11-19-2017, 12:14 AM
(11-18-2017, 10:28 PM)zhaich Wrote: It has affected me to the point where I just had a major argument and clash with a negatively polarized entity trying to control my body after reminding myself of this material. Ultimately it left after I brought to light its rejection of learning the ways of empathy out of cowardice.
I attempt to take it seriously. However, I work in negative environments directly connected to the vampiric draw of the STS's attempts to control the world and this has its drawbacks. Demonic entities swarm in like flies to a light as their objective is to snuff out the love and light of the Creator and anyone not programmed by the negative intelligence is fast becoming a target. This is probably why I have seen a major dropoff in aware Internet users lately.
I take it seriously and I am attacked, and often times in the past I would be fooled and drop back to negative space/time, a miserable experience. The negative are adamant on manipulating my mind in order to trap itself from the perceived fear of love which is a distorted understanding brought about by past hurts and regrets. Clearly I am seen as a major threat to their plans hence their relentless attacks. I mean, I only threaten to open them up. *shrugs*
This is all very laughable, this game. The amount of people dragged along unknowing they are manipulated by Satanic consciousness and the drive to liberate them from such internal slavery...the issue is forgetting that the STO harvest was going to be few to begin with. I'm sure many would like all to go, but this is unrealistic. Maintaining a connection with the Creator with so much evil is incredibly difficult for me to do. I am awful at defending myself against evil when I am open. Open it for too long and one becomes prone to being hurt by evil, which has happened to me too many times, and by extension I have been controlled and hurt others in the past as well. It is a deep sorrow and I wonder if I am of any use in this life anymore. Yeah, one can simply exist but this feels meaningless to me in comparison to my potential.
As a backdrop, I have been attacked since birth. Dozens of vaccinations at a young age, "special education" and psychological tests, and especially addictions that sought to escape from reality which were in fact a trap into negative space/time. So yes, I take this seriously. Few people in the west know what love really is anymore and I always sought find out what it was since I didn't feel the Creator's love out of my own cowardice in my younger years. I felt it once, but evil working through me ruined that. I was not ready for it.
After knowing the Law of One and looking back through my addictions and those who manipulated me for their own gain, I have but an endless pool of anger to draw from. What I do with it is the question.
So yes, I take it seriously. I needed a salvation from my internal hell and received it in 2004, but wasn't ready at the time. I wouldn't read the books until 10 years later. I take it seriously, but it is very hard to consciously go by as those in the negative would be attracted to stop such vortices from manifesting. This experience is full of sorrow and sadness. This reads like a terrible book and it really is, sorry about that, its how it came out.
As a side note, I cannot tell you how many times I have had telepathic thoughts lately telling me I am stupid or an idiot. I am getting fed up with that.
How do you tell when/if you're being attacked?
And what do they feed off, is it fear or love, or light?