Occult, Qabalah, Golden Dawn disillusionment

[Lighthead]

I do feel the same, but I plan to create something that would work just for me. Simple gestures to start, that I would associate with different intents that are important to me. This part also involves working with your intent and exploring it, forcing you to do so of some sort.

I do think it can be pretty much anything, something to take off stagnant and heavy energies was something I was thinking about By doing certain gestures in interacting with my energy field, gestures I'd find meaningful and that I'd feel work for me.

I also plan on doing something with just the elements, to start with exploring only these concepts more deeply while doing something practical. I'd want to feel myself incarnate each of them in my being.

And I'd end it with something that means for me that I am my magical personality.

Just something personal, that I'd feel right in using for myself, can be as discret as I want, no needs to make sounds or speak.

Anyway those are thoughts of mine about exploring something I have difficulty relating to.

Yeah, that could be cool. But I'm pretty sure that there are a lot of old-school people that would say that you have to go one step further and do like a traditional ritual to be effective at all.

I'd like to do research on magick, but a lot of the books that are around are long-winded and boring. That's sort of the issue I'm having with Buddhism. There's a lot of interesting material out there, but you have to dig for it because there's a lot of outdated, archaic material there. For example, I was trying to read the Shobogenzo (I got further when I read it before), and there's some stuff that the author writes about that sounds laughably old-fashioned. I wish I could remember what it was. But I'm sure everybody gets the point.