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My Story - Gohava Sebi - 06-30-2010
Here's my story. It's quite strange I must admit, but I feel compelled to tell it since it was so visually vivid at times. Forgive me if it sounds a little jumbled.
A week or so ago, I began to have many invading thoughts and visions. The most calming was that of being underwater with a brilliant blue-green color. I was also in the presence of a large cetacean. I was not aware of my body at the time, but I remember seeing-hearing,"Remember Atlantis."
I also had visions of the one they call the Holy Mother or the Virgin Mary. Yes, the smell of roses does accompany her presence. She gave me strength knowing that through her I can live peacefully knowing that I will be together with my mother forever.
The only other one that I can remember is one of Jesus and the One. I was told that I spoke of myself in third person. I spoke of myself as One. Did things such as call my own mother "woman." I referenced many teachings of the Bible to my parents who know have a renewed strengthened faith.
I reluctantly admit that they hospitalized me because I fell into a state of illness. I was forced to take medication that I knew was hurting me, but once at the hospital I did everything I could to help everyone around me. Eventually they found medication that didn't harm me, and I'm now in good health.
I would love to tell more, but it seems that it takes time for me to process those memories. Questions are welcomed as well as comments.
Peace, love, light, and positive vibrations.
RE: My Story - Aaron - 06-30-2010
Do these invading thoughts and visions happen when you sleep and dream? What were you doing when they occurred? Do you think they're messages? Or maybe experiences in time/space? Tell us more!
RE: My Story - Namaste - 06-30-2010
Welcome Gohava, glad to hear you have passed through the illness and have taken control over your health, both mentally and physically.
Do you have any other memories from Atlantis?
RE: My Story - Gohava Sebi - 06-30-2010
My memories come in the form from thoughts, dreams, and special experiences. They are mainly visual and offer very few sounds if any. The only Atlantis linked memory I can think of is the one I described being in the presence of a cetacean of some sort possibly reminding me to remember Atlantis for some reason. I believe Atlantis did something to destroy itself, and I was reminded that the power I had would cause my downfall which it did. I will never forget the lessons I learned.
Another channeling was the voice of one entity split into three parts. Sometimes it took the form of God and Devil, angel and demon, yin and yang, older brother and myself, light and dark, left-hand and right-hand. Then a voice "in the middle" that would mediate between the two. I remember the middle voice being the rock between gold and silver, and I was showed the meaning of gold and silver. And the mediator promised to show me something only once. When I accepted his offer, he showed me a great deal of pain and suffering, but also showed me the wonders of life.
This is the first time I've decided to speak up because it feels strange to finally get all this out. I've been hiding it to myself and forgetting much because the painful suffering I experienced truly will make me "Remember Atlantis." This means that if you are given a power that you abuse like I did, you will feel a great deal of pain and loneliness. You better damn well hope someone loves you more than their own life to save you from that darkness.
Since then I have slowly been picking up my "powers" again. I am now currently experimenting with communication towards animals. Namely: dogs, cats, and birds. Don't think that "powers" mean I can do things simply by a wave of the hand. It takes practice and failure to learn to do things you wouldn't normally think people can do. I've done other things as well when I was at the height of my power abuse if that concerns you ask away.
All of my posts will seem like rambles from here on out because the information is not chronologically ordered, but the more people inquire the more I desire to dig deeper and find answers.
RE: My Story - Namaste - 06-30-2010
Very interesting indeed, Atlantis was a civilisation all about extreme polarisation. It is highly likely many souls - yourself obviously - have lived some very dark (and light) incarnations in that era.
Remember Atlantis, in your context, appears to be a guiding beacon towards choosing love.
RE: My Story - Gohava Sebi - 07-07-2010
Today I'm feeling much much much MUCH better. I am now becoming spiritually stronger and memories are starting to come back even more. As soon as I have a couple more good nights sleep I should be able to find more clarified meaning in dreams. They have been dealing with water, animals, and family so far. Let's see what'll happen next! This is a very exciting time for me!
