Occult, Qabalah, Golden Dawn disillusionment

[Matt1]

I am now getting more convinced that the only true spiritual practice is being the Love in the moment and Meditating, as well as having a far philosophical understanding through a good source such as the Ra material. So there you have it.

Thanks for the honest self-expression.

You seem to waver a bit between the value of these mystery traditions, and their lack of effectiveness in being able to generate deep change.

Perhaps the issue here is, as Aion referenced, that you are studying it in isolation, rather than with other-selves.

I remember the huge leap in understanding and catalyst from reading the Law of One for years by myself (even though I had sparse contact with a few individual seekers), and joining this forum almost 4 years ago (about 4 months short of four years).  

It is through positive interaction with other-selves that we can make the most progress on our path.

The various unmanifested activities of the self were found to be productive in some degree of penetration of the veil. In general, we may say that by far the most vivid and even extravagant opportunities for the piercing of the veil are a result of the interaction of polarized entities.

83.17 Questioner: Could you expand on what you mean by that interaction of polarized entities in piercing the veil?

Ra: I am Ra. We shall state two items of note. The first is the extreme potential for polarization in the relationship of two polarized entities which have embarked upon the service-to-others path or, in some few cases, the service-to-self path. Secondly, we would note that effect which we have learned to call the doubling effect. Those of like mind which together seek shall far more surely find.

Yeah i agree with that, its just difficult finding a group of people you can work with in person on a weekly basis.