02-11-2017, 03:12 PM
Dear C A,
After I read your post i had an inner dialogue, i couldnt resist posting it.
I hope you dont find it un-compassionate, since i clearly can see myself in you!
"Oh, i heard you re done with anger, hate and rage directing to people. Is that true? Why is it?"
"Oh, yes! I found it is unloving and causes pain, so i decided to never do it again!"
"Oh, thats a good choice! But i can see you're now directin that same rage against yourself"
" well, maybe, but thats different!"
"What is the difference?"
"i am an idiot, i should have known better. I deserve it!"
"Oh, so you're done with hurting people with your rage unless they are idiots that deserve it?"
"Well, mmhhh, aahh, yes. Because i am a stupid idiot who should have known better and i deserve it!"
"So, to be honest, you're still in the exact game?"
"Ah, well, hmm, yes. But it looks much better now
!"
"So, although you know better and pretend to step out of the game, you feel driven for some reason to carry it on? Because you considerit justified?
Isnt that exactly what you did back then? Can you see you still havent enough consciousness in it to stop it?
Can you imagine you had less consciousness back then, and understand you had no other choice? Just like now you dont seem to have no other choice than attacking yourself?"
I can deeply relate to you. There is a part in me that is exactly the same.
You can help me in healing this when you accept healing and forgiveness.
As can I.
I will do my best, dear brother!
After I read your post i had an inner dialogue, i couldnt resist posting it.
I hope you dont find it un-compassionate, since i clearly can see myself in you!
"Oh, i heard you re done with anger, hate and rage directing to people. Is that true? Why is it?"
"Oh, yes! I found it is unloving and causes pain, so i decided to never do it again!"
"Oh, thats a good choice! But i can see you're now directin that same rage against yourself"
" well, maybe, but thats different!"
"What is the difference?"
"i am an idiot, i should have known better. I deserve it!"
"Oh, so you're done with hurting people with your rage unless they are idiots that deserve it?"
"Well, mmhhh, aahh, yes. Because i am a stupid idiot who should have known better and i deserve it!"
"So, to be honest, you're still in the exact game?"
"Ah, well, hmm, yes. But it looks much better now
!""So, although you know better and pretend to step out of the game, you feel driven for some reason to carry it on? Because you considerit justified?
Isnt that exactly what you did back then? Can you see you still havent enough consciousness in it to stop it?
Can you imagine you had less consciousness back then, and understand you had no other choice? Just like now you dont seem to have no other choice than attacking yourself?"
I can deeply relate to you. There is a part in me that is exactly the same.
You can help me in healing this when you accept healing and forgiveness.
As can I.
I will do my best, dear brother!