Kia ora

[Kaaron]

The "feet on the roof monsters" are very familiar.  They are definitely connected to the state of heightened consciousness you are describing here.  Their sole purpose appears to be to prevent this state by snaring and fixating the attention of whoever is experiencing (or approaching) such heights.

Analyzing them was difficult (and probably -- ultimately -- pointless), but for gits and shiggles, here's where it went:

There seems to be a connection to another concept:  "the dweller on the threshold" found in meditation, etc.  They may even be external manifestations of the exact same force, because their "bodies" seem to be built out of the same stuff as the dweller -- a sort of fluid darkness extremely responsive to thought (they'll take and use any shape your mind or fears throw at them to gain a greater presence).  They don't (usually) seem to have an actual "self" or "identity" other than the one purpose (prevent epiphany and higher states of consciousness).  Best guess:  they exist to keep the collective level of consciousness in this world as low as possible, like prison wardens.  2nd best guess:  they are manifestations of our own fears and inhibitions regarding these heightened states.

I believe that these are the aspects of self, not yet re-integrated. They are thought forms and lurk in the subconscious. Usually, they come out as different hostile reactions to perceived slights or wrongs against us. Until we return to the source, or first time we felt that thought forms essence manifest as emotion, we are a slave to it. When approaching the one infinite creator, the distorted aspects of self (when not fully appreciated in context to your reason for existing in this mind/body/spirit complex) will feel a threat to their existence. By their own self aware nature, they will "fight you" from their distorted reality. I believe ignored hurts act as pre-wired "hardlines into our mainframe". Then there are 5th density entities that use 4th density thought forms. They use disguised messages that are inceptions dressed up to look like a past hurt but morph into whatever their agenda is.
I feel like they're what the Gnostics call "Archons" or "Archangels". There are different distortions which, traditionally are categorized by different tetracts or sins. I suppose the service to self path would be the ultimate embodiment of them...Satan. I feel there are 5th density entities that embody each of the feelings and use tactics to get your permission to either feed them energetically...or even let them use you as an avatar.
I've found looking at, understanding and then healing, is the only way to reintegrate them.
You can't kill them or you'll end up with a loop mentality as is demonstrated below.

Two experiences suggest they have a strong connection to (or are perhaps even native to) worlds we touch in dreams:

1)  for several years, my "OBE's" or "lucid dreams" would all begin the same way:

Falling from an unseen (and apparently infinite height) and landing directly onto the roof of whatever structure the physical body was sleeping in.  Usually, this was a building, but occasionally this was a car.

The first time this happened, the first thought upon waking was of those "distracting beings" walking on the roof.  I realized the "sound" my landing had made was the same sound that signified the presence of those critters.

2)  this one was unusual.

It occurred during a mind-state that was very uncommon for me.  I was perceiving several sets of perception at once, like watching several movies layered over one another.  Each had its own "rules" and internal logic, but i knew while it was happening that they were all alternate descriptions of the same reality:  "this present moment."
This sounds similar to what happened to me. It was being able to see everything like a sphere of time with different multi-perspectives simultaneously, without losing the wider perspective OR smaller, more focused one.
A roof-stomper shows up.  It's not the same as the others.  The feeling is more urgent and sentient that the others, but the "flavor" of energy and sense of purpose is identical.  My attention shifts toward the visitor and immediately spawns a flash of knowing / seeing:  This is a man i know from waking life; he is dreaming; he sensed my mind-state on "nightly rounds" and panicked immediately, driven to stop it at all costs.  I projected an image of myself on his "wavelength" and quickly "killed" him, throwing his body off of the roof.

A few minutes later, he was back.  I did the same thing.  This went on for a few hours.  

At the time, I had believed that such visions were more internal interpretations of "real events" that can't be explained except through such metaphors, but my view on this was changed when a friend who knew nothing of this commented on visions she kept having in my apartment of "a pile of corpses outside my window."
Everything that is imagined, exists in one form, or another. I think of it like this: If you think of a social memory complex...that implies that every single memory is available to the all...forever. So every thought that makes you, you...can be had and experienced by others in your social memory complex (along with others, probably). So it's quantum physics really cos not even you know they exist, until you look at them. Or maybe they do exist, independent of you. A thought only needs to be emotionalized to manifest on some level, so once you emotionalize the thought, it exists and has the same opportunity to become more and more self aware, just like every other child we spawn physically. I've never really grasped that concept properly until now...thanks for providing the opportunity for that

I'm in a nightclub. There's a south American, almost Gypsy looking lady kind of graciously sweeping around the room. It's as if she's being drawn to an energy in one part of the room momentarily, only to be called to another.

