Occult, Qabalah, Golden Dawn disillusionment

[Lighthead]

Any word can be vague depending on what you see in it. Communion is simply, it is the Creator experiencing the Creator. I understand trying to offer assistance, I just don't understand why, in finding ones own path, there is the need to refute or belittle other paths. It doesn't work for you, that is all good, but why indirectly call down the people who do get something from it by implying it is an inferior method? It just doesn't make sense to me.

Well, I'm going to be honest; maybe I don't find any value in it because I find it hard to practice it. Just the thought of it frustrates me because it doesn't seem like the kind of thing that can be done spontaneously the way meditation seems to be. I'm not saying that it can't be done spontaneously, I'm just saying that it seems like you have to put a lot more effort into it than with something like meditation. More effort into researching various methods and such.

However, you might find it interesting that I studied Buddhism before I ever studied ceremonial magic. Actually Buddhism has tons of ceremonial magic within it that most people probably don't recognize as such. For example sand mandalas are a great example of an Eastern ceremonial ritual.

I actually already knew that about Buddhism. But I'm not really interested in that aspect of it. I'm more interested in Buddhism from a philosophical perspective. I'm also interested in the parts of Buddhism that are simple and not elaborate. There are even "rituals" associated with Buddhism that have to do with meditation that I have absolutely no interest in. For example, I don't really understand the importance of the schools stressing the need to meditate near a statue of Buddha. It seems sort of besides the point. I don't know why, but I don't really see the point of any ritual. Not in Christianity, not really in anything. The only kind of ritual magic that is fascinating to me for some reason is ancient Teutonic magic. I'm fascinated by the runes, galdr magic, etcetera. Maybe because of that book that I used to have.