A proposal

[Cainite]

I guess it's my own interpretation that to work together, to become a social memory complex, that we must make sacrifices for our ways of being. If our ways of being involve separation, per Ra's description of the Transformation of the Mind, I believe that we must actively choose which traits we want to continue to carry with us through our incarnation and which traits we find cause more disharmony than harmony.

For instance, I understand that people here perceive me as emotional, shrill, etc. I do my best to temper these traits (obviously not always successfully) for the harmony of the forum, and to increase the potential for blue ray transfer/understanding. I believe it is our ego that holds on to traits of our personality that we believe serve us, yet separate us. If I admire a trait, and find it conducive to harmony, I will try to cultivate it in my own being. To me, this is the point.

As for the Zaxon thread, this occurred before I was a moderator and even before I was a poster so I can't comment on that. From what I remember of reading the thread, though, he didn't seem to be presenting himself as trying to fill a role as the antagonist here, nor purport to be happily willing to break everyone here's free will.

And I thoroughly understand that many people arrive here because they don't fit in elsewhere. That is one of my primary concerns. Where as this forum is meant to be a landing pad for people who have just discovered the material, instead it is filled with dominant personalities who have their own "personal" interpretation of the material that they have been cultivating themselves for a long time. I can't imagine how confusing of an experience it must be for new Law of One readers to read this forum, to come upon a thread like this that perpetuates one of the worst lies of third density/Christianity/martyrdom: That only through pain and struggle can we grow. I know this is a primary facet of third density, but it's also one of its main limitations if not addressed subconsciously.

yesterday I was dreaming and I found myself in a room and I knew it was ''the bring4th office'' and to my right there was a female sitting behind a desk. I somehow knew she was the forum's moderator. So I thought it's you. I started talking to you and we had a very comfortable conversation for about five minutes. I was quite happy to be there and enjoyed the conversation.

then a guy appeared to my left. I knew he was one of the admins. my conversation with him felt more intense. I remember him asking me ''Would you stand up for somebody?''
I replied quickly ''If I have the skill, yes''
Then he said the person he wants me to stand up for is a buddist.
then I woke up!
I wake up a lot at night..

So I think the dream tells me how I feel about this forum. there's this female energy that makes this place feel warm. and the male energy that's trying to teach me to stand up for myself and others.