I think those who are drawn to LOO are wanderers here with a mission - and for me, but probably for others - I think I preplanned the LOO material to be a wakeup call in case we had gotten sidetracked.
So I think the effect of living a normal 3D life for a few decades, while feeling empty / that we don't are not of this madness as Ra says, and then remembering the true nature of reality through LOO and our mission desire stirs, and I think time feels short, we feel behind, and we subconcious load up on catalyst now that we have a frame (LOO) to handle it, so that we can learn what we can here to learn, and then begin to teach/radiate/serve others that we came here to do and complete our mission.
I think Earth's transition, as Ra calls it, is a tough one, in part because conditions on Earth are tough (mostly due to societal conditions). But those of us who incarnate into these societies often become straddle with all of the societal gunk that needs to come off before we can do what we came here to do. And deculturalizing ourselves from traditional 3D thought is painful when done quickly, but I think thats what happens when we read the LOO.
TLDR. Waking up from sleep gradually can be nice. If someone dumps water on you when you are asleep, the initial awakening is pretty painful, though you will wakeup pretty quick
-----
This is related to a dream I had last night, that I meditated about earlier:
I'm in some sort of university. Everyone knows me and likes me and says hi in the hallway. I'm dressed in a suit, but no wearing shoes, and going about my day, making it to this new class. It seems like it's the first day of class. I go into the classroom briefly- I'm there early- but then I step out to go get something. When I return, instead of going into the classroom, I go into a small utility room beside the classroom. There is a desk and some other materials there. Next thing I know, about an hour has transpired and I'm in the utility room - its like a time warp. I'm no longer wearing my shirt and tie, I have a bright yellow shirt on, with my suit jacket and suit pants. I'm totally confused, but I want to explain to the professor I meant no disrespect, and I go back into class as its ending. I apologize to her and tell her I guess I must have fallen asleep. She says its fine and that she doesn't want to teach this class anyway and maybe I could help her get out of teaching this class or at least teaching on these days. She writes down when her next class is scheduled for and tells me she wants me to help to find another teacher or teaching slot (Don't remember what from the dream). I think wakeup.
I don't often take one meditation seriously when I want to interpret a dream - I like to meditate multiple times on a dream, but in my initial meditation I got that it was a message that I'm supposed to be a teacher, but something about my yellow ray is holding me back from becoming the teacher I was meant to be. Teacher about spiritual stuff.
My rationale mind is like this is fairy tale land. I don't really have an income other than from law work, and can't see any jobs, related to business or law, in in my metropolitian area that are hiring where I could somehow fit spiritual teaching into law/business work. Maybe if I win the lottery? Maybe it's supposed to be a hobby/sidegig. But even ifs its a hobby, I don't know what I would teach: what, I mostly understand the energy centers? I somewhat understand the archetypes? That I've had and have problems with discernment between intuition/communication with guides or HS/channeling? That my own personal healing journey involved destroying/setting back my career by 2-3 years and I often wonder if I coulda healed without doing so? That I full believe in energy center-imbalanced belief-can manifest as physical problems in the body, but I can't prove it? That I don't fully trust my dream interpretation? Even barring all of that, I don't even know if I want to teach. I've seen what teaching can do for others - makes them blind, because so often teachers assume or act or for some reason talk as if they know more than they know. Even if I wanted to teach, could I tell people: here's what I think, but on this subject, like most subjects, I'm not 100%? I'm 60-90% sure?
TLDR: First part of the post notwithstanding, 5-6 years into this journey, I still have no idea as to my mission, other than it involves radiating love, and perhaps teaching? So really, take my initial post with a huge grain of salt Still, on the upside, I've healed so much, its all worthwhile.
So I think the effect of living a normal 3D life for a few decades, while feeling empty / that we don't are not of this madness as Ra says, and then remembering the true nature of reality through LOO and our mission desire stirs, and I think time feels short, we feel behind, and we subconcious load up on catalyst now that we have a frame (LOO) to handle it, so that we can learn what we can here to learn, and then begin to teach/radiate/serve others that we came here to do and complete our mission.
I think Earth's transition, as Ra calls it, is a tough one, in part because conditions on Earth are tough (mostly due to societal conditions). But those of us who incarnate into these societies often become straddle with all of the societal gunk that needs to come off before we can do what we came here to do. And deculturalizing ourselves from traditional 3D thought is painful when done quickly, but I think thats what happens when we read the LOO.
TLDR. Waking up from sleep gradually can be nice. If someone dumps water on you when you are asleep, the initial awakening is pretty painful, though you will wakeup pretty quick
-----
This is related to a dream I had last night, that I meditated about earlier:
I'm in some sort of university. Everyone knows me and likes me and says hi in the hallway. I'm dressed in a suit, but no wearing shoes, and going about my day, making it to this new class. It seems like it's the first day of class. I go into the classroom briefly- I'm there early- but then I step out to go get something. When I return, instead of going into the classroom, I go into a small utility room beside the classroom. There is a desk and some other materials there. Next thing I know, about an hour has transpired and I'm in the utility room - its like a time warp. I'm no longer wearing my shirt and tie, I have a bright yellow shirt on, with my suit jacket and suit pants. I'm totally confused, but I want to explain to the professor I meant no disrespect, and I go back into class as its ending. I apologize to her and tell her I guess I must have fallen asleep. She says its fine and that she doesn't want to teach this class anyway and maybe I could help her get out of teaching this class or at least teaching on these days. She writes down when her next class is scheduled for and tells me she wants me to help to find another teacher or teaching slot (Don't remember what from the dream). I think wakeup.
I don't often take one meditation seriously when I want to interpret a dream - I like to meditate multiple times on a dream, but in my initial meditation I got that it was a message that I'm supposed to be a teacher, but something about my yellow ray is holding me back from becoming the teacher I was meant to be. Teacher about spiritual stuff.
My rationale mind is like this is fairy tale land. I don't really have an income other than from law work, and can't see any jobs, related to business or law, in in my metropolitian area that are hiring where I could somehow fit spiritual teaching into law/business work. Maybe if I win the lottery? Maybe it's supposed to be a hobby/sidegig. But even ifs its a hobby, I don't know what I would teach: what, I mostly understand the energy centers? I somewhat understand the archetypes? That I've had and have problems with discernment between intuition/communication with guides or HS/channeling? That my own personal healing journey involved destroying/setting back my career by 2-3 years and I often wonder if I coulda healed without doing so? That I full believe in energy center-imbalanced belief-can manifest as physical problems in the body, but I can't prove it? That I don't fully trust my dream interpretation? Even barring all of that, I don't even know if I want to teach. I've seen what teaching can do for others - makes them blind, because so often teachers assume or act or for some reason talk as if they know more than they know. Even if I wanted to teach, could I tell people: here's what I think, but on this subject, like most subjects, I'm not 100%? I'm 60-90% sure?
TLDR: First part of the post notwithstanding, 5-6 years into this journey, I still have no idea as to my mission, other than it involves radiating love, and perhaps teaching? So really, take my initial post with a huge grain of salt
Still, on the upside, I've healed so much, its all worthwhile.
![[+]](https://www.bring4th.org/forums/images/collapse_collapsed.png)