live in America where a psychologist/psychiatrist can be incredibly expensive so it's not always an easy option to just go peruse. I mean you're in the USA too so you'd know.

I absolutely agree with you, just saying, it might not be that straight forward.