Accessing the Gateway to Intelligent Infinity

[Thorne]

I have been routinely meditating now for about 4 months and I strongly feel that I have been at the front door of Intelligent Infinity. It seems I am just not ready, don't have the oomph to push through. I believe I still need to work and develop my indigo ray a little bit more.

Good to hear brother. I too have been struggling with this idea of effort versus allowing with regard to the gateway. It seems that there is an ideal way of preparing through active meditation, but that the trying must transition to allowing for the crossing to take place. I have been guided toward better preparations, but once done and I have my energy system setup I then have trouble letting go and getting deep enough before my energy starts to wane.

What I'm really trying to point out to you is that you may want to examine this concept of "pushing" through. I believe the best you can do is to prepare and then knock on the door, if you will, and then wait for it to be opened from the other side.

Has anyone had much experience working in their indigo and how has it been?

Indigo is the center that I've had the easiest time with. It's always been the most active for me so i'm probably not the best to give advice here. However, my understanding is that the indigo is less likely to have blocks. You are much more likely to have blocks within the 1st 4 rays. Personally, I struggle with the 2nd and 4th. Once I cleared the 4th sufficiently, then i started to feel a sense of bliss on an off during the day. Right after that is when i started to have experiences through the gateway. And I've since had a dream that told me that, for me at least, the 4th ray is the key for accessing the gateway.

From your statement that you feel that you are not ready, may I suggest you examine this feeling from the context of the 2nd ray. Make sure there is not feelings of lack of worthiness that may be blocking the 2nd ray.

As to the indigo, my guess is that if you can feel it's opening, then it's likely that that is sufficient. When I work with indigo I often feel a ring of energy going around my head off and on during the day. If you can feel that level of intensity, then i'm sure the indigo is not inhibiting your energetic movement up the centers.

Within the Ra material there is mention of working with the Kundalini. Have you attempted Kundalini meditation? This may be of help to you in your efforts.