I'm probably one of the few here who is old enough to have identified a purpose and to have completed said purpose, so I will offer my personal reflections on the subject.
I'm 47 now, and I got involved in doing my purpose at around age 44. When I started fulfilling my purpose, I wouldn't have known it was my purpose.
When I was younger, I had a great variety of experiences - many positive, many negative. I was on a winding path with different jobs that I would decide to do on practically a whim, which created a wide variety of experience. My love life was horrendous. I would have characterized myself as agnostic. Some problems with the law, and a very short time in jail. And also some extraordinary success at other things.
All of those experiences, as it turned out, set me up perfectly for fulfilling my purpose by providing the proper knowledge, drive and resources to play the part that I needed to play. It was by all appearances a bizarre, meaningless clusterf&%* that really was a symphony that set me up perfectly for what I had to do. I was "told" what I would do a couple years prior to doing it as well. And now that I fulfilled what I had to do, it's like the creation is showering me with what I want to make my life more enjoyable.
In the larger picture, seemingly, one may just be here to "be", or to fulfill what may seem to be mundane purposes like providing catalyst for others in your life, raising your kids, or also maybe for a more grandiose purpose. But you certainly won't know about it before you do it. I suspect you work and play your way through your experiences, and you just end up where you are supposed to be. I would think the best way for you to not find your purpose is to focus on it and try to force yourself into what your mind thinks it is - as I would see it, that's a potential downside of being spiritual.
If I were to offer advice, I would say to just follow your passions and see where it takes you. All are unique, and all have a different path. You are not meant to know your purpose, you just end up doing it if you let yourself. Life takes a long time too, and one may have to be content with waiting to find out. It's just part of that great mystery which is your life.
I'm 47 now, and I got involved in doing my purpose at around age 44. When I started fulfilling my purpose, I wouldn't have known it was my purpose.
When I was younger, I had a great variety of experiences - many positive, many negative. I was on a winding path with different jobs that I would decide to do on practically a whim, which created a wide variety of experience. My love life was horrendous. I would have characterized myself as agnostic. Some problems with the law, and a very short time in jail. And also some extraordinary success at other things.
All of those experiences, as it turned out, set me up perfectly for fulfilling my purpose by providing the proper knowledge, drive and resources to play the part that I needed to play. It was by all appearances a bizarre, meaningless clusterf&%* that really was a symphony that set me up perfectly for what I had to do. I was "told" what I would do a couple years prior to doing it as well. And now that I fulfilled what I had to do, it's like the creation is showering me with what I want to make my life more enjoyable.
In the larger picture, seemingly, one may just be here to "be", or to fulfill what may seem to be mundane purposes like providing catalyst for others in your life, raising your kids, or also maybe for a more grandiose purpose. But you certainly won't know about it before you do it. I suspect you work and play your way through your experiences, and you just end up where you are supposed to be. I would think the best way for you to not find your purpose is to focus on it and try to force yourself into what your mind thinks it is - as I would see it, that's a potential downside of being spiritual.
If I were to offer advice, I would say to just follow your passions and see where it takes you. All are unique, and all have a different path. You are not meant to know your purpose, you just end up doing it if you let yourself. Life takes a long time too, and one may have to be content with waiting to find out. It's just part of that great mystery which is your life.