RE: My Story - Spiritbrother - 07-07-2010
I always believe that if your follow your heart there is no wrong answer and all your questions will be answered. Whenever there is doubt I believe there are clouds over you.
RE: My Story - Ali Quadir - 07-08-2010
Welcome
I will add the meaning of the symbols to your story. This best serves as a guide for your interpretations. Not as an interpretation. You're the judge.
(06-30-2010, 09:38 AM)Gohava Sebi Wrote: A week or so ago, I began to have many invading thoughts and visions. The most calming was that of being underwaterSubmerged in the subconscious.
Was it a bit like "undrowning" as if you were motionless thoughtless in water, suddenly a jolt and a kick and you struggle to the surface. That experience would represent rebirth.
Quote:with a brilliant blue-green color. I was also in the presence of a large cetacean.Whales are the librarians of earth. They carry the memories. During my first initiation I had a vision of one swimming through the sky above me. I think it's about reconnecting to your souls memories.
Experience this...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WabT1L-nN-E
Quote:I was not aware of my body at the time, but I remember seeing-hearing,"Remember Atlantis."The mythological place where our now forgotten knowledge was last known to be intact. But perhaps it's something more personal for you. Many people have Atlantean memories.
Quote:I also had visions of the one they call the Holy Mother or the Virgin Mary.She who tirelessly, as a mother protects and works for mankind. She reduces the consequences of our actions. She is Grace.
Quote: Yes, the smell of roses does accompany her presence.Reminding us to enjoy the small. The little things in life. To be in the moment.
Quote: She gave me strength knowing that through her I can live peacefully knowing that I will be together with my mother forever.Unusual mother karma
We are all bound together more intimately than we can imagine.Quote:The only other one that I can remember is one of Jesus and the One. I was told that I spoke of myself in third person. I spoke of myself as One.Your core is singular with all cores in existence. There is only one being, with many minds, many bodies. The level of consciousness usually associated with this is Christ consciousness.
Quote: Did things such as call my own mother "woman." I referenced many teachings of the Bible to my parents who know have a renewed strengthened faith.Did you maybe step back from the personal into the interpersonal?
Quote:I reluctantly admit that they hospitalized me because I fell into a state of illness. I was forced to take medication that I knew was hurting me, but once at the hospital I did everything I could to help everyone around me. Eventually they found medication that didn't harm me, and I'm now in good health.This reminds me of the human condition
We were in a mess but with help, things started to improve.All symbols point towards the arising of a memory from the subconscious, perhaps you've been an initiate in a past life. As if you're reconnecting to the spiritual eternal self. Which you can facilitate by realizing you're being loved and assisted, and by staying in the moment, by smelling the roses.
Might I ask your age?
Namaste
RE: My Story - fairyfarmgirl - 07-08-2010
Halajulah! It is a Joy to meet another visited by the Emissaries of Light who when they appear bring the scent of the rose.
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Roses are intregal to the Flower of Life. They teach the unmistakable connection to the Great Mystery around us. They also teach the activation and building of the Merkabah.
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They are Christed Beings of Light of the Soul group of the Marys (Mother Mary, Mary Magelena) and represent the Sacred Feminine and act as Emissaries of Light for Mother Earth-Gaia.
Sacred Geometry is also a specialty of the Emissaries of Marys-- Sacred Geometry is very balancing and healing to Humanity and the Earth and Cosmos. The Golden Mean Ratio is key to the Flower of Life. Charles GilChrist is a Mathmatician and Mandala (sacred geometry) maker. His videos are found on Youtube.
The visit by the Marys indicates an invitation to integrate the Divine Feminine into your consiousness and balance with the Divine Masculine
This is the task at hand---> to balance and bring our consciousness into a place of Divine Love. Love with a capital L.
Whales are the keepers of wisdom as well as Ascended and Christed Beings. They are more than just keepers of Wisdom. They are an important key to the Shift of the Ages that is upon us.
