Jody's humble and beautiful awakening story

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Greetings and Happy New year to all my kindred spirits in this forum.

My name is Jody

My awakening was the most profound experience I've ever had and I am somewhat reticent of trying to convey this information with words as they can, in no way, do the experience justice. I have been holding this quite close to my chest because I know my friends and family would not be able to accept it as truth, and I did not wish to share it on the internet because, in my experience, internet forums are often reduced to bickering and petty insults, and I believe my experience to be sacred and did not want it tarnished by the insensitivity of others. However I have been reading the other stories in this forum, and yesterday I was able to share a base version of it in the chat room with Matt1 and DEFkab, to whom I am deeply grateful. I have decided that this is a safe forum full of beautiful, accepting, and like-minded people. Furthermore, the message from my meditation has been made clear. 'It is now time to rejoin my spiritual family.'
Thank you, readers, for giving me the opportunity and space to share. It fills me up to know that I am not alone. Indeed, even typing those words brought me to tears.

                                 BRIEF HISTORY
I live in British Columbia Canada, where I was born. I was born in 1980, the youngest of a mixed up modern family. My parents each married 3 times, so I have many half and step siblings.
My family are unwavering atheists. Religion and spirituality were not discussed or considered. The extent of any 'belief system' we had was that a) there is no god, and b) nothing happens when you die.
However, in spite of this being the belief of my family, it did not resonate with me, and as a young boy I used to pray in secret in my bedroom.
Also, as a child, I would spend long periods of time trying to move small items with my thoughts. I felt certain that I could do it, if only I could learn how. This never yielded results but I remained convinced that it was possible.
All through my childhood and into my teenage years I had been told I was different due to my being 'too nice for my own good' or 'far too trusting and naive'. It's true that I have always assumed the very best of people, and on many occasions this has led me to emotional pain, and in some cases manipulation by others, but I simply did not know how to be any other way.
I was also thought to be emotionally unstable and was prone to drastic mood swings. This ended up playing a huge part in my life in later years.

                                  ROAD TO THE SELF
While I never subscribed to Atheism, I also never pursued spirituality of any sort. I never felt a strong urge to learn of any religion or formulate an opinion on any level of the existence of God or a higher power. I didn't know, and I was fine with that.
However, over the years I began to take notice of something special in myself; my intuition.
People have always found me easy to confide in, and I had a tendency to become many peoples "shoulder to cry on". I am not exaggerating when I say that I have had complete strangers in the city suddenly throw their arms around me and break down.
I never understood why this was, but I felt that it was a gift, and I was responsible for listening to and consoling these people.
As I grew to trust my intuition more, I began to feel that this was not only a gift, but a tool. Furthermore, I was to use this tool to bring Love to people.
I followed my intuition whenever possible after that, and it has served me well. Eventually, without the influence of any spiritual or religious material, my intuition led me to the following beliefs. a) the Universe has a Creator, and b) Everything is made of the Creator.
These may seem like base concepts to the readers in this forum, but I assure you, in my circle of friends and family, this was very radical thinking, therefore I shared it with no one.

                                         EMPATHY
At this point, I believed in the creator, and I believed that I was in this world to bring love, but there was one major road block in the way. I could not get a grasp on my emotional life. My moods were sporadic and unpredictable. One day, an acquaintance of mine was able to help me figure out why. Many of the emotions I was experiencing were not my own. The gift of being easy to confide in was, more accurately, the gift of empathy. I have the ability to, not only understand others points of view, but I actually feel their emotions. This explained many things to me, most notably, My severe state of depression when I was a teenager. My mother at that time was going through her own state of depression, which she attempted to hide from my family. I of course knew about it, but what I didn't know was that her state of mind was also causing my depression.
The discovery of this information caused me to approach things in a very different manner. I realized I had to be careful with whom I spent my time, and know when to remove myself from certain situations. This has led me to spend much time in isolation.

                                         MY AWAKENING
There was a series of events that led to my awakening which were perfect and concise. They went as follows.
I developed an interest in UFO's and Alien abductions. I suddenly found them fascinating and researched as much as I could. This led to a document called "Message from an Alien Race" channeled by Eric Julien. This document resonated so strongly with me that I felt a new perspective on life, and for the first time found an outer source for my spirituality. The next day I started the process of daily meditation.
Shortly thereafter a friend recommended something called "the Hidden Hand Dialogues" which I, like many of you, found fascinating and through that document, I was led to the Law of One.
All this newfound information caused me to view my life with a great deal of clarity, and I had to accept that there were aspects of my life that weren't serving me or others, most notably, my relationship, which soon after came to an end.
After the end of my relationship, I travelled to my hometown to stay with my Mom so I could regroup. My mom lives in a house that is very secluded in nature and I was amazed at much easier and stronger my meditations were at her home.

