Jody's humble and beautiful awakening story

[jody]

Am I the only one who still has a line above their signature?

No, Minyatur does too.

I added the line myself thought

Minyatur

I read in another post that you experienced intelligent infinity? Thats what I believe happened to me, in my awakening. It faded away, but I believe now that it set the 'benchmark' for me. I am working towards achieving it now. 

From the Ra material I viewed that experience as an initiatory one. After it, I first searched for that "God" I had found in the Bible since what lead me to it was a Christian friend. At that time he was speaking to most of my other friends about his religion and was made fun of. Rather than making fun of him with the others, it made me wonder why he was doing so much while being put down. I asked him many questions about his God and beliefs and the conversation ended with him telling me that I should try to pray. I did so, and my words were simply "Hey.. God... if you exists I'd like to know you" and there goes what christians call being "new born", I was filled with the Holy Spirit (Intelligent Infinity), a white Light full of Love that enters you and change you anew. This light brought me to tears as I felt not worthy and shameful until it faded away into complete well beingness. In the following weeks I had many spiritual experiences which at some point ceased.

I think these experiences sometimes just come from a sincere desire to know that which is unknown and to be ready to change if there is something or once you know what it is. That sounds easy yet isn't all that easy. I feel that at rare occasions since that time, there were times I could have connected with intelligent infinity and did not because I was afraid of change. I don't know if the same applies to you.

Reaching Intelligent Infinity is my current struggle or life path. From my experience when you skip or back away from a moment in which you could have openned yourself to Intelligent Infinity, it then becomes harder or impossible until a new moment comes forth. I had more success with piercing the Veil to feel what I am and since then I have been wondering much more about what keeps me from Intelligent Infinity.

Thats really interesting. It does sound like the feelings I experienced, including the tears of unworthiness. My experience was in early December. I haven't experienced it since but my entire life has been 'change' since then. I'm not afraid of it though. I find it exciting. I feel like I'm myself for the first time. As a result, amazing things keep happening to me. Thanks for sharing your story Minyatur. 
May you feel Joy in the Love and Light of the Creator.