A story I didn't want to share.

[Aion]

Sorry for editing the post over and over, I figured it was easier to do it all in one post.

I didn't realize until now, but I was actually the last person he replied to. I wish we could have a proper chat in person. I think that the environment of text created a lot of misunderstandings that didn't need to be there. (I'm a hell of a lot less wordy in person.) You can see he was concerned for me, even though I was already where he hoped I'd be. The hard thing about a forum like this is when you write something people often take it to be 'part' of you, but I'm someone who is never really settled in my beliefs and so went through a kaleidoscope of internal experiences that I shared here. Many of which fell away shortly afterwards. It is always hard to explain the 'current state' without people reflecting on your previous posts. Also difficult to make it clear that just because you write an idea doesn't mean it is strictly your belief. I've always found it hard to talk about ideas with people because often they mistake the discussion of ideas for an expression of beliefs.

Talking to myself now, lol.