Making Sense of Obstacles (Catalyst)

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Goodmorning monica, steve and all of you

This is interesting. I know i have astrological transits in my personal horoscope reflecting confusion among other things, f.i. i should be dcareful in nay businessdelaings and try to keep all communication as clear as possible since the tendency for misunderstandings ais strong in my personal cycle. On top of that mercury is retrograde reflecting the tendency for misundrstandings and delays incommunication on a collective level.

From the perspective of the Law of One how would you guys percieve the problems i have with the instructions for making this donation? Do i have a subconscious resistance to making it? Or am i using this as a means of contact since i feel cut off from many of my recent friends who do not even call to see how i am doing after my surgery.

I have stated my point and put boundaries for myself that i think are healthy and it seems they can not take any criticism. Now it seems like i am the one who must reconnect otherwise the relationship will fade away. I am always the first to forgive and continue as nothing happened but perhaps this is a new stage in my development, the challenge of not falling back into co-dependency.

Any thoughts anyone?

I am reading Carlas Living the Law of One and i'm worried about my own health, emotional, mental and physical

Wow, minus the surgery part I have almost the same situation going. Why do I have to save the relationships all of the time? It actually, coupled with my other catalysts, made me think about suicide. Here is the messed up part:
I go to my higher self for a lot of advice. So I asked him/her if I should do it, and the answer i recieved was "Not yet". Not a "not yet" as in "you will live to a ripe old age Jacob" it was a "you can do it, but you have some stuff to do first". This really doesnt surprise me much. Well I cant actually do it because it goes against far to many morals of mine, so does anyone feel like playing "whack-a-mole" with a 5d wanderer? I meen, I have always been sure that I wasnt going to live to be an old age, I am a smoker, and there has always been this underlying feeling that I have a few small jobs to do and then I am finished. You know, just not built to last. And thats kool, but maybe he/she could have just not answered. I really don't want to splurge and live like I am diying, maybe nothing will happen for years. I know the whole stigma against fear and I am right there, but this kinda scares me. On a scale from 1-10, ten being panic, one being ,well, not panic, I am about a 4, though usually a big fat 0. For the record: Yes, I am sure it was my higher self, and No, I did not distort the answer.

Way to make me feel better Mr. Higherself..........

By the way thank you all for always providing a thread for me to let my problems out. I could never put it to words in my own thread, nor do I have a single person other than the ones here to talk to about it.

L/L

airwawes

My computer works extremely slow as i include the post i'm answering so i always answer with a New Reply...

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Dear airwawes

I don't think there's any chance whatsoever that your higher self would think it's OK to comit suicide. On the other hand i would never condemn anyone who does. Those who do have never felt the despair or depressive black hole of a suicidal person. I've been there myself but i didn't have the courage...or my wish to live was greater....

I would be interested in how you can be sure it was your Higher Self answering you? And also i think that when you are in that negative state of mind you will misinterpret any message and take it negatively..

I'm an astrologer and even though i would never ever use it in a deterministic negative way towards any other person i can sometimes be totally convinced that my own destiny is to suffer endlessly and never reach a point of harmony where i can use my talents and have harmonious relationships, but fear i will always be pushed aside, used and cast out. I have not always been an myself eitherand have chosen a very plutonic way of experience in this incarnation so this is part of the "black and white-thinking" i have but my libra moon also tells me it's not either or but both.

Welcome to paradox and hang in there airwawes

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