Your descriptions and interactions with this woman remind me strongly of the mysterious woman in Karla Turner's book about Ted Rice.  He claims she was an alien living in the mountains on this planet.  "Maya" was her name, i think.  I think he also described her as "South American" (though i don't remember that with complete certainty).

I have very mixed feelings about that book.  Something about it feels designed specifically to discredit Karla, and something about Ted rubs me the wrong way (like he's not who or what he says he is) ... but your mystery-woman feels related to his mystery-woman nonetheless.

I feel like I've got a hole team of "little helpers" trying to disguise thoughts as my own. It's constant.

I am 100% certain that our thoughts do not belong to us.  They are a shared thing.  This is clearest in a state of no-mind in an active waking state, the .. ?motions ? pulls/pushes ? connections? (i don't have the right word) that shape thought are easily visible then.  Also from that viewpoint, many negative judgments and thoughts (i.e. "that fat b****," "god, he's stupid," etc.) are revealed from that perspective as radiating (or pulling?) from the person about whom the thoughts are.  I believe they are internalized judgments that help create the person's reality by projecting what they believe is true into the heads of those they interact with.  There are positive ones, too, but the negative ones are more alarming and obvious.

If we actually do have an identity in connection to thoughts, i think it is most visible in the the "center" of any group with which we connect and identify.  Also, the strategy-type thoughts we construct when focusing on solving a problem or carving a path from one thing to another feel more "personal" than most thoughts.
Your thoughts are as much yours, as you allow them to be, in my opinion. Then again, I feel that the point of a seekers path is to realize this and then step aside to (ironically) let the all inspire your highest new perfected vision of now.

One last note:
222 follows me everywhere.  For years now.  I'd come to interpret it (without really knowing why) as: "where your consciousness is / just was is the correct path."

444 shows up a lot, too, for which i have no interpretation.

I intend to examine the books you mentioned in relation to this.  (thank you for the lead   )
I feel like signs are personal but have found that studying each number is really beneficial. If you stop and analyze your thoughts or feelings just prior to you seeing the numbers, you can sometimes see a correspondence.
I've found 4's have a relation to me needing a reminder to balance wisdom with love...Or something else to do with love. Like I said though, it's really personal and might be different for each of us.

be well.

Kia ora

[OpalE]

Several times now, upon reading your response then beginning to mentally formulate a reply, the world itself answers before that reply is typed.

You've revealed a previously unseen connection ... one 'the world' insists 'should have been obvious by now' (between pain-born 'inner demons' and seemingly external beings that hamper personal progression ... even those appear to use other humans as 'hosts').  You've also apparently triggered experiential lessons starting with this revelation and leading to others I hadn't anticipated.

 thank you.

[OpalE]

Even though 'the world' has apparently settled this issue from my perspective, I'm being pressed to pose the first question I had upon reading your response anyway. Something says it would be a mistake not to, so... here goes:

have you experienced the entities that "step into" to others to influence situations? the body is that of a person you recognize but the facial expressions, actions, and mannerisms are not; and they seem to "hop" from one person to another at various times.

the people who were "used" this way appear to have missing gaps in their memories surrounding these events. When confronted about the occurrence they either 1) insist that it never happened at all, or 2) seem to have to reach hard for the memory, and claim that they "kind of" remember, but they don't know why they did or said such-and-such.

If so ... what are your thoughts about such experiences?

[Kaaron]

I experience it regularly.
I feel like everyone does, to one extent or another but they just attribute alot of it to their own behaviour.
The 4D entities "set us up" with thoughts and then the 5D ones come in and emotionalize them. Then when we're in negative time/space, they have full control of our thoughts and emotions. That's why we get gaps in our memory. The higher self is reluctant to enter that space, resulting in experiences that will be remembered by a distorted part of us, I feel. It's hard to see anything outside of what you're feeling because there are hurt parts of you, that they kind of "hide in". That hurt part of you doesn't want to be healed most of the time as this will lead to it's perceived "death".
When I'm in that place, I can't see any light and they bombard me with suicidal thoughts.
It's not that I don't have any memory of the experience. It's more that I'm not really all me. It depends on how much of a hold they gain too.
I feel like I've got a whole platoon working on me, with the General who comes in and torments me.
It's in these moments that I can't really see any light and it doesn't matter who you are, I won't respond. I feel that this some residual "Maldek" or "Martian" energy.
I feel like a hybrid. My Father was full blood Maori descended from Chiefs and Priests. His Father was the one who welcomed the queen of england to Auckland in the 50's. My mother's parents are English/Irish/Scottish...Grandfather was 6'5" nephilim lol
Indigenous and colonizing.
My job is to balance all the cannibalism, Orion worship and other actions...my great uncle was the minister of defense in 1945 and sent the whole country to war.
I've been told that there is a curse on the male line of my family...every one of my male cousins on my Dads side have these issues.
I don't believe in the terminology but it's definitely a darkness that makes me want to turn into an atomic bomb and destroy the earth so that not only will I be destroyed but everyone who exists on the planet. That way there will be no living memory of the hurt I want to wipe out.
There is a balance though.
I have intense moments of perfect understanding.

