Occult, Qabalah, Golden Dawn disillusionment

[Nicholas]

Having studied now for the last couple of years, the so called western mystery tradition

Go with me buddy on this one. 

Have you ever studied a sand stone paving slab or the pattern of tree bark?  You may gain greater clarity in the mundane features of life that we pass by every day of our lives.

The testing upon the cessation of the incarnative state is not that testing which involves the correct memorization of many details. This testing is, rather, the observing of self by self, often with aid as we have said. In this observation one sees the sum of all the detailed study; that being an attitude or complex of attitudes which bias the consciousness of the mind/body/spirit.