Desire to die

[Minyatur]

I can't tell you to not kill yourself because it is your free will and is not any less an experience than any other.

I can't tell you that if you do, you'll end up coming back here because that is also up to your free will. You could very well leave these planes and considerer for yourself that this is not the mean of evolution you prefer. If 3D is still desired, there are countless other 3D worlds with a much thinner veil that would make the experience different.

All I can say, is that you came here very consciously and as such the best mean of leaving would be if done in a very conscious manner. Seek the heart of yourself to remember why you came here as then you can make the choice of furthering this experience or not in a level of awareness where you'd know whether it is what you truly want or not.

One other thing I can tell you is that you are loved, there are many entities that would love to share their love to you and also seek to understand your sorrow. The tricky part is simply opening yourself to them.