A story I didn't want to share.

[One of Love]

I don't really know him very well, but I remember when he was going through some hardships and made a journal here so I tried to cheer him up and listen to him when I could. But it wasn't long until he flipped and decided to leave. I wanted to speak to him so much, he seemed so hurt and lonely. And it is so sad to hear that he has tried to take his own life, I hope there is something we can do to help him.

I know there are times here when people "play" dark games with one another, mind games, clever manipulative thought patterns to freak someone (anyone) out yet make it seem unexplainable to others so one who's mind is broken and traumatized can't redeem itself because nobody will believe or understand.

As part of a forum who's orientation is towards service to others, I am truly ashamed that this is what we came to, as if there isn't enough evil and mischief out there.

If it is possible, tell him that I am sorry I couldn't help him at that time. There was a time when I read his journal and tears came down my eyes from all the pain and suffering he was sharing.

I call out Bring4th staff members to address this issue with outmost seriousness. This can't be real. This is not who we are.

I'll definitely say...  ah.  After I tell him I joined.  That you are sorry.  But honestly he only ever complained about a select few people who he noted were so delusional they couldn't see their own issues in the people they shamed.  He said his turkish friend was an example, he shared some sexist stuff and no real forgiveness was offered or any real attempt to reconcile the issue occurred.  He said that was when he began suspecting something of this place.

Now, I would be bothered if someone was saying sexist stuff about me for being born the way I was.  I have been bothered by that stuff...  but I think about my first job I had, I had a coworker who was way in to me, like uncomfortably getting close to me, touching my arms, shoulders.  One day I just asked him how he'd feel if I were to come onto him, he misinterpreted it and was super excited that I was seemingly showing interest.  I told him I'm not interested, and he became abusive, mean, thoughtless.  Yelled at me for leading him on.

So, I sat down with him, the way I had to do with an ex before, and I told him I was sorry starting out, that I didn't stop his behavior sooner, but I told him, if a girl he didn't like kept going after him, how would he feel?  I told him I'm a human being who was abused sexually when I was young, and that I didn't notlike him, I just don't like most guys.

That guy is still my friend today, and he doesn't go after me.  I found out he had a rough upbringing with just his dad, he didn't know how to spot the things in women he can spot in men.  He was sexist a bit because of it all, but he learned from me, because instead of yelling at him, like I wanted to, I instead tried to just be real about it all   real in that he clearly wasn't aware of me like he was himself.  That calls for help, sure I thought he was a prick and a pig, but did calling anyone those things ever really help anyone?

No.  It didn't.

So, I don't know what really happened so I'm going to not judge anyone here yet, bit if you're saying what he's saying.   Well, that's a good start for my search I guess.

You said he had a journal here?? Could you tell me where?  I never saw it while browsing.  I do see there are hidden forums for registered users, I'll check those out.  I did see his post count so I know I'll have some digging to do.

What do you mean by people play dark games here?  That's oddly synchronistic as I was once told by a fortune teller I'll come upon a dark game that I'll need every bit of my wisdom and experience to see through.  I thought she was talking about my mother's helplessness pattern of asking for monetary help from me and others somehow culminating into something big, but maybe it was about this?