Repeating themes.

[Rake]

Mine was bouts of depression, i depended on someone showing me love to feel loved. When i wasn't shown love i felt no love and hated myself. I struggled with who i was and why i was for along time. Every winter i would get down again and ruin anything good i had with someone who cared for me i wouldn't allow myself to be loved... pretty much in a yearly cycle. I knew it was happening i expected it to happen which ofcourse only meant it always would. I no longer look externally for love and thus the cycle is broken. Thank you Ra i have learnt so much.