I came here to do a job n this drama comes with it. Without the dark, there's no opportunity for light and other cliched s***.
So my partner and I are using the offers of negativity. We tell them thankyou...thankyou for being who you are, which enables us to do what we do and that even though they think they're destroying me, they're doing the creators work. Must be frustrating as a muthafucka for them lol...tryna attack and destroy and all they're doing is unknowingly helping the creator evolve and turn super saiyan.

[Kaaron]

So I was reading "The Final Quest" again, just now.
I got to this part, which is under the Chapter " The Serpents":

From "Galatians Two Twenty" it was very easy to go higher, so we started up to the higher levels.  Soon we happened upon a garden that was the most beautiful place I had ever seen.  Over the entrance to this garden was written, "The Father's Unconditional Love." It was the most glorious and inviting doorway I had ever seen, so we were compelled to enter.  As soon as we did, we saw the Tree of Life in the middle of this garden.  It was still guarded by angels of awesome strength.  They looked as if they had been expecting us, so we had the courage to pass them and walk up to the tree.  One of them said, "Those who make it to this level, who know the Father's love, can eat." I did not realize how hungry I was.  When I tasted the fruit, it was better than anything I had ever tasted, but was also somehow familiar.  It brought memories of sunshine, rain, beautiful fields, the sun setting over the ocean, but even more than that, of the people I loved.  With every bite I loved everything and everyone more.  Then my enemies started to come to mind, and I loved them, too.  The feeling was soon greater than anything I had ever experienced, even the peace on "Galatians Two Twenty." Then I heard the voice of the Lord, and He said, "This is now your daily bread.  It shall never be withheld from you.  You may eat as much and as often as you like.  There is no end of My love." I looked up into the tree to see where the voice had come from, and saw that it was filled with pure white eagles.

BOOM... https://www.geonet.org.nz/quakes/region/...016p892721
Solid earthquake. Again.

It's obviously influenced by Rick's Christian beliefs but the message beneath all of the terminology resonates with me.
I believe the eagles are Ra. I thought this from the first time I read it. It ties into my believing that "an eagle above them all" is Ra in the visions in the bible where there is the lion, calf, man and eagle.
 

They had the most beautiful, penetrating eyes I have ever seen.  They were looking at me as if waiting for instructions.  One of the angels said, "They will do your bidding.  These eagles eat snakes." I said, "Go! Devour the shame that has bound our brothers." They opened their wings and a great wind came that lifted them into the air.  These eagles filled the sky with a blinding glory.  Even as high as we were, I could hear the sounds of terror from the enemy camp at the sight of these eagles coming toward them.

Devouring shame...helping to feel worthy. 6th chakra. Unified 6D.

[tamaryn]

Once you see those eyes......

> Unconditional Trust.

> All necessary.

Hold your Knowing, Nothing else. No ideas No thought. All must be trusted in the lower dimensions to truly survive the Creator's extremity of true vibration. Fullness of Darkness meeting Fullness of Trust. Equals Full unified Transcendence.

There is no choice but to (tryst) . One there is no time to Trust, that is the paradox when full Trust in the creator must be awoken, as deeply as possible in that moment. The trust you have never before trusted. The groove. The music of the Darkness. The song calling a partner. The eternal gratitude of that offering hand, in trust.

And then you see there was never any true threat. All illusion. All slave warriors awakening our intense desire for Freedom. Infinite freedom of movement. Infinite innocence, Infinite Love. No direction. No time. No self. No Body. No world. Only true response remains.

After all, we were always friends of the eternal Self.

The curse is real until it is vibrated out of existence. And the hand is always open, always offered.

