11-26-2017, 05:54 PM
Well, for starters, I don't condemn the material. Rather I urge caution with it.
I don't think my higher self condemned me, rather I don't fully understand how my higher self operates and often feel like it's a bit busy with its own agenda for me, which makes me uneasy since it is detached from me in a way that makes it very easy to program painful catalyst that to it is like a little prick or pinch but to me, might be a lot more.
I don't want to be an adept the way everyone here thinks of an adept. The only adeptness I want is to live the day to day magic of just being, no ritual, no rapid polarization, no work in consciousness. Just seeing Creator, Love, and Infinity in everything. Nothing more, nothing less, from that point I'll figure it out if I want there to be more or less.
I think you vastly misrepresent my own intended meanings, unless I was hectic enough to not be clear. It's hard to be accurate when you feel like you're suffering.
The archetypes in my understanding, were what brought me along for the trip. I believe those archetypes are ADVANCED adepthood tools that where I was back then, would've been extremely bad to have handled in the state I was in.
You do not seem aware of the great dangers of irresponsibly messing with the archetypes while you're actively manifesting your reality with poor direction. The difference would've been between thinking I'm in Hell, and not thinking very much anything coherent at all. I do not mess with the archetypes, even to study anymore because I know for myself they are dangerous.
You might have a much different neural net than I, I'm highly empathic, easily moved, easily swayed, and even easily persuaded with the right approach. I remember reading posts by Monica so full of judgment of others as murderers for simply sitting down to eat dinner that her own rage came through me rather fiercely in this loving bond with my own rage.
Most people don't recognize it until they've known me for a few years but my mask is your mask. If your first impression of me is I'm a loser, I'm going to be effected by that alone before we've even spoken. I have at least half a dozen instances of knowing what someone was going to say out of the blue, like this vivid impression like giving off a wave in thought and I pick up on it. And two cases of another getting such an impression off of me.
I cannot handle taking some of these things to heart because my mind is not properly taught/disciplined to stick to the proper procedures, because I don't know them.
Further I've got a few biochemical considerations, hypothyroidism and chronic depression. So my hormones and neurotransmitter levels are already imbalanced by preincarnational design. On top of a highly sensitive nervous system that had kundalini activated from just reading about the Law of One (as in just assimilating the knowledge superficially was enough to start a spiritual awakening process, taking it into deep mind blasted me into full awakening), I'm basically at risk with mishandling this material, misusing it unintentionally, and getting hurt by it from lacking guidance, someone to help me keep a hold of my mind when I get upset in a way that is irrational, as I can be...
This isn't a lone journey for me, or if it is, it's s dangerous one for my mind at least. So easily swayed by my own manifestations, I made hell for myself out of heaven effortlessly.
I learned my lesson that time, I don't need a repeat course on it. If I practice the Law of One, it'll be with another, for my own safety.
Yall are okay with me walking into fire. I however am not, and if there is where we differ then just know that I'm also not okay with anyone of you walking into the fire like me.
You're all good incredible amazing people, and I, as just a human, not even a soul, will not let this material delude me into believing that purposefully letting others suffer is okay.
You don't think that if you come upon a rape or attempted murder in progress. You wouldn't just let those sufferings happen I imagine.
Why would you if a person is suffering powerful delusions just let them suffer from then instead of trying to help them?
That seems wrong ethically to me. We all have a responsibility to each other to treat each other like how we would wish to be treated.
In that love/light, I would want someone to help end my suffering, in that way, I want to do the same for others.
There should be absolutely nothing wrong with that and if you disagree, I think you should re-examine how the Ra Material has turned you into someone who's okay with watching others suffer, 'for their own good'. No different from a demon in Hell watching others burn to learn a lesson. If you're okay with being that, then maybe there's much more profoundly deeper issues with this material than meets the eye. To be able to turn empathetic kind people so deluded they see no folly in smiling in love at someone as they watch them walk into hell and start burning.
That's kind of disgusting and I really hope no one here is actually like that.
We are humans and not just souls, y'all should act like it. Souls might look at suffering one way, but as a human, your job is to see it another way. You cannot be both and still expect no incompatibilities. You don't get to look at Jesus while he's being crucified, and smile in love at his suffering because he's going through his catalyst and call yourself being positive for doing such.
The nuances don't work that way... You intend to just selfishly sit by and wave in delight as suffering consumes another.
How is that treating another the way you want to be treated?
Do you all want me to just let you suffer?
My compass is pretty well-tuned to this thing called The Golden Rule, and yes it has errors at times but overall I know I'm a good person and unless my fear gets in the way, I'd help anothet suffering irregardless of their path or catalyst because I DON'T KNOW IT
I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT
I DON'T THINK IT MATTERS
What matters is what I do in the now. If someone is suffering in the now, I don't think about why, I think about how to help them. How to fix their problem, how to make them smile and be happy.
The future doesn't determine my actions, even if they are meant to suffer, who says so? God? Their soul? Screw them, they don't care about the human, about the life they're using for their own gain. I'll show them gain, Human gain, the human gain of relief, contentness, and happiness.
Misery can come on it's own time later, when the HUMAN is more prepared for it.
That's my view and I'm sticking with it, the divine has shown an incredible lack of ethics and morality, who else is going to teach those stuck up know-it-alls that this isn't okay but One human who lives by that belief enough to showcase it? And worst case, I wasted my time helping others. Best case, the cosmos tweaks 3D a little bit to be more efficacious and less stumblesome with catalyst for the majority of souls to work quickly with, and not just a select chunk of them while the majority drown in indifference.
