Blocking communication / unconscious fear

[Glow]

Hello Dear Glow,

You’ve described quite advanced states of perception that escapes rules of this reality. Your Consciousness seems to be driven to Knowledge/Awareness that may truly change your life. I think this is the reason for your fear.
As I understand it, Your Focus of the Consciousness at this time is directed at/within this, material reality. This Focus is governed by – and please remember that those are only words/symbols – a Portion of your Consciousness that bounds to the laws of third density. Thus Ego is born. This “Ego” is You “here and now” that cares for your Husband, for Roxi, for many other Beings and things as well. The way You live, your Life, what You consider to be important, meaningful – all that may change if You permit your Self to Open for all those experiences without holding back; to welcome them with excitation and love. Unconscious/barely-conscious not-noticed-yet questions may arise: will I be still my-Self? will I be caring for Beings in my life and the life itself? Will “I” as I know It / “Ego” die/vanish/seize to exist?
At least those are my fears and I’m pretty sure I’ve just projected them on/at You. Well, maybe, just maybe above will be helpful for/to You in some way.

All I have Best in me for You

Thanks for that insight. You are right there is a fear of what will result from opening fully.

I have had dreams that have shown me I only stay now for a few I hold attachment to. Having left the body twice awake, upright with my eyes open I know what holds us here is our grasp of reality. I popped back in body so quick when I noticed what was happening but I might be fearful of opening fully losing the consensus reality and leaving them on their own.

Seems my guidance isn't worried about that so I shouldn't be either.

I also have been guided since I was a small child to avoid pride/ego/elevation which I now understand as seperation vs unity. Everything I've done in life I've been ok, competent or good at but the warning to not seek to be better than others has always been with me. I wonder if another fear is having connection others aren't open to yet and letting that make me feel prideful which would totally knock me off my path.

I'm super on guard for that after all these years so I hope I can sidestep that fear after acknowledging it. I won't pursue some knowledge for that reason. I seek unity not hierarchy power or seperation. So blocking some knowledge seems smart.
Thank you