11-10-2012, 07:56 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-14-2012, 07:04 PM by JustLikeYou.)
The Transformation of the Spirit – The Calling
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This Archetype happens to be one I have just experienced and am still somewhat in the midst of experiencing. I had offered a characterization of this Archetype in plenum's thread, but this most recent experience has refined many aspects of this very profound Archetype enough that I feel a new expression is necessary.
Each of the Transformation Archetypes represents a quantum shift in your experience – hence the name “transformation.” Your mind literally becomes a new being when you choose to release one kind of love. Your body literally becomes a new kind of vehicle when that which is toxic is released and a death and rebirth then flow. Just so, your spirit is reborn in the Transformation of the Spirit through a sudden shift. The suddenness of this shift can be likened to the Sarcophagus opening. Prior to the Transformation, we find ourselves trapped in a living death, buried alive in the coffin that we perceive our experience of the physical reality to be.
In my current experience, the coffin was sexuality. For years I have been afraid of the potency of my own sexuality. It is this bursting force within me that I thought could not be controlled unless I had a partner to direct it toward, who could appreciate all that I had to offer. It was not that I wanted sexual possession or control or anything like that. It was that I was afraid that if I did not have an outlet for sexual energy, it would build up inside me and cause extreme pain. Thus, even though my approach to sex was generous and giving, it was imbalanced in the heart. Out of fear, I had restricted the flow of love, forcing it down sexual pathways when this was not always an appropriate pathway. I found myself repeating the pattern of meeting a woman who inspired me and immediately stepping into a romantic role, only to have my heart broken when it couldn't work out, for various reasons. This was my sarcophagus.
After moving through enough iterations of this pattern, after becoming more and more aware of various features of my sexuality through the normal cycle of Spiritual movements (Matrix → Potentiator → Catalyst → Experience → Matrix, etc.), a Messenger appears. This Messenger may take many forms, but regardless of the form, the content of the message comes from Beyond. It is an undeniable signal which blasts the lid of the sarcophagus open, revealing an exit from the tomb.
In my case, the messenger was, of course, a woman. She is a different kind of woman, though. She offered a partnership in spiritual progress, but did not want romance. Her approach was loving, sincere and subtle enough that my attention was caught. Whereas before her, I had thought that I needed to go through some kind of sexual gauntlet in order to let go of the physical attachments I could see in myself, after meeting her, my desires suddenly changed. I stopped asking girls out. I stopped caring about meeting women. I thought this was because I was falling in love with her – and I was – but that was only the first experience as the lid of the coffin lifted upon my reality.
You see, there are three parts of myself which emerge from the coffin. The male (conscious) self, the female (unconscious) self, and the child (unified) self each rise out of the coffin, mummified and completely immobile. Immobility is key here. This experience did not ask me if I wanted to participate. It did not await my action. It simply happened to me. The feelings that changed in my unconscious self, as she emerged from the tomb, the dissipation of my sexual desires, these things happened through the natural course of events as the Messenger called me forth.
The trumpet continued to sound. As my experience with this woman moved forward, I came face-to-face with the unconscious fear which was blocking me from moving forward, the impediment to Transformation, the stone that had kept the lid of my Sarcophagus shut. When I consciously faced the reality that my sexual problems were caused by the fear that I could not live without a sexual partner, the conscious self found itself also pulled out of the Sarcophagus. I knew what I was being called to. I know what was needed in order for the Inner Child to rise from the dead. I knew what I had to do in order to remember that life is a joyful experience, a wonderful playground, an innocent skit. I had to face life without a sexual partner. I had to decide to finally close the valve of my romantic energy so that I can face the experience that will present itself once I find that I do not have an external outlet for it.
This decision reflected down into my Mind Complex, where the Transformation of the Mind was also occurring: I was being given the option to choose a sacred love, in which romance is not an option, as opposed to the profane love with which I have recently found myself less and less interested.
The whole experience was preceded by a bodily toxic release. After I met this woman, but before any of the major spiritual changes happened, I endured a week-long spontaneous detoxification. I had a headache everyday. I felt drugged. My muscles were sore. This was a Transformation of the Body which presaged the Spiritual Transformation to come.
Choosing a period of celibacy was not easy. And it just begun today, so I expect plenty of tests in the future. But I cannot deny the Calling. I've heard the trumpet. I have seen my life more clearly than ever before. I have observed the pain that my sexual sarcophagus has caused me. How can I choose to lay back down and shut the lid? How can I return to a willingness to allow myself to be attached to romance? So I flow with the Calling, I move further and further out of the Sarcophagus, not under my own impetus, but in a willingness to subordinate myself to the true will of the Spirit which calls me from Beyond.
