Intelligent infinity/energy, time/space, catalyst, and your experience

[sriyantra]

Those are great points, observations, experiences. Thank you for sharing it with the clarity of your expression. It also brought out in my mind more of an understanding of the nuances and differences of insight I'm seeking clarity of.

So, access to the gateway of intelligent infinity with violet ray activation is overwhelmingly powerful, as you've explained in insightful ways. An experience I've had similar to that would be when I practiced my own version of Kundalini awakening (meditating on the chakras and such) that led to being in a dream where I was surrounded by pure white light and perceived a sound vibration that resembled an endlessly upward climbing xylophone. The feeling of radiant love began to pour through every part of my being. I even perceived some kind of voice that was saying I was becoming Jesus. The love began to increase in intensity with every millisecond to the degree that I felt like my identity would be obliterated by this overwhelming love if I fully surrendered to it. I tried to turn from it and my eyes then opened. I felt my heart and the area of my third eye buzzing as if those chakras were activated in a strong way. I realized then that I felt as if I was accessing that experience/evolution a little too quickly so I decided I should stop doing that same meditation, to bring myself back to a more grounded experience that was more balanced with who I was. Friends of mine have also had some experiences of their own that resemble an obliteration of their identity in a powerful manner; it is always much too overwhelming.

So recently I've been trying to find a way to bring a balance of living a life that activates the energy centers without the overwhelming experience of overly rapid evolution/experience. I am interested in the direct application of higher knowledge into our experiences here. Bringing forth intelligent infinity/energy so that one may serve in their highest capacities. I'm just gonna paste a few Ra quotes here. This extremely succinct explanation from Ra explains a lot: "The heart of the discipline of the personality is threefold. One, know yourself. Two, accept yourself. Three, become the Creator.

The third step is that step which, when accomplished, renders one the most humble servant of all, transparent in personality and completely able to know and accept other-selves. In relation to the pursuit of the magical working the continuing discipline of the personality involves the adept in knowing itself, accepting itself, and thus clearing the path towards the great indigo gateway to the Creator. To become the Creator is to become all that there is. There is then no personality in the sense with which the adept begins its learn/teaching. As the consciousness of the indigo ray becomes more crystalline, more work may be done; more may be expressed from intelligent infinity."

To continue with the idea of applicable usage of accessing II there is for instance, Ra mentions: "There is unity. This unity is all that there is. This unity has a potential and kinetic. The potential is intelligent infinity. Tapping this potential will yield work. This work has been called by us, intelligent energy. The nature of this work is dependent upon the particular distortion of free will which in turn is the nature of a particular intelligent energy or kinetic focus of the potential of unity or that which is all."

Additionally: "Again, the violet emanation is, in this context, a resource from which, through indigo, intelligent infinity may be contacted. The radiation thereof will not be violet ray but rather green, blue, or indigo depending upon the nature of the type of intelligence which infinity has brought through into discernible energy." Discernible energy being an interesting point.

And then of course: "We may not speak of the violet-ray transfer except to note that it is an opening to the gateway of intelligent infinity. Indeed, the indigo-ray transfer is also this but, shall we say, the veil has not yet been lifted." Explaining the opening of to the gateway of II in a way where the veil has not yet been lifted, but there is a usage of the energy as one taps into it.

Then importantly:
"The indigo ray, though precious, is that ray worked upon only by the adept, as you would call it. It is the gateway to intelligent infinity bringing intelligent energy through. This is the energy center worked upon in those teachings considered inner, hidden, and occult, for this ray is that which is infinite in its possibilities. As you are aware, those who heal, teach, and work for the Creator in any way which may be seen to be both radiant and balanced are those activities which are indigo ray."

The quotes there are just things that I find point out the application of II into working while here and utilizing the streaming of II. I think I've answered some of my questions, or at least led into the direction of contemplation that would lead me more effectively into understanding something close to the manner of what I'm seeking. I'm just becoming more aware of what an individual process we are each on when it comes to our own understanding/awakening of things. There are still things I feel lost about. Almost as if I'm "trying to figure life out" in a way that perhaps only happens as more experience continues, and lines of questioning can become abstract when it comes to figuring it out. It seems as though catalysts will inevitably bring us forward to a greater understanding of ourselves though. Maybe that's where I am stuck, is simply understanding/knowing myself haha.