02-04-2017, 03:15 AM
I cry every night before I fall asleep, as much as I feel ashamed and embarrassed to admit that.
I do cry sometimes when writing my posts on here, especially when I'm explaining something like feeling broken. I cried to some of Jade's responses to me.
I don't cry easily either, at least not anymore, not since watching Naruto and seeing him meet those feelings that made him cry with an ever greater desire to be accepted and not give up.
What is the opposite of grief... I...I cannot think of the emotion. Strange, I'm typically really good at thinking up the opposites of something, but I've...Never even considered the opposite of grief. I don't view my internal suffering as 'grief' so that might be why I never considered thinking about it's opposite. Maybe a quick search through thesauras will help...
http://www.thesaurus.com/browse/grief
Well, superficially reading the opposites is one thing, now that I have an idea, I'll look into the more deep connections that exist between grief and relief.
I don't mean to come off as a pity party. I'm just being stupidly open and honest about myself, in hopes it'll help others when they interact with me so that there's no major surprises at anything I say that might seem uncharacteristic.
Imagine my surprise when a friend of mine told me all my talk of depression and suicide didn't seem anything like me. As far as I know, I've been suicidal and depressed since I was 5 years old, it's exactly who I am...
Still though, there's more to me than just one side, I'm known for calling myself a paradox so I'm pretty sure the fact others see one side of me while I see a total opposite is indicative of my being paradoxical.
I do cry sometimes when writing my posts on here, especially when I'm explaining something like feeling broken. I cried to some of Jade's responses to me.
I don't cry easily either, at least not anymore, not since watching Naruto and seeing him meet those feelings that made him cry with an ever greater desire to be accepted and not give up.
What is the opposite of grief... I...I cannot think of the emotion. Strange, I'm typically really good at thinking up the opposites of something, but I've...Never even considered the opposite of grief. I don't view my internal suffering as 'grief' so that might be why I never considered thinking about it's opposite. Maybe a quick search through thesauras will help...
http://www.thesaurus.com/browse/grief
Well, superficially reading the opposites is one thing, now that I have an idea, I'll look into the more deep connections that exist between grief and relief.
I don't mean to come off as a pity party. I'm just being stupidly open and honest about myself, in hopes it'll help others when they interact with me so that there's no major surprises at anything I say that might seem uncharacteristic.
Imagine my surprise when a friend of mine told me all my talk of depression and suicide didn't seem anything like me. As far as I know, I've been suicidal and depressed since I was 5 years old, it's exactly who I am...
Still though, there's more to me than just one side, I'm known for calling myself a paradox so I'm pretty sure the fact others see one side of me while I see a total opposite is indicative of my being paradoxical.