question to current and former christians

[Karl]

It was a sort of ego malfunction... like ego-me shut-down temporarily and accepted the "rules" at that moment as absolute truth. It was a good feeling but also a hollow feeling as well. Oh course it usually developed into a split ego of sorts... so when I felt "it" it shortly became a function of a similarly functioning ego. The ego is a clever thing, a "non-ego" will very easily become a new ego function.

So lot's of "positive" feelings, but ultimately devoid of self-being.

That's how it was for me. But I'm a irregular person in general.