One afternoon, I was in her kitchen cleaning a pot when something extraordinary happened. A memory flooded over me, and that memory was that I was the reincarnated spirit of the Egyptian Pharoh Akhenaten. I felt this with the most incredible certainty I have ever known, and I remembered cleaning a pot in Egypt as I looked out on green fields. The words came to me, 'even a Pharoh must wash his own pot'.
I came to and found my Moms 3 dogs surrounding me barking like mad. I was filled with the most incredible and complete feeling of Joy that I've ever known. I could feel my own energy surging and intermingling with everything, and as I looked around, the colors all appeared brighter, smells were stronger, sound had more clarity, and amazingly, I had an improved vocabulary and posture. I felt that I had finally arrived.
In my enthusiasm to serve, I attempted to send a message to Carla Rueckert, feeling she would have information to impart to me. This did not yield results but one of her assistants was kind enough to write me back. Austin, if you are reading this, I am still deeply grateful for the time and care you took in writing me.
In the days that followed I remained on this high. My moms dogs would not stop following me and people could not look at me without smiling. As the week progressed however the feelings began to wane, and I eventually reverted back to the state I was in before. That's when I began to doubt my experience.

                                    DOUBT AND FAITH
Faith would mean nothing without the existence of doubt. I felt a great deal of doubt over the following weeks.
I should state that I knew very little of the Pharoh Akhenaten at this point. I knew that Ra stated that Akhenaten was a wanderer, and that he was depicted in the artwork of the time in an odd fashion, but that was about all, so the idea that I was this spirit was strange and unlikely to me.
I thought that this notion, that I was this historical figure, was my ego trying to seduce me into believing I was special or unique. I felt this made me arrogant and tried to deny this information.
However I stayed the course with my meditation and could not shake the feeling that the immense certainty and joy that I had felt in that moment was not a fabrication.
The truth, after time, became clear.
I am the reincarnation of Akhenaten, however, contrary to my initial belief, this is not special. This information is superfluous and only has value in that it was my catalyst for awakening. I am equal to all, no more, no less. I am a humble being of unity and love and that is all.
Other things were made clear as well. The washing of the pot was a sign of humility. In my past incarnation, I was guilty of arrogance. Afterwards in my research of Akhenaten, I found that in his desire to spread the Law of One, he tore down temples to multiple Gods and dictated that the Law of One was the only faith. This was not an act of acceptance, and was arrogant. Faith cannot be forced on others and must be chosen. That is why humility is important to this lifetime of mine. Many of my life lessons have been lessons of humility. It also should be stated that washing a pot is an action that was necessary to awaken me, and it is no coincidence that I have been a chef for 16 years. This universe aligns exactly as it needs to.
I have subsequently made a further discovery regarding my empathy. I had thought that I was a receptor for emotions. As it turns out, it goes both ways. When I am full of Love, I am also a transmitter, and those in my presence cannot help but be lifted. This is a beautiful gift that I am honing, and wish to refine, for lifting others is my highest purpose.

                                   CLOSING AND GRATITUDE
I share my story with you friends, for you are, all of you, open and beautiful. I would not tell others this story as many would not accept it and may judge me as 'crazy' or 'unstable'. That doesn't bother me, except that if one judges me that way, they would be unlikely to accept my gifts of love and kindness, and this helps no one.  
I am grateful to you, whomever reads this, for taking the time to do so. I also wish to thank the creators and administrators of this site for giving us a safe place to connect and share ideas.

I am, and will always remain, your humble friend and servant. I wish you all a beautiful new year and may the Love of the Creator light every step of you path

Sincerely
Jody

Together, my friends, we can lift this world, in Love, and in Unity.

Firstly, i want to say that I'm sorry Jody I cannot believe that you were Akhenaten in the past,that's like saying i was Cleopatra or Zeus.It is possible that you were daydreaming/imagining and you believed it to be real,i too have had that kind of experience(nothing to do with Egypt I will talk about it later) it was comforting i know but was nothing more than my imagination.I believe it was a by product of reading and understanding the LOO.I apologise for sounding a bit harsh but I've heard far too many people claiming to be historical figures.If you have any doubt about what you were in the past why not do a past life regression ? i think that would help.

"Argument from (personal) incredulity (divine fallacy, appeal to common sense) – I cannot imagine how this could be true, therefore it must be false."