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Ra Wrote:That which you call the Sarcophagus in your system may be seen to be the material world, if you will. This material world is transformed by the spirit into that which is infinite and eternal. The infinity of the spirit is an even greater realization than the infinity of consciousness, for consciousness which has been disciplined by will and faith is that consciousness which may contact intelligent infinity directly. There are many things which fall away in the many, many steps of adepthood. We, of Ra, still walk these steps and praise the One Infinite Creator at each transformation.
This Archetype happens to be one I have just experienced and am still somewhat in the midst of experiencing. I had offered a characterization of this Archetype in plenum's thread, but this most recent experience has refined many aspects of this very profound Archetype enough that I feel a new expression is necessary.
Each of the Transformation Archetypes represents a quantum shift in your experience – hence the name “transformation.” Your mind literally becomes a new being when you choose to release one kind of love. Your body literally becomes a new kind of vehicle when that which is toxic is released and a death and rebirth then flow. Just so, your spirit is reborn in the Transformation of the Spirit through a sudden shift. The suddenness of this shift can be likened to the Sarcophagus opening. Prior to the Transformation, we find ourselves trapped in a living death, buried alive in the coffin that we perceive our experience of the physical reality to be.
In my current experience, the coffin was sexuality. For years I have been afraid of the potency of my own sexuality. It is this bursting force within me that I thought could not be controlled unless I had a partner to direct it toward, who could appreciate all that I had to offer. It was not that I wanted sexual possession or control or anything like that. It was that I was afraid that if I did not have an outlet for sexual energy, it would build up inside me and cause extreme pain. Thus, even though my approach to sex was generous and giving, it was imbalanced in the heart. Out of fear, I had restricted the flow of love, forcing it down sexual pathways when this was not always an appropriate pathway. I found myself repeating the pattern of meeting a woman who inspired me and immediately stepping into a romantic role, only to have my heart broken when it couldn't work out, for various reasons. This was my sarcophagus.
After moving through enough iterations of this pattern, after becoming more and more aware of various features of my sexuality through the normal cycle of Spiritual movements (Matrix → Potentiator → Catalyst → Experience → Matrix, etc.), a Messenger appears. This Messenger may take many forms, but regardless of the form, the content of the message comes from Beyond. It is an undeniable signal which blasts the lid of the sarcophagus open, revealing an exit from the tomb.
In my case, the messenger was, of course, a woman. She is a different kind of woman, though. She offered a partnership in spiritual progress, but did not want romance. Her approach was loving, sincere and subtle enough that my attention was caught. Whereas before her, I had thought that I needed to go through some kind of sexual gauntlet in order to let go of the physical attachments I could see in myself, after meeting her, my desires suddenly changed. I stopped asking girls out. I stopped caring about meeting women. I thought this was because I was falling in love with her – and I was – but that was only the first experience as the lid of the coffin lifted upon my reality.
You see, there are three parts of myself which emerge from the coffin. The male (conscious) self, the female (unconscious) self, and the child (unified) self each rise out of the coffin, mummified and completely immobile. Immobility is key here. This experience did not ask me if I wanted to participate. It did not await my action. It simply happened to me. The feelings that changed in my unconscious self, as she emerged from the tomb, the dissipation of my sexual desires, these things happened through the natural course of events as the Messenger called me forth.
The trumpet continued to sound. As my experience with this woman moved forward, I came face-to-face with the unconscious fear which was blocking me from moving forward, the impediment to Transformation, the stone that had kept the lid of my Sarcophagus shut. When I consciously faced the reality that my sexual problems were caused by the fear that I could not live without a sexual partner, the conscious self found itself also pulled out of the Sarcophagus. I knew what I was being called to. I know what was needed in order for the Inner Child to rise from the dead. I knew what I had to do in order to remember that life is a joyful experience, a wonderful playground, an innocent skit. I had to face life without a sexual partner. I had to decide to finally close the valve of my romantic energy so that I can face the experience that will present itself once I find that I do not have an external outlet for it.
This decision reflected down into my Mind Complex, where the Transformation of the Mind was also occurring: I was being given the option to choose a sacred love, in which romance is not an option, as opposed to the profane love with which I have recently found myself less and less interested.
The whole experience was preceded by a bodily toxic release. After I met this woman, but before any of the major spiritual changes happened, I endured a week-long spontaneous detoxification. I had a headache everyday. I felt drugged. My muscles were sore. This was a Transformation of the Body which presaged the Spiritual Transformation to come.
Choosing a period of celibacy was not easy. And it just begun today, so I expect plenty of tests in the future. But I cannot deny the Calling. I've heard the trumpet. I have seen my life more clearly than ever before. I have observed the pain that my sexual sarcophagus has caused me. How can I choose to lay back down and shut the lid? How can I return to a willingness to allow myself to be attached to romance? So I flow with the Calling, I move further and further out of the Sarcophagus, not under my own impetus, but in a willingness to subordinate myself to the true will of the Spirit which calls me from Beyond.