karmically involved wanderer

[Meerie]

I am sure you had your reasons for breaking off the wedding, maybe it simply was not supposed to be?
I don't think all is lost for you, you might feel down and worry about missed opportunities right now, but for every door that closes there is another one that opens.
And I agree with Kycahi about the possibility of reconnecting with these people.
Forgive yourself for what happened in the past, and if they are true friends they will forgive you also when you reach out to them.
Much love and light to you!