Is it that I just care too much? What's going on here?
I don't think my higher self condemned me, rather I don't fully understand how my higher self operates and often feel like it's a bit busy with its own agenda for me, which makes me uneasy since it is detached from me in a way that makes it very easy to program painful catalyst that to it is like a little prick or pinch but to me, might be a lot more.
I don't want to be an adept the way everyone here thinks of an adept. The only adeptness I want is to live the day to day magic of just being, no ritual, no rapid polarization, no work in consciousness. Just seeing Creator, Love, and Infinity in everything. Nothing more, nothing less, from that point I'll figure it out if I want there to be more or less.
I think you vastly misrepresent my own intended meanings, unless I was hectic enough to not be clear. It's hard to be accurate when you feel like you're suffering.
The archetypes in my understanding, were what brought me along for the trip. I believe those archetypes are ADVANCED adepthood tools that where I was back then, would've been extremely bad to have handled in the state I was in.
You do not seem aware of the great dangers of irresponsibly messing with the archetypes while you're actively manifesting your reality with poor direction. The difference would've been between thinking I'm in Hell, and not thinking very much anything coherent at all. I do not mess with the archetypes, even to study anymore because I know for myself they are dangerous.
You might have a much different neural net than I, I'm highly empathic, easily moved, easily swayed, and even easily persuaded with the right approach. I remember reading posts by Monica so full of judgment of others as murderers for simply sitting down to eat dinner that her own rage came through me rather fiercely in this loving bond with my own rage.
Most people don't recognize it until they've known me for a few years but my mask is your mask. If your first impression of me is I'm a loser, I'm going to be effected by that alone before we've even spoken. I have at least half a dozen instances of knowing what someone was going to say out of the blue, like this vivid impression like giving off a wave in thought and I pick up on it. And two cases of another getting such an impression off of me.
I cannot handle taking some of these things to heart because my mind is not properly taught/disciplined to stick to the proper procedures, because I don't know them.
Further I've got a few biochemical considerations, hypothyroidism and chronic depression. So my hormones and neurotransmitter levels are already imbalanced by preincarnational design. On top of a highly sensitive nervous system that had kundalini activated from just reading about the Law of One (as in just assimilating the knowledge superficially was enough to start a spiritual awakening process, taking it into deep mind blasted me into full awakening), I'm basically at risk with mishandling this material, misusing it unintentionally, and getting hurt by it from lacking guidance, someone to help me keep a hold of my mind when I get upset in a way that is irrational, as I can be...
This isn't a lone journey for me, or if it is, it's s dangerous one for my mind at least. So easily swayed by my own manifestations, I made hell for myself out of heaven effortlessly.
I learned my lesson that time, I don't need a repeat course on it. If I practice the Law of One, it'll be with another, for my own safety.
Yall are okay with me walking into fire. I however am not, and if there is where we differ then just know that I'm also not okay with anyone of you walking into the fire like me.
You're all good incredible amazing people, and I, as just a human, not even a soul, will not let this material delude me into believing that purposefully letting others suffer is okay.
You don't think that if you come upon a rape or attempted murder in progress. You wouldn't just let those sufferings happen I imagine.
Why would you if a person is suffering powerful delusions just let them suffer from then instead of trying to help them?
That seems wrong ethically to me. We all have a responsibility to each other to treat each other like how we would wish to be treated.
In that love/light, I would want someone to help end my suffering, in that way, I want to do the same for others.
There should be absolutely nothing wrong with that and if you disagree, I think you should re-examine how the Ra Material has turned you into someone who's okay with watching others suffer, 'for their own good'. No different from a demon in Hell watching others burn to learn a lesson. If you're okay with being that, then maybe there's much more profoundly deeper issues with this material than meets the eye. To be able to turn empathetic kind people so deluded they see no folly in smiling in love at someone as they watch them walk into hell and start burning.
That's kind of disgusting and I really hope no one here is actually like that.
We are humans and not just souls, y'all should act like it. Souls might look at suffering one way, but as a human, your job is to see it another way. You cannot be both and still expect no incompatibilities. You don't get to look at Jesus while he's being crucified, and smile in love at his suffering because he's going through his catalyst and call yourself being positive for doing such.
The nuances don't work that way... You intend to just selfishly sit by and wave in delight as suffering consumes another.
How is that treating another the way you want to be treated?
Do you all want me to just let you suffer?
My compass is pretty well-tuned to this thing called The Golden Rule, and yes it has errors at times but overall I know I'm a good person and unless my fear gets in the way, I'd help anothet suffering irregardless of their path or catalyst because I DON'T KNOW IT
I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT
I DON'T THINK IT MATTERS
What matters is what I do in the now. If someone is suffering in the now, I don't think about why, I think about how to help them. How to fix their problem, how to make them smile and be happy.
The future doesn't determine my actions, even if they are meant to suffer, who says so? God? Their soul? Screw them, they don't care about the human, about the life they're using for their own gain. I'll show them gain, Human gain, the human gain of relief, contentness, and happiness.
Misery can come on it's own time later, when the HUMAN is more prepared for it.
That's my view and I'm sticking with it, the divine has shown an incredible lack of ethics and morality, who else is going to teach those stuck up know-it-alls that this isn't okay but One human who lives by that belief enough to showcase it? And worst case, I wasted my time helping others. Best case, the cosmos tweaks 3D a little bit to be more efficacious and less stumblesome with catalyst for the majority of souls to work quickly with, and not just a select chunk of them while the majority drown in indifference.
Is it that I just care too much? What's going on here?