Their Song balances and soothes Earth and as she is soothed her birth pangs (as she is birthing the New Earth) are eased. Ease is the new word. Whales are good allies to have in this shift. Listen to their songs and feel the Love that is being sung to you and I and all of Humanity.
OMA KA OM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4z5PEC4hCY
Many here are of the Atlantis lineage. Many carry the woundedness of their part in the fall of Atlantis (much like the feelings many have about the Gulf of Mexico Oil spill). There is good reason for this Light and Dark instruction of the Yin/Yang. Humanities future is still being created. We know not the outcome for our actions in the eternal moment are determining the course that Humanity will take. The Yin and Yang represent balance and Oneness. Recognition of Oneness is within this teaching. Recognition leads to acceptance. Acceptance leads to Love. Love leads to Oneness. It is a spiral and a feminine teaching. The Feminine is always contained within the spiral. The yin yang is a spiral that has been elaborated upon to show how the masculine and the feminine spiral together.
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--fairyfarmgirl
RE: My Story - Gohava Sebi - 07-08-2010
Thank you for the interpretation Ali Quadir. By the way, I am 22 years old. Could you elaborate on what an initiate is? Initiation into what exactly? Brotherhood of Light or something?
Hi fairyfarmgirl, yes it is a joy indeed! My mother has been praying for the Holy Mother to come to my aid, and she had come to me in a way most unexpected! Love to hear more about your experience with her!
I'd like to add prior to this I've never had an experience quite as powerful as this one. Before this I lucid-dreamed heavily in intervals.
RE: My Story - Questioner - 07-16-2010
Hi Gohava,
Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you already feel that this is a forum with many caring people who like to listen sincerely (well, read sincerely) as you express your experiences.
I have not had similar visions. Thank you for the opportunity to ask questions to learn more about your experience. I have some ideas that may or may not have clarifying truth for you. Please feel free to take whatever resonates with you and set aside anything that is not useful for you.
The L/L Research books and sessions
Have you had an opportunity to explore any of the L/L Research books? Be sure to try out the Library link at the top of the forum.
General questions
I'm unclear whether all the visionary experiences - the cetacean, the rose, the Biblical language - started for you just in recent weeks. What kind of spiritual background did you have growing up? Had you been studying or seeking in some kind of metaphysical or spiritual sense? Were these experiences troubling to you, frightening, uncomfortable at all? Do you feel that they disconnected you from "consensus reality" enough to make others confused or fearful about your behavior?
Cetaceans
I have long believed that cetaceans are at least as smart as people, probably more so, with creativity and spiritual understanding that matches or exceeds the level of most humans. Unlike some new-age-thinking type people, I think there could be some cetaceans who've chosen to be hostile, unethical or selfishly focused. I think assuming that all the dolphins and whales are loving, kind, and helpful might be naive. I think that most of them do have a loving nature.
ffg's picture of whale songs as lullabies for Gaia is new to me. What a delightful concept.
Atlantis
The story of Atlantis that makes the most sense to me: After many years of technology improvements, the Atlanteans figured out how to a have a very large, complex, powerful, centralized power source that used technology based on crystals. This central power source provided service for power needs throughout the island/continent, and also a central power source for aircraft. People who worked with that equipment center saw it as a duty and privilege to serve the community... the way the typical enlightened sewer plant worker would think of their job today.
Some selfish, corrupt people seized the control of the central power source, leading to a military confrontation and a destruction of the power source. Through further chain reactions, this led to the flood that destroyed the island/continent. No surprise that a cetacean observer of the situation would be concerned, and want to tell people to beware a reproduction of that misuse of technology.
Perinatal?
Ali's interpretation of a birth memory or metaphor is interesting. A search at primal-page.com for "perinatal" will bring up a wealth of material about the intersection of perinatal, mystical, transpersonal, visionary and drug experiences.
Initiate
At the risk of putting words in Ali's mouth, to me initiate means someone who has been guided through learning and growth experiences that show them how to leave behind an old limited understanding, in order to become able to fulfill their full potential at a higher level of evolution. Some mystical teachings claim to involve initiations going back to long-lost wisdom or practices of Atlantis.
