02-13-2017, 07:23 AM
I'm very glad the clarification helped 
I think the unbalanced activation of higher chakra energy has to be experienced and also the imbalance and pain it causes. You simply wouldnt believe it otherwise.
I didnt
I did this many many times for years again and again
Its getting a little bit better the last years, but i still have a tendency to overdo it at times.
Mostly i am willing to deal with the consequences however.
I think its important to note, that one doesnt really "lose" a state , a pleasant state, one has reached before.
I would rather say, one reached that state while still withholding deeper, umhealed portions of the self.
Then, a while later, one would allow more portions of the self, more unhealed facets to arise.
This feels like having lost the state one was in, but actually it is not.
One would have more practice and strength, and what once took maybe 10 years to achieve can be done in a year or couple of months.
You will come back to that state again, this time with more of your self integrated (a side note to your fascination with language, this would be what integrity truly means).
Then at some point new facets will arise. The process will accelerate more and more, recovery will someday be a questions of days or even hours.
And the higher states will spread more and more.
A word to the habit breaking:
I find your practice very valuable, as well as i can see a use in affirmation.
However, i believe its crucial to realize there are deeper roots and try to discover them.
Otherwise an incredible amount of discipline will be needed to sustain this for a longer period of time.
I view most of the "habits" as being a necessity rather than a flaw.
Each would represent an old solution to a problem.
And there would be an enormous emotional charge to it.
You would need a lot of control and suppression to sustain new habits.
I think first the need for the habit has to be understood and honored.
Then one can come up with better solutions. Thats where the habit breaking and affirmations come into play. In reminding one constantly, in helping to make a conscious choice.
Lets take the example of the two year old above.
You can affirm as much as you want, i wont reach the (stiil existing) two year old and its strategies, simply because you are not aware of it.
You can tell him/her as long as you want "all is safe, there is no danger" , the child would still be in agony, and imagine how much energy, how much power there would be in a decision or strategy that you make while facing your extinction for example.
So, you can fight, you can have discipline, but at some point the two year old will "win" simply because it has much much more energy.
If you however have enough consciousness in the situation the strategy is being triggered and executed, you would be in a position to consciously make a different choice.
Ultimately, you would have to experience the root of the issue at least to a degree, then you would be in a position to make a change.
Because your system knows you are willing and able to face the specific emotion and the very need for that strategy gets less and finally dissolves.
At least finding out, what the roots are, what the strategy is, why it is, would help in understanding it in the first place. And in understanding that it has no bad intention per se.
One could then develop better strategies, for example, being aware if closeness with a person becomes uncomfortable, honestly speking it out and for example take some time out, be some time with yourself.
That was a great work-around for me.
It showed my "inner child" that i am aware of it, it made the very spot usually some unconscious means of seperation like discussion, denating, arguing, or withdrwel would arise an opportunity to guard myself consciously, satisfy my needs consciously, honor my difficulties consciously.
After some time i was convinced that i would care for myself and was able to allow more and more closeness, more intimacy and so on.
Thats what i meant by that.
I think the unbalanced activation of higher chakra energy has to be experienced and also the imbalance and pain it causes. You simply wouldnt believe it otherwise.
I didnt
I did this many many times for years again and again
Its getting a little bit better the last years, but i still have a tendency to overdo it at times.
Mostly i am willing to deal with the consequences however.
I think its important to note, that one doesnt really "lose" a state , a pleasant state, one has reached before.
I would rather say, one reached that state while still withholding deeper, umhealed portions of the self.
Then, a while later, one would allow more portions of the self, more unhealed facets to arise.
This feels like having lost the state one was in, but actually it is not.
One would have more practice and strength, and what once took maybe 10 years to achieve can be done in a year or couple of months.
You will come back to that state again, this time with more of your self integrated (a side note to your fascination with language, this would be what integrity truly means).
Then at some point new facets will arise. The process will accelerate more and more, recovery will someday be a questions of days or even hours.
And the higher states will spread more and more.
A word to the habit breaking:
I find your practice very valuable, as well as i can see a use in affirmation.
However, i believe its crucial to realize there are deeper roots and try to discover them.
Otherwise an incredible amount of discipline will be needed to sustain this for a longer period of time.
I view most of the "habits" as being a necessity rather than a flaw.
Each would represent an old solution to a problem.
And there would be an enormous emotional charge to it.
You would need a lot of control and suppression to sustain new habits.
I think first the need for the habit has to be understood and honored.
Then one can come up with better solutions. Thats where the habit breaking and affirmations come into play. In reminding one constantly, in helping to make a conscious choice.
Lets take the example of the two year old above.
You can affirm as much as you want, i wont reach the (stiil existing) two year old and its strategies, simply because you are not aware of it.
You can tell him/her as long as you want "all is safe, there is no danger" , the child would still be in agony, and imagine how much energy, how much power there would be in a decision or strategy that you make while facing your extinction for example.
So, you can fight, you can have discipline, but at some point the two year old will "win" simply because it has much much more energy.
If you however have enough consciousness in the situation the strategy is being triggered and executed, you would be in a position to consciously make a different choice.
Ultimately, you would have to experience the root of the issue at least to a degree, then you would be in a position to make a change.
Because your system knows you are willing and able to face the specific emotion and the very need for that strategy gets less and finally dissolves.
At least finding out, what the roots are, what the strategy is, why it is, would help in understanding it in the first place. And in understanding that it has no bad intention per se.
One could then develop better strategies, for example, being aware if closeness with a person becomes uncomfortable, honestly speking it out and for example take some time out, be some time with yourself.
That was a great work-around for me.
It showed my "inner child" that i am aware of it, it made the very spot usually some unconscious means of seperation like discussion, denating, arguing, or withdrwel would arise an opportunity to guard myself consciously, satisfy my needs consciously, honor my difficulties consciously.
After some time i was convinced that i would care for myself and was able to allow more and more closeness, more intimacy and so on.
Thats what i meant by that.