trip, trip, trip, stumble fall, balance lost

[Glow]

I find it disturbing this could happen again.
I had been so balanced and peaceful and accepting for quite some time.
I had healed so much and become much more capable of helping others.

3 weeks ago I had a bunch of bad stuff come to greet me that I thought had been healed and the door closed.
Then a few more things came and I struggled to stay up right.
I honestly do not even know what it was that took me down but I am here back on the ground.

I see my way back up, but after being there and falling it seems like I may just end up down here again at some point.
I know it isn't worth it to stay down but wow 40 more years of this?! Hopefully the falls will be less frequent and easier to get up from as the cycle goes.

Anyways not sure why I am sharing except if others fall too, maybe it would help them to know it is not just them.
The balance, growth, peace and acceptance wasn't fake or in your head.

Just gotta get up and do it again.
Love you all.