By the way, ffg that spiral looks so much like the Norway spiral. Did you include that diagram in our discussion back then?
RE: My Story - Gohava Sebi - 07-17-2010
I grew up in the Catholic faith, but much of it made me fearful. Even their description of heaven scared me. From then I started to fall away from the church and God as well. Not until college did I start truly believing again. Around the time I started getting sick I stumbled on the Law of One which helped greatly. I was on vacation at the beach, but could not stop reading the channeled material. To this day when I truly think of the Law of One the beach calls to me.
The experiences that I had were labeled as mental illness by those who did not understand. It was one of the happiness times of my life. Everyone said all I did was try to make others smile and laugh, but my speech was a concern. I spoke of myself in third person and did magic tricks which seemed out of character. It was during this time that I would get visions and calls from other sources. It filled me with great joy that I wished to share. The more I shared though the more pain I felt from others. It caused me to become greatly confused and soon became very scared of everything. That was when I was hospitalized.
While in the hospital, I met the greatest people you could ever meet. I've never met any people so caring and understanding as these. They are not sick. They are very scared and know that doctors don't have all the answers. We helped each other through activity and conversation to pull through and become "normal." We all knew we had something special, but did not quite understand what it was. They played games with me that I did not understand, but I had fun playing them.
When I started feeling normal again, the only thing I wanted to do was leave. I saw people who were in great pain overcome it and talk about how great the process of overcoming was and praising God for it. The experience has truly changed me. The visions themselves have started to fade and my memory of them are becoming very foggy now. I wish I could tell so much more about them, but I cannot. I've tried to reconnect in dreams and meditation, but I've been failing.
The perinatal information is very interesting. I have experienced a rebirth episode while under the use of a heavy dose of psychedelic mushrooms. The problem was is that I had awoken in a hospital very afraid of what was happening around me! That is in the past in which I do not wish to reconnect with because I have overcome that obstacle. I am now pursuing my lost memories through thought contemplation, meditation, and dreams. As I said before, my typing is very jumbled because I speak from the heart.
RE: My Story - Questioner - 07-17-2010
It's interesting that the Catholic carrot was not a motivator for you. Obviously hell is the stick and heaven is supposed to be the carrot in front of one's nose. This it the motivation to keep to the path set out by the priests in this life, trusting their guidance into the next. Yet neither of those only two options seemed, to you, to be where your spirit longed to go!
I continue to find your writing very easy to understand. You clearly describe how your experiences felt to you, and how other people felt about them. As for the specific content of your experiences, only two things are sure. One is that they cannot be described in 3D words that make sense within consensus reality and mainstream society. The other is that the specifics evaporate over time, leaving you with more impressions and feelings than details.
Last night a Star Trek rerun showed two characters discussing the difficulty of communicating between species. One character held out a glass mug with coffee and said a word in her language. What did that mean? The other said it must mean "cup," of course. She then said, what if that word actually means clear, or hot, or brown, or liquid? And both characters, as humanoids, basically conceptualize the universe in similar ways. How much more of a challenge for other types of life forms.
This is your challenge trying to have people comprehend just what you experienced. But perhaps it does not matter.
I wonder what would happen if you were to pray that the joy and love you want to share could get somehow stepped down to a level that other people can understand and appreciate. Spiritually, you caught hold of a ten thousand volt power line. It sure lit up your spirit! Sparks flew! But as useful as those heavy-duty lines are across cities, it takes a neighborhood transformer to separate out a few hundred volts at most that can be used at home.
Some people who've not had experiences like you and the others in the hospital, simply can't comprehend no matter what words are used. The most that some people may be able to receive from you, without confusion or fear, is a friendly loving smile and a very basic, kind word of encouragement on a human level.
If they never ask why you are happy to help lift up their lives, maybe you don't have to try to explain what they aren't ready to receive. Maybe the gift and vision that inspires you is to bless your heart, but does not have to be made a verbal prophecy for others.