Trust. Triangular ascent. 333. <3 <3 <3

~~~ !!! RISE ~ MY ANGEL !!! ~~~~

is their battle cry of infinite sorrow. REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE. REMEMBER WHAT IT TOOK TO BE AN ANGEL OF THE TRUE STRENGTH

[Kaaron]

Once you see those eyes......

> Unconditional Trust.

> All necessary.

Hold your Knowing, Nothing else. No ideas No thought. All must be trusted in the lower dimensions to truly survive the Creator's extremity of true vibration. Fullness of Darkness meeting Fullness of Trust. Equals Full unified Transcendence.

There is no choice but to (tryst) . One there is no time to Trust, that is the paradox when full Trust in the creator must be awoken, as deeply as possible in that moment. The trust you have never before trusted. The groove. The music of the Darkness. The song calling a partner. The eternal gratitude of that offering hand, in trust.

And then you see there was never any true threat. All illusion. All slave warriors awakening our intense desire for Freedom. Infinite freedom of movement. Infinite innocence, Infinite Love. No direction. No time. No self. No Body. No world. Only true response remains.

After all, we were always friends of the eternal Self.

The curse is real until it is vibrated out of existence. And the hand is always open, always offered.

Trust. Triangular ascent. 333. <3 <3 <3

~~~ !!! RISE ~ MY ANGEL !!! ~~~~

is their battle cry of infinite sorrow. REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE. REMEMBER WHAT IT TOOK TO BE AN ANGEL OF THE TRUE STRENGTH

Thankyou.

[Kaaron]

I went to see a theta healer a few months ago.
She told me I am Pleiadian.
Then she said she could see me as an old man with long grey hair and a beard, mapping out the earth with a compass, thousands of years ago.
She then said she could see me floating in the air in an ascension event.
I asked if it was South America and if I was part of the group that ascended with the help of Ra.
I was.
Then I asked if I am part of the Ra soul group and she said yes.
She went on to tell me that I floated up into the sky and took my place with the ascended masters but decided to return to help others to ascend also. I have a big part to play in the harvest and have alot of native American and other indigenous guides helping me.

[Ra1111]

I have not yet read this whole thing, just your opening post , but it resonates strongly with me ... I had an experience nearly identical to what you describe ... not the physical trigger , although I do stare into the sun, the rays (aten) follow me and part the clouds when I ask still, even though it has been years now since those brief months of blissful love and understanding blew by me as my most treasured memory..

I felt a connection with what I was calling at the time the Holy Spirit , but then it began to communicate in ways I could not handle. The fear confused me deeply for a long time

I dont Know if it was Ra, but def someone was with me at that time.

Shortly after is when I discovered the Law of One material, so of course I have pondered if that was “Ra” in my life during that time that I can no longer explain ...

[Kaaron]

I have not yet read this whole thing, just your opening post , but it resonates strongly with me ... I had an experience nearly identical to what you describe ... not the physical trigger , although I do stare into the sun, the rays (aten) follow me and part the clouds when I ask still, even though it has been years now since those brief months of blissful love and understanding blew by me as my most treasured memory..

I felt a connection with what I was calling at the time the Holy Spirit , but then it began to communicate in ways I could not handle. The fear confused me deeply for a long time

I dont Know if it was Ra, but def someone was with me at that time.

Shortly after is when I discovered the Law of One material, so of course I have pondered if that was “Ra” in my life during that time that I can no longer explain ...

I've come to the realization that we have been in direct contact with our higher selves without the veil, which is why time stopped and in that moment all possible paths of the now are made available. Everyone is capable of it...not everyone can handle looking at every perceived imperfection and forgive it as it's painful n feels like you're going to die...well it felt like that to me until I reached a kind of plateau

[AnthroHeart]

I'm not sure if what you experienced with the sun's love is the same as the intelligent infinity I feel I am experiencing.
I feel the constant sensation, but it isn't always pleasurable. It's working through some pain right now.
But it helps me process.

I did have one experience years ago before 2012 where I went through a tunnel/portal/wormhole as soon as I fell asleep
and ended up in this Universe. So I came I believe from another Universe. Though I can't tell the difference.

[Kaaron]

I'm not sure if what you experienced with the sun's love is the same as the intelligent infinity I feel I am experiencing.
I feel the constant sensation, but it isn't always pleasurable. It's working through some pain right now.
But it helps me process.

I did have one experience years ago before 2012 where I went through a tunnel/portal/wormhole as soon as I fell asleep
and ended up in this Universe. So I came I believe from another Universe. Though I can't tell the difference.

It felt like the logos to me.
I felt like I was connected to my higherself or aspect of Ra as light manifesting.
It was like I was in a state of flux.