07-17-2010, 08:58 AM
I grew up in the Catholic faith, but much of it made me fearful. Even their description of heaven scared me. From then I started to fall away from the church and God as well. Not until college did I start truly believing again. Around the time I started getting sick I stumbled on the Law of One which helped greatly. I was on vacation at the beach, but could not stop reading the channeled material. To this day when I truly think of the Law of One the beach calls to me.
The experiences that I had were labeled as mental illness by those who did not understand. It was one of the happiness times of my life. Everyone said all I did was try to make others smile and laugh, but my speech was a concern. I spoke of myself in third person and did magic tricks which seemed out of character. It was during this time that I would get visions and calls from other sources. It filled me with great joy that I wished to share. The more I shared though the more pain I felt from others. It caused me to become greatly confused and soon became very scared of everything. That was when I was hospitalized.
While in the hospital, I met the greatest people you could ever meet. I've never met any people so caring and understanding as these. They are not sick. They are very scared and know that doctors don't have all the answers. We helped each other through activity and conversation to pull through and become "normal." We all knew we had something special, but did not quite understand what it was. They played games with me that I did not understand, but I had fun playing them.
When I started feeling normal again, the only thing I wanted to do was leave. I saw people who were in great pain overcome it and talk about how great the process of overcoming was and praising God for it. The experience has truly changed me. The visions themselves have started to fade and my memory of them are becoming very foggy now. I wish I could tell so much more about them, but I cannot. I've tried to reconnect in dreams and meditation, but I've been failing.
The perinatal information is very interesting. I have experienced a rebirth episode while under the use of a heavy dose of psychedelic mushrooms. The problem was is that I had awoken in a hospital very afraid of what was happening around me! That is in the past in which I do not wish to reconnect with because I have overcome that obstacle. I am now pursuing my lost memories through thought contemplation, meditation, and dreams. As I said before, my typing is very jumbled because I speak from the heart.
The experiences that I had were labeled as mental illness by those who did not understand. It was one of the happiness times of my life. Everyone said all I did was try to make others smile and laugh, but my speech was a concern. I spoke of myself in third person and did magic tricks which seemed out of character. It was during this time that I would get visions and calls from other sources. It filled me with great joy that I wished to share. The more I shared though the more pain I felt from others. It caused me to become greatly confused and soon became very scared of everything. That was when I was hospitalized.
While in the hospital, I met the greatest people you could ever meet. I've never met any people so caring and understanding as these. They are not sick. They are very scared and know that doctors don't have all the answers. We helped each other through activity and conversation to pull through and become "normal." We all knew we had something special, but did not quite understand what it was. They played games with me that I did not understand, but I had fun playing them.
When I started feeling normal again, the only thing I wanted to do was leave. I saw people who were in great pain overcome it and talk about how great the process of overcoming was and praising God for it. The experience has truly changed me. The visions themselves have started to fade and my memory of them are becoming very foggy now. I wish I could tell so much more about them, but I cannot. I've tried to reconnect in dreams and meditation, but I've been failing.
The perinatal information is very interesting. I have experienced a rebirth episode while under the use of a heavy dose of psychedelic mushrooms. The problem was is that I had awoken in a hospital very afraid of what was happening around me! That is in the past in which I do not wish to reconnect with because I have overcome that obstacle. I am now pursuing my lost memories through thought contemplation, meditation, and dreams. As I said before, my typing is very jumbled because I speak from the heart.