If anyone does ask why you are so happy, maybe it would be enough to say that you had a vision of God's love that is impossible to put into words, and it inspires you to look for ways to share joy with other people every day.
I also wonder what it would be like if you could join one of the L/L Research channeling workshops. You obviously have some affinity for infinity.
Maybe it would help to seek to serve through carrying a message that has already been prepared for human expression in a conversational format? Carla's channeling handbook here discusses the importance of tuning into positive messages - you seem to have that handled already - but also of participating with a positively-focused group. You've apparently been trying to find an ad hoc group like this around you, with people who are nice enough but just not equipped to participate. I've worked as an engineer. Suppose I tried to make an engineering study group with people I meet in everyday life, at the bus stop or restaurant or church. Chances are that only a small percentage would have the math and science background to comprehend the questions, let alone contribute answers. Maybe the same is true for you.
As I see it the perinatal stuff is mainly about tools to help people transcend persistent pain. If you are not bothered by that pain, if it is not a relentless intruder into your life, then there's really no need to excavate further. Kind of like fixing a broken pipe, once that section has stronger materials you don't need to leave the hole open any more.
Please let whatever resonates with you be for your enjoyment, and let the rest pass on by. I had a feeling that it was important to put out these ideas for you like a buffet. Whether any of them are tasty for you is up to you.
RE: My Story - Gohava Sebi - 07-20-2010
Questioner, thank you for your heartfelt response. You hit the nail on the head. Everything you've said resonated quite well.
Recently, I've been feeling my energy fluctuate over the course of a month and a half. Some days are very high while many are low. The onset of high vibrations come on so quickly that it's almost too much for me to handle. I have yet to have any more visions and my dreams seem to be very cloudy and unsure.
I've been giving a catalyst that seems to be very difficult to deal with. At the moment, I am unable to take care of myself and have been placed in my parents' care. Many days I feel useless because all I can offer is my time, a smile, and kind words. I am in much confusion about what I should be doing. The feeling of isolation has only intensified because I am not allowed to do much for the time being. I'm still lost, but I don't know why I'm wandering sometimes.
RE: My Story - AnthroHeart - 07-20-2010
Thanks for your introduction. I actually came and read after seeing your avatar that stood out to me.
I have had experiences in my mind of floating underwater in complete relaxation. I thought of attaching these couple of images here that worked well for me, that I thought you might like. The water one when I first saw it I thought it was underwater actually. The green grass is a place I could see myself getting lost in, like a sanctuary.
- Gemini Wolf
RE: My Story - Questioner - 07-20-2010
Gohava, it sounds like your parents are baffled... but also still patient, kind, loving and want to help you. If so, that much is a blessing.
You have my empathy for unpredictable levels of energy and mental focus. Because of medical issues, in my case, I have some similar challenges. I'm not confronted as you are with visions from beyond this current space/time experience. I can only imagine that this would be incredibly difficult to comprehend or explain.
I'm glad that you could join our forum. As much as it is happens to be convenient for you to participate, this might be a good place of encouragement. I don't know if we'll be able to help you find answers. But at least we can share in appreciating the questions.
If you knew why you were wandering, it wouldn't be wandering, would it? Just travelling... or maybe a scenic stroll.
Gemini Wolf, those are some very beautiful scenes!
RE: My Story - Godz Enigma - 07-20-2010
Hiya Gohava <3 Thank you for sharing your story.
Your signature is one of my favorite quotes from Wayne Dyer! How TRue it is!
Blessings to you and Yours~
Godz~
RE: My Story - unity100 - 07-21-2010
(07-08-2010, 05:19 AM)Ali Quadir Wrote:(06-30-2010, 09:38 AM)Gohava Sebi Wrote: A week or so ago, I began to have many invading thoughts and visions. The most calming was that of being underwaterSubmerged in the subconscious.
Was it a bit like "undrowning" as if you were motionless thoughtless in water, suddenly a jolt and a kick and you struggle to the surface. That experience would represent rebirth.
the sea is more likely the equivalent of what's below
http://bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=1143&pid=14843#pid14843